Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ September 08 #2

Oh, see, I was chart stalking and just getting over excited. Darn it. I really should just calm on down. But can I secretly quietly keep my fingers crossed for you? Pleeeeease? I will anyways. Hehe.

M/S is ok. The steroids seem to be doing the trick so far, am still cutting them down because you can't stay on them for long (I think you can get roid rage.... hehe), so the test will be how I am off them. I am eating my weight in food, though. Plus a little extra. But our fridge is broken so it's been my mothers food I've been eating. Hehe. Yay having mum live nest door.

OMG..... so sorry, Babyfever..... wishing you a belated :happybirthday: Sorry this comes to you a little late! I hope you had a great day! :hug:

Please do! Maybe it will bring me luck! :goodluck: Glad to hear you had something to help you get thru the m/s! :hug:



Angel--Saying tons of :pray: for a successful IUI on Monday!!! :pink-babydust: :bluedust: Go little :sperm: Go get those 2 big, beautiful eggs!! :cheer:

Firstly I would like to say :welcome: to the newbies. I'm so sorry that you've had to join us, but now that you've found us you'll never leave (- or at least you won't go too far and you'll keep popping back in). This bunch is the most supportive group i've ever met. Each and every one has been through what i've been through and they showed me that it's okay to laugh, scream, cry and yell all I want to (and that they always have a shoulder to lean on and arms to hug (even from all parts of the world). I really hope you dont have to stay here very long :p

Jen - thanks for your thoughts yesterday, they mean the world to me. DH went to see her family yesterday afternoon they were coping ok, her mum sent back a hug for me. (so sweet) Glad you liked the restaurant - i've booked you a seat there next week. Shame your temps are playing up (maybe we share a thermometer) You know you really don't have to wait for angel or me you can move to PAML all by yourself - there's some great people in there saving seats.

Angel - all the best for monday

Tut - glad to see you still popping in. I'm sure your mum doesn't mind (she probably loves seeing you)

Krystie - how did the parents take your beautiful news? It's been a while you'd better give little chyan a :bellyrubs: rub me.

Nickster - you're almost at the end. It really doesn't seem that long ago that you were in here with us. All the best for the next couple of weeks.

:pink-babydust::bluedust: to all of our friends TTC

:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy: to all of our pg friends

Hi Jenushka
Her name is Trish Wilson and she handles bereavement cases at Mater - she is simply wonderful. She also has weekend clinic at Ashgrove. I can PM you details if you like honey,
Tutmae - Yay for Mum's food.
Anneebee - Welcome - I see you have already found your niche - we are all here to support each other and hope you gain some comfort.
Jen - I am going to take up your random laughing therapy and will let you know the results (straight jacket/strange looks etc)

I am off to the Sanitarium today (I keep calling it Fat Camp!) to feel wonderful and blissful for a few days. I am taking the laptop and hopefully they won't confiscate it - I am imagining a Nurse Ratchet character.
Love to you all
Adele

hey girls its been a couple of days since my last post and jumped on last night and saw how much has been going on since I last had a check of this wonderful thread. My hubby came up when I was just about ready to post and gave me this look, like 'what are you doing, what about me, I feel neglected, who are you writing too etc etc..so had to leave it.

Hey Tam - I checked out the OV Watch and looks like I may buy it, am a bit broke at the moment with the market the way it is we've been margin called a few times. I also referred it a friend and looks like she may buy it too so we can then compare notes...oh yes and congrats on DH's sperm....its a goer, so goodluck ttcing!!!

Ruthie - I loved that poem you wrote and had to email it my friend who lost her first bub at 23 weeks, I cried reading it. Stay strong luv and look we are just about at the end of
Sept!!! soon it will be October and you only have like 4 weeks ...roll on November...am thinking of you.

Annabee - welcome, its shame you had to go through this but Im sure you'll get your forever baby just like I KNOW we all will. I'm ttcing and only God knows what my cycle is up to at the moment as I have no idea...a first for me after my m/c in August.

Dellydoo - enjoy the retreat......rest up and fill us in with lots of stories

Krystie - how's your sticky bean growing faster everyday Im sure, can't wait for it to be all of us, how did your parents react??

Toccara - lots of babydust and stickyvibes and hugs to you too I hope you get your BFP very very soon you sure are a strong woman.

Jen & Angelbabies (a great inspiration!!! luv reading your posts you are always so positive and helpful full of unbelievable knowledge!)

AFM - have had a bit of brown spotting the last couple of days, not sure if its from some rough DTD or am going to have a visit from AF, I only stopped bleeding from m/c just over 2 weeks ago, can this happen??????

Big hellos and babydust and stickyvibes to all who I've forgotten and luv reading about.... BFP's all round

:hello: everyone,

Dont have time to read thru everyone's posts ATM so will have to check back in later and get the updates.

:welcome: Anneebee....

So i'm not thinking this month is the one for me... AF hasn't arrived and havent had any signs/symptoms of her impending arrival but just not feeling pg either... a bit nauseous but not sick like i was when i was pg.

Jen i signed up on fertility friend. Dunno if it is the BEST idea considering my slightly OCD nature :dunno: Don't have a decent thermometer yet.. waiting for payday.. but have been using a mercury one for the last couple of days. As for the rest of the signs/symptoms you can chart :confused: - I'm still struggling to differentiate sticky from watery from creamy CM!!! :rofl: I'll get the hang of it all soon.

Hubby still away.. he is working in Fiji - lucky bugger. He calls me last night to tell me he is working on Mel Gibson's private island... but he has to go because he is having dinner with Mel's son! He has started to name drop:rolleyes: hahaha. Hope he will be back soon so we can get some more :bd: happening.

Jen - No fear! The smart ar$e pill packet clearly states that they are perfectly safe during pregnancy. I'm sure you're very relieved :ROFL: Hmmm, 15 DPO? Nope not saying anything.... just noticing... ;)

Hi Tut! Thanks :)

Anneebee - It's my wish every day that all you girls join me as soon as possible! Oh, and I know exactly the feeling you are talking about where you take the big breathe in and feel the love expanding. It's amazing :)

Angel - Oooooh, 1 more day!!!

So, I told my parents last night. Actually, I gave them a cake that said "Congrats Grandma & Grandpa" with a couple of baby socks on it, and they kinda worked it out from there hehe. Mum cried. She's too cute. They were both thrilled. Then we showed my brothers (excepts 1 who wasn't there). And later in the night I sms'd my sister in London. She rang me straight back and was super excited. I miss her so much! So all in all it went really well :)

mollycat--You booked me a seat.... :rofl: Good stuff!

Hey, you aren't trying to get rid of me, are you? :o I don't know.... you'll all have to hog-tie me up and take away my computer to get me to leave this thread even after I'm pg! ;)



dellydoo--It's amazing how therapeutic laughter can be! Not only in others making you laugh, but to make other's laugh when right before that they wanted to cry.... it's awesome! I hope it works for you--let me know! Enjoy your blissful retreat at the "Sanitarium" :lol: Eeek, Nurse Ratchet! :o Hope they let you keep your computer!



Emmykate--Yay for FF!! You can also link it to your signature if you want to, that way us chart stalkers have a new chart to stalk! The CM isn't as hard to differentiate as the CP! :lol: When I first tried figuring that one out, I was sure I didn't even have a cervix because everything felt the same! :rofl: And trust me, when you've got watery CM, you'll know it.... you'll say, "Oooooh, so this is what jen was talking about!" You'll see.... ROFLMAO The thermometer you're using should do fine for now, it just takes a lot longer than the digital ones... but hey, of all people, I completely understand how it is to be a little short on cash! Girls, we're about to have a new addict on our hands! :clap:

Krystie--Hey, I just had a fabulous idea! Since you're pg you won't be able to fit into that cute little wizard chick costume anymore....aw, shucks.... so does that mean I get first dibs???? :rofl: Wouldn't want a cute little thing like that to go to waste! ;) Can I have your whip, too? *whip* :lol:

What a great way to tell your parents! I'll bet they were so excited! Ok, and I just have to ask.... sms'd?.... I'm sure it's like sending a text.... but what does it stand for? :dunno:



Ok, there's lot's of us TTC'ers... I'm going to give it a go with the names... there's lots of newbies, so forgive me if I forget a name or two (hopefully not, tho!)... here goes...


:pink-babydust: :bluedust: for Angel, mollycat, Toccara, jenushka, issy, Van, Chappas, WTH, Megsmum, Easha, Ruthie, Babyfever, dellydoo, Mannie, hannah, jade, Tam, anneebee, Emmykate, babymiracle, babyjubz, treelo, Abbey, Rachel B, babbs, babyonboard, Louise, and MummyO3B :pink-babydust: :bluedust:

smilanatu--Hey, my friend! Hope you're having a good weekend! :hug:



Sending out bucket loads of :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy: to all those beautiful preggie friends of ours: Krystie (and of course, Little Chyan! *kiss*), joey, fifi, larz, pbstar, tutmae, tina, plc, AJC, Katiegirl, nickster, Rachel S, and Leyza :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy:



Me--Just waiting to see what tomorrow's temp does...

Good morning ladies. Feeling a bit queezy and under the weather this morning. DH & I went out drinking and dancing until 5 this morning. Had a fantastic time and should actually be feeling worse than I do in comparison to how much grog we drank, so I can't complain really. For all the pregnant ladies reading this, I'm having my second (really really strong) cappacino for the morning and might even go back for a third later. Jealous aren't yas. Well I'd trade all the drinking, late nights, dancing and cappacinos in heartbeat to be having m/s instead.

I've got a funny story. This morning on the way home from partying we got dropped off in front of a sex shop near our home. We were sharing a taxi with other people so we got dropped off on on the main road and walk the rest of the way. I'm just trying to justify that we don't regularly go to sex shops .... not that there's anything wrong with that. :lol: Anyway we were drunk so we went in to have a look-see. OMG. That place has some amazing things and some totally ridiculous things that couldn't possibly fit. Needless to say I bought us some type of contraption to spice up our DBing. You should have seen DH face. :lol: I thought for sure I was getting lucky. We went home and DH got into bed while I was brushing my teeth and before I'd finished he was already snoring. What is a girl to do? lol

Because i'm new to the forum experience, I found it weird last night to be thinking about you girls and what's going on your lives. I really do find comfort and support in the presence of you wonderful ladies. I never knew it would be like this. It took me a while to find you girls but the search was worth it. Thank you all for welcoming me into your circle of love. I'm give you all a big :grouphug:.

Jen - not trying to get rid of you. Couldn't possibly do that, but if we can keep sending people into paml thread we'll get to close this one down. Just think in the last few weeks we've had joey and krystie, still got time for a couple more in sept.



anneebee3 - sounds like you had lots of fun last night - it's always the way with DH's isn't it? It's good to let your hair down occasionally - and you might as well do it now while you can cause soon it will be m/s time


Krystie - What a beautiful way of sharing great news.

anneebee--Sounds like you had some fun last night--or at least you were about to until DH fell asleep! You should've bought yourself something that could still be used without DH around! ;) I'm so shy, if I go into a store like that I walk around with a red face the whole time thinking that everyone's looking to see what I'm going to get! :rofl: I find the internet saves me some embarrassment! Although I've never tried it drunk before, that could be a good time--I'm a little less inhibited when I'm drunk!


It was a shock to me to realize how consumed I became with this site and the friends I've made here... so much so I still find myself half listening to DF.... saying lots of "yeah's"..... and "Mmm hmmm's".... when I'm really thinking about what's going on in everyone's lives! But :shhh: don't tell him that! :lol: I'm telling you, we're a very addicting bunch--just wait until you find the chat room!



mollycat--Would love to empty this thread out! There's way too many of us here! Still waiting for that mass exodus into the PAML thread! :hug:

Jen - I thought I was in a chat room. I didn't realise there was a difference between a forum and a chat room. I feel so old. :redface: You're impressing me with your determination not to POAS. I don't know how you can hold out. Every month I tell myself that I'm not going to test, but every little pain, twinge, blue vein, sore throat, etc is definitely a sign that I'm pregnant. I think I talk myself into testing (unfortunately several times last cycle) because I was so sure I had all the symptoms, but the tests kept coming up negative. Then I start to think that batch of tests must to faulty. I've even convinced DH that the tests were wrong, so we use a different brand ... still negative. Well then I start thinking I must have implanted late this cycle because I did have a bad flu with fevers and temperatures so I couldn't work out when I ovulated so i probably ovulated later, etc, etc. It gets worse, when AF finally arrives, I think maybe I'm one of those women who continue to get AF during their pregnancy. So I try to convince myself that there's a chance I'm still pregnant with half a dozen BFN and AF. Now that's positive (wishful) thinking. I'm a shocker. :lol:

Has anyone else had shocker (obsessive) months like that? I'm not sure if I'm just super keen because we finally have been given the green light to try for another bubba, but I seriously thought I had symptoms though. :doh:

Hi All,

Just thought I would pop in and say hi to you all :hello::hello:

Hope you are all doin well and are hanging in there together like only BB women can !!

Nothing really to report from me still TTC , Ov again in about a week so will just keep going I guess.

Keeping my mind off this has been good for me actually although it still gets me down when I see pregnant women - there are 9 pregnant women in my workplace at the moment :angry::angry:

Why cant one be me :wall:

Anyhow - enough of the pity party

Will continue to drop in to check on your :bfp::bfp:

Miss you all

Anneebee3: I have POAS x 5 in the last 10 days just cos i want to be pg again!!!! Every time i have a little nausea or a headache or am craving something to eat or weeing ten times a day my hopes go up... and sometimes i think i am just dead set trying to convince myself into being pg. I only m/c 3 weeks ago.. so i think i might be an obsessive nutter too :)

EmmyKate - I'm so sorry that your little jelly bean had to grow wings. Maybe our little angels are playing together. If my little bean is anything like me she would be causing havoc for someone up there. :lol: I'm so glad that I'm not the only one obsessed in this process of ttc. At least I can talk about it on here. I don't have anyone to talk to about this who understands. I honestly believe that my obsession has become much greater since losing my angel. It's like I've stepped up into the professional league of ttc. Falling pregnant with our first bubba was an absolute joy with hardly any stress at all. Now I'm a crazy woman. My last cycle I had a severe flu with fevers, chills and temperatures during ovulation period, but that didn't matter to me I was still BDing right on through (total professional). Poor DH was the real professional he had to deal with a crazy woman that looked like death warmed up with tissues stuck up my nose and horse cough. We joked that with the temperatures I was getting during that flu, I was boiling my eggs this month.

Here's a big :hug: for you EmmyKate. When you feel lonely just talk to us. Someone in the support team is always lurking around. :lol:

HI ladies,

Just wanted to say hi to our newbies (dont want to mention any names just incase I forget someone :redface:, havent had the chance to read back over all the posts yet)
Im sorry for the circumstances that brought you here, but glad you can find comfort in the other wonderful women in here, as I and all the other women have :hug:

Sorry this is going to be a short post, Im dog tired...but I am now a week over due for AF and still no sign of her coming, although the bb's are getting very sore, Im going to POAS in a few days cause I have this feeling that maybe....just maybe.......?????

I'll let you know.......

Oh, just wanted to send some special good luck to you Jen, I am :pray: for your BFP hun....you deserve it!

Issy

anneebee--Don't worry, I've had my obsessive months.... it's just gotten to where I know my body really well, and I can see the pattern on my chart doing the same thing it did for the last couple months, so it's not hard for me to determine that I don't need to waste the money on something that I already know is going to be a BFN! But I still obsess over each twinge.... and I did the whole "faulty test" theory on a previous cycle, as well! I'm surprised my poor bb's haven't fallen off yet due to getting poked and prodded a thousand times a day to see if they're getting sensitive! Last month I even overlayed my chart with other charts that had low post O temps in the hopes that maybe I could convince myself that mine would be like that, too! And I have to confess, so that you don't feel alone in this, there's not a month that goes that I don't hope I'm still pg even tho AF has already arrived! :doh: It's my temps that help me decide not to test--not any great determination or willpower!

Yes, there's a difference between a forum and a chat room. The forum is similar to an e-mail, so when you hit post, it comes thru fairly quickly, but sometimes it can take a few minutes to go thru (or maybe that just happens to me since I'm in California). But a chat room goes thru almost instantly, so it's much more of a conversation that you're having back and forth, instead of waiting for that e-mail type post to come thru. Plus there's all kinds of cool sounds you get to make when you're in the chat room! I didn't discover it for several months, but now it's become another addiction of mine!



:hello: Easha! Always good to hear from you--although it seems few and far between! Miss hearing from you! Good luck next week with O!



Emmykate & anneebee--I feel for you both.... unfortunately it's been almost 7 mo's since my m/c, but I can remember just wanting so badly to fall pg right away! I remember being so confused as to what my body was doing and where I was at in my cycle, and whether I was fertile or had O'ed or not. That's what finally convinced me to start temping, so that I wasn't always questioning what was going on. We like to use the term dedicated here as opposed to obsessed! Obsessed just sounds so negative, while dedicated at least makes you feel good! Anyhow, I just wanted to give you both a big :hug: and let you know that you're not alone in this type of thinking.... I still clearly know those feelings.... the painful yearning for your little angel.... the longing of just wanting to be pregnant again.... the feelings like you can't even possibly be happy again until you're pg again..... and time just seems to go extra slow, making it seem like it's taking forever! I :pray: you both find some peace and comfort among us here and are blessed with BFP's very quickly!

I'm :pray: it's going to be a BFP for you, issy! Your symptoms sound awfully promising! I've got everything crossed for you! Here's some extra :pink-babydust: :bluedust: to roll around in!


My temp dropped even further today, and I've got cramps... so I'm pretty positive AF will be here at some point today... tomorrow at the latest. I'm ok with it, not thrilled, but it's what I've been expecting for the last several days, so at least it's not a shock or anything unexpected. It is what it is...a pain in the arse, but I'm sure there's a silver lining somewhere in all this... I've just not found it yet!


Angel--Focusing ALL my positive thoughts and energy on your IUI today! Saying ch!t loads of :pray: for DH's little :sperm: C'mon guys... there's your prize... 2 big, beautiful eggs....go get 'em! As always, Krystie and I will be there with you--hey, maybe they'll let us give those little spermies a pep talk before they begin--blow on them for good luck, or something! How long will it take for them to know if it works? Ooh, Nuff.... really feel like this is going to be IT! :hug: :pink-babydust: :bluedust: Enjoy your day off--and stay OFF your feet! Love you, girl! *kiss*

EmmyKate-:hello: Sorry you got a BFN :hug: Hopefully your just to early its hard to resest POAS early. I usually spend a good 100$ on First Response Pregnancy tests a month. Its horrible addiction!.
I'm sorry for your loss of your little angel. Its been 2 months since I lost my baby & Sometimes I Sit back and think were I would be at in the pregnancy by now and I would be 15 weeks. I hope AF stays away darling and you get your BFP in a few days. :fingers:.


Mannie- About your spotting, That could be left over from your bleeding that you had 2 weeks ago and just now is coming out, Or your cervix could be irritated from the sex and caused some spotting. I did have sex right after my M/C and I did spot afterwards (of coarse this was after my bleed) So about a week later. So it shouldn't be another AF..

Anna-Wow! Sound's like you and DH had a blast, On the excpetion of the after effect of Ahcahol. :hug:. I'm a big dancer myself. Unfortantly, On my birthday we went to shooters (to play pool) & she wasn't sure of were the clubs were around here. We had a blast. I was beyond wasted & vomited all over the out side area there.. Oh sex shops are so fun! Sorry Dh crashed before you could try out your new "thing" you bought! What a party pooper.. lol. When you do use it tell us how intresting and well it worked.. ;-)... Sounds like a wonderful time.
Oh the cappicheno thing, I have those once and while while pregnant. I'm not big on choch anyways. You can have you hot cappicheno all you want sweets... :-D. Enjoy for the rest..

Issy- Hey sweets, How are you doing? Sorry to hear your dog tired. Me too, I want to sleep all day!.. Oh good luck on the POAS I'm betting it will be BFP.. Hope AF keeps away and stays away.


Jen- I :pray: that your BFP comes here very soon... How was your weekend.???


:hello: to everyone I missed..

ATM-I'm very sleepy and have been going to bed early and sleeping hard but I still don't want to wake up when I have too.. I feel so groggy!. My BB's keep getting bigger & now getting sore, I have horrible M/s but havn't quite vomited yet but close to it. I really hope that when it gets that bad DH will be next to my side holding my hair. Hes due to be home tomarrow at midnight. I will also getting my BT resutls back toamrrow.

Babyfever--You went out and got wasted after you got a BFP the other day? :o I know it was your b-day, but with the extremes that most of us go thru to become pg, I don't think you should be bragging about getting drunk and vomiting while you're waiting for BT results telling you whether or not you're pg! I mean no disrespect in any way.... just seems inconsiderate to boast about things like that when some of us have completely cut alcohol,caffeine, and smoking out of our diets in an effort to produce healthy, sticky bubs! I hope you understand where I'm coming from and aren't offended.... but I can tell you it offends ME to hear it--especially with AF standing on my front porch waiting to pounce! Sorry.... just had to get that off my chest.... I'm sure I won't be the only one offended by it, tho....so be prepared!

Krystie--Oooh, girl, give me strength! :rolleyes: I think I'm feeling some PMS coming on! If not for your BFP, I would think that Sept. was a total waste... I'm so truly happy for you that you got yours--sincerely--I hope you know that! :hug:


Hope you decided to take a sickie today--and if you did, I hope it's not because you're really feeling sick! Feel better soon! Miss you bunches! *kiss*



Angel--:pray: :hug: :pray: :pink-babydust:



Toccara--:hug: Hope your DH is home and you're enjoying your weekend with him! Thinking of you!



Hi plc! Hugs and :bellyrubs:

mollycat--It's happy crappy Monday for you, isn't it? Hope you kids are good today! Haven't heard about the renos much.... how's it going? Big :hug:



jenushka--Thinking of you! :hug:

Yes, I did a stupid thing knowing I was pregnant. I shouldn't have even picked up anything like that to drink and I felt horrible afterwards. I should have never listened to what my OB's nurse said about it being to early to hurt anything & to go ahead. I think she just told me to go do it because the fact they don't think I'm pregnant just because of that one blood draw they had on Tuesday.

I have been beating myself up every since that night & it hurts. All, I did that night was cry and pray to God that my baby was safe & to forgive the sins I did that night of drinking. I should have just gone out and had a good time without the Aholahal. It was wrong of me I should have just gone with my instincts and not have touched it, I wish I could take that night back & fix everything but I cant its too late. All, I can do is pray that bub's is okay and not do it again. Which I never will.

I Have been smoke free for about 2 months now & I only drink water, Tea, Or milk anymore. I did have some caffeine with my 2 pregnancy's (the girls) But, once and a blue moon because I hate chocolate.

So please girls, I know what I did was wrong & I trust me I'm never touching liqure pregnant/or not again. It did not feel good. I'm sorry & all of you have a right to be upset with me.

Angel - my thoughts, prayers and deluxe special positive vibes will be express chanelled to you today. I hope all went well with trigger and that today everyone does what they are supposed to do! :pray: and :hug: sweetheart! I really just want it so bad for you, BB!!

Jen - my thoughts are with you too - hope AF gets the not so subtle hint that she isn't wanted at your doorstep. I think you are quite a force having the guts to say things in this forum and looking out for everyone as you always do :hug:

hello and hugs to Issy, Easha, Mollycat (:hug:), dellydoo, Toccara, jenushka, Van, Chappas, WTH, Megsmum, Ruthie and the other lovelies I have missed.

krystie - keep looking after yourself :hug:

Jen- I'm sorry that I offended you you had your right to say what you did. I'm terribly sorry that AF is on her way I really hope she does not show up. :hug: I know theres not much more I can say but to try to be here for you. I have been praying for you and your family to have a beautiful BFP very soon. I know you have been through a lot and trying hard to get to wear you need to be. :hug:. I hope your weekend went well.


Krystie- I'm glad to see your family was very excited. :hug: Sounded like a wonderful time. I :pray: things keep going well for you.


Angel-:pray: That DH little swimmers go were they need to go! I hope your IUI went well. And, hopefully here in a few weeks you get your BFP. How was your weekend? Its Monday there today right?

Jen - Yep, crappy monday - hoping the kids will be lovely today. Four in today 1x4yo, 1x3yo and 2x 2yo. Still feeling a little sick (not crappy like last week) just got a cough that won't leave. Reno's still going on (just very slowly) we've pulled out the old bath tub, still got the vanity and toilet to pull out, the wall on the vanity's side to rip out and the floor. Everything else is gone (looks very messy as we haven't taken all the old timber outside yet. I think i've convinced DH that it needs to be done soon as he was in there working yesterday morning.
I've been re-arranging the house all weekend, moved my computer out to the new area, (so now I can watch the kids and the computer), although the three year old is here now and he's sitting in the loungeroom watching television - can't win. When the next one arrives i'll have to turn it off and bring them out to play. I've finally got new curtains for the back windows as the morning sun comes in (which is lovely but will be too hot soon)

I was just told that my ex-client who fell pg just after my m/c (this is the one that had a little baby and feel pg without trying) has had a little boy. Either I'm getting over myself or i'm totally horrible. I'm so glad it was a boy (the father already has five boys and two girls - it is her second boy she has two girls as well) because I know if it was a girl they were going to use the name we have in mind for our girl (WHEN we get one) - see positive thinking.

Good morning beautiful women.

Angel - Fingers and toes crossed for you today and a huge :hug:. I'm also having a big belly laugh for you and sending over all my angels to you. I :pray: you are blessed today.

Jen - I know that 7 months isn't that long to be trying but it must feel like forever for you. I had to wait 3 months (2 cycles) before my doc gave us the green light and that felt so long. I kept thinking that I'm just wasting precious baby making & baking time. Apparently you can't rush this process, but it feels like a race to me.

Unfortunately for us we need to get pregnant again so we can determine if my other fallopian tube is blocked. If it is we have to operate again to remove it and then we can commence IVF. Our doc said that if I lost my first angel because of a blocked tube then we will more than likely have the same experience with my other tube. So I'm a little nervous about what might happen and that my body might do this again to my next angel, but like my DH said we don't have a choice unless we want to stop trying for a baby. That's definitely not an option for us. If it does happen again I've got a 5-6 month turn around before we can start IVF (2 months of pregnancy and then at least 3 months recovery). Unfortunately, I think of everything as a time frame now.

This is going to sound horrible, but when the doc told me I had an ectopic pregnancy I rang my family and asked them all to pray that I would m/c our angel. I found out in the morning that I would be operated on that night (I called that operation a compulsory abortion - I'm all for pro choice but abortions would never been an option for me) and at the time a m/c sounded like the better of the two evils. Unfortunately, our prayers weren't answered, but apparently I should be grateful that I survived. I didn't feel very grateful for agreeing to that operation. I know I didn't have a choice and my bubba would have past away anyway, but she was still alive and her little heart was still beating when I went into that operation and that really hurts me to think about.

What a sad sack I am.

Molly- You are brave darling:hug: I think I would be terribly ****ed if someone did that (used the name we were going to use type thing). I'm glad your happy for her & trying to be supportive even though its hard. You have not lost it your just hurt. Its totally understandable where you come from. It's not easy.

Annabee- :hug: I really hope that your Tube is not blocked & that you get pregnant with a baby that is in a healthy place to grow strong at. Did they not check or do a dye test afterwards to make sure? I really hope you don't have to go through all that & that when you do get your BFP things will go well for you. :pray: that your tubes are not blocked darling. I don't believe in abortions myself unless (the mom has a condition that will kill her, AKA eptopic as one of them, Or the baby has a conditon where he/she wont make it at birth). So, don't down yourself you never really went against yourself on abortions if you continued to let the baby grow you could have been seriously sick and could have died. And, about your toy.. Lol. Whats it called may I ask?? I wanna see what it looks like.. :-D. That sucks that the batterys died. Are they replacable??

BabyFever - I don?t know if I?m breaking any rules on this forum by putting this on, I?m not promoting the website I?m just using it for it?s picture of our new toy. Sorry in advance if this offends anyone, but it?s basically turns my DH into a vibrating doodle. Honestly, it was pretty good during the short time the batteries lasted.

Mollycat ? I totally understand what you?re going through. Many years ago one of my workmates (we were actually really great friends) fell pregnant and we were talking about baby names and I told her the name I would use one day for my baby girl. I didn?t really think anything of it, until a week later we were eating in the lunchroom and she announces that baby names they had chosen. Wouldn?t you believe it, she said my baby girl?s name. I nearly fell off my chair. I was shocked and pinged off. That was just wrong. She ended up having two children over the next few years ?.. both boys. I think it was karma. I was secretly a little glad too that they were boys. You never steel baby names off your close friends.

BabyFever - What time is it where you live? Is it Sunday or Monday? It's 11am Monday where I'm at. Just wondering when you get your BT results. I'm thinking it might be Sunday where you are. You must be hanging out for those results.

I've thought of an upside of having an ectopic pregnancy, who would have thought there was one. When we fall pregnant next time the doc will start doing scan from about 5 weeks. The norm at his office is a 10 week scan and apparently you can't request earlier scans or so I've read (unless there have complications of course). I can't wait to see my little bubble with my healthy bubba inside with a strong heartbeat. Last time we had an empty bubble in my uterus and my bubba got left behind in my fallopian tube. Not really sure what happened there. I'm just :pray: that our next bubba has more of a slip n slide experience through my other tube and comes flying out the other end and crashes straight into my uterus wall (we call it my cocoon and my papa calls it my nest) and snuggles in for the long haul.

Mistyfying - Ooops! I'm so sorry about that. Is that because of the nature of the image or because it was classed as advertising another website or both. This is my first forum I've ever been on so I'm still learning the ropes. I have just read through the guidelines, however am I permitted to have a link to a song on YouTube or is that classed as advertising another site. I never meant to intentionally break the rules, so I'm just checking before I put on another link. :)

So I've lurked for a long time and never joined but I read lots of threads and feel like I know some of you ladies real well! What caused me to post is BabyFever. Getting that drunk after so many BFP's? That just didn't mesh with how bad you seem to want to be pregnant so badly and then I saw your siggy with the year "2003" as the year of your 19w loss, and again, something didn't seem right and this quote from you explained why: ,

"I havn't fallen pregnant again yet after the recent loss I had But, I do know its scary I lost a baby at 19 W exactly over 3 years ago and Its been hard everytime I fell pregnant I was always afraid to see the nightmear I had happen. I know its hard to hear and say to yourself try to relax. But sometimes when you stress out more its not good on the baby nor you either..."

Could be a typo, but I would think you, of all people would remember the date of such a horrible, horrible experience. I know I do, down to the second, and will never ever forget that second, minute, hour, day, month, and especially year that has changed me forever!

Sorry ladies for just jumping in here. I'm sure it looks strange to everyone that a stranger just pops up even though I feel like I've grown close to so many of your stories over the past couple of months. I will delete this post if I am causing trouble or offending anyone. I've just been burnt a few times and all kinds of things can happen on the internet.

Hey jen jen yeah my DH comes home every weekend ... he got sick on friday so I had to take care of him all weekend I hope him being sick don't effect his training ...

Leary- I lost my baby exactly in 2003 in January, And I had another loss that I lost 3 years ago 2006 that I did not put in my siggy. I remember every waking detail to my losses and will never forget them. I was almost going to be 17 so I was about 16 1/2 when I lost my first child & then my second was 3 years ago. With your siggys being able to only have so much to hold because of the guidelines I had to make get as much as possible in before I got cut off. With me going to post my HCG numbers tomorrow I wanted to make sure I could get my angel babies in. I had 2 wonderful full term pregnancies shortly after my first two losses, then I had 3 losses this year.

I think I'm going to go ahead an go MIA for awhile till the tread calms down. I had already apologized for my mistakes and cried all night that night and tonight once again for it.. .All, I can is say sorry for all the hearts I broke. No ones perfect and I know I sure am not perfect & never will be. I really regret that night, And I totally cannot take it back but wish I could. I feel like crawling in a whole now because I feel so bad. I now feel like the worst parent in the world..

Anna-Its Sunday here, Its 10:29 PM atm..

This is a thread for TTC after miscarriage. As such kindness, compassion and sensitivity to others needs to be the filter that is used prior to posting.

I have culled some posts as they IMO are not fitting for this thread. Lets keep on task - if you wish to discuss your sexual life there is an AO forum you can apply to. My suggestion is that you do this.

Discussions such as the ones that have been deleted with regard to drinking etc are not acceptable in this thread due to the lack of sensitivity and compassion that they represent.

Anneebee: I suggest you go back and read the forum guidelines carefully and all your questions will have answers.

Oh, I see. I was like "Wait, 2003 would have been 5 years ago not 3!" I guess when you said "3 years ago" maybe you were just thinking of the year 2003. I'm just paranoid I guess and catch things all the time that make me think Hmmm....ya know? After getting close to someone in another TTC forum and then finding out they faked having cancer (seriously!!) I have a hard time trusting people, which is probably why I lurk and don't post. Annnnnddd back to lurking now......