Executive Decision....... I m chucking a sickie on Monday to "rest up" after the IUI.... I hope the boss dont mind.. I hear she can be a grumpy cow........ *mooooooo*..... hehehehe.... i m still sending DH into work though ;) No day off for him... goodness... his part of the day leaves him with a smile on his face :lol:
For me... I m picturing a movie in bed.... feet up... relaxed :clap:
Hi to everyone, I am new to this thread so I apologise for starting off with a querie right away but.........
I wanna know if others who are ttc think every month that they are pregnant? I mean like right now I am thinking I am. Just been feeling a bit nausea and really hungry. I am always getting my hopes up, then they come crashing down again when I'm not. My monthly has started coming up to two weeks late so I get even more excited by how over due it is then I get it and fall into a deep depression. This has been happening every month since my last little miracle left me. I wanted to hit the doctor when he suggested that when I am that late it could be a m/c. I mean how rude, haven't I had enough that I know about without him telling me I could have had more. I am scared enough that every pregnancy since my husband and I married has been a miscarriage and that we might never have a bub together, not that he doesn't think of my boys as his too. But you know.....
So yeah enough waffling, just wanted to know if others get the same feeling that they are pregnant but are also too scared to test but then it turns out you aren't, but then you think it the following month as well and so on.
jen + Jenushka - thanks I'm :pray: the vomiting stops soon too!
Mummy of 3 - welcome to this thread, all the women in here are great and I find we help each other out so much even though sometimes we're on the other side of the world. I can't really help out too much in your case, I have only been pregnant twice. Once was an ectopic and with my current pregnancy I knew I was pregnant straight away. Could feel implatation cramps and was hungry all the time. So maybe your feelings are correct, but if that is this case then I hate to even suggest this but maybe doc is right also. Has your doc looked into the reason behind the m/c?? Don't mean to upset you at all:hug:
larz- thank you so much for replying. In answer to your question about the doctors looking into the mc's it's a yes and no..... my last bubby tully was formed with an immature egg which passed down through my damaged tube. They checked that one and when I lost Dom they said there was "no known reason" but they never did tests on me, just her :(. All up I have had 11 pregnancies, I have 3 healthy sons and the rest were angels before they were 20weeks. I know I have only mentioned two but that is only because I feel neglectful and like people will think I don't care as to the fact I don't have the exact dates. I did love them all but the other 6 were very early and each time I had a breakdown afterwards so my memory is blurry. I had the wrong doctors from the start who were never supportive due to my age and the fact they said it was a "good" thing because I already had 3 sons and I should be happy with them and not dwell on things out of my control.
I am still feeling like maybe I am this month, but trying oh so hard not to get my hopes up. Hubby is used to me saying it, he just says "don't tell me that, or you'll get my hopes up too" and sometimes when I'm not he says "I really thought you were this time". Thanx again:)
Mum of 3...... Standard stuff unfortunately..... EVERY last twinge, thought, feeling is a 'sign' and no matter how many times you tell yourself to think logically... stuck in your head is... its this month.. these 'signs' are strong..... blah blah blah......every now and again you get a month where you think.. na... its not this month... but they are the rare ones....
Now as for that DR..... hmm I have a standard way of doing things now since being pretty much emotionally crippled thanks to the thoughtlessness of my first FS.... If you dont like how they talk to you... CHANGE..... dont care about how qualified they are.... if their bedside manner sucks then out I go. My First FS was or still is the "leader in his field" even had a very high position in the AMA... but his bedside manner was the absolute worst. Wont go on about what he did... done that enough in here over the last 8 months.....Lets just say he needs a good slap.
Now back to the feeling PG.... I cheat..... From about 10 DPO i test. Every day I test. My theory is that maybe just maybe it will show that early, but when i get a BFN then in my head i m thinking.... well its too early.... so i test the following day... again if its BFN then again... well its too early...... by the time i have tested for about 4 or whatever days and AF finally arrives... then i m not so cut up because i ve just had 5 or so days of BFN so it all seems just that little bit easier to deal with..... The one time that I went a different way and thought.. YEP this is it.. this month for sure.. blah blah blah... I was DEVISTATED when AF arrived.
Well there you go.. for what is worth.... that s what I do.
mum of 3..... Age becomes less relevant when you have already had pregnancies that resulted in a healthy baby.... It still is relevant but not as much..... easiest way of putting it... your body already know s what it has to do. I also have 2 healthy children.. and am certainly no spring chicken....BUT everything my end is in order.... Its DH (who by the way is younger ;) ) that we need to find a solution for....
Last year I rushed into IVF.... i kept hearing the FS.... "if we get the eggs now then they will be 38.... if we wait and those eggs get older"..... blah blah blah... dooom and gloom. So everything was rush rush rush... Now here I am knocking on the door of 40 and had a scan this morning showing 6 eggs but more importantly... 2 huge healthy beautiful ones..... Now thats not bad for nearly 40.
Looks like you might need to be bendin over and telling that nice DR of yours to kiss your Ar$e ... ohhhh i know.... im too blunt sometimes.....my bad :cryinglaugh:
Hi girlies!! Just popped in to say hi. Miss you all. Hope you are all UTD soon. All is well with me. Booked in for an U/S in 3 weeks. All is well. Take care.
Mummy of 3 - I kind of knew each month whether I was UTD or not. I just had a 'feeling'. Have you been POAS? Perhaps you should be, then if you are MCing early, you might be able to get some help and hopefully in no time you will be carrying a little bubba in your belly. Take care.
Ready everyone .... catch :pink-babydust::bluedust::pink-babydust::bluedust::pink-babydust::bluedust::pink-babydust::bluedust:
It's fine, I like people who are blunt. I don't see those Drs anymore, havne't for a while. That's how it was though when I did see them. Thanks for replying. Better get off the comp now, hubby is feeling a bit neglected.. but it's just so good to be able to talk openly to people who understand!
YOU LADIES ARE AWESOME!!!!!!!
:ROFL: Neglected Hubbies....Hmmmmmm I would think that most of the ladies in here have hubbies/partners that feel that maybe we spend to much time in here......My hubbie... love him..... sits there at night time when i m in the chatroom with Jen Jen, Krystie or BB..sits there saying.... are you nearly finished...can we go home now...and he sits there playing his computer game while we sit ther nattering about all sorts of silly stuff.... He has learnt though... now he asks me whats happening... he knows everyone.... and wants to know what everyone is up to... so each time i m lauging i have to tell him whats happened and what I m laughing at...... UNLESS of course its secret squirral stuff... then he just gets a blank look of me and a Don No:rolleyes:
So tell Hubby.... welcome welcome welcome..... if its anything...he will be happy with how much better you feel by being able to 'dump' all the crap with people who understand. I know my hubby is greatful for this site... it gave me back my sanity and made me human again faster than without it.... now that put a smile on his face.
Angel's right! Get the hubby involved :ROFL: My poor hubby has to sit there wondering why I'm giggling insanely to myself some nights when I'm in the chat room!
Sorry you've had to join this thread MummyOf3Boys. You've definitely found a wonderful place though. I don't know how I would have coped if it weren't for the amazing ladies in here. Not only did they help me get through my darkest days, but I've also formed some true friendships that I cherish :)
Hi to all of my wonderful friends, old & new, in TTCAML. I actually had a huge post typed out the other night (with personals & all) but I lost it. :computer:
I just wanted to pop in & say hi and spread some :pink-babydust::bluedust: and give you all a big big :hug:
Nickster - it was fab to see you in here & thanks for the update. Wow - you are getting so close now.
Am always thinking of you all. Hope to see some more BFP's very soon! ! !
I'm doing well - getting lots of nice little kicks which is lovely (and very reassuring).
AJC... always great to see you pop in..... maybe there should be a thread halfway between TTC and PAML.... somewhere halfway in the middle where everyone can hang for as long as they want... .maybe even add in Parenting AML... ohhh what the heck.. add in another one... Was TTC but quit... but dont want to go anywhere and miss everyone .....lol... leave my name on the list for that one... its pretty much how I feel every month....:lol:
Good Friday morning gurlies!
mollycat...I'm thinking of you too...thanks for sending the smiles disguised as emails! Congrats on 17 years...what a wonderful accomplishment! I am so sorry about your family friend...so tragic. I have been having massive headaches...for me it's stress I'm sure. Take care.
Issy...LOL...for some crazy reason yesterday early menopause creeped into my mind...my cycles are regular but for some reason...I've been thinking it...
jen...I am sooooooo hoping for you to get a :bfp:
Angel...gosh...I cried reading your post...I know all to well about the ugly cry...I support your decision for Monday 100% good choice!
Adele...retreat sounds awesome...I am envious! Enjoy...relax...heal
jenushka...*wavin*
larz...I hope you feel better soon...bubs will be worth every second of sickness
AJC...thanks for the update...we miss you gurly!
:pink-babydust::bluedust:
:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:
Where is everyone today? JEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNN!!!!
I know, I know, I've always posted by now.... I've just been so busy all morning! Just got back from running errands, and now have to go to work at the school, after that it's book fair! So glad it's Friday! :dance: Will have to do all my persies this afternoon when I get home, sorry girls!
smi--Happy Friday! :woot: Hope things are looking up for you and you're feeling a little better! :hug: Hope you have a great weekend!
:groupgug: for the Fantastic 4! Love you all! *kiss*
Oh, mollycat--I got your e-mails, just haven't had time to respond.... thanks for sending them! I'm truly very sorry about your friend! :hug: Will get back to you later, as well!
:hello: and hugs for everyone! :pink-babydust: :bluedust: :stickyvibesgirl:
Better post in the bottem.. lol.. I did an opps post
Jenuska-:hello: How are you darling? Hopefully well or hanging in there. What you got planned for weekend? I find it odd that it shows up in urine and not BT either. But, I found out more about why it could be..I will post that in my ATM part..
Mumof3-:hug: I hope you are this month darling! Sorry that sometimes people say things that are not so nice or kind to hear expechally when were trying so hard! I really wish you luck. You and your fam are in my prayers for a BFP soon.
Angel-Your so funny sometimes its good to be blunt sometimes. Though when I am sometimes I'm a little too blunt! :rofl:. How are you? Ready for the weekend hunny?
Joey-:hug: :hello: Glad to see you popped on! I cannot wait to hear how your U/s goes! Hopefully very well! Lots of prayers darling!..
Krystielove-:hello: OMG! 5 weeks already! :-O Wow time goes by fast really does! I'm so happy for you. Glad to see you on. How are you feeling darling?
AJ-:hug: Hey darling, Glad to see you on. OMG sorry you lost your post. I have done that a few times and it is so frusterating!.. How are you doing?
ATM-I called to get another BT test done today & I asked well is there a number or just below 5. She said well since its below 5 and that means not pregnant than we don't have numbers just says below 5. I told her I said well, I guess then my BT could be sitting at number 4 if all we know because I'm still getting positives. She said yep, She goes someone told you wrong it doesn't mean your HCG is at 0. Cuz I got a differant nurse today. So, No wonder why I was still getting positives. I know a few girls that got Positives on the First Repsnoe and only had a number of 2 HCG in there body. But, Today I did get another BLZAING positive so Its way darker than the days before and the day of my BT or equal too it. They got faint after awhaile and then jumped up today again!.. So, I called back when I came home and tested with Urine after I got my Bloods drawn(Progesterone & HCG) and said can I please get progesterone supps? She said no because we don't know if your pregnant or not since your Bloods on tuesday was negitive. I said to her that I tried to bring my HPTS from home but the nurse that gave the OK to get my bloods taken told me not too. She goes yep because it could be someone elses pee sticfk!!! WTHF!?? I cannot belive they said that. So I have to wait till monday to get my Blood results back and progesterone supplements hopeuflly. I'm so scared right now. That I might loos this baby again.
Oh Babyfever - that SUCKS, I cannot believe you have to wait so long with such worry. I hope all is well honey and am praying for you :hug:
Smilanatu - thanks I am so looking forward to it - I love the thought of waltzing around in a fluffy robe for a few days!
Mummy of 3 - people say ridiculous things don't they - I hope you have the right doctors now.
AJC - I just love hearing about babies kicking!
AFM - I had my first counselling session and it was fantastic. I cried and talked and felt wonderful afterwards. Yesterday I took 2 dozen cupcakes to all the staff at Mater in Brisbane who looked after me. It felt so good!
Hugs to you all
Adele
Hey Angel, I do believe that there IS actually something of an in-between.... isn't that what the social groups are all about? :think: Some members get together and make a group... others have to request to join... I think that's how it works. Will have to poke around the site and try to find out some info on it.
Yay for a sickie day on Monday! :dance: So you heard the boss can be a grumpy cow, huh? That's funny, I heard she was the funniest, sweetest, smart arsiest, most generous and dedicated person you could hope to meet! Not to mention very loyal to her friends! ;) That's just what I heard.....
I just have to give your DH props, as well.... it's true, he's so sweet to hang out AT WORK of all places just so we can chat! Yay, Mr. Angel! :clap:
One more thing.... secret squirrel.... :rofl:
Sorry, I lied, one more thing.... :pink-babydust: :bluedust: hugs and *kiss*
Ok, so I've used up all my smilies..... this completes my "Angel" post! Will finish persies on next pg!
jenushka--Woo hoo! for O time! :dance: Have you got your BD'ing shoes on??? :bd: Glad to hear you had a safe trip, although I'm sure it was an emotional one. Big :hug:
mummyO3B--:welcome: I'm so sorry for the many losses you've had to endure :hug: 4's been pretty rough on me, I couldn't imagine 8! You're definitely not alone in your thinking! It's amazing how deceiving our body's become after a m/c.... it can drive you crazy!
My DF has adjusted quite well to my time here.... I'm sure that once your DH realizes how you can vent and unload on us, instead of him, he'll see the value in our support system! :lol: Truthfully, my DF would rather not be reminded of sad, painful times, it's easier for him to "not think about it" so he doesn't "dwell" on it.... men don't do sympathy and empathy as well as women do! So in saying that, please feel free anytime to vent, cry, scream, yell, complain, whatever you need to do.... it's what we all do/have done many times--and that's what we're here for!
:hello: AJC!!! Thanks for stopping in! Sending lots of :bellyrubs:
dellydoo--So glad to hear you enjoyed your counseling! I know you weren't sure how it would help, so it's great to hear you say it was fantastic!! I hope it helps! :hug:
Sorry, have to finish dinner real quick.... DF just got home from work.... will have to finish persies in a bit! :grouphug:
:ROFL: .... ohhh Jen Jen you sooooo Crack me up.... here I am... back at work... in my office... everyone downstairs thinks i m working..:lol: ... quickly catching up on post (im mean after all.. it has been whole night since i read them)... and i m reading yours and just laughing... then trying to be quiet incase the staff hear me laughing and wonder what I m doing.... so i m doing those little sniggle laughs....:lol: now as for what you heard about my boss..... Shhhhhh I have a reputation to protect :doh:
Ohhh and by the way... the "social group" sounds FANTASTIC...... FABULOUS....
As for Mr Angel.. i woke him up to take him home and he turned into a gruble bum..... then when we got home he stayed downstairs and then when he came to bed he was all sweet again.... bloody hell.. talk about pre menstral :wall:
Its about a 70/30 split at the moment.... 70% love love love......30% needs a good slappin ..... see now he just calls me in the office from downstairs all sweet again... i tell you what.. he s going to do my head in:woman:
Babyfever... Blunt is something i never used to be..... its one of the traits i have picked up since loosing my little angels...... where i used to have all the time in the world... bent over backwards always.... i would be blunt in my head but never directly..... now my world has changed... and i just dont have time for people who make things difficult or pi$$ me off. Tell you what... it saves a heck of a lot of time..;) As for your tests.... just run with it hun.... keep POAS... collect them if you want... make a wall collage out of them ....LOL..... but dont let DRs and Nurses get you down... they aint worth it
SMI..... we were in chat hun... you didnt come in :(
FAB FAB FAB FAB 4
Hi ladies,
Babyfever I'm sorry the nurses have been so inconsiderate. I hope your levels have jumped up dramatically and you can prove them wrong :goodluck2:
Jen When you gona POAS???? I have been waiting, must be soon right? Does it feel like AF is coming if so :whip: get back. I have my fingerscrossed.
Dellydoo Glad to hear your counseling session went well and that you felt better afterwards. I hope you can start seeing the light at then end of the tunnel again soon :hug:
Angel baby I hear you about your DH he must be on the same menstrual cycle as my DH cause my DH was such a grumpy bum last night and today. I will just try and keep my space until he chills out.
Jenushka Have fun baby dancing hope the :sperm: & egg meet up.
Mum of 3 :welcome: I am sorry for you losses you will feel at home here as we all understand what you are going through. I'm sorry you had to experience the heart ache and the emotional roller coaster of a m/c but it does get easier.
Kristy & Joey :bellyrubs:Glad to see your both doing well and still dropping in and checking up on everyone you give us hope that our dreams are possible.
AFM DH got his :sperm: back yesterday and his DNA fragmentation has decreased from >30 to only 9% :dance: I couldn't believe it. I was walking around work all day with this cheesy grin. Hopefully this means that our problems have been fixed and we get a sticky BFP.
Tam - that is great news about your DH's sperm DNA fragmentation ...what a big improvement! I know you did mention that your FS had got him to take a supplement ... is that right? Was it menevit? Although I'd never say anything to dh I have a sneaking suspicion that if he were ever tested it may have shown something similar ... would be interested to know what your dh is taking... :crossfingers: for a sticky bean for you next time round :)
dellydoo - how wonderful of you to do cupcakes for the staff at the mater that had looked after you... I have always been well-looked after there (When I had ds, and also the 2 d&c's this year after my miscarriages). I'm sure they don't get thank you's like that as often as they deserve. Would love to know where you went for your counselling as I'm probably not too far from you and have been trying to find a good counsellor close by.
babyfever - thank you, I'm doing well, and just have a quiet weekend planned ... sounds like your situation is still as confusing as ever - poor thing! I bet your latest bt comes back a lovely shiny bfp and then we can all celebrate!!
smi - :hello: back!
jen - how's it going there chicky? What else is news in Jen-Land? I saw a segment on Napa Valley on a travel show last night and wondered how far that is from you... looked so beautiful it made me get up and pour myself a lovely glass of wine! Take care, hope you're well - thinking of you
AFM - temp behaving normally again, and got a neg on my opk this morning. I know morning isn't the best time to test so I'll try again at about 3-ish this arvo. Will prob bd anyway just in case
Just looked at the calendar and realised that my m/c follow-up ob appt is 6 days away - that's when we'll get the results from the last m/c. I know from last time it's going to be a tough day, stirring up all the sadness again, but am hoping we get some answers this time too. Not sure if dh can come as he has only just started his new job, but I know if he can't, then I'll have all of you in there with me too (and certainly not going to put up with any crap, like "it was just bad luck" ...uh-uh, try again ob-lady ;)
Very hungry, off to rustle up some lunch ....
*mwah!*
xx
Babyfever--:goodluck2: with your results on Monday... sorry you have to wait over the weekend. At least by then the numbers should've increased if you are pg!
Tam--:woot: Congrats on DH's :sperm: results!
Me--I don't think I'll be POAS... I've been crampy all day, so I'm sure that fatty fat face AF will come knocking soon. If I had higher temps I'd be more optimistic, but comparing this month to the previous, it's pretty close to the same... *sigh*
mollycat--Hope you enjoy your Anniversary! The story of your friend was so sad! :( Your whole family must have just been in shock! :hug: I hope that despite the sad memories this weekend brings, you're able to enjoy your special day with your DH.... I truly feel that your friend would want you to celebrate her life by enjoying the day of your marriage. Big, big :hug:
jenushka--We must have posted at the same time! Not really sure how far Napa Valley is, but I live in wine country, so there's tons of wineries around here! Buggers that I don't drink wine! :doh: That's kinda like working in a cigarette shop when you don't smoke! :lol: Or working in a bar when you don't drink alcohol! :rofl:
I hope DH gets to come with you for your appt. next week. But like you said, if not, we'll all be there with you in spirit! Ask Angel, Krystie and I were just with her at her eggie scan! ;) I remember how tough it was for you last time, but at least you had some questions answered, so I hope you find some closure again this time. We'll be here for a big :grouphug: afterwards!
Toccara--Thinking of you! :hug: Is DH visiting for the weekend?
Krystie--Special :hug: for you and little Chyan! Am very impressed that little Chyan already has more brain cells than Paris Hilton! :rofl: LC (little Chyan) can you say "that's hot"? :lol:
So how did those tic tacs work on your nausea? Hope you're feeling better! :hug: *kiss*
Hi girls. This is my first time to use a forum (yes I?m a virgin forum user at 34 ? pretty sad I know). However, I?ve read hundreds of forums over the past few months. This forum is the one that I continue to come back to because of the love and support that you ladies embrace each other with.
I have been trying not to bother people with the emotional roller coaster ride that I?m living through at the moment, but in this forum you ladies have shown me that you can just let out all your emotions and everyone totally understands the feelings each other is experiencing. I must admit that I have been crying and laughing with you ladies in silence for too long.
I come here with an open (but broken) heart. Like everyone here I lost my angel, to an ectopic pregnancy. The devastation is unbelievable. The doctors have given the green light to start trying again, but unfortunately we were unsuccessful this month (our first month trying again), which has started another flood of emotions. Poor DH.
Then I found out that my friend is pregnant and her baby is due the same week our baby was. You ladies have been talking about the ?ugly cry? this week. Well I?ve gotta tell you my poor DH copped the biggest ugly cry this week that I have ever done in public. I felt like Linda Blair on the Exorcist with my head trying to uncontrollably swing sideway while I?m making this horrific noise (and at times no noise just a huge open mouth), not to mention what my face must look like. It was this incident that has lead me here, because I know that I need the support of you ladies who understand where I?m at emotionally and to help me heal. I also want to support you girls too, because I believe that is part of my healing process.
Thanks for listening. Sorry my post turned into a short novel. I would just like to give you all a big :grouphug: for all your loses and the crazy times we are all going through.
Hi anneebee--:welcome: I'm sorry to hear of the loss of your angel baby and your fallopian tube. :hug: I'm glad, tho, that you found an open window to our little thread, and you've been able to see how understanding and supportive everyone is around here. I hope we can help you in finding some light at the end of the tunnel. It made me smile to read that you've been "crying and laughing with us in silence". It's kinda like you already know us! I look forward to getting to know you on this journey that brings us here together! :hug:
anneebee3 - welcome hun. I found the support of this thread a life-saver when I was TTC and even tho I am now pg I find it hard to leave and try to still support the girls as much as I can. The memory of what I emotionally went thru each month before my BFP finally came is still so raw and fresh in my memory. I don't think you ever forget the extreme desperation, frustration, anger, disappointment, hopelessness feelings associated with TTC, let alone enduring the loss of an angel before you were able to hold them in your arms. Not even what I said here adequately describes the feelings. I know about that horrible, horrible, horrible cry. I'm so sorry for your loss and sorry you needed to come here in the first place. I hope your time here is one of healing, stay as long as you need and then some. Big hugs sweet - we know what you are going thru.
Hi Jen. Here's a big :hug: straight back at ya. From all the posts I've been reading on this forum you surely are one of the rocks. You are always so positive and optomistic. I've noticed that the girls turn to you in need. You're a real treasure for this forum.
My first BIG crying session on this forum was for Ruthie. I really hope she's ok. Ruthie I'm so sorry for your loss. :hug:
I know that everyone is different, but i would like to know how long I will continue to mourn for my angel. It's been 3 months since I lost her and I can still cry at a drop of hat for her. Does it get better once I'm pregnant again or once I've got a baby in my arms or do I mourn for her for the rest of my life?
plc - Congratulations on your little girl and thank you for being here for me. Your post was very comforting. However understanding everyone is on this forum, i'm still glad you girls will never EVER see my ugly cry. hahaha. Can you answer my mourning question? Has being pregnant helped let go of your angels?
Ok.... well this my last post until Tuesday...... Wont be near the computer tomorrow and Monday is IUI day and then home to bed with a movie.....
anneebee3.....sorry to see you here but welcome..... I have to confess to laughing at your post... obviously not in a mean way... I was laughing at the way you discribed your Ugly cry... funny how I dont have a clue what you look like yet I can pitcure you doing it.. head back and forth.. it made me laugh..... I suppose thats one of the great things about us in here... we understand.. we dont underestimate how painful it is... but we can try and find something to soften the pain..... humour is the most common one that helps to soften... so is being there for others and knowing they are there for you..... So welcome.... I dont always laugh.....but you made me laugh today.
Welcome hun.. and hopefully you wont be here long :hug:
Ohhh and anneebee3.......... the fog will lift hun... I promise.... its ONE DAY AT A TIME..... ONE BREATH AT A TIME..... ONE MOMENT AT A TIME....then one day the fog will lift and you will be able to "be" a little easier......
Thank you Angel. I'm glad you are laughing today. Laughing is one of my favourite things to do. I've got a really loud, santa belly wobbling laugh, where I find myself leaning backwards holding my stomach. One of those laughs where you get weird looks from people because it's just too loud. I was told once by a work mate that said she always knew where I was in the office because she could hear me laughing.
I've also been told that laughing attracts angels into your life because angels love to be around joy and positivity. Now that I've got my own little angel up there I need to make sure I keep laughing so she will want to hang out with me every day. Come to think of it, laughing brought you (Angel) to me today, so it must be true. :)
Here's a big :hug: for Monday. I'll be thinking of you. Just in case it's true have a big laugh before you go to your appointment so that your little angels are with you and can help you.
Anneebee - Please excuse Jen. Apparently she didn't realise that not only is the window open to our thread, but the door is wide open too! Feel free to come in the door rather than trying to climb through the window ;) But you are totally right; Jen is our rock, and Angel is our God-send with her words. Well, they definitely were for me anyway. Then you have the rest of our gorgeous crew who act as the perfect backup. While I'm terribly sorry for the events that have led you to search for us, I am so very glad that you found us.
To answer your question about grieving time and if it gets better once you are pregnant again...? I think the grieving process is different for everyone. I am now lucky enough to have a baby growing in my belly, and yet a couple of days ago I still found myself weeping quietly for my angel baby. It doesn't mean I love this little bundle any less, but I still love the baby that I'll never get to hold in my arms, only in my heart. Lucky my heart is nice and big and there is plenty of room for both my angel baby, my little chyan, and for all the lovely girls in here :hug:
Good luck on your journey sweetie!
Oh and Jen, you had me cracking up with your "that's hot" comment!!! I had to tell DH why I was laughing! :ROFL:
PS. Telling my parents today! We were planning on waiting until after next friday's scan, but I don't think I can hide the morning sickness. They would have gotten suspicious when I don't go to work tomorrow too, lol. DH's family are getting told second as punishment for trying to spoil the surprise and being so suspicious already :ROFL: Also, it's the first grandchild for my family, and the 6th for DH's, so it's only fair that my family get the "surprise" first :)
Thank you KrystieLove. I was wondering about that window and how long I had to be part of this forum before I get a key to the door. ha ha ha. Only kidding Jen. I would happily climb through a dozen window to get to you girls.
Congratulations on your little bubba. Only 240 days until you get to hold your little one's hand. I'm so excited for you. I'm giving your little jelly bean a very soft :hug:
I totally understand what you said, I could never stop loving my first angel. Friends that haven't been through this type of loss can't really understand that I am in love my angel and that I fell in love instantly the moment I knew I was pregnant. Before I was pregnant, I never knew that I could be in love like that.
You're so blessed that you have that love right now. I just had a nice warm feeling in my chest when i thought how you must be feeling at this very moment. When you take a big breath in and you can feel the love just expanding your chest bigger and bigger. That's the feeling I'm searching for again .... what we're all searching for. My mama says it's the feeling of being content.
My wish today is that we can all have this feeling of being content again very very very soon.
anneebee3-:welcome: Just wanted to say BB is a wonderful place for friends and support. This place is a wonderful place to be at & have others to talk to & most def is a life saver. I'm sorry you lost your angel, I really hope you can find some comfort here with us ladies & you get your BFP soon & have a wonderful healthy pregnancy. I too have a friend that told me she was pregnant & due the same that my baby would have been due. And, All she said was I'm sorry & well atleast you know you can get pregnnat!!WTFH??? I was crying so bad because of it. Shes never had a loss or anything and its like how even though you not been through it before can you say that. She walked out the door after saying the whole"atleast we know you can get pregnant" thing, I started to cuzz behind the door I hope she heard me. I was like you hanis BISSSH.. lol. But I did say I was happy for her and congrated her.. :hug: Its never fun to see others pregnant sometimes expechally when they taunt it... I love when my friends are when there respectful with everything.But sometimes people arnt that way... I wish you luck sweets if you need anything your more than welcome to ask or vent if needed..
Krystie-OMG!.. Wow, Morning sickness?? I only had that once and only lasted 3 days. When that happend I knew something was wrong with my bubs I said to myself um dont I supposed to have this till my like 12th week??. I'm glad things are doing well. I'm suprised your family hasn't asked you yet with all the M/S. Mine usally knows before I say anything!..lol. :hug: I hope you have wonderful weekend darling..
anneebee - to answer ur question, i found it does get easier but it may be different in my circumstance. My 1st pg ended in the happy delivery of my DS. The subsequent pg's didn;t end happily so at those times I consoled myself by hugging my DS very close. It allowed me to mourn and heal very quickly. So the biggest hurdle for me was looking to the future but each month not getting pg. I still think of my angels and wonder what they would have been like. I guess when you do get pg and then have ur little one in ur arms, ur focus will be on the life of the child u hold and ur energies will be channelled more in that forward direction rather than the empty feelings of the past. Life is brighter with a child but I don;t think one can ever forget one's angels.
mollycat--Thanks so much for the e-mails! Keep 'em coming, they're great! That restaurant in China is probably where my DF would want to take me to eat! I've saved it to show him, but I can already hear him saying "Now that's what I'm talking about!" :rolleyes:
Thinking of you and your family... :hug:
anneebee--Ok, ok, I see you're already ganging up on me with Krysite (that's usually Angel's job!). Ok, let me clarify....I only said open window because you said you had been lurking.... laughing and crying with us... so I thought metaphorically speaking that it was like you were looking thru a window into our little thread.... so :p lol... The door was always open, you came in when you made your first post! ;) Apparently Krystie's been sharing her smart arse pills with you already... Pill Girl, how many times do I need to tell you that it's not ok to share your pills with the newbies!! Two smart arses are hard enough for me to deal with without having to worry about you corrupting the newbies! :lol:
I do have to admit that you paid me a veeeerrryy nice compliment before you took those pills! I appreciate it.... the girls here are what got me thru, and continue to get me thru, so it's the least I can do! It's very cathartic feeling like I'm helping someone else thru their grief after all the support I've gotten thru my grief. In answer to your question regarding mourning, and how long it takes... it's different for everyone. I found that the only way I could deal with it was to just completely shut my mind off to it... I just can't think about it. There's times thru the day where if I let myself think about it at all, I would just break down--so I don't. I can talk about it with other people. There's a girl that's been working in the book fair with me that also had 4 m/c's, so we've been talking... and I just found out yesterday that one of the teachers is pg--and I'm ok with it... she deserves it and I'm happy for her. So I think in some ways I'm dealing pretty well. My first 3 m/c's were with my DS1's dad, who unfortunately passed away, but not while we were together. I was already with DF and had DS2.... but I know what you mean about mourning the earlier angels.... while of course I'm still sad about then, it was a lifetime ago that was when I was with another person.... so my last m/c was a big shock since I had already had a full-term pg'cy with no complications, it was just completely unexpected and has had a much bigger impact on me than the first 3. Now that I know laughing attracts angels, I'll have to make it a point to laugh more so that my angels want to hang around me, as well! :hug:
Krystie--I see you took your smart arse pills yesterday! Are you sure you're allowed to take those things when you're pg???? You're supposed to break stash and share with ME not the newbies!
Ooh, how exciting to be telling your parents! :dance:
Now, under normal circumstances it wouldn't be a difficult feat to have more brain cells than Paris Hilton.... but to have more brain cells at less than 6 weeks old!?!? That's quite an accomplishment! Little Chyan, smart girls rock!! :hug:
Jen: POAS! POAS!! Sheesh, don't make me beg more. How the heck are you holding out?!
KL & JOEY: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!! Oh my! So happy guys!! :hug:
Well hello there tut! :hug: I'm not going to POAS, my temps aren't behaving! They're too low to be BFP temps.... :( Not going to bother wasting the money and having to see that BFN--I'll just wait it out 'till AF shows.
OMG, I just can't believe you're 11 weeks already!! How's that m/s treating you? :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy: