Im so sad . My brother just rang me and told me that we couldnt come to my nephew and godsons birthday party tomorrow because of DH chickenpox. DH wasnt coming but since cooper and lawson have never had it, then they may have it and we just dont know yet.
His wifes sister in law is 12 weeks pregnant (she only told them today). This is her 11 pregnancy which means she has had 10 m/c. My god how does one cope with 10 m/c ?? Reaching 12 weeks is a real milestone for her, she has never gotton this far. Needless to say, i would feel horrible if my boys had chicken pox and then threatened her pregnancy or baby. I totally understand that i cannot take the boys anywhere near the party, but im still sad. Maybe its a for the best anyway, i would have been 12 weeks on monday....i guess i dont need to be reminded that my angel isnt here. I feel selfish for being sad. And im angry at myself for being envious of her...after all that she has been through, i have no right to feel anything like that towards her.

sorry, just needed to vent
hugs
treelo