Oh Deb :hugs:

Its so cruel that these things always seem so "in your face". You are right, it will never go away. Your babies will always be in your heart and you are allowed to hurt over them for the rest of your life. Even when your next baby comes along, you will probably still feel that sadness when your children stroke that babies head, all that does is show that even though they are not with you physically your love for them is just as strong as all of your children.

Love, Mel