Oh hun, like Skybie said, if youre ready then go for it. I am so sorry that you have had to endure such an awful time of it, it really isnt fair. Know that it is ok to grieve for your Angel and if you are ready now then follow what your heart tells you to do. You cant turn off the feelings of guilt but sweetheart you are not causing this and none of it is your fault please dont ever think that it is. . I hope your forever baby isnt too far away xxx