I questioned for a long time whether I was "past it" when it comes to having more children as I already have an 18 year old son as well as a 16 year old son to a previous marriage. If it were just me then yes I would have left it at that and focussed on how good it will be to be a grandmother..... not in a hurry.... still to young of course. But 4 years ago I remarried and my I love my husband in a way that is impossible to measure. To me it was an easy decision to go through this so that he can experience the joy of being a parent.

Sometimes its like I m looking at my life from outside and goodness Its ummmmmm origional. Here I was last night in the chat room on BB talking away, when my son, 18, says "mum could you drop me and my mate at the pub, we ll catch the bus from there into the city" and at the same time I was working on my memorial book for my angels. Its like I have to stop sometimes to do a double take on my life and where I am in it.

I suppose doing things the "normal" way has never really been me. So I suppose a teenage pregnancy (18) and then now an "old persons" (38) pregnancy sort of fits in and yet during my normal reproductive years I was on the Pill.

So I suppose my longggggg answer for you is. Your not to old if its the right thing to do and only you and your DH can decide that.

To those of you in the "old persons" catagory, obviously that s not how we really are just how the people in white jackets see us. .......... Maybe we should put them in white jackets that actually tie up....... AT THE BACK