Trying to conceive after Miscarriage or Loss May 2009

[milly5]

Hi Ladies,
I have missed you all with the boards being down.

I am having a bad day - a bad couple of days really. I think part of it is that I am pre-menstral, and this will be my first AF post m/c, and I just don't want to look at the blood, YUK, and I should be pg now.
And I just don't want to be having to go through all the TTC watching waiting trying waiting again. I'm so hoping that I will be one of those annoying people who (although we're very happy for, we're secretly jealous of) that fall pg right away, but even so, I'm going to be so paranoid if I do. God, I haven't even got AF yet, and I'm stressing about next month.

I am trying to study and complete an assignment, but am just so unmotivated at present, and have just had a phone call about some "crappy issues" at work.

I just want to ***** and moan and be angry with the world and cry and BE PREGNANT AGAIN.

Thanks for letting me moan ladies.

Oh, and welcome KM1.

[milly5]

Sorry, with all the negativity I forgot to say hello to everyone.

Hello everyone!!

Goodluck with your egg Sunbeam!

Smallfry - what are you studying at uni? and how are you staying focussed.

[LittleOnes]

Milly, i'm studying bachelor of social science major in youth work. Currently attempting to complete an essay on young homeless people. I'm studying externally since none of the unis around me offer my course. As for staying focussed... well, I've purchased mobile broadband and now spend most of my days with my laptop down at the local uni library shutting myself away from as many distractions as possible. It's working... barely... though I've been convinced that the last few days of frequent downtime of this forum has been sent by God to ensure I study more than I forum!! hahahaha

What are you studying? and where are you? I'm in Melbourne, oakleigh south to be precise.

Hear, here, Sunbeam - GO CATCH THAT EGG!!! We need more s in here! (but, please, can one be mine?!!!!?) Really I'd just like to see everyone getting one because I'd feel awfully selfish getting one... how weird is that?

[Cherished]

Hello again... just quickly as I'm back at work....

YAY I just picked up my test results... HCG is 840 at 4 weeks and 3 days which is perfect

[Sunbeam]

Whooo positive OPK. It's spermfest time again (sorry if that's too graphic it's just what we call it)

[Sunbeam]

Hi Girls

Sorry the page had not refreshed so I did not refresh I had missed some posts.

Smallfryplus- not ovulating is common for some people, like me. I only ovulate about 5 out of 7 months which has made things trickier and very frustrating. Day 19 is not heaps late though, although it may be late for you sometimes it may just shift a bit. Last time I did not ovulate till day 25 and conceived.

Sorry got to rush back to work.

[LittleOnes]

Last time I did not ovulate till day 25 and conceived.

Is your cycle 28 days? Someone was asking the other day about late ovulating and I remember reassuring that it was quite ok (or at least I thought about it, and think I posted about it...) It amuses me enormously that I'm now being paranoid about it!

cherished - that's excellent news

[milly5]

Is your cycle 28 days? Someone was asking the other day about late ovulating and I remember reassuring that it was quite ok (or at least I thought about it, and think I posted about it...) It amuses me enormously that I'm now being paranoid about it!

My understanding is that delay from CD 1 to ov is normal and OK, but that the time from OV to AF is usually the same, and this is where I get paranoid - needs to be around 10 days for a sustainable pg (SOME ONE CORRECT ME IF I'M WRONG PLEASE). And I haven't been able to get an accurate date of Ov previously - it has always been a 2-3 day window - which makes a big difference in terms of more or less than 10 days luteal phase.

GO Sunbeam & the spermfest!!

Great news Cherished!

Smallfry - I am also studying externally (yep, too much time on the internet), and am studying public health.

AFM - still having a sucky day. Here's to tomorrow.

[Anila]

hey ladies

im going to have a purly selfish post, cause i wanna cry and its my own fault, and i need to let it out and hubby is not here emotionally as he is stressing bout work stuff.
So if u all dont mind, im gonna let it out here. read it or skip it, i dont mind.

So i am slowly packing up the house because we are moving in december, last year i lent some baby girls clothes to my sisters friend, we were pregnant at the same time and i was having a boy, i originally said she could keep what she wanted and give away the rest, any way she said she would give it all back, so yesterday we see her and i get the clothes back, so today i thought id go through them and pack the ones i still want, incase we have a girl, and i start remininsing about when grace was a baby as she was my first girl some of these clothes were hers, so i go the garage to get some boxs, and i see this special box, well i was not in the right frame of mind to look in it, i know what is in there, but still i just had too, now to anyone else, they would just say omg get over it, but to me i cant i cannot let go, in this box is my very first pregnancy test and ultrasounds from my first ever angel baby, so i look at them, i read the ultrasound results, i start tearing up, then i think about now and how i should be washing these baby clothes for dec, not packing them up for after dec.

Its silly i know, but i just cant let go of these things, i cant throw out the test or the results or even my diary, and these are from 1998.
I am 32 this sat, i am a grown women, yet i cant say goodbye, i dont want to say goodbye, i want these babies back, its not fair.

I knew i should not have looked in that box, but since this recent angel baby, all i could think about was that darn box!
and now im so mad at myself, and all i wanna do is cry.


If u got this far thanks, if u skiped it i dont blame u!

and now today and yesterday i have had werid cramps and stabbing pains, i am 6-7 dpo, i really hope a sticky baby is on its way, and here come more tears....

[Mel1979]

Hi everyone,

Just a quick post. I have decided to leave BB (for personal reasons) so I wanted to say goodbye and goodluck to all of you. We are still continuing on our TTC journey, just not with BB.

It's been lovely getting to know you all (even if it hasn't been under the best circumstances). I wish you all the best of luck in your TTC and hope you all get BFP's soon!

[Anila]

Mel, good luck with ttc, i wish u all the best.

[poppy84]

Hi everyone, I should have actually introduced myself in here rather than start my own thread in the main forum, whoops

To make the long story short I had two m/c late last year, one in October and then a second in December, which was the very next cycle. The first was at 7.5 weeks and the second at 4.5 weeks. We put a hold on our TTC since then as I developed depression, had a never ending UTI and was diagnosed with Coeliac Disease, which could have been affecting my fertility.

We have waited and have decided this cycle is it, however I am just getting over the end of the flu, not the swine flu! Hopefully it clears up within the next few days

I ordered some Pre-Seed to help us, has anyone used this before? Unfortunately if we have too much action I will get a UTI or thrush, no mater how careful we are so I thought the pre-seed might help give the sperm a longer shelf life IYKWIM!

So anyway, hello!

[Razzberry]

Mel - I will miss you heaps. I really hope and pray you get your precious baby that you so deserve! xox

[LittleOnes]

Mel, all the best, sad to see you go but, of course, you know what is best for you. Good luck with TTC and I hope it doesn't take you long

Anila - hun, I'm glad you posted cos it gives all of us an opportunity to tell you that it's ok to feel that way. You lost a baby, one you got to see moving and hear it's heartbeat, you will always hold onto that and shouldn't let it go. I remember nearly bursting into tears of joy when I saw my first baby on the ultrasound and I can only imagine the agony if I had lost her. I don't believe grieving ever completely ends and losing a child has to be the worst grief, even if you never met them. So feel it and embrace it for a little while and the pain will ease again. Take care

Poppy so sorry for your losses last year, I hope that this year brings you some happiness and comfort.
Can't say that I know about pre-seed. Good luck and hope you get better soon

milly - I'm screwed if you have to have at least 10 days after O then cos I think I usually O around day 19 and I'm ALWAYS 28 day cycle. Time for me to go do some more research I believe.

AFM - well, I have divined that I have missed out this month. Yes, only CD19 and I already know. It's quite miraculous that I can work that out actually since we've been going at it like bunny's!! No, not really... I just went to the beautician for waxing and it hurt like #$%^%*^ so I know that I'll get AF next weekend. Last time I waxed was 3 days prior to when AF was due and I knew I was pg because it didn't hurt at all!! When I told DH that we'd missed this month he asked if I was going to get OPK for next month. Such a sweetie, I only mentioned it in passing to him the other day that if we missed out this month I would try OPK next month cos of how much trouble I've had with when I o this month. Surprised he remembered. But pleased.

[Mildez]

Hi

I have being avoiding posting in here as I am not sure if I am ttc anymore or for now I should say. I definately am not giving up on ttc just not sure where I am up to. Short story I recently had a m/c at 5weeks. Its no2 since starting the ttc journey for no3 in August 08. Well I thought it a coincidence that Anila mentioned the pregnancy tests from 1998 as I wanted to ask what some of you did with your +HPT from your angel baby if you dont mind me asking. I have like 20 ++HPT plus my ++OPT from my recent m/c but cant bring myself to discard them but do I keep all of them? If I loook at them I burst out crying and part of me wants to post pictures of them all to say it was real and it did happen but another part of me feels they are not helping. Not sure where to put them and what to do with them. The first response is too big to put in a album or something and I have like 10 first responses. Any ideas?

poppy84 I used pre-seed when I feel pregnant this last cycle I had and will use it again. I think if you get recurrent UTI's maybe its best to BD in the morning and lie down for the 30mins afterwards then go wash. Not inside just around the wee wee bit IYKWIM. I found if I was too generous with lying down after DTD to help them stay in I would feel like I had thrush within a few hours. I never had to have any treatment but felt incredibly sore which is not ideal if I were planning on BD again any time soon. Just a suggestion.

[KM1]

Thanks so much for the friendly welcome guys, i know I did the right thing by posting

I went to the docs yesterday and have a referral for an ultrasound if AF doesnt stop soon, to check there's nothing left. The thought of having a D & C now really bugs me- has been over a month since my m/c and I am trying to move forward, i think having to go through that procedure would make me feel back at square one again- and would take me there emotionally too.

Anila I bawled my eyes out reading your post, you poor thing, please don't be down on yourself for what you did...its perfectly normal... I think similar things, like this week I should have been 13 weeks and I would have been able to tell people and its just so unfair. My sister is also pregnant and I find that really tough- she is 20 weeks next week and doesnt know I was pregnant or about the m/c. I'm not going to tell her, would make it hard for her and I really don't want pity either (no matter how well intended).

Anyway, this went a lot longer than I thought! I should have just said snap to Milly5!

And I just don't want to be having to go through all the TTC watching waiting trying waiting again. I'm so hoping that I will be one of those annoying people who (although we're very happy for, we're secretly jealous of) that fall pg right away, but even so, I'm going to be so paranoid if I do.

Hope we all get BFPs and stickyness real soon....

[ferrals5]

I'm back!!!
And wasn't it hell on earth moving it rained i had AF and the kids drove me batty but we did it and i didn't kill anyone,i missed my chat's with you all and first thing this morning i got on the phone to telstra to get my broadband up and running.
I had a quick catch up on post's welcome to the new ladies i'm sorry for the reason you are here but us girl's are great support and i hope you get your BFP soon well i'm exhausted and sore from busting a pooper valve moving so i'm off to bed i'm working from 6am until 5pm tomorrow so i will do some percies tomorrow night i can't wait to sit down relax and catch up with you all.

P.S 12 day's until we go to RNS for abbi's genetic result's (getting nervous)

[coco1411]

OMG!!! FINALLY!!!!

I havent been able to reply to ANYONE on here in like 2 days! Ive been going insane!!

I have a Q re OPK....(doesnt everyone??)

I got my first positive 24hours ago (just after 12..after i got home from dragging my ass around at work) and then today i had a stronger positive as I did tonight as well...

Wondering whether this with the temp rise I had today and will have tmo im assuming, I would ovulate tmo? This is my second or third month of vaginal temping and im finding it much more direct...

I didnt know whether to BD with DH again tonight (I jumped him last night) but I am going to be waiting until the morning now...its a bit late and I really have no libido at the moment :|

Do you think we should BD again tmo night as well as tmo morning?

Hope youre all well, sorry for no personals xx

Eliza.