thread: I feel the Grief will never end

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  1. #1
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    Oct 2006
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    Aunti M

    This sort of experience puts a strain on the stongest of realtionships, so just know that you and DH will be ok. You are now not only partners, but you are Yeti's parents and that bond will help see you thorugh.

    Keep visiting hun, as you said in your post, you are not alone.

    Lv Spring

  2. #2
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    Dec 2006
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    Auntie M, our stories are very similar I had a routine u/s at 36w6d and was told that they couldn't find a heartbeat. When my precious son Cooper was born the next day at 37 weeks the cord was tightly around his neck twice.

    The pain is so strong and even 6 months after Cooper was born, the pain so days are still unbearable. Just today has been a hard day for me. It has been raining for days here and we have been stuck inside. I said to my DH today, I am bored, but I shouldn't be. I should be feeding my baby, changing nappies, getting some sleep. I still don't understand how and why this happened to me.

    Although I am pg now I actually find that my grieving for Cooper has become a lot stronger because I can remember what it is was like when I was pg with him. I just wish I could go back..........but I know I can't. If anything I can be grateful for the most beautiful 9 months that I carried my sweet boy. I loved being pg with Cooper and I don't think I will love being pg again................the innocence is lost.

    Just take each day at a time and cherish the 'ok' days. Reach out to people that understand and that can support you through the darkest days. I agree with the other girls, join the TTC thread. If it wasn't for the girls in that thread, I wouldn't be where I am today. I also had counselling and while I think it helped me to speak openly and honestly about my feelings, I felt that *speaking* with the girls in the TTC helped me more.

    Take care, thinking of you and your beautiful son Yeti