Trying to Conceive after Still Birth/Recurrent Miscarriage/Late Loss ~ February 2009

Hello my dear friends,

It really sucks being at work!!! It means I usually can't post until I get back from work and the last two days I've only sat down at the computer late at night (apart from sneaking in this morning!) as I've had things on. I miss chatting to you all day....lol

Nae, I am so praying you are pg hun, that would be so wonderful to hear. Like I've said before, the signs are all positive, so really hope this is it for you. Everything is crossed hun, and I'll be waiting breathlessly until the 13th!!!!!!!! (you know it's firday right ?, maybe test the day before???? he he)
Please, please stay safe during the fires, and get out at any signs of trouble. I've seen so much heatache in the last few weeks with the devastation of the fires, I really hope you don't have to go through anything bad. Look after yourself hun!

Teagz, the HPTs are not always reliable when you test too early. I tested a day or two earlier than my scheduled blood test after my transfer, and I'm pretty sure I got a BFN and then one or two days later the blood test came up pos. So wait until it's almost AF time. When is it BTW? I pray it doesn't come hunni :pray:

Diana, hun you're doing so well. It is very hard waiting the 2 weeks, I know. I think my 2 weeks were not so bad, as I prepared myself for a negative result (prob. because I didn't have any symptoms) and you know the rest. So keep hanging in there hun! If you do the test tomorrow or thursday, it might still be an incorrect result and that's why the bood test is 100% accurate. So go with your gut feeling hun, but remember even if you think it's only one line, you might still be UTD when you do the blood test!!!! Praying for you hun, always thinking of you and sending you lots of strength & patience :pray:

Dee, so brave for you to test early, but I so hope it's a big fat positive for you too hun!! Tell me when you're testing as the wait is killing me!!! lol. Sweetie, I hope this is it for you, praying will all my might and strength :pray:

Theresa, so good to hear you're finally feeling normal again!! Must be a relief to get less of the m/s. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you on the 12th, I hope all looks fabulous :pray:.

Megan, you're still in the running hun, please let it be a BFP for you too!!!!! Get busy hun!!! Wishing you all the stickiest vibes in the world for this cycle :pray:.

If all you girls got BFP, I think we'd make history!!!! But please don't leave this thread for a while, I'd miss you all too much!!! :rolleyes:

Lan, how are you going hun? Seriously, I know this is our year, I always knew 2009 is going to be special. You know why???? 'Cos my birthday is on the 9th, 9 is my favourite number (naturally!! he he) so this year ending in '9' is very very lucky. When you fall pg soon, you're gonna remember my words hun!!!

Joselyn, it's still feeling very special in here with your exciting BFP news, you are an inspiration to us all. Thank you!!!!!! and another dance for you :happyforyou:

AFM, work was better today. I saw my psych yesterday and she told me I'm waaaaaaay too anxious at work and to think very carefully if I want to be at work in this state of mind when I have my transfer. So let's see if things improve. On a more positive note, I told my DF that if I end up leaving work, I'm going back to uni instead!!! I'be been thinking about it for ages, and the time feels right. I'm considering midwifery, studying psychology or photography.
Which do you think suits girls??? Even with TTC, I can do part time studying and mum is always on hand to give me a hand with bub.
Oh, and my doc app. got cancelled again today, my FS was running waaaay behind after his surgeries so off to see him tomorrow after lunch.

I hope all our beautiful mummas are well and on the big countdown, sending you all lots of hugs :grouphug:

To the rest of the lovelies TTC, babydust and sticky vibes and little storks and all pg things to get you all a BFP soon!!!!!

Much love and big hugs
Beata xxxxxxxxxxxx

Beata, Glad your work was a little better yesterday. Poor you, no BB! I'm lucky enough to be able to sneak on during work hours.. teehee.
Can't say the same for myself though!! The second week I returned back to work after losing Jayvan we had to have a meeting with the head of HR about the "poor work relationships between some of us and the subsequent effects this may be having". And this morning I come in to see an email about a concillour coming in to talk to us now!!! Honestly!! This whole fiasco has been going on for about 3 years, and they are never going to fire the person causing all the drama's so I don't know why they are bothering. It's such a waste of time! All I want to do is go to work, get paid, then go home. I don't really care who b*tches to who about what and when, I have a slippery back ;)
As for the uni course, if I were you I'd do photography... then you can take all pretty photos of your little bubby growing up ^^; But I'm a little bias, I've always wanted to get right into photography!

Oh, and AF is due on the 8th of March - she's soooo going to come, I know it.

Berry, yeah I shouldn't have tested at all! Ugh. I'm so impatient though, I just wish we had a glass ball we could look into sometimes to let us know what's giong on! But I guess that would take the fun out of life a bit.

Theresa, all the best for your scan! I love the 12 week scans. I think it's around then that everything actually sinks in.

DD & Dee, Still sending you guys loads of sticky vibes :hug:

NaeNae, Don't worry, I can never keep up with everyone's real names either :doh::)

Well, I guess I better do some work. Love you's girls! xx

hi ladies, i'm soooo excited:dance: well i don't know if that's the right word mybe relieved is better. we just came back form the hospital to hear about what they found happened with our little boy. i have been sad and nerbous the whole week and had a good few cries yesterda and this morning. and worse i feel like i can't just ring people and start talking about it and i got an email from a girl i worked with asking how the pregnancy is going:redface: i haven't been able to respond.but i'll get to it i guess. anyhoo i was so nervous and teary at the waiting room just dredding it. waht if they said it was something i did? what if they don't know? what if i can't have babies? all sorts. but they said with the swab they took from me after the delivery they found some bacteria.ureaplasma he called it which caused chorioamnionitis. basically an infection in the uterus caused by bugs that live in the vagina normally and sometimes but very rarely get out of hand. i was embarrassed but i had to ask and they said it's not a cleanliness thing and unlikely to happen again and i should have a normal pregnancy next time. just bad luck. but i'm sooo glad we can be normal again although i have to go to the hospital's high risk clinic and monitored closely, but it's nothing physical and we can try again when ever we want. we had a fight so i think we missed this month lol.

Hi everyone just quickly ducking in to say to Mummy2be, that I had this infection too, although they couldn't culture mine to know what exactly caused the chorio. My story got a little more complicated though because they couldn't give me a definitive answer whether it was the infection that caused the labour to start or if I had Incompetent cervix which let the infection in! When I presented to the hospital I was 4cm already without having any real labour, so I had a stitch placed this pregnancy as a precaution. You are right the chances of it happening again are very remote (although we would prefer it to be never) and you will get to have your little bub, glad they will watch you closely.
Good luck
Helen

hi helen,
i had never heard of this before but an answer was great. yeah we wish it would never happen. they said i will not get a stitch because my cervix looks fine and i had labour pains for a while which makes them think it's not the cervix. nonetheless i will have a swab between 12 and 16 weeks to check if the infection doesn't come back etc. i will probabbly have them check twice just to be n the safe side. also i asked that my cervix be checked as well at 12 weeks just to check on how it's progressing and maybe at 14 and 16 weeks etc. imagine that all you need is antibiotics! that sounds crazy that you can lose a baby when it can be sorted out easily like that.my bbs are sore! hmmm i thought we bded like four and three days before !
i'm so happy you hav another bubby on the way :clap:

Hi Mummy2Be

I am glad that you have got some answers as to what happened. I can imagine how stressful it was for you leading up to that appointment. It's awful that these 'rare' events happen, but it sounds like it is highly unlikely to happen to you again and they will obviously monitor you, so that is great news. Exciting that you can start ttc again with peace of mind. Happy for you :D

Hi girls,

Mummy2be, I'm so glad you've got an answer from the doc. I have read of bacteria getting into the uterus which can cause miscarriage, although it's pretty rare. Good luck with your TTC and I pray that you get your BFP soon :pray:

Diana and Dee, praying like crazy every day for you guys:pray::pray::pray: Diana, you only have 2 more days to go!!! That is sooooooo exciting hun!!!

Megan, have you O'd yet??? I hope you've been a very busy little bunny :lol: Let's pray hard for a very sticky egg for you :pray:

Teagz, sounds like your work is not much better than mine!!! We have this really nosey and rude woman in accounts and she's been with us for 6 months. Well, she came in and started running the whole place!!!! She's just an accounts payable person, and she started telling our sales reps what they could and couldn't spend the company's money on, changed some people's chairs around as the 'decor' was all wrong, and basically bossed everyone at work. Well, you don't boss a bull (that be me...). I told her to shove her bossing ways up her bum one day and she doesn't talk to me now (THANK GOD). When I told her that I was having my op, she told me not to get my hopes up. The BIATCH!!!!!!!!!!
Any more signs for possible BFP hun??

Nae, how are you going? Do you think you're UTD?? I pray you are :pray:

AFM, I went to see my FS today and he told me to go for an U/S end of April early May. Because I have to go between CD5 and CD9, I made the app. on 8 May. I then go and see him again on 19 May to discuss the transfer. I think I will have my transfer in early June...can't wait!!!! He also told me that the frozen blastie is more advanced than what little Josh was as it was frozen a day later, so this one is a really good one. Guess what number embryo Joshua was????? Number 9. That's my birthday and my lucky number. Can you believe it? It gave me goose bumps......

Big hello to our mummas and lots of sticky vibes and baby dust to all our TTC lovelies.

Love
B xxxxx

Hi everyone, I just wanted to say thank you for your well wishes etc... its so nice to be able to hear it considering everyone in my family and circle of friends has no idea! :shhh:

Nae - good luck for this month. If its a BFP then I say its got something to do with the moon this month... what do you think? It just feels like a special month. End of Summer, darker nights, time for soup that kind of think ;) I love the transition of seasons...

Teags - That sux about the BFN - how can those things get it so wrong! I did 4 tests to make sure I was really positive - and even still I won't believe it till I actually miss my period. I had heard of checmical pregnancies so I won't jump for joy till Sunday. Have to stay grounded he he.

Diana - I don't know if you caved in yet with the early testing. Don' t be too hard on yourself if you have and if you haven't, well done! Bottom line is, if you test early and its neg, its not accurate yet so don't waste your hearts precious hopes... (says a girl who tested 7 days early!) Its killing me - its making it take so long to get to the day my AF was due! Ohh what if it still comes :doh:

beata70 - thank you for having a dance for me! I feel like giving you a big mum hug :hug: you girls all rock.

All the best to the other girls and thanks again for all your best wishes! Next step is missing the actual period (there is another negative to testing early girls... you still have to wait anyway to be sure).

Next step after that is to make it to the first appt, then to 12 weeks, then the stitch at 14 weeks, then 20 weeks, and then 26 weeks. Then I will accept this pregnancy LOL

Big kisses to all, Jasmine AKA Joselyn. xxx

Howdy All,

Jas
Yeah I just love it now the days are getting shorter and all the rain we have had the last few days has been wonderful. Its been so good getting some cold weather - get the fire place going - how romantic :lol: Like you I love the transition of season.

Beata
I am not too sure to be honest but I am hoping ;) So exiting for you hun about your little blastie :D got chills on the 9 thing though thats so cool.

Teagz
8 days hun then we can test. Friday the 13th hehehehehe could be a good omen too a way to dispell he bad luck ;) no cheating!!!

Mummy2b
Glad you have an answer thats awesome. At least that should eleviate some of the stresses from your next pregnancy. I wish mine was so clear cut.

hgirs
If you get this - how did all that go?? the stich I mean and following on until this point any extra pain etc - This will be something I may have to consider when I get to 14 weeks with my next pregnancy.

Hi to everyone else

AFM - I feel weird. I have noticed I am getting light headed a bit more and generally feeling blah. Sometimes I feel like I am going to throw up other times I feel fine. Only my right boob is sore and I have been paying attention to my areola and nothings changed. Not peeing any more than usual either so I have no idea.

8 days until I test again so :pray: until then

Nae x

Jose, :hug: It will be nice to make those mile stones! I read someone say in another thread to just love your baby in the moment your in, because they'll be able to feel it, and *try* not to worry about what might happen. Easier said than done but, hey, in theory it sounds good! It will be such a good feeling reaching those milestones though. I hope you have a very uneventful pg!

Beata, I HATE MY JOB! I'm not even going to get into what happened yesterday!! I was so angry. As for BFP signs, I feel like complete crap, I'm tired as hell yet I can't get a proper night sleep because I have a million things going around in my head at the moment and my boobies hurt, but I keep getting really sharp twinges in my abdomen so I don't know what's going on in there. Pretty sure AF is going to grace me with her company though, damn her! Your co-worker sounds like Queen Biatch to me as well, no matter how much I can't stand some people I wouldnt say that sort of thing to them.
Oh I didn't see the part about your transfer! How exciting. It must feel nice having a plan now. And good news about that little embie. He sounds like a strong sticky one! ;)

Noni, I 'm glad they were able to give you some answers as to why you lost your little angel, and it sounds like that they will be proactive in making sure it doesn't happen again which is good. And if it does happen again (god forbid!) Its great that it can be treated so easily! And fight, smight! Nothing better than making sex! :lol:

Well, I might crawl under my desk and have a nap ><; Ciao Bella's! xxx

ETA, NaeNae... I'm just counting down the 3 days til AF is due for now.. Then I'll work on those following 5 days haha! God, I hate waiting! I have had a few light headed moments as well. And, I don't know if you ever had them before but when I was pg with Jayvan I'd get a lot of heart flutters, like my heart was skipping a few beats, then it would pound really hard for a couple of seconds and was back to normal (perhaps I might mention that to my DR when I see him next...) which I had over the weekend but nothing since.
I really want to say that I'm certain something is going on in there, but I just don't want to sound dumb when AF comes!

Nae I haven't had any extra pain from having the stitch placed, wouldn't even know it was there, except once when I felt the ends scratch inside and panicked, took off up to the hospital and all was good. They apparently leave the ends long so it is easier to grab and snip! I haven't been allowed to lift more than 4kg and no sex, strenuous exercise etc. Hard not to lift when you have a 2yr old, and well the sex thing is now starting to bug me! But honestly all has been good, have scans every month to check length which has been very stable. My biggest pain is I have developed again pubic bone pain, but this time I get it in my pelvis joint at the back as well as the front, grrr!!! But whatever it takes to get this one further down the line. I had the option to not have the stitch, but be closely monitored instead but in the end I felt better just getting it done.
Good luck with your decision
Helen

hgirs
Thanks so much Helen, yeah I know that I'll be given a choice but I will opt to have it put in, at least then I know that everything was tried if we have problems again ;) I'd also rather have it sooer rather than later too knowing th complications that can arise with sack rupter etc.

Teagz
:noaf: I am protesting for you :noaf: :pray: :pray: :pray: :pray:

NaeNae, I'm protesting for you as well! For all of us! I really do hope You, Me, DD & Dee (& I think I missed someone...) will all get to have baby belly's together!!
:noaf::noaf::noaf::noaf::noaf:

Hi ladies

Good to see you are all doing well. I just quickly wanted to wish Diana GOOD LUCK for her blood test tomorrow. I have been thinking of you all week and hoping that your little emby has found a comfy position to settle in for the next 8 or so months :pray:

That goes for you too Dee - can't remember when your BT is sorry but it must be soon?

Nothing new to report here - I see my ob again tomorrow but not expecting any bad news. I am starting to actually enjoy my pg now that I can live my life a little more normally. Hmm, maybe my ob might give me the all clear for some bedroom action soon! (I hear you Helen!) :redface::D

Sending the rest of you lots of BFP vibes xx

Nae, just a quick one coz I'm at work. I am due for my period tomorrow, have had four positive tests and I still am not peeing, don't have sore boobs yet... nothing. I am just finding it really hard to sleep lately. Just wanted to reassure you it doesn't mean much yet...

xxx Jas xxx

Jos, when are we going to see a ticker from you!? ;)

ALM, No news is good news from you, hun :hug: Fingers crossed that your OB give you the all clear! hehe

I've just been looking through my diary and last month I started spotting on CD26, which is tomorrow! (CD25 today) I can't believe how nervous I am to see what happens :redface:

xx

Hi Girls,

Teagz, I second the protest :noaf: I hope she stays away for you & there is no spotting tommorrow.

ALM, I am glad to hear you are able to now enjoy your pg, you deserve to! Hope the OB appointment is again positive for you.

Beata, some people are amazing aren't they, I really don't know how people even have the energy to be so bossy & nasty, isn't life challenging enough - lol.

AFM, O hasn't showed up on FF, but due to being sick my temps are all over the place. I have been using Maybe Baby as well, which shows that I have already O'ed, which feels right to be as well, so its just sit back and wait now. Someone told me that when your sick your body creates more white blood cells that attack the virus and any other 'foreign matter', and can attack the sperm, fantastic! that's all I need, my body waging war against me. Does anyone know anything about that? Also, any insight into weather I could have O'ed even though my temps haven't remained high, due to sickness? Thanks girls.

hello to everyone.

Hi my beautiful girls,

I think we should call the whole thread :noaf: thread!!! lol There is enough of us here wanting the wicked witch to stay well away!!!!!

First and foremost, I would like to wish my beautiful friend Diana lots of luck for tomorrow. I truly hope the result is what you've been praying for, as have I. Good luck my love, I'm praying very hard for you always. Let it be good news hun :pray:

Jas (aka Joselyn he he), I think we're never sure until the AF comes hey?! It will stay away, I'm sure, so enjoy your pregnancy hun! I know what you mean about starting to believe you're pregnant at 26 weeks, lol, I think I'll be the same!!!!! Lots of luck sweetie, everything will be fine.
BTW, I didn't have many 'pg' symptoms even after my pos. blood test. Boobies were tended later on....

Teagz and Nae, keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you lovely ladies, let's rain some BFP's in here!!! Good luck to you both, :noaf: I say!

Helen, ouch for the pubic bone pain!!! The things we women put up with hey? All will be wort it hun! Hang in there, you're doing very well :dance:

Jo, good luck for you scan tomorrow hun. Hope you can get some action now :redface: he he.

Megan, I'm not sure about the sickness thing when you're TTC. It makes sense about the white blood cells attacking the virus (and the foreign bodies such as a fetus), but then again, one of my close friends was very sick with a cold when she conceived and she had a healthy boy. She was taking antibiotics for her virus, and taking the pill at the same time. Well, the antibiotics cancelled the pill out (the pill just didn't work!!) and she got pg. So keep doing what you doing hun, and big sticky vibes to you lovely!!!

Dee, also been thinking of you a lot lately. I hope all is well with you and that your test brings us some good news next week!!!:pray:

Hi Lan sweets, how are you doing??? Sending you lots of :bluedust: and :stickyvibesboy: hun.

Big hello to all our beautiful and big bellied mummas and always bucket loads of babydust and sticky vibes to my beautiful friends who are TTC a little bub (or two!!).

Love always
Beata xxxxx