Trying to Conceive After Miscarriage or Loss October '08 #2

Big apologies that I haven't been online for a couple of days.
Things have been pretty messed up down here. As most of you know AF finally showed up after being 18 days late. Well it's still going strong now 9 later. I have always had alot of problems with my hormones and get depressed but up until Sunday afternoon I was coping. Then last night I had massive breakdown and had to go to the hospital where they had to track down my poor Dr, turns out at the moment my hormonal changes are affecting my bipolar plus all the stress of the last 2 weeks. I have had to go back on my meds which are unsafe during pregnancy and make me gain massive amounts of weight. So we have to postponed our TTC. :crying: I don't know how long I have to stay on them either. Devastated doesn't even begin to describe how i am feeling. Yeah well that's enough about me.
Thinking of you all and wishing you all the best
Take care

Hi everyone

Sorry I've not been around very much - I think I'm starting to get lazy again. Haven't been sleeping the best so it kinda throws my whole day out. Not complaining though, don't care how uncomfy I get as long as Bub is ok.

Big Hugs to you all - am going to try and stay up for chat one night soon.

Am going to start my Christmas shopping soon, starting with everyone in here - have ordered BFP's all round. Am going to wrap them all up in pink and blue and tie them up with a bow covered in **sticky vibes**.

KL - just wanted to send you a big hug. Can totally understand those feelings. I got really emotional the day I set up the nursery for this bub. I found a little toy bear I bought when I was in Canada & pg the first time. Sadly that bub didn't get to see the bear and was almost going to keep it in my cupboard and not put it out for this bub but he's so cute. Everytime this Bub gives it a cuddle I will secretly know that Bub is giving his/her big bro/sis a hug for me.

Anyway - here's another big hug for you all, catch up again soon.

:grouphug:mo3b - just read your post. Take care

MO3B--Oh, honey... :comfort: To say "I'm sorry" seems so insignificant, but for lack of a better word... truly, I'm sorry for what you're going thru right now! :hug: I wish I had some brilliant advice to give, or some way to take away your pain. Please just know that we're here for you, no matter what, so feel free to vent when you need to. Take care, hon.... big, huge hugs for you! *kiss*



Angel--Thinking of you always & missing you! :hug: Hope you were able to get your rest and are almost back to "normal".... whatever that may be! :rofl: Love ya lots! *kiss*

Manny:
CONGRATULATIONS SWEET MOMMA!!!! This baby will STICK!!! Sending you my very most +++ wishes.. am praying for a healthy and happy pregnancy and baby sweet momma!! I'm doing the happy dance for ya!! :cheer:YYYYAAYAYAY!!!
:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

Issy: thank you for the welcome momma... I'm doing ok... Just super anxious about November... I'm getting health insurance finally and by mid-or end of Nov. then I'm seeing my specialist!! YAYAAYAYAY!!! So happy.. even though we have bumped into a tight situation when it comes to budget but hopefully things will get better pretty soon and I can go ahead TTcing my miracle. I'm confident that with this doc I will finally deliver a healthy LIVE full term bundle!! ♥
Hugs to you sweet momma.. how are you doing??


Krystielove: I know how you feel....even though I'm not preggo now first I dread my Due date (April 2nd) I dunno how hard it would be...and I did have a preggo buddy she is in myspace and she was also due the same day as me.. I am so very happy for her when I see her pics.. but I wish you saw the tears that uncontrollably roll down my cheeks when I see how beautiful her belly is and how I would have been EXACTLY like her :redface::crying:
But... I can't cry over everyone else's sweet moment... having a baby is something amazing and I wish everyone the very best.. and I know one day I will finally have this dream WE ALL ARE FIGHTING FOR Come true.. so those TTCing... this is for you!!
:bluedust::pink-babydust:::stickyvibesgirl:

Girls, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU all once again! You wonderful ladies are still always there when anyone needs it and the love and support you give is nothing short of a miracle. Thank you.

AJC - I bet the teddy bear will be your bubs favorite :)

Mo3B - I am so sorry darling, that must be awful. I hope the break brings you some peace darling.

Ruthie - sweetheart, you are so strong and you will get there.

AJC - Thanks for the early Chrissy gift. I would love one!

Well hugs to you all. I have started work again and my head is swimming. Cannot wait until this TWW is through. Even though I am supposed to POAS next Tuesday I am thinking of waiting until DP gets back on Friday. Either way if AF shows we will know but I don't want to do it on my own. So depressing!
Love to you all mummies to be

Dellyxx

Kyrstie sweetheart - it is only natural that you still grieve. All the best to you.
A

delly - great to see you again and even more great re FET :hug: super positive vibes coming ur way.

KL - no need to always feel upbeat and ignore the sadness pulling at you. Better to cry if you need to - makes way for the positivity to return. Love ur avi hun! rub for lil chyan!

ruthie - yep, def so good to see you here again. all well here - thanks for asking.

jen - a :hug: just because.

mo3b - it's hard to keep ur own brand of beautiful humour when ur faced with such obstacles, isn't it? i hope with all my heart that things just fall into place for you - special special :hug:

hello and big encouragament and positivity vibes for hannah, mel, babymiracles, megsmum and anyone else who needs them.

BB - hope ur getting back to your wonderful self - ur missed here.

MO3B: Just sending you some loving support my love. What you are enduring is incredibly difficult. You are amazingly courageous and you will get through this. I wish something I could say would help but I am sending you a massive hug... :comfort:

Dellydo: Thank you love... For the first time in my life I'm being patient.. that and right now.. I can't afford a baby.. I need to get back on my feet both economically and emotionally. I'm a bit concerned that AF has not arrived after my D&C it has been 46 days as of today since 9/12. Remembering that with this pregnancy I got my BFP in CD63. I don;t feel much to say WOW I'm preggo.. but BBS hurt..CM is more abundant than what I wish it were, a few headaches here and there...which I did have with this pregnancy... I tested 2 weeks ago and got mixed BFNs and faint super faint more like ghost lines.. I am going to have to give in to my urge of that thought lingering in the back of my head.. "what if":o... so am testing again maybe on Thursday to make sure that if a line pops up I have to go to ER ASAP to get a progesterone shot..otherwise... I'm doomed for heartache again. I really don;t want to be PG right now.. I was hoping for a Dec BFP or 2009 BFP... **sigh*** But if it's meant to be it is and imagine I won't say no to being PG again.. I highly doubt it though.. but of course I have to make sure so am POASing on Thurs Morning.. really.. I hope it's still a BFN. This is not the right tie m for me.:redface:
thank you so much love for thinking of me.:hug:

Plc: Thank you momma ♥ How are you doing sweets??? I'm glad I'm back I missed out on so much I HATE moving..seriously. Hope I never do again... just hope that next time we move in a few years maybe it is to our own house.. rent is such a waste of $$ ya know?:rolleyes:
a HHUUGGGEEEEEE MEGA hug for you!:hug:

Krystielove: Wishing you nothing but the best sweetheart! ♥:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

Flowerchild: I needed that hug today..:redface: THANK Y♥u!!!!!!

O Happy Monday Gurlies!

WE did it!!! The Marching Band is off to state!!! I am soooo :leap:

mannie...CONGRATS!!! Seniding you loads of stickyvibes!

Nickster...congrats on a beautiful baby boy!!!

dellydoo...:pray: for a successful FET

Mo3...Take care of you! :hug:

AJC...I LOVE Christmas your gifts are just what we all need!!! Thanks!

plc...jen...Angel...Krystie...:grouphug:

Hi there ladies, hope you don't mind me popping my head into this thread seeing I've been lurking for a bit now. My story quickly goes like this - we started our ttc journey in May '05 and finally got pg in Feb 07. Sadly this wasn't to be and we found out at 10w5d that it was a twin molar pg, meaning tonnes of bloodtests for months and months, heaps of hospital followup and "6 - 12 months" before it was safe to ttc again. I couldn't bear the thought of waiting that long because all I wanted in the world was to be pg again so we sneakily began ttc again in September 07. I eventually got my much awaited BFP in June, only to miscarry at 6w1d. At this point DH and I decided to take a break from babies as losing three babies, along with my Dad who died of a brain tumour in February, it was getting on top of us too much. We are going to start trying again the cycle after next which I am feeling really excited and positive about. I've been seeing a naturopath and drinking her evil herbal concoctions and to my surprise have noticed a significant (good!) change in my cycles after less than two months (usually really irregular but no longer - yay!!). Its really hard when DH family are pg just by looking at their partners and don't have any trouble throughout so they really don't get it. My SIL is actually due today and wants me to go to the birth - much as I love her to bits, the prospect of that is so so hard for me cos my baby should've been next and I am sure they all think that I should be over it by now - sigh. Anyway, I could whinge for hours but I won't. Looking forward to getting to know you all and sending out loads and loads of :bluedust::pink-babydust::stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:
Melissa

I just wanted to quickly say welcome to our humble nest Melissal...goodluck on your TTC journey...my it be very short and sticky for you!

Ruthie - darling whatever happens you will be able to deal with it, it might not be ideal but the fact that we are all in here means that we have some experience of what is not ideal and have coped before. You are super strong and we are all here for you.

Melissa - Welcome honey - I am so sorry you find yourself here and for the loss of your three babies and your Dad. God - what a lot of pain you have had. Honey - if you want to whinge for hours, feel freakin' free. It is your right darling. You don't need to go to your SIL's birth honey and I am sure she will understand.

plc - thank you for shaking my tree - was getting a little lonely up there!

Good morning to you lovely Smi xx

AFM - Had another shot of pregnyl this morning and am a little emotional but happy that I am back at work. I miss my darling Murray, he is still in Sydney. Well I am off to get ready to work. Love to you all and hugs till your ribs get sore.
Love
Adele

Thank you for all the replies it means alot :grouphug:

:goodluck::noaf::bluedust::pink-babydust::SAAF::stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl:
to you all

Thinking of you all and hopefully will be back later to do persies

Take care xxxx

mo3b - I'm so sorry you're having a difficult time. Look after yourself :hug: :hug:

ajc - Thanks for the early chrissy presents.

adele - Great to hear you're back at work. Even though TWW is tough, hopefully you're work gives you something else to think about at times.

ruthie - Thinking of you hun :hug:

smi - Congrats on making state!

melissal - Welcome, but wish you didn't need to join us (IYKWIM). I'm so sorry for all the loss you've had to endure so far. But I'm glad you have found us. The girls here are fantastic support. Feel free to vent here all you want 'cause we all get it. In regards to you SIL, you do whatever you need to do for you. Wishing you lots of luck on your TTC journey.

Big hello and hugs to everyone else :bluedust: :stickyvibesgirl:

AFM - Still plodding along. DH won't push but I know he wants to get back to TTCing next cycle. I'm okay with that - AF arrives next week, giving me 2 more weeks before I have to worry about it. I've taken a step back, taken a deep breath and relieved some of the pressure I was putting on myself. It broke my heart to see DH holding our friend's newborn baby the other day.

Dellydo: Tears rolled down my cheeks as I read your reply....:redface: Thank you momma..
I don't feel like I'm strong.. when hubby left this morning Erick came to my bed and snuggled next to me.. as I saw him smiling in his sleep I realized how big he is... he will be 4 on Dec 16th..my preemie son..who ever thought he was so tiny a mere 4 pounds when he came to this earth??? in what seems like yesterday...then I started thinking about this baby... my babies.. how my family would have been complete, 4 children giggling and running around loose in my apartment. I started sobbing. I opened a drawer I have..where in it lies all the little onesies hubby so excited got for me along with some cute baby shoes and socks..that were for this baby.:redface:

I had the ultrasound there.. for those who never saw my baby here is the u/s pic..

http://i241.photobucket.com/albums/f...yofOurBaby.jpg

going back to that day I was 7 weeks..The baby was head down and OMG I saw her move.!! It was more like a little quick jump I guess... I thought I was 6 weeks and my god did I cry that day!! of joy..cried so much the doctor couldn't hold her tears..which had me cry-laughing. that amazing heartbeat of 143 BPM..turned to static that horrible day when I was 11w1d.:crying:

this pic was of my belly I that day.. I was a bit bored before hubby picked me up to take me to the u/s place and I decided to take a few pics to show off along with the u/s when I came back...

http://i241.photobucket.com/albums/f...11picasa-1.jpg

unfortunately.. you know the rest.

The day of my D&C ...when the doc was putting the meds to make me sleep in my IV I remember looking down @ my belly and saying "GoodBye baby.. I love you and miss you" then everything went black..when things started to come back.. I felt empty. So empty.. I touched my already sunken belly and just cried and cried and still cry today..and right now I'm crying.

I never thought in the world this was going to happen again I was so confident I had really kicked infertility butt!

But.... all in all.. I want to thank you.. and all my girls here.. for being there for me. You all know what I went through and talking about this.. I found this site where you put your angel baby's info and it has a lit candle for your baby always... mine is at the very bottom and you will see my name in it ( Ruthie..)

Angel baby mommies..if you want put your baby there.... it is very sweet..go to the candle room in the menu to the left and there you will find it


Melissal: Myheart goes out to you..please knwo you are among friends here and I being one of them ♥ As you see I too am in your same shoes.... and everyone's here...and this poem is for you and for all here:

A Pair of Shoes

I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some woman are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don?t hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.



Momof3boys: You have yourself a friend in me. ♥

Smi: LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU GIRL!!!! ♥ (hugs)

HannahD: Thank you dear friend!! ♥ you!

Flowerchild, Angelbabies, KrystieLove and Jen - It was nice to hear your encouragement, but never fear, I have not given up by a long shot :D I am a very stubborn woman. I figure as long as I have AF (the witch that it is) I have a sporting chance at giving DD a much longed for sibling.

Jen - I think I got the Jonas method mixed up with the Lunar cycles Krystie (?) was talking about a couple of months back. But I did type my details into the calendar. Surprisingly, I o'ed about prior to the best time for conception this cycle. And the risk factor was a beautiful zero. But I have light cramping this AM and feel AF may be on its way. Bugger!

HannahD - I am so proud of you holding the newborn after your recent MC. I still go out of my way to avoid putting myself in that situation. On the one hand I feel selfish, but on the other hand I just don't want to do things that make me potentially miserable. It is wonderful you are moving forward with such positivity!

Mannie - Hip Hip Hooray for your BFP :cheer: Stick li'l bubba!

Issy - nice to see you. Love your ticker :D

MegsMum - Happy sniffin', m'dear. I'll be just a few steps behind and right beside you along the way.

Babymiracles - good luck with your new IVF cycle.

Mel and Dellydoo - Sending you both lots of babydust during the 2WW

KrystieLove - I understand how new births are reminders despite time passing or even being PG. It keeps happening at my DD's playgroup. Seems everyone (who is in a releationship) has now had No.2. Some are even contemplating No.3. So happy you are now 11 weeks - nearly at that 1st Trimester milestone. Not far to go now, hon

Mummy of 3 boys - I am so sorry to read things have been so difficult. :hug:

AJC - that was a beautiful story about the bear. Your new bubba will love that bear and you can hold them both. Sending you some cheery :bellyrubs: - you must be absolutely blossoming now.

Ruthie - Hi there. Good luck with the new specialist.

Smi - Great news about your Marching Band :)

Melissa - :welcome: I am sure I can speak on behalf of the wonderful ladies here and say: "sorry you have to be here, but we are here for you and we hope your stay is a very short one". I hope the birth goes well for your SIL but understand how difficult the idea of supporting her through it must be for you. Personally, I think it is a little inappropriate, even selfish, to ask you to be there. It has only been a few months. Glad the herbal concoctions are making you feel well and wish you the best in your TTC journey.

AFM - mild AF cramps this morning. Perfectly fine about it as we will be allowed to start our Orgulaltron (Orangutan, for you Krystie ;)) cycle immediately. Bring it on!

WTH: Thank you!!! :hug: I know it will happen one day..... we both are trying for #2???... Well if so I'm right there with ya..most of my friends are expecting #2 or 3 or 4.. I know it's not a race..and now maybe 2 will be enough for me..(maybe) ... hehe I just LOVE pregnancy.. I wish I was like hubbys grandma..she popped 16 actually no she popped 18 :o and 2 died!!!!!!!!:o :ROFL::bump: talk about FOREVER PREGNANT???:o

BBWWAHAHAAAHAHHAHA!!! Gosh needed to laugh..I was crying on my last post...:redface:

(catching breath...) Girl we will BOTH get though this..pinky promise!!!! All of us will....

:D

Hey girls I have been moving into my new place with DH so that's why I have been gone and have not posted ... jen WTH ruthie Krystie Rachel Issy Smi and everyone else big :hug: I still have not started ttc yet I'm waiting until my bday on the 7th I hope this next one is my forever baby !!!

melissa - i'm glad to see you come out of lurksville hun. you've come to a wonderful network of support here my friend. pls let me know if i can help any further with anything. big big hugs....

toccara - uve been gone but certainly not forgotten - best of everything to you sweet.

hey and hugs to everyone.

Smilinatu, Dellydoo, Hannah, Wherethereshope - thank you so much for the warm welcome :). I feel like so many of my friends must be thinking, here she goes again when I start my tirade yet again so it will be so nice talking to people who genuinely understand
Ruthie - 0h hun, that poem brought tears to my eyes. Huge :hug:, can't wait for the day where we all see our sticky little bub with a perfect little heartbeat up on that screen. Holy cow, 18 babies - WOW!!!! Yeah, I've only been pg for a sum total of about 17 weeks but, aside from the worry, I loved it and can't wait to be so again.
WTH - yeah, I have had that thought about SIL. I know the mature thing to do would be come straight out with how I feel, but then there is another little part of me that thinks why can she not stop and think just for a sec how hard this is for DH and I :rolleyes:
Tocarra - what an awesome b'day pressie that would be - the start fo a nice sticky cycle :)

So sorry girls.... have had such a busy day! Got my totals for my fundraising endeavors to date-- I can't believe it.... $4,510.97 in about 3 weeks!! :leap: Going to start another one that we just got today for family portraits.... the main reason I want to do it is because the coordinator gets $100 portrait credit!! I'm WAY stoked! :hooray:


Anyhow, very sorry that I failed miserably at persies today... will do better tomorrow!

Super BIG :grouphug: for the Fab 3/4!!! *kiss*

Hi everyone.... I normally post in the LTTC section, but I thought I would pop in here because so many of your stories/experiences are things I can relate to, especially right now, having lost our angel just over a week ago at 8.5 weeks...it's a week today since my D&C and we can resume IVF in Jan... might try naturally before then, even though, with only one tube, and one which is in bad shape, our chances are slim!

I am still crying lots and upset and angry and resentful and empty...

ruthie- when I read how you saw that lovely heartbeat and then nothing at that awful scan I knew just how you felt...our baby had a lovely 146bpm heartbeat...and the next week, nothing.... it is heartbreaking to see it...

sending you all big hugs...especially those of you who are currently nursing raw grief like me

Hi everyone

Have been so busy so have only had time to lurk, not to post.

Jen - :thumbsup: well done on the fundraising total. You must so proud of yourself, you've worked so hard to raise that money for your school Well done. :clap:

Ruthie - thinking of you :hug:

MO3B - :hug: for you too.

Melissa and Possums - :welcome: to our little thread. I'm so sorry that you both had to join us, but what a place to be. This is the most supportive group of women you'll ever find. Feel free to cry, yell, scream, vent or laugh. We've all been there and done it. There's always a shoulder to lean on when you need it. Hopefully you will be able to move on to the pregnancy after m&l thread soon, where the girls are minding seats for all of us.

Smi - *wavin*. How are you? Well done on moving off to State. All the best with that comp. (when is it?)

PLC - *wavin* and :bellyrubs: for you.

Delly - thinking of you and hoping that FET sticks for you.

Toccara - Hello, welcome back. the 7th isn't far away (what a lovely pressie that would make)

To everyone I missed (I'm not as good as Jen and keep a list) :pink-babydust::stickyvibesgirl:

Hi ladies.....thanks to all of you who have given me well wishes for this sticky bub, I know we'll make it through with all your prayers and support, if you don't mind I'll be popping in every so often just to see how everyone is doing and really enjoy reading all your stories and especially your advice.

Ruthie - don't you worry girl, I know you'll have a baby miracle soon I can feel it! I checked out your ultrasound and belly photo and just really thought to myself 'how bloody unfair!' but we can't dwell on what was but what will be right! so my heart goes out to you and to all the ladies here that 2009 will be a lucky year for all us! 2nd of April was my angel baby's due date too so I'll be thinking of you when that date comes around next year!

Toccara - welcome back you have been sorely missed, goodluck on your Birthday and ttcing...:bluedust:

Dellydoo - goodluck with the FET

Smi - thankyou I hope we call get BFP's very soon!!!

Jen - congrats on the fundraising, you did fantastic! hoping for you this month, you were so close last month, I was certain you were UTD!:stickyvibesgirl:

Welcome Melissa, I'm so sorry for your loss, and I don't think you ever get over the loss of your baby, so don't think you should be over it by now, they'll always remain in your heart but you do go on and you will have successful pregnancies so chin up beautiful girl, your turn will come and it will be grand!!! so lots of :bluedust: to you

AFM - well the OBGYN offices called me this morning to reschedule as doc had emergency last night and couldn't see his patients today, so now am going in on Thurs, was soo disappointed I had everything ready for him, my ultrasounds, and charts, and my list of questions, I also wanted to get blood tests done so I know what my HCG levels are. So far this pregnancy feels different to the last, I've been so very tired and nauseous, I had to dry wretch this morning at work, something that never happened with the last one and I've had absolutley no spotting, just tiny bit, nothing like last time, during the day the nausea comes and goes and I've had bad heartburn, also didn't have that last pregnancy. My DH has been so good, cleaning up and telling me to keep my feet up and relax, I know he hates housework but he khows for the babies sake he needs to help me out...he's also sworn me to secrecy, that I can't tell anyone until 12 weeks, so of course my sister knows because she's been going through all this with me and I speak to her everyday about my cycle, but it was sooo hard to lie to my mother today, but I know her she's your typical italian, can't help but tell her best friend who'll then tell her son and daughter in law who are good friends of mine and who in turn will probably tell our other mutual friend so in the end everyone will know, so better to be safe then sorry, and it will be a great xmas present when we go down to Sydney to visit them all! I can't wait! Only 7 weeks to go!

Anyway must go finish making dinner and go pick up hubby from the physio...

to anyone that I've missed, lots of :bluedust::stickyvibesgirl: to you all...ciao ciao

WTH: Thank you hun!! hugs

Toccara: Miss you sweets!! hugs GGRR moving.. just was there and still am unpacking a few things.. GGRRR but in the end all worth it.. LOL Hope you are doing good

Plc: :bellyrubs:

Melissal: My heart goes out to you... it was (still is ) so hard to remember. I hope you heal dear friend.. I'm in the process too.
About my hubbys grandma.. girl when I first met her I saw a portrait in her house and I was AAAWWWEEEEDDD at holy MOSES!! That one one HUGE FAMILY PORTAIT!!! :o

then when I was preggo of my son she rubbed my belly a lot and told me she actually had 2 babies die if SIDS. but wow she actually popped 18... no m/c.

heeheh it was so funny though..cuz if you meet her she is mall framed and frail (like 80 yrs old now) and you would never think she had so many kids!! HEHEEH

Momma.. I'm here for you..as are all these amazing friends I met here which I myself can say I feel blessed to have met them all here!!!

My best wishes going your way!! Don;t give up!!!! We will all have a beautiful baby soon!;)


Jen: Good job on the fundraiser!!!!!! sending you a huge hug and smoochies!!:p

Possums: Welcome hun.... I know just the feeling.. a horrible one. I hope you too heal darling.. I'm in the process too..
That day was horrible and it is so painful I just block my thoughts when they lurk on remembering that day...
but one day..... one day. we will BOTH rejoice with a beautiful miracle..healthy and wiggling in our arms. you betcha!! You sure have a friend here!

Mollycat: hugs. & smoochies thank you love.


Mannie: I dread that day.... but I know it will be survivable. Thank you ever so much for your comforting words. We both will get through this.. pinky promise! You will have a healthy wiggling munchkin this time around!! Wishing you a H&H pregnancy and the very very BEST!!!!!!!:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

Melissa & Possum--:welcome: to you both.... I'm so very sorry for the losses that bring you to our humble little thread. Unfortunately we all know too well the sorrow and despair you're feeling at the moment, so who better to help you work thru it than those who've been there before! Please feel free to ask any questions you may have--there really is no such thing as TMI around here! There's always a supportive shoulder to lean on, almost at all times of the day--so please remember that we're here for you girls whenever you need us! :hug: I pray you both find the comfort and support that you need, and just know that the rest of us are here to cheer you both on in your TTC journey! Much luck to you both!



WTH--AT the top of the Jonas page you can click on lunar calendar and it will also show you when the supposed best time to conceive is according to when the moon is in the exact spot it was at your birth. I've never been able to determine why the dates differ from the lunar calendar to the lunar conception--for instance, mine gives me two different dates for Nov.--lunar calendar shows Nov. 17th for me, but then under lunar conception it tells me that Nov. 11 is the day! And neither day is the day I'm even supposed to O on! Sorry, I'm sure I only confused us both more, instead of clearing any issue up you may have had! lol... Good luck with the Orangutan cycle! ;)



Hello's and :hug: for dellydoo, Hannah, Ruthie, & MO3B!



Toccara--Hey, girl! Glad to finally hear from you, I was getting worried! Congrats on moving, enjoy your new home! Is DH still at training during the week? Happy you're back, and looking forward to catching up! :hug: Will pray for your b-day BFP!!



mollycat--Thanks, I am proud of myself! I worked my booty off--thanks for noticing! *hugs* How's the second half of your TWW going?



Mannie--Sorry your appt. had to be rescheduled... at least you only have to wait just a couple days. Wishing you the best on Thurs! Here's some :stickyvibesgirl: to get you thru those couple days! *hugs*



Angel--I'm missing you and your posts!! :hug: Love ya lots!



plc--LOVED the funny invitation to Australia! :rofl: Thanks for the laughs!

smi--Oooh, almost forgot your Congrats for heading off to state comp!! :leap: How excited and proud you must be! :clap:



plc--Thanks for that extra :hug: yesterday! I'll trade you for a :bellyrubs: !! Still looking for that new belly pic!

Thought i would just check in, havent had any notifications for what seems like weeks!!!

have been a lurker for the past few days - sorry ladies :wall:

I think the trauma of last week is finally catching up with me and just feeling a bit drained, so taking it so easy. :) and chilling out.

Bleeding seems to have completly stopped now, so :pray: that thats it.

My belly has seemed to spring out over the weekend, and i actually feel pregnant now. which is so nice.

Will try and catch up with you all soon.

:grouphug:

Thank you all for the well wishes for going to State...I am sooooo proud of the kiddos! They are all so excited...I am lovin' every minute of it!

Toccara...we've missed you hun...glad you've been well...don't you worry your forever baby is on the way!

Welcome Possums...may you find some peace & support here with us!

mollycat...*wavin* back State is this Saturday!!! Say a little prayer...there are 10 bands performing...

mannie...here's hoping for nothing but big smile come Thursday!

Hey to my Gurlies!!!

:bluedust::pink-babydust:
:stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl:

AFM...Today is "O" day...God willing we'll catch that eggie!!! :fertilise:

PLC - hi there sweets, how you and your bump doing? Huge :bellyrubs: coming her way!
Possums - aww hun, great big hugs for you :hug:. There is not a lot that can be said to make you feel any better, but I like you, posted for the first time here yesterday and I am overwhelmed with the warm welcome I have received so it looks like we've found ourselves an amzing support network in this group of lovely ladies
Molly - thanks so much for the welcome
Mannie - thanks to you too. Boo to the postponed dr appt but best of luck for tomorrow. All those preggie symptoms are sounding mighty encouraging, have everything crossed for you that this is the stickiest of bubs. Ohhhh, your DH sounds like a real sweetie, hee hee I hear you on having to be selective about who you can tell - my MIL couldn't keep it quiet if her life depended on it, for that matter, my Dad was so excited with my first (molar) pg, he had to tell people too - so cute!!!! But what a GREAT chrissie pressie you have for them all :)
Ruthie - lol at the family portrait. My extended family is so small prob be similar size!! DH family MORE than makes up for it though :lol:. Thanks, I def am well down the healing road now but sometimes I just wish time would go really quickly so things can be normal again and the awful grief isn't so raw but really, what is normal now? I know for a fact that the last 18 months have changed me and made me a stronger and better person but what I wouldn't give to have that innocence of a first pg back :cry:
Jen - thanks, whats all this about Jonah's lunar stuff? I am very curious! How do I find it? Congrats on the awesome fundraising effort!
Fifi - hi there, glad your bleeding has stopped, long may it stay away. YAY for the popped belly!!
Smilinatu - woohoo for the eggie :bluedust::pink-babydust:
Pg SIL came round yesterday and i was very grown-up and we had a totally baby-orientated conversation and I was ok. I even made some little pink curtains for her bedroom yesterday. Still deciding about the birth but think I will wait and see how I feel on the day she goes into labour. Happy HUMP day to all, have a good one ;)

Hi folks... A quick hello and hope you are all ok.. I keep hoping to hear good news from you all

Toccarra- nice to see you are ok (thinking of you sweety x)

Jen- hows things? Congrats on the fund raising!

AFM- Had some more bleeding at 11.5 weeks, apparently I am having break through bleeding.. hopefully wont have it again... it has stopped and I am hoping all is ok..

Take care all
Rach
x

Hi Lovelies

Melissa - good on you - I cannot believe that you made pink curtains. You are amazing!
Smi - Good luck at state babes and catch that egg (you can sing that to the tune of catch the pigeon - showing my age:redface:)
Fifi - I love seeing your post - you got your BFP on the same day I lost Charles, it makes me feel part of the beautiful circle of life.
Jen - Hello back at ya sugar and awesome fundraising!
Mannie - Darling that is awful. Good luck on Thursday - I know what you mean about not telling people - but there are some people who you know will support you no matter what. Keep us posted love.
Ruthie - Honey when are you POASing??? Need some hand holding? I can set my alarm!

AFM - Listening to "it's business time" by Flight of the Concords at the moment and laughing my head off. I am just biding my time until next Tuesday!
Bring on a BFP
Hugs
A

:lol: dellydoo...you know that tune is now stuck in my brain for the remainder of the day!
PS...I am older than you :shhh:

GOOD NEWS LADIES!!!!! hubby got his Health insurance form and it will kick in NOv 1st!! YAYAYAYAYAY :leap: that means I can see a doc pretty much SOON!! WOOT WOOT!!
..ok..ok..and something else.. since my faint faint "ghost lines" and mixed BFNS 2 weeks ago..... well.. more symptoms are popping up and it scares me in a way..ok
from back then I just had like light cramping..tested and got mixed BFNs with super super faint lines... ok so this week.. especially yesterday morning I felt nausea..crazy feeling.. my stomach has been upset and back to the "sluggish feeling down there".( more CM than I wish for). Boy did I have that with this pregnancy.. I know every woman's cervix is diff and there are many theories out there.. but I really was one of em who checked my cervical position changes while TTC my past bub and once I was PG I noticed it did stay high and super soft.. guess what I have a few days checking mine and yup..it went from super low and firm 2 weeks after my D&C (when I stopped bleeding) to super high and soft now. BBS are starting to bother me last night and today.. I didn't feel them at all 2 days ago and before that.. headaches.. I had a migraine 2 days straight just like this past bub..soooooooo... what daya think??..POAS for fun??..just to see??.. if BFN I will be happy... cuz I want to see a fertility specialist..but if it happens to be a BFP (oh boy oh boy..am I scared) at least the HI kicks in soon enough for me to see a special doc for high rick pregnancies and hopefully get appropriate meds to help this baby stay (if such thing )
uumm..... I'm kinda blabbing cuz I'm nervous at the thought... but hey if I did conceive that would fast forward a lot of preconception screenings and docs visits.. so that is always good. wink

I'm not going to ask for baby dust at all...cuz I'm more nervous than excited... but if it happens it happens and I will try to not panic... :redface: I'm so afraid of loss.. we all are ... but all I can say if it;s in Gods plan then of course I will rejoice yet be concerned till delivery day.

Sooo Maybe??..dunno..I will let you all know on Thurs how POAS goes. Am so super nervous.

Jen: Thank you for the hugs moomma.. thinking of you always!


fifi: Glad you are doing much better hun.. :bellyrubs: to you!! Heey.. soon soon you will knwo what you are having!! YAYAAYAY (wait..or will it be a surprise??.. either way.....) You wil se your bub soon..YAYAAY! !any kicks yet???


Smi: :fertilise::hug:


Melissal: Def agree on that one.... I feel like I can never sit back and enjoy my future pregnancies... and it;s so sad because BOY do I LOVE being pregnant! So it sucks.
About fam.. me too.. I'm only child..and even if hubby has only one sibling but Goodness his mother has 15 siblings...so holy moleeee.. ROFL

I know how you feel and am right there with you... a HUGE hug for ya!

Rachelswirl!! YYAY you're back!1 how's your lil bub doing??... How are you??Glad the bleeding stopped......!!!:bellyrubs: for you and wishing you the very best sweet momma!!!

Dellydoo: crazy..but I have the urge to POAS on Thurs Morning. Let's see... I'm more nervous & scared than happy.

Ruthie I am so hoping you get your bfp sweetheart...
I am ok, bleeding has stopped but I'm still super paranoid!

wow- what a busy thread this one is! Thanks so much everyone for the words of support and very warm welcome!

DH and I have decided to try naturally for the next couple of months before we resume IVf in January...I have only one tube, which is apparently not in good shape, but you never know...!

ruthie- hoping you get good news

melissal- all the best to you too...may our healing keep progressing day by day!

sending all the best to all of you...will chat more when I have time.

Melissa--If you google Jonas method, then click on the one that says "Conception Calculator and Baby Gender Predictor". There's lots of info about lunar conception, and you can enter your birth info... it also helps you figure out what your moon sign is, which supposedly helps determine when you're likely to conceive the easiest. If nothing else, it's interesting reading! :hug:



Rachel S--Glad the bleeding has stopped. How scary for you! I :pray: it stops for good so you can actually relax and enjoy your pg'cy! Hugs and :stickyvibesgirl:



smi--Woo hoo! O day! :dance: I bet I know what you're having for dessert! Good luck catching that :egg: Hey, I'm supposed to O in 2 or 3 days--looks like we'll be cycle buds again!! :cheer:



Ruthie--I think with all those symptoms, I'd be POAS!! Wishing you all the best, hon!



fifi--Glad to hear you're taking it easy! :hug: Bellyrubs for you!