Trying to Conceive after Late Loss/Recurrent Miscarriage/Stillbirth ~ March 09

Hi girls,

Beata, thinking of you at this time. I also did a similar thing and sometimes you just need to get your own head space worked out. We will miss you, you are such a positive person, but take all the time you need.

Teagz - wahoooo congratulations babe, I am so so happy for you. :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy: Wishing you a happy and healthy nine months. yippee

xxx Sue xxx

Hi Girls,

OMG Teagz!!! Congratulations hun :loveshower: that is awesome news!!!!! You sneaky thing, you were supposed to wait for me ha ha. I've no doubt waiting for your body to recover with all the nice natural herbs did you wonders. I wish you the stickiest, healthiest little bubba and I hope all goes very smoothly for you hun. Yeepee!!!!!!
Thank you so much for sharing your wonderful news with us, I am truly honoured to be one of the first hun :dance: I just knew we were gonna have a BFP soon around here, I felt it in my waters!!!

Megan, Cheryl and Sue, thanks very much for your lovely words. Sometimes you do have to take a little breather, but I ain't going anywhere girls, I'm always wishing you success whether you're TTC or about to have your bub!! Sue, you don't have long to go hun. I can't wait to see your beautiful little girl soon!!

Big hugs and love to all :grouphug:

B xxxxx

Teagz, you 'said that' so calmly in your post, I couldn't believe it. Congratulations, that's fantastic news :dance: :dance: I pray for a happy and healthy 9-months ahead for you. :happyforyou:

Berry, I'm still trying to let it soak in, i was fairly shakey when I typed that post! AF is due tomorrow, if she doesn't show up then I think I'll start beleiving it. I sneakily told mum the news today who is panicking about the herbs (which I've been a bit hit and miss with this month anyway, and stopped taking them altogether over the weekend, i don't know why...) and then I blew it and let sllip to DF that I told her (baby brain already?) but he didn't mind luckily... Gosh I dribble on sometimes, sorry!!

Beata, I'm sorry hun. I feel a bit aweful that I broke our unspoken pact. I'm going to be here cheering you on for June though, streamers and all ;) I'll be sending you loads of babydust and prayers. You're such a gorgeous soul Beata, don't forget it :hug:

I feel like i've been a dead beat that's just become a born again christian or something. It's a little odd being on the other side of this special little hell we're all living in.

You deserve this Teagz. I hope that you have confirmed the BFP. Take care of yourself during these early weeks. I am sure everything will be fine.

Beata, Lan and Cheryl we are next girls!

Hey girlies.
No AF today, infact the spotting I had is completely gone now.
Going for my BT tomorrow at 2.20. Fingers crossed!

Hi Teagz

CONGRATULATIONS! :dance::loveshower::happyforyou::hooray:

That is the most amazing news I have heard. I really hope that this one if your earth angel baby. Take lots of care of yourself and congrats to DF as well! Best of luck for the blood test, I'll be thinking of you!

Cherylxx

Hi

Berry - You betcha! We must be next! :pray:

In fact I saw my ob again today and I told her I think I am about to ovulate, she said "go for it"! So we have the all clear to start TTC again which is nice. But with this comes the worry and doubt as to whether we will be able to conceive again. It took 3 years to get our miracle pg - I can't wait another 3 years at this stage of my life. My ob did suggest we consider donor eggs and I do have a friend who is younger than me who may do it, but I haven't spoken to her about it yet. And while DH agreed to the idea last year, and then we fell pg, I haven't raised it with him since so I need to have that conversation first. Anyway, more things to think about and keep me awake. I've been awake for almost 2 hours now and it's 4am. After lying in bed for an hour with my mind churning I decided to get up and jump on-line. Might as well put my time to good use!

I'm also off to work for a few hours later today. Have a meeting with my boss at 9am. My goal is to get through the morning without ending up in tears in front of everyone. Will see how I go. And then AP in the afternoon which should make me nice and relaxed!

Hi to everyone!

Cheryl

Congratulations Teagz - you so deserve this. It was wonderful news to see in here this morning :loveshower:

Beata - gunna miss you hun but understand the need for a break from BB. Take good care hun you have my email if you need to off load at any time.

Hi to everyone else.

Nae x x x

Thanks NaeNae! Look at you go! Almost 12 weeks! Aren't you a clever little cookie ;)

Cheryl, Hope your morning at work goes smoothly :hug: Its wonderful that they are letting you ease back into things again. I'll be thinking of you! xx

Congrats Teagz, hope the BT today gives you the reassurance you're after!

Megan, I hope you're right. I thought I was going along OK then found out that two of our friends have just had their second babies. Seems like people are just popping babies everywhere except for us. Sigh!

Hi Girls,

Teagz, hope your BT confirmed your good news hun!! Praying with all my might you have a sticky bubba in there :pray: And don't feel bad about breaking our 'unspoken' pact. I am sooooo happy for you & couldn't be more happier if I tried hun!

Cheryl, I hope your meeting today went well hun :hug:

Nae, I might not post as much but I am always around and praying all goes very well for you.

Megan, Lan, Dee and Cheryl, big sticky vibes coming your way and bring on the next BFP girls!!!!!! :pray:

Diana, I hope all is well with you and that you're nice and rested hun :hug:

Sue, not too long to go for you hun, thinking of you !!

Hello to everyone else :hello:, my scan is on Monday so keep your fingers crossed for me girls.

Love always
B xxxxxx

Hey beata, I was just popping on to say that I'm def preg! Had my BT today and my HCG levels are 360. Going back on Friday for another BT to make sure they're going up, and then going to my Dr on Monday to discuss the "plan of attack" with ultrasounds and stuff. I must admit I didn't realise he'd want to get things into swing so quick!

Cheryl, Hope work went well this morning :hug:

Hammi, Thanks for the congrats chicky! Everyones encouragement here as really meant to word to me.

NaeNae big :hug: to you as well!

Yey Teagz :hooray:!!!!! Congrats again hun, we definitely have a sticky one!!!!! You must be over the moon hun, what a beautiful suprise just in time for Chrissy! Big hugs sweetie :loveshower::leap::dance:
Love B xxxxxxxxx

Sorry hun :redface:!!! it will be a little bit after Chrissy!!!!

Hi girls

Just keeping an eye on you all and wanted to say a big CONGRATULATIONS to Teagz!!! So happy for you :dance:

Hi to everyone else.
Beata, good luck for Monday - hope you get some good news and things are still looking on track for June (?).
Diana - you haven't been in for a while; hope all is okay and the bedrest hasn't driven you too insane :)

Sending everyone lots of BFP vibes... xx

congrats teagz yahoo so happy for you hope you have a healthy and happy 9 months. yahoo.

CONGRATULATIONS TEAGZ :happyforyou::leap: Fantastic news! I am so very happy for you and DF. I hope you have a very happy and healthy 9 months sweets.

Hi Jo! How is motherhood? I hope you are doing well and beautiful little Kaitlyn is growing wonderfully and bringing you lots and lots of joy.

A huge hello to Rozzie and Tildy and big kisses to little Henry and Benny. I hope all is well in your world.

Beata, I hope the test on Monday shows your uterus has healed beautifully and you are on track for your transfer in June. Will be in touch soon sweets - I have DH at home sick and needy today.

Sue, I can't believe how close you are to meeting Lily! Can't wait for the news.

Helen, how are you holding up?

Jas, I may have missed a post on this but will you be having a stitch this pregnancy? I think I recall a post from you a while back (which I have been very slack in responding to, sorry) that he thinks you may also have had an infection? My new high risk OB thinks I had an infection so I am currently on antiobiotics which I take twice a day for 5 days every month but I am still going to have the stitch incase I have IC. That's a decision I have made though as he doesn't think I need one, but I just want to cover all bases to be safe.

Megan, Lan, Cheryl and Dee I am praying very very hard this is your month.

Nae I hope little one is growing big and strong.

afm, sorry I have been MIA lately but with the bleed I have just been worried sick - plus I didn't have access to a computer for most of this time. Being pregnant after what happened has certainly turned me into a nervous wreck - I am sure all of our mammas would agree? Every pain or niggle sends my mind into a frenzy of "what's this" "is this normal" "is this the same pain I felt with Sebastian". It's just never ending worry and stress. I feel like I just want to give up work and spend the next 6 months on my couch, sheltered from everyday hazards. I'm going a little crazy I think.
I have my NT scan on Monday and then we pick a date to have my stitch put in. Jo and Helen, get ready to be bombarded with questions!

:grouphug:

DD I so know where you are coming from, I noticed youare due only a few days before me, would love your company in the Nov 1st -15th group, its so quiet n there and it will be nice to have someone who has been in the same boat to chat too about stuff.

I miss thie bond we all ahve in this thread - doesn't seem to be too much bonding going on in the due date group everyone is just so darn quiet :doh:

Congrats Teags!! so happy for you

Diana, yes I know where you're coming from, being past the 12 week mark is only one of many hurdles for mummies like us. I don't have any magic advice except to just try and take one day at a time and cherish your time pregnant, because as you know you can never predict what might happen. try and be positive and take time to relax as much as you can. try and have some faith your bub will be ok, even if it's between moments or periods of panic!

Henry slept 7 HOURS last night, what a good bub!!!

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Hi everyone

Teagz - congrats on the official BFP :confetti: - that's fantastic news. Good luck with the b/t tomorrow - I hope your levels are amazing :pray:

Beata - good luck with the scan on Monday, you'll be in my thoughts. How are you feeling? Hope your not stressing out too much!

DD - thanks for the well wishes. Good luck with your NT scan on Monday - are you having a b/t as well or just the scan? What a milestone! Anyway, hope all is fine and it will be exciting to see your little bubba again! :dance: I hope this gives you some reassurance and you can relax a bit more.

NaeNae - thanks for popping in and checking up on us. It's nice to have a friend to experience the pg journey with, so it's good that you and DD are so close in EDDs.

:hello: to Hammi, Dee and Berry and everyone else!

AFM, I went into work yesterday for a few hours. Everyone was lovely, maybe a bit too nice IYKWIM? I felt like everyone was walking on egg shells around me! I shed a few tears in the big boss' office but he was fine with that - he didn't ask me any uncomfortable or personal questions, just left it all work stuff which I appreciated. I spent the whole morning fighting back my tears as there were so many reminders of my pg such as ginger tea in my drawer, and my dates I had planned to start maternity leave written in my diary, etc. I hated having to leave the safety of my little cubicle area to get a drink of water as I didn't want to run into too many people. When I finished at lunchtime, I barely made it down to my car without dissolving into a blubbering mess. I quickly drove out of the basement carpark and burst into huge sobs. I had to pull over onto the side of the road because I couldn't see to drive. I think it was a bit of relief that I had finally managed to begin returning to a normal routine but it was also recognition that things would never be 'normal' again. I felt like everyone was looking at me thinking, "her baby died - how sad". Anyway, sorry for rambling, but I got back on the horse and went into work again today for a few more hours. It was much better, thank goodness. I guess over time, everyone will begin to relax around me and so will I. While my work team had been given a brief idea of what happened and not to ask too many questions, unfortunately that doesn't extend to outside my team. I work in an open plan office and just as I was leaving I ran into a friend from another area, who didn't know I was pg, and he said "oh hi, you're back. what happened? are you alright?" I couldn't face his questions and I was running late for my psych session so I just cut him off with a "yes, I'm back part-time, sorry gotta run, bye". He probably thinks I was a bit rude, but I am going to have to learn to deal with this I guess as I know a few people in the building who will probably ask the same thing. I'm dreading Monday morning when I have to go in for a team meeting. Hopefully it's all work and then I'll be ok.

Anyway, I am feeling a lot calmer and I found myself at work really taking a very different view of things from what I would have done in the past. Losing a baby has really reset my priorities to the things that really matter and I have come the realisation that apart from keeping my job, and therefore being competent, I am not going to get sucked into the vortex of stress and crises that often happens with my job. I am going to be sitting in the sea of calmness while the storms go on around me, well that's my new mantra anyway!

Sorry for the long post! :D

Take care all,
Cherylxx

Chez, I just want to give you a huge cuddle! The first few days back are aweful, mine were very similar to yours... I don't really have any comforting words, just that time helps. Aww, I just wish I could give you a big huge hug! You're such a strong little cookie xx
I'm glad you mentioned my BT tomorrow... I had actually forgotten about it. :o

Hi everyone, just popping in to say hi and congrats to Teagz!
Big hug to Chez, it is really hard to get back into 'the world', even yesterday someone asked me what number this one is....I find it so hard to answer that question.

Oh sue, I hate those questions. I had a blood test today and the lady asked me if this was my first pregnancy, and I said no. And she gasped and said "How many children do you want to have?!" (as though I'm much to young for 2 babies!) I just told her one would be nice, to which she didn't understand and gave an awkward chuckle :rolleyes:

Teagz - I wanted to give you huge congratulations at your :bfp:... All my prayers are with you for a healthy LONG pregnancy... :hug:

Thanks Flowerchild! :redface: I feel a quite honoured to get a congrats from a mod ;) haha

We're just people too us mods... :redface: AND I know only too well from personal experience how tough the road is that you are travelling... :hug:

haha, I know. I only meant it coming from a you must be super busy sort of perspective.
Thankyou :hug:
Oh, while you're sort of out and about and online I was wondering... Would it be possible to start a fundraiser sort of thing to possibly put towards the new servers? I have read a few posts about people complaining (although I think you guys are going great guns keeping this place going, and it's high rep) and I have spoke to a few people who say they would put something towards it without a second thought. This place has offered so many people support, it would be nice to contribute back a little.

Hey Teagz - Thanks for your lovely words! I'm tryingto be strong :) And love your ticker! Hope the bt went well and that your levels are continuing to rise!

Sue - I don't know how I will answer that question until the time arises, but usually I just say I don't have any children. It's just easier for me. But Teagz, I loved your reply to the question. Sometime I think people are just being chatty but you would think as nurses they would expect that they will come across people who have lost children so maybe just talk about the weather instead?

AFM -had some old blood spotting last night and cramping today, so AF is probably on her way. I'm back into day 2 of morning treadmill workouts - have about 6kg to lose from pg weight and comfort eating! I guess I shouldn't give into my chocolate craving then should I?

BBL xx

Chez, Yeah you would think being nurses they would be a little more tactful. The nurse I had for the previous blood test made a comment on my tattoo (i have jayvan's name tattooed across my wrist) and when I said it was my bubs name, but I lost him at 18 weeks she said something along the lines of "oh, well you know... if you're going to have a tattoo there you have to expect that people are going to ask you about it" :o But, I don't really mind people asking me about it.. so, I don't know why she got on her high horse for.

How hard is it to get out of that pregnancy eating?!? Blah. It's the worst.

Hi everyone,

I really hope im in the right thread, anyway here goes,

Our little boy Riley was born sleeping on the 26th March 2009, he is our first bub. Altho the days are getting better and i've been back at work now for a little over 2 weeks it still hurts and i guess it always will.

We want to start TTC as soon as possible but i think i'd like to wait a couple of months to get things back to... well as normal as possible.

anyway i just thought it would be nice to talk to some people who have been through the same thing.

Thanx.

Hi SamCougar and welcome to Belly Belly - I am just so sorry it is under such sad circumstances... :comfort:

I am so sad to read of the loss of your son Riley - thre are many of us here and on Belly Belly in general who sadly have walked similar paths to you. I am sure you will find lots of loving and caring peer support in here...

Much love and support as you navigate your way through this journey... :hug:

Hi everyone, another newbie here.

Our son Luca was stillborn in January when I was 35 weeks pregnant. DH and I are starting to TTC this month. It took almost a year to conceive Luca. I hope it's quicker this time. I've been feeling very down with all the people who were pregnant at the same time as me having had their babies. It's really hard to see them all. And I have another 6 friends who are pregnant at the moment. I'm hoping that TTC (and hopefully being pregnant) will help a little.

x Bec.

Hi Samcougar

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. As Flowerchild said there are many of us here who have sadly had similar experiences losing a baby. You are very strong for having returned to work so quickly. I am only just starting to return slowly for a few mornings each week. I have had the support of a psychologist who has helped me a lot and a few key people without whom I wouldn't have coped, even though some of them are many miles away. The ladies here at BB have been a great help. I hope you have some support people around you to help you through this time.

Many people seem to be advised medically to wait 2 or 3 months before TTC again, but emotionally some are told to wait 12 months. You will know when the time is right to start TTC again. I am coming to the realisation that our loss has changed us so much that what was normal will never be normal for us again. I wish you all the best on your healing journey.

Cheryl xo

Hi Mummabec,

Welcome to Belly Belly - I am so sorry it is under such sad circumstances... :comfort:

I am glad you found us - this is a beautiful site to be supported and loved by others who have had similar losses... I wish that we didn't need a place like this - but sadly we do and the women who make up this thread understand well... :hug:

Your beautiful Luca looks so beautiful in his photos - and his Mama so courageous and strong. I have no doubt he looks down on you all with pride.

All my love and support as you travel this road... :hug:

As you are a new member I will give you the link HERe so you can read our guidelines.

Samcougar, welcome to BB & our little thread. I am so terribly sorry to hear that you lost your precious son Riley :hug:. I felt the same way as you, wanted to ttc straight away. We waited 2-months then started. I pray that your ttc journey is a quick one :pray: If you have any questions, or if we can support you in any way, know that this is what we are here for.

Teagz, great to hear that your BT went well and your little bubs is thriving in there. Lovely to see a ticker on your sign-off ;)

Cheryl, well done for getting through your first morning at work, not an easy thing to do at all. I am sure you will find that people will start 'relaxing' and acting more 'normal' before you know it. I can relate to you taking a different view on work / stress etc. Going through something as traumatic as losing a baby definetly puts a whole new perspective on life and what 'stressful' really is.

Hi to Beata & Lan. Always thinking of you two wonderful ladies. I hope things are ok for you both.

AFM, AF is due early this week. Even though DH and I had a great run ;) ttc this month I highly doubt that I am preggo and am feeling very disappointed already. I am feeling quite down about it all at the moment, it is taking much longer than I thought it would and much longer than it did with Jasmine. The frustrating part is there is NOTHING that I can do about it, I have no choice but to keeping trying. Sorry about the major winge, finding it hard to cope and solider on at the moment.

Hello ladies,

First of all, welcome to our little corner Samcougar, and I am so sorry for your loss hun :hug: .
Losing a child is the most heart breaking life experience, my heart goes out to you and your family. I am sure you will find much support and love here amongs us all.
I wish you much success in TTC and I pray your journey is a short one and that you're holding your much loved little bub very soon :pray:

Cheryl, I want to give you a big hug hun :hug:. I know coming back to work after a loss is very hard, and unfortunately it's something most of us have to do one day, and we are all here to support you and give you much needed encouragement.
It does get easier, every day seems to get better, until one day you'll feel OK to go in and face your daily tasks and the people who work with you.

Teagz, I'm glad everything is going smoothly for you hun and your bubbie is doing wonderfully! I love your ticker hun, how very exciting to finally see it sweetie!!!

Megan, never give up hope hun, I know it sometimes seems like it's taking forever to see that much anticipated BFP, but hang on honey it will happen very soon, I can feel it in my waters!!!!!! I am doing a huge BFP dance for us all TTC, I would dearly love to see a BFP here very soon :pray:

AFM, I am eagerly (and with much anticipation) waiting to see how my scan goes tomorrow, hopefully I am going to be on my TTC journer soon with you (Lan, Megan, Dee, Cheryl, Bec and anyone esle who I might have missed). I had a bit of a scare on Thursday, I woke up feeling really dizzy and on Friday the dizziness continued. I went in to the hospital as I was really freaking out, and they did a CT scan as they wanted to see that everything was OK. They said I have 'vertigo', where there is problem in my middle/inner ear and my balance is affected. I got a shot in my thigh, and they gave me some tablets to take, which seem to be helping. I really didn't need this with my upcoming FET, so we'll see how it all goes.

Hello to all my other beautiful friends, I hope everyone had a nice weekend :grouphug:.

Speak with you all soon.

Beata xxxx

Hi Diana,
Just a quick note to wish you good luck for your NT scan tomorrow :crossfingers:. I pray everything is great and your bubbie is doing wonderfully. Take care sweetheart.
Lots of love always
B xxxxxxx

Hi Beata,

All the very best for your scan tomorrow. I will be praying :pray: that everything is looking fantastic and that you can start the process straight away and that you get your long awaiting BFP first go, you really deserve it hun, you have been through so much already :hug: Take care.

Also, thank you for your encouragement, I pray that we get a shower of BFP's in here very soon. :bluedust::bluedust::bluedust:

Diana, all the best for the NT scan, I hope that everything is looking brilliant!