I totally get how you feel because I felt exactly the same. The reason I think women often feel like this after a stillbirth is that we are Childless Mothers. We have had our baby but we don't have our baby. I think the desire gets stronger and stronger. Everything in your life is poised and ready to give birth and take home your baby and that dream is suddenly ripped away from you. I actually think it's got a lot to do with all the hormones that are released once we give birth telling us we should now be in mummy mode.
I really encourage you to call the SIDS and kids and follow them up. I'm also happy to pm you my number and I can find some quiet time to talk with you.
I was so obsessed with TTC that it caused problems with DH. He said he felt like I was on auto pilot and he felt used. At the time I didn't understand what he was saying but now I get it. The best thing I think is to keep talking. Get it all out and I think you'll find that most of us who've lost babies would have thought exactly the same things at some point.
Oh Teni, I have no real words of wisdom, Spring Angel has said it so well, but I just wanted to give you a big and let you know I do understand how you must be feeling and that I think it is completely normal to feel that way. Spring has said it so well, you've had your baby, but you don't have your baby.
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Hi Hun, I feel the same as you! Makes me feel crazy. My Son was stillborn 4 months ago and I am 100% obssessed with falling pregnant. I think I'm driving myself and everyone around me insane! Big hugs to you - take care of yourself X
Oh, goodness, Tysonsmummy, when I saw you'd replied to my thread I thought you were my cousin (who has a son called Tyson too - and strangely enough, he's 4 months old too)
Yeah, someone's coming out on the 9th of June (day before my birthday!) to talk to me I had a bit of a chat to her on the phone this morning, and told her my support system is mainly online - she loved it!
I can fully understand where you are coming frm. Although I am a newbie and you are now expecting your little miracle, I just wanted to say. I am there now...
Feel like I am driving everyone mad, and sometimes true I even "feel" like I am.
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and let you know I do understand how you must be feeling and that I think it is completely normal to feel that way. Spring has said it so well, you've had your baby, but you don't have your baby.
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