Hi Newhope,

I am so sorry but I have not seen your other posts so was unaware of them. I am so sorry to hear you lost your precious baby, and of all the days Easter Sunday. You sound like you are doing well coping. You will have your good and bad days, and that is perfectly normal, just know that we are all here to share the ups and downs with you.

The TTC journey is an exciting one, but can also be torturous. There are all sorts of emotions that come up, and obviously the journey is longer for some than others. Although, I am sure the ones with the shorter journeys are then experiencing the emotions that come along with the fear and anticipation of what will come.

My story is that my son Nicholas was born sleeping on 5 September 2006 at 36w1d, due to a blood clot which had formed behind the placenta. It was later realised that I have a blood condition called Anticardiolipin antibodies which caused this to happen. I started on the TTC journey almost immediately and have not found it an easy one. There have been times when I have wanted to give up but I cant, I need to keep trying as it is the only thing that gets me through the days and my only want in this whole world.

Please feel free to join us all in the main thread, you will find that we are all on slightly different journeys, and all at different stages of that journey, although the goal for every single one of us remains the same - to hold our healthy babies in our arms and bring them home where they belong.

Would you mind if I ask about your little one? Did you have a boy or girl? Did you give them a name? Have the drs been able to give you any ideas of what happened or what went wrong? (apologies if you have posted these details elsewhere). No pressure, if you dont feel comfortable sharing these things it is perfectly ok.

Look forward to seeing you around, and hopefully graduating into the pregnancy thread ASAP.

Thinking of you, your DH and your little angel

Mel