Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ August 2010

So glad to hear that so many of you are doing so well atm :) It makes mt heart smile.
Melster- FX it is implantation hun.

For me... well I think I will not be in the TTC game for much longer. This time it is not through choice or wanting to make my body healthier... I wish it were. I believe that DP will break my heart either today, tomorrow or Monday. Considering all the pain and uncertainty I have felt while I have been with him, perhaps, it is for the best. I do not know for absolute certainty but I do belive that this is what is happening. I will still lurk because hearing all the victories really does make me happy.

Damprye- FX you are wrong darl and your DP may just be having a hard time at the moment. Men are usually more moody than what we are cause they find it so hard to open up and let their feelings out which is so frustrating. Keep your chin up darl and we are all here if you want to talk. Sending you lots and lots of hugs darl.

I just found this site guys it shows the % of women reporting certain levels of HCG and the DPO which it was reported. Certainly made me feel better so thought I would put it in here for any of us who might have some uncertainty. Reet, the top of it allows you to see levels reported for multiple pregnancies sweetie!! Click on the button. My mere 35 was a medium no for 12DPO so I feel somewhat better.
Best get off this as I need to pee again for the 50th time today.

http://www.betabase.info/showBasicChart.php?type=Single

Forshelby- Awww it sure does sound like u cried a lot yesterday! What a nice last day that they organised for u.. i bet the other staff wld have loved having a bit of a slack day too! :) And ur dp does sound lovely but ur also very lovely too! Did u end up buying him a present?? :) oh and what was ur next prediction??? i cant remember! that im having twins? i thought it was that i was having a boy!?

Mum22- Thanks for that website with the beta levels.. guess i cld be having twins! I wld love to be! Altho i dont think i wld be that lucky. And thanks for that info on MSU.. i have never been asked either to do one.. which im glad about! I hate doing urine samples at the drs! I always scull so much water beforehand just to be prepared that my sample ends up just looking like water.. its embarrassing!

Damprye- Good luck with the next few days. Maybe even if u do stay together u shld put ur baby plans on hold for a little bit anyway?? build ur relationship back up first?? I dont mean to be rude or prying into ur business either.. i just know i wldnt be able to do this without the support of a loving partner... u need to be happy.. give ur baby the best start in life. Good luck hon

Clairesmummy- I hope u do have a bfp this month but if not then I hope ur fighting fit for next months cycle.. stay away sickness! :)

Melster- It cld be implantation FX! I got an implantation bleed at 9-10dpo and i did a hpt that night and it came up positive straight away. Why are u worried?? Do ur afs normally start off with a bit of brown blood?? Good luck!

Glenglen- That is a lovely way that ur mother put it :) i believe that the same baby that was going to come to me last pg will still come to me this pg.. the little soul just needs the healthiest little body to come into the world with or the time just might not have been right :) And to answer ur question whenever anyone asks me when we are going to have a baby im just completely honest and say we're trying.. we actually lost one at the start of the year and my body is only just recovering from that.. they are normally a bit sympathetic but if u say it so it doesnt sound like u are trying to get sympathy from them its not as awkward... u can kinda make a joke and say hey practice makes perfect! If u dont feel up to talking about it to just anyone tho just say what u feel is right.. try one of forshelbys comments! :)

Minnie- Ohh u gave me a little hope that i cld have twins since ur friend did on clomid! FX! Anything changed with ur family situation lately?? Has ur relationship with ur mum and brother gotten a bit better??

Kellbell- Is ur weekend going kinda fast?? not long til monday morning! How are u feeling?

Stoked- I wld love twins too! So af showed her nasty face??? i hope not!

Boooons! Where are u and how are u feeling???

AFM- Am so tired today.. i fell asleep before and dribbled on the couch and everything! My mum came over and woke me up and told me to go and vote with her.. im kinda glad she did cos i dont think i wld have bothered otherwise.. way too tired!!
Dh got home yesterday arvo.. i had the no sex talk with him.. it didnt work haha.. once last night and again this morning.. he made it very very gentle and shallow penetration so all was ok tho.. :) think im being over paranoid but i dread the thought of seeing blood!
Hope everyone is having a lovely relaxing weekend
xxx

Melster - Sounds like implantation to me, too. You won't get a bfp until after implantation has happened. I think in about 2 days you'll get youer bfp. Hold off testing until then if you can, hun.

Mum22 - Good old morning sickness. Lovely, isn't it? Mine comes and goes, right now it's hanging around bothering me and making me feel bleh. I think I actually feel worse than in earlier weeks if that's possible. I hope yours isn't too bad, and you can keep some food down. :)

Clairesmummy - You said it, sister. He's the greatest. :) We are all lucky.

Damprye - What happened, hun?

Reet - Yeah it was a nice way to finish up. My prediction was for a boy, but then I started wondering if it's twins. Maybe twin boys? Hehe.... exciting! Tell your DH not to be selfish and respect your wishes of not wanting to DTD too much. Sorry, I think that came out harshly... but geez. I couldn't imagine DTD all the time with the way I feel right now. Queasy and bloated.. ugh. I would be SO cranky. Perhaps remind him that 'I don't feel like it' is a valid answer and he needs to accept it. Give him a porno and a jar of vaseline, LOL. You are more than a piece of flesh for him to hump!!! Ok that's my femenist rant over. LOL. I hope that wasn't rude.

AFM, had a lovely morning shopping and buying stretchy clothes. Yay! My feet are killing me though, and I think my ankles might be a bit swollen, too. I'm craving something right now, but have no idea what it is. I hate that! I need to go and scrounge around in the fridge/pantry until I find what it is I'm after. I could really go for some french onion dip right now with sour cream mixed in. Mmm... half dip half sour cream. LOL....... Ooh, or maybe creamed corn? Decisions decisions...

Forshelby Ms seems to come and go. Have had awful cramps all afternoon, hoping they are just normal for early pregnancy sorta like Af coming in the tummy/groin area but then I go and check and touch wood no AF. I am over soooo over peeing!! I seriously need to pee the second I have finished. But I am hoping that is a good thing and showing preg progressing....tho it starting to feel like a UTI starting....probably not it will be just that constant feeling of needing to pee. Hmmm, terriffic, hey. Other than that I am actually feeling pretty good. That worries me tho.

Reet I am hearing you re the fearing the sight of blood, I am forever feeling like it is happening again...

Mum22 - Get some cranberry juice just in case... UTIs are so horrible. My last one landed me in the emergency room peeing blood. Sorry for the TMI there! Oh and I had to move house the very next day. The horror! I can't say I have the frequent peeing this pg..... it's strange. I seem to get it at night though when I'm trying to sleep. Of course! Relax and enjoy your pg, hun. There won't be any blood until that bubby comes screaming into the world. :)

Reet- I remember being like that when I was PG with my DD I would fall asleep at the drop of a hat...lol.....got a chuckle bout the drool on the couch though....obviously you were in a very deep relaxing sleep...lol....So sweet that your DH took it easy on you last night and this morning...lol....how sweet is that.....
Forshelby- Go the sour cream and dip I never would of though of putting them together, I love sour cream and lots of it....I must try it with the dip one day though....lol.....
AFM- I think after doing a bit of net investigation I may have had a wrong reading in my temp this morning as my nose was blocked big time and I kept having to breathe through my mouth, I'm not good at holding my breathe at all...lol.....I did another temp today while sitting down and relaxing for awhile and it was fairly high so not sure see what tomoro morning brings me. But my temp is certainly higher than normal. hmmmmm...waiting waiting waiting waiting I'm now 6DPO. How early do early symptoms start if you are PG??????

Dampyre - big hugs hope you and DH come through okay :hug:

Mum22 - good site on the hcg i soooo want to know what mine is

Reet - twin boys sounds cute! i hope there are two in there for you wouldn't that be so exciting. when is your scan??
LOL at the drool

Clairesmummy - when are you going to test? are you testing early you could be the next BFP in here!!!!

ummmmm Forshelby never had french onion and sour cream im so getting some on the way home tommorow. sounds yummo
Hows your first day as Stay at home mum to be? monday will be strange for you i reckon not having to go

my DP hasn't got anything for about two weeks now hes surviving im too scared yet that it will damage something. he seems to understand plus im sooooooo tired i dont have the energy. he was pretty proud and excited about his "boys" doing there job hehe arnt they funny :p

Ive got morning shifts this weekend so keeping busy till mon morning i ......

I feel :sick: tonight yippee who knew a person could get excited over morning sickness (evening sickness lol) :leap:
and my eyes are falling out of my head ill be back tomorrow night have a lovely Sunday girls

Forshelby- Did i make that sound like he was being really pushy?! Oops! He so wasnt.. we were having a giggle about it.. it wasnt a stern talk on my behalf and then he went and raped me or something! Im not feeling sick so theres no issues there.. i think majority of women do still have sex when pg, i asked my dr after my m/c if having sex whilst pg increases chances of m/c and she said defintely not.. its just an emotional thing.. if u cant handle it dont do it. Like i said tho, my dh was very very gentle and he defintely didnt beg me for it or anything.. I caved after our very first cuddle when going to bed ;) I know if i told him that i really didnt want to have sex there wld be no ifs or buts.. he wld defintely respect my wishes. So dont worry! It was actually a really nice night/morning :) im so happy to have him home again!

Clairesmummy- Ooooh i think ur onto something! Wait maybe 4 more days and test.. maybe?? Or longer if u can! Symptoms can start once implantation has occured.. thats when ur hcg levels start going up. Good luck!!! Oh and my dh is really sweet.. from how forshelby took my comments he didnt sound too sweet tho! it might have come out wrong but we dont see each other much..gotta make the most of the time we do spend together! ;)

Mum22- I have had heaps of cm at the moment so im always running to the toilet expecting there to be heaps of blood.. (TMI!) thank goodness there hasnt been any! Ive been feeling a lot more calm lately.. i think i was really scared around af time thinking it wld still come and just wash the baby away. Af was due for u today wasnt it? Or maybe yesterday? I hope u dont get a UTI.. That wldnt be nice at all. Drink heaps of water.. altho it does sound like ur already peeing enough! Are u going to come across to the bb group?? :)

AFM- I had to do another hpt lastnite.. i just had too! The line came up super fast.. way way sooner then the control line and way way darker then it too. It was so exciting to watch! Dh agreed that it defintely wasnt like that when we were 6 weeks pg and tested for the first time. Praying that this is defintely a sticky baby! :)
Hope everyone is having a lovely weekend.. i defintely am! :)

forshelby: good to hear work was nice to you on your last day, you will enjoy being off work now, i understand what you mean about having to get used to the change in not having our own income, i would earn the same as dh when i worked full time (pre children) but i adjusted quickly and it didnt worry me which surprised me a lot !

mum22: hopefully those pains are just stretching pains and nothing to worry about

reet: i took macca for probably the first 2 weeks of this cycle but i also got constipated around that time so don't now if they were related, should try them again i think. the family situation is no good, i had a message left on my phone saying that mum wanted to see us before she went away (she is holidaying in europe with my brother) but no mention of an apology etc so i sent a letter saying if she didn't acknowledge that she was wrong and out of line that day (and in the 3 months since) and said sorry there would be no meeting up and that is the last i have heard (that was a month ago), she sent the kids a postcard but i didn't give it to them, its so difficult and i feel terrible but i refuse to let her seem to be the good one by sending them a card and acting all nice when she can treat me like this, havent heard from my dad at all and heard no more from my brother so i have no family at all now, thanks for asking though

damprye: big hugs to you honey, i hope things aren't going to turn out as you suspect

Kell-Woohoo for sickness! Ive felt a little queasy at times but nowhere near vomiting.. i hope it comes soon!
And twin boys or girls wld be awesome.. or one of each! I wld love that!
Males are funny like that hey.. it makes them feel manly! Haha :)

Minnie- Sorry to hear all that :( u just cant understand how family can turn on u like that hey. Im so glad u still have a lovely little loving family that u can rely on.
Maybe try the maca again.. not sure if it causes constipation or not.. hopefully it can help to shorten ur cycles.

damprye.....i hope ur doing ok....

Thanks ladies........i havent had much more spotting other than this morning.....i could have sworn some of my pregnancy symptoms went away but i think im imaging it.....im having what seems like period pains....im feeling a bit sick tonight and having heart burn......ill see how i go in the next couple days.....hopefully everything is just running later from the miscarriage...coz my other two pregnancies i knew by now.....

Reet, I had the urge to POAS being the last one I had in the house this morning in the wee hours like 3am after DD woke me up and I ran to the loo for the 3rd time during the night. Line came up straight away, darker than last time tested 2 days ago, I 'think' it was borderline darker than the control line. Like just slightly. What tests have you been using?? I have just been using FR ones?? Anyway, I was happy with that as the last time I tested (friday) it was darker than thursday which was the same day as the blood test. So surely my levels must be increasing?? Hmmmmm, interesting. Will be glad to get tomorrow over with and the results back on Tuesday. Just feel a bit like I am in limbo until then :) Reet, were you using clomid??

Melster GL

Thx Minnie

Forshelby, yay maternity clothes woohoo for you :) I have just been wearing trackies or my mat jeans I am paranoid and dont wanna squish anything in there. :)
I had some cranberry juice last night but you know I just dont think it is a UTI and more than likely just the pregnancy. It sorta feels like it but not quite and I think the sorta feels like it is the uncomfortable feeling when I need to run to the loo like right now no waiting again 2 hours after the last time I did. Went out yesterday and made sure to go before I went out and I had only been out for an hour and there we go I need to go to the loo again.....Very annoying and so very unlike me and I dont think it gets that bad with my usual UTI symptoms, so who knows???

Kell, being that your preg is more advanced than mine your numbers will be nice and high....wish I'd left it a little longer so my measly no of 35 didnt come back to stress me. I am sooo stoopid!

Woohoo for all those lines getting darker and remember Melster, every pregnancy is different hun, so don't count yourself out till the evil witch appears.

Clairesmummy, minnie, Melster and everyone else, I hope to see your BFPs soon :)

AFM- Very meish... like normal :-/ Well DP has taken our relationship status off of a social networking site we both use T_T He still has not told me it is over though but after seeing that.... Well I really do not have any doubts left now. I am seeing him tonight... if he still wants to see me that is. We were txting this morning and as soon as I mentioned that I was looking forwards to tonight... Well I am still waiting for a reply :( I am playing this whole thing out with him as if I know nothing. If he loved me, he would get that "I'm fine" means nothing of the kind. I only send it when I am not fine... he used to know that.
As for AF... Well I am still waiting. I don't know what to do with my ticker since it has already started a new cycle, but I havn't lol. I have no problem with being a single Mum. I have done it before, I can do it some more. Only difference being is that I will have more time to spend with my bubs instead of spending it with a man. I just do not want to go through the heartache while pg. With how stress affects my body, I woild surely M/C again. The night before I lost the last one, I was under extreme stress :-/ I am trying to ignore any possible pg symptoms but it is hard when I say something and then I get that sideways glance and the "Are you pg?" bomb.
I so wish DP would reply so that at least I would know if we were still going to see each other tonight. If not then I will have to ask him to meet me for a coffee today and tell him that it is over :( Well that is my me-ness.. and I will continue to try and not hyperventilate :-s

Damprye- Good luck for today, I will be thinking of you and I hope it all works out for the best for you.
AFM- Well not much happening, having some spotting this morning when I wipe after a loo trip, so no BFP for me this month here comes that aweful horrible dreaded AF. But on a good note at least this time it's not a 34day cycle, thank goodness. Feeling better with in myself though the waiting was playing havoc on me...lol....I must be the most impatient person in the world I think...lol....ahh well bring on September. Here's to better luck next month...... Hope everybody else waiting for their BFP have better luck, FX.

damprye - hoping today you get some sort of answers....this whole journey is hard on both of you's and sometimes communication just doesn't cut. I know over the last 6 months mark and I have struggled thru many serious arguments even one as recent as 3 weeks ago where he told me to f*$k off...sending you heaps of hugs sweety xoxox

forshelby - welcome to the world of lady of leisure!!! enjoy it and enjoy growing your lil munchkin xoxox

clairesmummy - yay on a shorter cycle, now here's to hoping they stay like that or your next long cycle ends in a BFP

Reet & mum22 - sending you heaps and heaps of sticky vibes and yay on the line getting darker

Hi to everyone else

AFM - had my 30th birthday party last night and not many people caught on that I wasn't drinking hehehe, just mainly my friends that were left at the end but a handful of them already knew. one good thing is that i have no hangover but i'm sure there will be a few sore heads this morn...our $400 bar tab went in 2 hrs and that was just beer, wine and softdrinks. off to get some more sleep as didn't get to bed until 1 and was up at 6:30

damprye: sounds like we are on a similar journey. after 3 and a bit years, (16 months of that TTC) DP and i have separated in the last few days. ttcaml is a difficult time and puts alot of strain on relationships. i think i spent too much energy trying to pretend it wasnt effecting our relationship, and not enough time trying to fix the situation. i hope that however things work out for you and your DP, may you find happiness within yourself and in your son's eyes.