Salt - how did you go? Did you test this morning? I sooooo hope it's a BFP for you! I am so sorry to hear about the troubles you and your DH have had - m/c really does put a strain on a relationship. I'm glad things are ok now, and that you took DH along to a counselling session. I am still having counselling, and she said I could bring DH if I wanted to, so maybe I will sometime. It would be weird, but maybe good for us. I know that he just reacts to things differently from me, and that is why he is the way he is. I need a different kind of support to him. I talked to him about it the other night and he said that when he was going through a difficult time (he has a brain tumour and had to have some pretty serious surgery a few years ago), he wanted people to act like nothing had happened, and that was how he liked to deal with it, like it's no big deal. So because that's how he likes to be treated, that's how he treats me when I am going through a difficult time. The trouble is, I am totally different from him and want a hug and sympathy when times are tough, I don't want him to just ignore it! So at least I know where he is coming from. He stayed home and cooked me dinner last night rather than going to training, so I think that is his way of acknowledging that he maybe hasn't been terribly supportive lately.

Las - I hope the nasty side effects go away soon. When is your next scan?

Satya - sometimes I wish our DHs would realise how easy they have it! My DH has never even had to give a sample - all he has ever had to do is BD and he winges! I have been through hell and back with m/cs, scans, appointments, poking and prodding, and I think I have just notched up 30 BTs so far this year!

Shoegal - I am glad you handled netball and work ok. It really is the hardest time getting back out there again. I am glad you felt better after telling some friends. I hardly told anyone, and only told one of my closest friends a couple of weeks ago and was surprised how much better it made me feel. I don't think I will see Dr Hart again, unless I m/c again or have trouble falling. I don't think there is much he can do, as he hasn't found anything wrong with me and we haven't had trouble conceiving yet. Fingers crossed it will stay that way! I have had heaps of trouble with veins too - it is so cold in the mornings and my veins are bad at the best of times! Why do you have to have your cycle tracked again? I have only had 2 cycles of tracking (but my cycles are loooong), but a lot of tests the month before that, and before that I had 2 m/cs in 3 months, so the process is starting to drag a bit for me.

I sometimes worry about people stalking me here and identifying me from some of the things I have said too, but I figure they are unlikely to firstly find the site and then secondly pore through all my posts to figure out who I am! There is actually a girl on BB who had a bub in March that I know (an old housemate), I could tell it was her just from her intro post! But I would never stalk her or pass on any info that I may read here to anyone else. I guess we just have to hope that others are that sensitive too.

I am 4DPO today, so not much happening. I was a bit teary last might for some reason, I think it's a mix of grief over what we have lost and fear for the future. DH said last night that I have lost my spark after all this. I hate to think that I have changed, but how can you not change when something like this happens to you?