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Lan -- now I'm all excited and nervous for the weekend! I really hope AF stays away and that we get a long-awaited and well-deserved BFP in here. It's been a while!
So is Jo (relatively) ok? It's nice to hear she's still among the living! Did you tell her we were all asking after her?
Beata -- my SIL had 4 miscarriages in a row because of fibroids. I do not believe she had one big one like you have, but rather lots and lots of them. Every one of her miscarriages was in week 12. But after she changed doctors and they gave her a good work-up, removed the fibroids and put her on aspirin to keep them from growing back, she had her little girl that is 3 years old now. So I have no reason to expect anything less for you!
Sue -- figures that your placenta would be in the front so that you don't get as many kicks as you'd like! But it's nice with a great scan -- I haven't had one for 7 weeks now I just realized, so I'm hoping I get one when I next see the high risk OB in week 30.
Theresa -- I know what you mean about never having experienced this kind of turmoil. I know you feel like you're not coping well, but I don't believe you're coping any less heroically than a person in your situation can be expected to. I have my "light at the end of the tunnel" coming in April, but I'm starting to cry more and more every day, sometimes sinking back into that same black pit that I thought I'd crawled my way out of. It's not fun to feel "broken," but I really think that you're not handling it any worse than you should. I know it's maybe both comforting and depressing to hear me say that your despair is normal and might last a while... but the important thing is that you don't feel like a failure for not being chipper and happy.
Paula -- now you're 3 days pregnant! :D
Rozzie -- I'm sort of waiting for the third trimester to hit like a ton of bricks. I've been having lots of tiny little issues, but no major ones, except for this constant bull**** with my sinuses. I have a bit of hip pain, a bit of shortness of breath when I go up the stairs, etc... tiny, almost unnoticeable quibbles that merely serve to remind me that Kebab is in there. My belly certainly doesn't remind me, as it still hasn't gotten big enough to make a noticeable difference! I'm sort of like "What, I used to weigh 115 kg, and this is all you've got? Bring it on!" :D
I've been going to a chiropractor for the hip pain and it's really gotten a lot better -- but typical! I'm in for some major hurt later tonight, as I fell on the stairs this morning when I got up to let the cats out! I bounced down 3 or 4 of them on my butt, and DH came SPEEDING from the bedroom. He said "I was just lying in bed thinking that I should probably be letting the cats out because you might be tired and clumsy and fall down on your stomach and something will happen to Kebab, and right then I heard you fall!" So I'm banned from cat duty from now on! But everything seems good -- it's been 5 hours and nothing hurts, nothing is bleeding or leaking, and Kebab is kicking away... sheesh!
DH and I are in an interesting situation before New Year's... our closest friends seem to be splitting up after 8+ years together, and the female half of the couple seems to have been in the hospital after a suicide attempt. So we're quite full up trying to figure out our best course of action in order to be supportive and fair but not pushy or too self-sacrificing. I know I can't fix her, but I hope that I can offer her a hand to hold or a person to sit next to and drink coffee, which is what I would have wished for my friends to do after losing Beiron but I didn't really get much of.
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Hi lovely ladies. I am sorry I have not been around the past week or so. We are in Brisbane with my family for Christmas. I know that this Christmas and New Year period are very difficult and bring along with it many difficult emotions. I hope you are all okay and just allow yourself plenty of time alone if that is what you need. Don't make yourself be sociable if you think it will be too upsetting. I hope 2009 is kinder to all of you.
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Hi Tildy,
Glad to hear you're going well ( apart from that fall on the stairs !!!! naughty girl, stay away from stairs they're evil ! he he he ). You know when you said you're hardly showing at the moment, well, when I was 3 months pregnant my belly was the size of a 6 month pregnancy because of the IVF drugs and the massive fibroid. At work, I didn't want people to find out until I had my 12 week scan, but they suspected I was pregnant and the rumours were flying high. It was awful to dodge them.
I suspect your SIL kept having miscarriages because if she had that many small fibroids they probably prevented the embyos from sticking properly in the wall. I have read and heard of so many women with fibroids ( some of the fibroids a decent size ! ) that have successfuly gone on to get pregnant and carry to full term. In some cases the 3 to 5 cm fibroids just disappeared with the pregnancy progressing ! How's that ! Didn't happen to me though, my fibroid just went crazy. I know if my doctor thought it was going to behave like it did, he would have removed it ( while it was still a respecable size of about 8 x 7 cm - now it's 11 x 11 cm ) before I attempeted to get pregnant. The fibroid's blood supply got cut off and is now dead, around the time Joshua was born, so I guess that was his mission here on earth, becuase had he not been in my belly, the fibroid would have been growing still.
I'm sorry to hear about your friends splitting up. I think the best thing you can do is just be there for your friend as she'll probably need a shoulder to cry on. It is a shame you didn't have that support when you lost Beiron, that's why we surround ourselves with our closest friends, counting on them to be there if tragedy stikes.
Sending you big hugs and good luck in your next scan ! Go little Kebab !
Hi Katie, just saw your post. Hope you're going OK with your bub :D.
Love
Beata xxx
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Sulking! Couldn't help myself and bought a pee stick and peed and got a big fat BFN. I really expected two lines to show up. Boo hoo. It's CD27 today. Shouldn't it be positive by now if there's anybody in my belly?
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Hello everybody, just a really quick one, I feel like my feet haven't hit the floor lately! I think all is ok on my end, and I have to say Lan that my naughty little baby hasn't put much of a show on at all, even had about 3 days of nothing! It is just so different to the boys, once they started to move there wasn't any stopping them, but this one is just trying to test my sanity I think. Scan on Tuesday, BRING IT ON!!!!
Lan - Do remember when I was testing and nothing was coming up and then only the slightest of slightest line for like over a week after AF due??? You kept telling me to be patient, well I am now telling you the same thing! Katie was the same I think, didn't get her BFP until after AF, and just look at our gorgeous little mascot! Here's hoping that BFP is still coming.
Theresa - I have only hugs for you, don't feel like you 'have' to be strong, it is sadly going to take a lot of hurt before you start to live life without Zachary in your arms, but he will ALWAYS be in your heart and soul.
Laney - I can't believe your sister was so incensitive, I wanted to smack her for you! Hugs to you too.
Hi to everyone else I really need to get myself moving again, we have a party at neighbours place tonight, so at least I can come home whenever I want to. Happy New Year to all!
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Lan, Lan , patience dear ! It might be too soon to know, please be patient. Still have my fingers and toes crossed for you, I know you'll by eyeing off another pregnancy stick soon....Put it down !!!!!
Helen, all the best for your scan on tuesday ! You know, now the bubs will be very busy in there since you're wishing for more action !
To all you lovely girls, I wish you a happy, healthy and peaceful 2009, may it bring you all you've hoped for and more, may it bring little bubs to all TTC and may all the girls with little bubs in their bellies have good labours and healthy bubs in 2009 !
Bring on 2009 !!!!
Lots of love and hugs to all,
Beata xxx
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Hi all,
Lan - remember I was the same. Got the faintest of faintest lines on the day my period was due. I really had to squint to see it..... and when I went to the Dr's the next day, it was also very very light and even she wasnt quite sure. So you never know!!!!!
I also wanted to wish everyone a very safe NYE. 2009 is going to be a fantastic year for all. Bring it on...
xxx Sue xxx
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Hi girls,
Happy New Year 2009 :birthday2:!! How is everyone today ? What did you all end up doing last nite ??? I ended up going to a friend's house for a wee party ( the last 3 years have been spent in the city for the fireworks ) and the buggers got me drunk :sick:( I was supposed to drive back home ), and then they brought out the singstar and I ended up belting out god knows how many songs, and this morning my throat is so sore...I'm supposed to pack for my holiday today as we leave tomorrow, and I just want to stay in bed :o
Hey Sue, I just realised Lily's due date is 10 May, if she's on time we'll only be a day apart in birthdays ( mine's on 9th May ) ! Taureans rule !!!!!!
Love and hugs to all, going back to bed...
Beata xxx
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Beata you drunk skunk! Haha. Glad you had a good time. You so read my mind about having another go on the pee stick because of course I bought a packet of two but because you told me so fiercely, I won't touch it until maybe Sunday. Hee.
Helen and Sue, I was actually going through the archives trying to find out if any of you guys had BFN's the cycle you were actually pregnant. I saw the one where you finally got a faint BFP Helen and felt sorry for myself because at least you got a faint line. But I feel better now that you've reminded me that the faint line wasn't even until a week after AF was due.
Hey Helen, I bet you've got a little girl in there since everything this time is so different from both the boys. Maybe your placenta's at the front like Sue's?
Sue, your ticker really is on steroids. It's like Katie's was - just zip zip zip. I hope I get one of those too!
Happy new year, my friends!
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Lan, I knew by the time you'd read my message not to open another pee stick, you would be tearing one open anyway ( that's because I'd be doing exactly the same he he, I have no patience at the best of times - and the excitement would be just too much for me ). Just so you're not disappointed at a negative reading, waiting those extra few days is worth wile...Can't believe I won't be here to hear how you went....! ( I wonder is there's an internet cafe in Lorne ??? must investigate ). Otherwise I'll be off for 7 days, that's gonna kill me !
Good luck huni, I have nothing else left to cross for you .....all 20 fingers and toes crossed already ! xxxxx
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Hi all,
Happy New Year.
Hoping that 2009 is going to be all that we dreamed of.
Lan - still have my fingers crossed for you - please please wait those extra days. I will be waiting to hear fantastic news.....
Beata - have a good trip away. Relax and enjoy it.
A big hello to everyone else.... xxx
xxx Sue xxx
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AF arrived.
It's not fair! It's not fair! It's not fair.
My only consolation is that Paula is only on CD4 so we're three days apart on this cycle.
I threw a giant wobbly this afternoon. You know, the same thing we've all cried about. I've been pregnant twice, I was more than half way through my last pregnancy, and yet here I am waiting for the next cycle to fall pregnant.
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:comfort: Lan - I have been watching you closely. I am sorry... :hug:
Try and think it's only 12 days until you start trying again... Big hugs darling woman... :hug:
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Oh Lan, I am so sorry sweetheart :cry:
Big :hug: for you.
I know how you feel!!! hoping each cycle is the one.
If you need to do a wobbly - you do it!!! Sometimes it is what we need to do so we can focus on the next cycle.
I will be praying :pray: that next cycle is the one.....
xxx Sue xxx
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Oh sweetie, I'm sorry...that bloody AF !!!!! I know it's so disappointing, :noaf: next time !!
Sending you huge hugs hun, now I've got 10 fingers and 10 toes crossed for you for the next cycle. I know it will happen for you, please stay positive :pray:
Love and big hugs and massive amounts of babydust coming your way....
Beata xxx
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Hi Sue, thanks hon, I'll definitely aim to have a very relaxed holiday. Don't know about the weather though, it's a bit like winter ATM ! What are you sending to us from Adelaide ? We always get your weather eventually...Hope you're plodding along nicely and that you hips are not giving you too much trouble :).
Speak to you in 7 days, unless I can locate an internet cafe somewhere..... he he
Love
Beata xxx
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Hi all, it's pretty quiet in here isn't it? Just wait till Jo gets back on and writes an essay! She is always good at filling up the space!
Lan - I'm sorry hun, but I have to say I think you and Paula are going to jam this month together! So we should have at least 2 bubs due in October!
beata - Have fun while you are away, where are you going? Hope you can snag a IT cafe! It is stinking hot in Brisbane (although today is nice), send us some of that winter.
Theresa - How are you going with Zachary today? I hope he is holding you tight.
Sue - Bugger about the hips, I get a bit of SPD, which is starting to bite me if I move the wrong way.
Katie - How was Anna's first Xmas?
TM & Stickybaby - How are you guys going? Big hugs to you both.
Hi to everyone.
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Thank you for your calming words. I think I've almost recovered from the disappointment and like Flowerchild said, only a week and bit till it's action stations again.DH wants to know how come he tells me exactly the same things as you guys but gets in trouble for it whereas when you guys say the same thing, I think you're great. Ha ha.
Really really Helen? You've got a feeling for Paula and I for this cycle? Cos you know I knew for sure that you'd get pregnant in September and I was right. So I'm going to cling onto your words now :-)
I don't know how my egg didn't manage to meet a single sperm though. We BD'd everyday from when the fertile CM showed up. DH thinks he must've been running on empty and thinks every second day is better. He also wants to know why we have to follow dates. Because I'm a control freak, that's why :-)
Oh Tildy, I forgot to answer your question about Jo. She didn't sound too OK and I haven't heard from her since so she's likely to be in quietly going mental but still chugging along mode - we're all pretty good at that.
I'm cold Helen, you can have some of Sydney's cold wind.
