Hi everyone.... I normally post in the LTTC section, but I thought I would pop in here because so many of your stories/experiences are things I can relate to, especially right now, having lost our angel just over a week ago at 8.5 weeks...it's a week today since my D&C and we can resume IVF in Jan... might try naturally before then, even though, with only one tube, and one which is in bad shape, our chances are slim!
I am still crying lots and upset and angry and resentful and empty...
ruthie- when I read how you saw that lovely heartbeat and then nothing at that awful scan I knew just how you felt...our baby had a lovely 146bpm heartbeat...and the next week, nothing.... it is heartbreaking to see it...
sending you all big hugs...especially those of you who are currently nursing raw grief like me
Have been so busy so have only had time to lurk, not to post.
Jen - well done on the fundraising total. You must so proud of yourself, you've worked so hard to raise that money for your school Well done.
Ruthie - thinking of you
MO3B - for you too.
Melissa and Possums - to our little thread. I'm so sorry that you both had to join us, but what a place to be. This is the most supportive group of women you'll ever find. Feel free to cry, yell, scream, vent or laugh. We've all been there and done it. There's always a shoulder to lean on when you need it. Hopefully you will be able to move on to the pregnancy after m&l thread soon, where the girls are minding seats for all of us.
Smi - *wavin*. How are you? Well done on moving off to State. All the best with that comp. (when is it?)
PLC - *wavin* and for you.
Delly - thinking of you and hoping that FET sticks for you.
Toccara - Hello, welcome back. the 7th isn't far away (what a lovely pressie that would make)
To everyone I missed (I'm not as good as Jen and keep a list)
Hi ladies.....thanks to all of you who have given me well wishes for this sticky bub, I know we'll make it through with all your prayers and support, if you don't mind I'll be popping in every so often just to see how everyone is doing and really enjoy reading all your stories and especially your advice.
Ruthie - don't you worry girl, I know you'll have a baby miracle soon I can feel it! I checked out your ultrasound and belly photo and just really thought to myself 'how bloody unfair!' but we can't dwell on what was but what will be right! so my heart goes out to you and to all the ladies here that 2009 will be a lucky year for all us! 2nd of April was my angel baby's due date too so I'll be thinking of you when that date comes around next year!
Toccara - welcome back you have been sorely missed, goodluck on your Birthday and ttcing...
Dellydoo - goodluck with the FET
Smi - thankyou I hope we call get BFP's very soon!!!
Jen - congrats on the fundraising, you did fantastic! hoping for you this month, you were so close last month, I was certain you were UTD!
Welcome Melissa, I'm so sorry for your loss, and I don't think you ever get over the loss of your baby, so don't think you should be over it by now, they'll always remain in your heart but you do go on and you will have successful pregnancies so chin up beautiful girl, your turn will come and it will be grand!!! so lots of to you
AFM - well the OBGYN offices called me this morning to reschedule as doc had emergency last night and couldn't see his patients today, so now am going in on Thurs, was soo disappointed I had everything ready for him, my ultrasounds, and charts, and my list of questions, I also wanted to get blood tests done so I know what my HCG levels are. So far this pregnancy feels different to the last, I've been so very tired and nauseous, I had to dry wretch this morning at work, something that never happened with the last one and I've had absolutley no spotting, just tiny bit, nothing like last time, during the day the nausea comes and goes and I've had bad heartburn, also didn't have that last pregnancy. My DH has been so good, cleaning up and telling me to keep my feet up and relax, I know he hates housework but he khows for the babies sake he needs to help me out...he's also sworn me to secrecy, that I can't tell anyone until 12 weeks, so of course my sister knows because she's been going through all this with me and I speak to her everyday about my cycle, but it was sooo hard to lie to my mother today, but I know her she's your typical italian, can't help but tell her best friend who'll then tell her son and daughter in law who are good friends of mine and who in turn will probably tell our other mutual friend so in the end everyone will know, so better to be safe then sorry, and it will be a great xmas present when we go down to Sydney to visit them all! I can't wait! Only 7 weeks to go!
Anyway must go finish making dinner and go pick up hubby from the physio...
to anyone that I've missed, lots of to you all...ciao ciao
Toccara: Miss you sweets!! hugs GGRR moving.. just was there and still am unpacking a few things.. GGRRR but in the end all worth it.. LOL Hope you are doing good
Plc:
Melissal: My heart goes out to you... it was (still is ) so hard to remember. I hope you heal dear friend.. I'm in the process too.
About my hubbys grandma.. girl when I first met her I saw a portrait in her house and I was AAAWWWEEEEDDD at holy MOSES!! That one one HUGE FAMILY PORTAIT!!!
then when I was preggo of my son she rubbed my belly a lot and told me she actually had 2 babies die if SIDS. but wow she actually popped 18... no m/c.
heeheh it was so funny though..cuz if you meet her she is mall framed and frail (like 80 yrs old now) and you would never think she had so many kids!! HEHEEH
Momma.. I'm here for you..as are all these amazing friends I met here which I myself can say I feel blessed to have met them all here!!!
My best wishes going your way!! Don;t give up!!!! We will all have a beautiful baby soon!
Jen: Good job on the fundraiser!!!!!! sending you a huge hug and smoochies!!
Possums: Welcome hun.... I know just the feeling.. a horrible one. I hope you too heal darling.. I'm in the process too..
That day was horrible and it is so painful I just block my thoughts when they lurk on remembering that day...
but one day..... one day. we will BOTH rejoice with a beautiful miracle..healthy and wiggling in our arms. you betcha!! You sure have a friend here!
Mollycat: hugs. & smoochies thank you love.
Mannie: I dread that day.... but I know it will be survivable. Thank you ever so much for your comforting words. We both will get through this.. pinky promise! You will have a healthy wiggling munchkin this time around!! Wishing you a H&H pregnancy and the very very BEST!!!!!!!
Melissa & Possum-- to you both.... I'm so very sorry for the losses that bring you to our humble little thread. Unfortunately we all know too well the sorrow and despair you're feeling at the moment, so who better to help you work thru it than those who've been there before! Please feel free to ask any questions you may have--there really is no such thing as TMI around here! There's always a supportive shoulder to lean on, almost at all times of the day--so please remember that we're here for you girls whenever you need us! I pray you both find the comfort and support that you need, and just know that the rest of us are here to cheer you both on in your TTC journey! Much luck to you both!
WTH--AT the top of the Jonas page you can click on lunar calendar and it will also show you when the supposed best time to conceive is according to when the moon is in the exact spot it was at your birth. I've never been able to determine why the dates differ from the lunar calendar to the lunar conception--for instance, mine gives me two different dates for Nov.--lunar calendar shows Nov. 17th for me, but then under lunar conception it tells me that Nov. 11 is the day! And neither day is the day I'm even supposed to O on! Sorry, I'm sure I only confused us both more, instead of clearing any issue up you may have had! lol... Good luck with the Orangutan cycle!
Hello's and for dellydoo, Hannah, Ruthie, & MO3B!
Toccara--Hey, girl! Glad to finally hear from you, I was getting worried! Congrats on moving, enjoy your new home! Is DH still at training during the week? Happy you're back, and looking forward to catching up! Will pray for your b-day BFP!!
mollycat--Thanks, I am proud of myself! I worked my booty off--thanks for noticing! *hugs* How's the second half of your TWW going?
Mannie--Sorry your appt. had to be rescheduled... at least you only have to wait just a couple days. Wishing you the best on Thurs! Here's some to get you thru those couple days! *hugs*
Angel--I'm missing you and your posts!! Love ya lots!
plc--LOVED the funny invitation to Australia! Thanks for the laughs!
Sorry have only had time to lurk lately and not post. Been a bit down lately as well so haven't wanted to post anything negative. I am determined to be positive all month, well at least try. Failing miserably at the moment.
Angel - Where are you? Hope you are feeling better. We all miss you!
Melissal - Welcome, hope your stay here is short but in the meantime the ladies here offer the most wonderful support. I have only been on this thread for a few weeks but I am so glad I found it. You have been through such a tough time I that things get easier for you from here on in.
So many timesI have wished I could turn back time and start our TTC journey again just so me and DH could experience the excitement of pregnancy without all the fear and stress.
As for your SIL, just see how you feel but don't feel pressured or do anything you know you can't handle. She probably thinks she is helping by getting you involved.
Mannie - So happy to hear it is going well. It definitely sounds positive that all your symptoms are different to the last pregnancy. Sending your way! Make sure you come back to say hi and tell us how you and your little bub are going.
Jen - Wow, congrats on the great fundraising total. You must be so busy. Make sure you make time for You always know the right things to say, what would we do without you!
Dellydoo - The TWW is getting shorter for us. Good luck, I am thinking of you. I am due to test next Friday if AF doesn't beat me too it! I am praying for both of us.
Ruthie - Congrats on the insurance, I hope it helps to make your TTC journey easier and less stressful. Your signs sound very promising, I know you are nervous but if it is meant to be I'm sure it will all work out for the best.
FifiClaire - So happy to hear the bleeding stopped. Congrats on the beginning of your baby bump!
Possums - Welcome, I am new here too but you really will find it helps to talk to these wonderful ladies.
Rachelswirl - Good luck with everything!
Hi to Mollycat, WTH and smi and anyone else I missed.
I just had a look at the Jonas method as suggested by Jen, very interesting. Anything is worth a try I guess!
AFM - As I said been a bit down this week, Sunday is one year since our m/c and I just feel sad. I keep thinking of how happy DH & I were this time last year as I was pregnant and we were so excited about the future. Not sure how I will cope on Sunday but I have a wonderful DH and all you lovely ladies to lean on!
rachel - I hope the bleeding stops soon. Take care of yourself and bub.
ruthie - Hoping you get some good news - whatever you're hoping for.
mannie - I hope all goes well with the doc tomorrow.
mel - I'm sorry to hear you've been down. Don't feel that you have to stay away, we're here to help each other through those down times. Staying positive is all well and good, but sometimes you just have to let the negative out. Hoping you get a BFP.
wth - I was fine holding the newborn (wasn't sure I would be). But I looked at him and just new that everything would be okay and that one day (not too far away) I would be holding my own baby. It was seeing DH with him that I found hardest. I felt sad that I couldn't give him his own baby to hold. But, one day, it will happen, for ALL of us.
Goodluck for the coming cycle!
tocarra - Great to see you pop your head in. you get a wonderful birthday present.
jen - Well done on the fundraising total. Great to know all that hard work paid off.
fifi - Glad the bleeding has stopped. Take care of yourself.
smi - Here's to catching that egg.
hello and to adele, possums, angel (miss you around here, are you okay?), plc, melissa, mollycat, mo3b and anyone else I have missed.
AFM - I have been having a really good week this week. Could be to do with the fact that I'm going to Melbourne for a few days. Some friends and I are going to catch up with an old high school friend and we're also going to see Wicked. Then tonight I got an email from my cousin. She's about 23-24 weeks (her EDD is 4 days before mine) and they've picked up an anomaly in the baby's brain. Its uncertain what it means, there isn't much to be done except wait and see. Worst case, her baby could die. If he survives, he could have some sort of neural impairment, or he could be perfectly fine. Her and her husband already have one child with a serious genetic condition. I'm just that they get a healthy child this time round.
well done on the fundraising total. You must so proud of yourself, you've worked so hard to raise that money for your school Well done. 
to our little thread. I'm so sorry that you both had to join us, but what a place to be. This is the most supportive group of women you'll ever find. Feel free to cry, yell, scream, vent or laugh. We've all been there and done it. There's always a shoulder to lean on when you need it. Hopefully you will be able to move on to the pregnancy after m&l thread soon, where the girls are minding seats for all of us.
for you.
Thanks for the laughs!
that things get easier for you from here on in.
You always know the right things to say, what would we do without you!
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