Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ September 2010

Goodness now I can't even remember how AF starts, I'm telling yah my head and brain have totally caved today. I know AF always starts with spotting for me now I can't remember if it's brownish or red spotting......I do remember though when I had my MC I spotted like this for 2 days then nothing then some more spotting and it was all brown and nothing heavy just light spotting and that one ended in my MC so now if I have any spotting or bleeding I think the worst AF or MC. Sorry if this is TMI but I have had a pad on today and have only had a couple of specs of brownish discharge most of the day but when I went to the loo about 10mins ago there is more brown discharge on pad but hardly anything when I wiped. I don't know how I will get through the week end with out all you ladies to help me if AF don't arrive tomoro. I so wish I had a laptop pc.

Melster - It is sucky... but I'll deal with it I guess. Either way it's going to suck. Feel demoralized for not getting a job, or feel stressed out getting a new job in the middle of a pregnancy and leaving right when I'm feeling more comfortable. Gah. Oh and it's worth the pain to get justice. The reason they get away with this stuff is because nobody does anything.

Clairesmummy - Oh, that ruins my theory then. :( I prescribe chocolate, dipped in chocolate to console yourself. Also, you might find this amusing. I drove home from my appointment today with my hair stuck in the door of the car. LOL.... ok so I need a trim. To drive along not even realising my hair is caught in the doorframe is hilarious, and I burst out laughing when I got home and had trouble moving to get out of the car. OMG.. imagine what people thought seeing me cruising along like that... haha I have to go and tell DP now! :o I swear, I'm having weird amusing mishaps just to cheer you up. :) Dang universe! And your spotting temp dipping/rising is really confusing me! I'll be really interested to see if this does turn out to be a BFP. Hmmmmm.

Mum22 - I also had a POAS dream before I got my BFP.. weird!

Forshelby- OMG that's it you are now my official make me laugh girl when I am feeling miserable darl, cause that just totally cracked me up.......only because I have done the exact same thing before....with your hair that is......and you feel like a total freak when you go to move your head and you can't.....lol....that has put a huge smile on my face....and I say thank you universe for making Forshelby get her hair stuck on her car door just to make me laugh......you truly are a treasure darl......and by the way before I forget what was your theory darl.......I'm open to anything right now......

Oh forshelby- My poor blossom! :( That really does suck. And ur so right.. alot of other ppl have ruined it for ppl like urself that actually deserve some help at times like these. How did ur appointment go?? So how does it work.. do u have to continuously look for work for the next 5 months and hopefully just keep getting rejected but still get a weekly payment?? I guess u cld kinda make that ur job.. going to interviews every few days only to be rejected cos they can tell u really dont want a job! :) Good luck with everything. And honestly try and forget about ur ex employer.. they're not worth ur time and thoughts. I bet they realise now exactly what they have lost.

Clairesmummy- Oh i hope this isnt af. Will u test tomoro if it doesnt show up properly just so u know if u can drink on the weekend?? And yeah i really do think its a good idea to get ur dfs sperm checked. Just say that u want to get urself checked out and he may as well too?? Why did he seem to think they werent too good?? We'll miss u over the weekend! xx

AFM- Have felt like crap allday.. but was craving calimari... so i went up to our local takeaway shop and bought some and a piece of battered fish.. mmm i think this baby likes greasy food too!

Reet- Not sure why DF had convinced himself his swimmers were no good, I think it came from his ex but that's a whole other story I'm not going to get in to right now......he has got me UTD once before even though it ended in a MC at just on 6 weeks PG. I'm convinced that our problem lies with me not sure why I feel like that I just do. But it's something I'm going to work on anyhow. Sorry to hear you have felt like crap today darl, but we all know it's for a very good reason why you feel like that. Not going to test until at the earliest will be Monday when I'm at home that's if AF don't raise her horrible head before then. I usually spot the day before AF so if she's not here tomoro it's anybodies guess from there. I will be on here before we leave tomoro to let you all know if AF has arrived or not, I still have my fingers quietly and tightly crossed that she won't arrive. As I think I have said last time I got my strong BFP I spotted for a couple of days then had nothing then had really light spotting again then about 4 days later I got my BFP. Thats the BFP that ended in my MC, so if I get a BFP this time around I am praying it don't end the way it did last time.

Good morning all my lovely BB friends- First of all I want to say I'm going to miss you all over the week end and it's now time for me to find that new dr that is willing to investigate our TTC journey and why we are not getting our BFP. I spoke to DF about it last night and he never said he would get his sperm checked but he didn't say he wouldn't either. If I know him as well as I think I do he will be thinking about it today from my point of view and he will get it done if i ask him to. He seems to be thinking that he would rather not know if it's his swimmers that may be the problem, I have my doubts that it is him as my cycles are not consistant enough and I'm only having very short LPs. So after I have typed all that you have probably all guessed the dreaded old witch AF has arrived this morning for me. :crying: I have some cramping happening at the moment not to bad for now but it seems to get bad then ease off, i usually never get AF cramps but this cycle and last I have been getting them. Last cycle was a bit clotty I'm hoping this one won't be. So it's off to our Draft and I will be doing my best to let my hair down and have fun and I guess at least now I know I can have a few drinks with out it hurting anything only my head the next day....Thank you for all your support and positive vibes they truly have helped me through out my journey and will no doubt continue to help me. Well I'm hoping to get back on here again to hopefully do some persies before we leave this afternoon but if I don't please all of you have a great week end and do take care. I have my FX for all those in your 2WW hang in there girls it's a hard slog but I know all your BFPs are coming real soon. And to all you lovely PG ladies take care of you and bub over the week end and I hope you are not struck down with MS over this week end. Have a good one girls, love to you all. :confused:

Clairesmummy - so sorry to hear that AF is knocking on the door, just a quick question how short is your LP?? Mine use to be 13 days before the m/c but after it was 10/11 days. I started taking vit b6 with the cycle I fell and it made my cycle the way it use to be before I even had Luke as well. Maybe look into it sweety. Hope you have a wonderful time away!!

Hi to everyone else, will drop in later and catch up on all your news
xoxoxox

Iona- Hey darl, this time my LP was only 9 days last cycle it was even shorter at 5 days then the cycle before that was where I got to faint BFPs then followed by a BFN so LP was alot longer at 15days then AF showed. I might try and get some in town today darl, how often do you take it? Thanks so much for your advice darl I truly appreciate it.

I was just taking one a day as i was also taking the nature's own pre-pregnancy conception support. I got the men's and women's kit so that way Mark could take them with me...hehehe

clairesmummy - so sorry to hear that AF has surfaced darl.... enjoy the weekend and have a drink for each of us. I'm so heartbroken for you :(

Why don't you take your DF to the doctor and let him/her suggest he get his swimmers tested? that is usually the first test that is done, if it doesn't come from you maybe it will be better??

thinking of you over the weekend.

Hi Lovely Ladies
Im sorry ive been MIA lately and with BB server going down and all im really trying to catch up but finding it difficult LOL

Clairesmummy ~ Very sorry for your BFN - :hug: I hate it when our bodies tease us like that and get our hopes up. Maybe your body just needs a little more time - but I hope not too much. Hope you can now focus on O'ing time again,:crossfingers: your BFP is just around the corner.

Forshelby ~ very sorry to hear about your job problems etc sounds very frustrating. I hope things work out for the best ASAP so you can stop stressing, GL.

Hi to all and hoping all those little growing bubs are doing well and for those trying still :pray: and :pink-babydust::stickyvibesboy: that our BFP's are just around the corner!

AFM ~ Had my appointment with nurse on Wed - she said my long AF was probably from going on the pill so its all systems go for our IVF #3. Just wanting time to scoot by now up to doing my 1st jab etc - getting the show on the road and hopefully have a BFP towards the end of OCT. But talking about shows - im off to the Melbourne show next week for a week showing cattle - FUN! So that will help to pass the time yay - exciting times.

Clairesmummy - Oh, lol.... now I'm laughing again. I thought of you straight away when it happened.. haha. My theory was that it was implantation spotting.. but since it's not uncommon for you, i could be wrong. Theory destroyed. :( maybe. Anyhoo glad I could cheer you up with my crazy antics. I hope today goes more smoothly! Just read on a bit more... :( stupid af. I hope you can at least enjoy your weekend and have some drinks for me!

Reet - The appointment was short, but still degrading even going there. And the lady kept eyeing off my belly. *sigh*. I'm not going to make it my job to get rejected constantly... sounds like a recipe for depression to me! How horrible. My job is supposed to be to enjoy my pregnancy :( I'm just really irritated I'll be forced to waste my time like this, when I haven't done anything to deserve this kind of crap. It's ridiculous. And if I just 'forget' about my ex employer, they win, and they'll do this to some other poor sap. It's important that I fight them and show them they DON'T have the right to ignore their employees wellbeing. I had a right to a peaceful workplace, and a right to my income and they took all of that away. Anyway enough about my boring problems...... Oh oh, now I want fish and chips.. damn you! lol..

Loops - Oops, missed your post. Hope you have fun at the Melbourne show! I'm heading down there in a few weeks time and I must say, I LOVE that city! The food is so much better, just better standards all round. Not to mention the shopping. *drool* :) Good luck with your jabbing, and hoping for a BFP for you very very soon!

AFM - Feeling a bit cranky today. One of my SIL's commented on my belly pic on fb, and said "OMG bubs is the size of a lemon and you're only 3 months gone! Better get your walking shoes on". WTF?! I was so annoyed... I just had to correct her, telling her that's the size bubs is meant to be, and that her comments are hurtful. I'm sure she'll want to make something of it, even though she's the one being harsh and well, rude!! She's the type that you can't tell her she's wrong, or let her know you're upset by one of her tactless comments. And I must say, for someone who knows everything about pregnancy and babies....... shouldn't she know bubs is a normal size for his/her gestation? Ugh, this has got me so frustrated. DP called just now so I told him what she said, let's just say he was not impressed. :( I'm not really bothered by what she said, just by the fact that she would say something so rude at all!! Anyhoo, I'm going to go out and get myself a smoothie to cheer myself up. Oh and a carton of beer for DP. And dang it, I'm going to get that photocopy I needed for the last 3 days DONE!

Hey everyone :) I have great news for today... me and DP are still going to try for a bub :D I am headed out today to go pick up a whole heap of different supplements that have been suggested to me and we are gettinf on with BD as soon as AF leaves so we leave nothing to chance LOL. I just had the most wonderful night/morning with him and we are in a really good place together right now so keeping positive :D He was just as upset as me that AF arrived which was really sweet but tried to blame himself for stressing me out the past few days even though it is my LP that is the issue. So:inlove: right now and it really is a :happybirthday:

clairesmummy.....im so sorry hun...have a few drinks this weekend..and i hope ur ok....

i will do personals in a bit coz wrote them and then my phone went off....darn it all so annoying

well i am feeling like im getting a cold....my nose has been running for a few days....been waking up in the night hungry and still having period pains and in the night.........which feels like af is coming.....i caved and did and pregnancy test buts its a bfn.at this stage...but its still early and i think i o.d late as well....but i dont have that pregnancy feeling anyways.....since the curette i have been feeling so physcially exhausted....i have no energy whatso ever......

Damprye - Yay! Happy birthday!

Melster - Lack of energy can be attributed to depression. It's not surprising you're feeling so down, either. Be gentle with yourself honey. I've got my FX for you that you're utd, and if not, then next month! :)

;) Well my dear friends it's time for me to make like a tree and leave.....feeling alot better this afternoon probably cause I haven't had time to even think about yet another failed BFP. Thank you all so very much for your very kind words I love you all and after I get through having a drink for everyone of you I think I may just be very very blotto....lol....so if I have a huge headache over the week end you are all going to be in trouble.....lol....nah only joking.....I'm definately going to be making that dr appointment for next week as soon as i get back home again. But first things first our week end away.....hope you all have a safe and happy week end.....toodles for now girls catch you all when I get home.....:dance:

Clairesmummy- Have a few for me ;)

Clairesmummy - have a good week away and I'm with everyone else - have a drink for me - but make it small!