Hun I know exactly where your mind is at, becomign pregnant again can be very very difficult emotionally there seems to be an increased level of anxiety with every aspect of the pregnancy.
As you know I am currently pregnant and yes it scares me, yes I have had the same thoughts as to whether or not I will love this baby as much as I did Nikita, I wanted a little boy so badly so I had "something different" with this baby.
I believe I am having another little girl, though it is yet to be confirmed. I am ok with that.
S/He will bring their own uniqueness to our lives and will be a different personality.
There will always be a piece of me and our family missing from those special events and days and family holidays but I believe our little angels will be there celebrating with their siblings.
It is normal to question how you are feeling and how the prospect of another child will affect you. I would be lying if I said it was an easy decision or if I hadn't thought so much about Niki.
I see this baby every week, and I can assure you that every week I grow to love him/her more and more. Noone will ever replace our angels but I promise there is room in your heart and you will love another baby just as much but in a different way to Seth and Taite.
It doesn't sound to me like you are 100% ready to start TTC but by discussing your fears I believe you are making a forward step in the right direction.
Take care hun, its a difficult journey but its a rewarding one.
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