Oh Stickybaby, welcome to our little corner of the world, I did read (& posted) about your loss in the preg thread, I haven't had enough courage myself to jump over there yet. You have been through such unimaginable heartache, I just want to reach through the screen and hug you! I hope you find some strength with us here, I know I have. No one can walk in your shoes and tell you what is right or wrong, you are the only one who knows what 'fits', try not to let negative people destroy your dreams, I know it is hard esp with family. Thankfully you sound like you have a wonderful DH and mum, lean on them and us to help you through.