hun my hopes of having another are not there no more and im heartbroken in all honestly..i know i should be grateful for the children i have but every morning bout 10 times a day and every nite i relive my lil mans last 20 mins in my arms while he was dying..i am a mum wiv no babes in arms my youngest is 4 n half n i treat him like cotton wool he was my youngest the one who needed me more n i turned to him n now i realise he needs to grow up n im gonna be left with lil boys not any toddler..wha i am trying to say is i should have a baby n i am a mum wiv no babe in arms n i know i never will again av a child i luv all my children just feel like a big chunk of my heart is missing..tha will never be replaced by ne baby but im so yearning for another....im outta words n emotions i feel dead keep trying to pick myself up n fall flat on my nose...but i wud not change a thing my baby boy deserved a chance of life no matter how slim a chance..n i had him for 18 hrs n tha im grateful for x x