Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ September 08 #3

[Baby Angels]

mollycat....funny that you mentioned that DH had a bad day..... If I m in tanti mood and I see that DH doesnt look so good... I listen to whats wrong with him.... if my tanti is more important then I tell him it is..... ..... then I tell him when i m finished with my Tanti then he can have his... normally tell him I was in tanti mode first so he will just have to wait his turn..... only one tanti at a time. If his is more important then I put mine on the backburner.... but when it gets brought back out its normally a double tanti scarey stuff

HannahD... I think we all do.....some of us try to be all "mature" and stuff and keep it to ourselves... others..... like myself i must confess.... chuck bigger tanti s

Jenushka...Huge Congrats..... for a smooth 9 months

Easha... Friday nights are Friday nights.... its my social night of the week.... in years gone past it might have meant night clubs or drinkies..... now it means loggin onto the computer to chat to a group of weird women all around the world...... hmmm hold on a sec... i m one of those weird women.... I m in QLD so no time change here.

Milla.... I think its the same for pretty much everyone.... you feel so alone.... My DH, while he isnt to impressed when I dont answer him cause i m busy on here....... loves this site... he knows that without finding this site I wouldnt have managed to the degree that I did. Knowing that your not alone, knowing that you are understood is a vital part of the process. You are treated as if something is wrong with you because you are so destressed...... you feel so bad.... then you find this site and realise those people who were making you feel that there was something wrong with you..... are the ones that have NEVER lost their child or children. They have never been through it. So for those people.... a big tongue sticking out at you (sorry... am I being a 2 year old again...... my bad)

[Baby Angels]

Jen Jen I went a bit over board.... I brought badges for everyone at work to wear...... lol..... "and a part of your uniform on the 15th of October will include a pink and blue ribbon" ohhhhh and I got the diamonti one (yeah ok..correct my spelling teach) I really dont know what to do or how to do it.... but I know that I have to find a way of reaching more women out there. I know I ve got the web site but there has to be another way as well... I just havent found it yet.

BB..... Daylight savings doesnt kick in for us. But just so you dont have to be up toooooo late I ll log on at 9.30 my time so that its still 10.30 for you...... Hopefully I can keep you awake long enough for Jen Jen...... also I hope Krysties MS settles down between 10.30 and 12 tonight.

I have to say I m very open about mine. I have a braclett on that has 2 hearts on it with my sons names on it... it also has 2 sets of booties on it with the twins names on it. If someone asks..... The hearts are for my 2 teenage sons and the booties are for my little angels who didnt make it....... If someone asks me how many children I have...... I have 4....... 19,16 and 2 who didnt make it and went back up above and are waiting for me there..... I dont say it to make the other person uncomfortable... I say it firstly becasue it is my life and its my reality but secondly I say it to get it out there... to get people thinking about it... to get it into their heads that even though I never held my angels in my arms does not stop the fact that they are my babies.

Megsmum...... sooo glad everythign went well for you..... for the IUI ..... the hard thing is the not knowing... the hoping... the expectations.... not to mention those bloody injections Did i tell you that I had to do one at the football semi final...... it was half time at the Melbourne/Brisbane semi final (league)..... DH and I go down to the disable toilets.... where I sit on the damn toilet while he injects me...... ohhh it was soo dignified...one of my many memories that i will ummmmmm... ummmm "cherrish"...... Oh well... the injections hopefully are over for you... other than your trigger..... hopefully those little work out what they are ment to be doing and

Where there's hope.... As with what I said above..... Its not an easy road to be on..... but if you have ANY questions hun... PLEASE ask...... If I dont know then answer then I ll know someone who does..... There are some amaizing people on this site who continue cycle after cycle with IVF..... I know some long termers who are now very very pregnant... I also know many who were successfull on their first cycle..... Dont forget though hun.... the medications... they will mess with your head... and make you feel pretty bad.... just lean on me if you need to.....

Ok... well thats me for persies ... havent done them in a while..... Its strange cause there is no AFM to add to the end... but thats fine.... or maybe I should add... AFM.... its one day at a time.....and each day I m feeling stronger