WOW i've added more friends on facebook in the last 24hrs than the whole time I have been on there. Well not quite but it feels like that. All my uni friends have about 4000 friends each and always tease me about my small but special collection!
Tildy, I have also hit the countdown to EDD. One day I feel really good and strong and then the next I spend most of the day crying. I somehow had managed to stop counting the phantom weeks which made things easier but now that uni has finished I have more time to think about that kind of stuff.
DS has been really funny about everything lately as well. I filled you all in on some of the things he has been saying. Last night at dinner he bursts out and says 'Mummy I know a good name for a new baby', when I asked him what it was he said 'Charlie'. I had to try and explain that it was Charlies's name and we would think of another name together when it was time to make another baby. Then this morning during breakfast he says 'Mummy, I don't want us to make another baby', when I asked him why he said 'Charlie is my favorite and I don't want another one'. I tried to explain that one day Charlie might send us a new baby to take care of and he just got really sad and said 'But I don't want her to Mummy, I just want Charlie'. I wasn't quite sure what to say after that, he was so adamant and I was trying not to get upset and didn't want to say the wrong thing. Niether DH or I are sure how to tackle this one. We're just going to see if he forgets about it and if not come up with a plan. He is such a loving BB to Charlie and I think he feels the same kind of betrayal I'm sure we all feel when we first start making plans for a new baby, or trying to move on with our lives. I guess I'll just try and explain to him that we can still love Charlie just as much as ever but will also have another baby to love and play with.
Who would have thought I would ever have to explain such things to a 4yo.
Hammi - I am so glad you got answers to why Hamish is an angel. It doesnt make it easier to accept, but at least you know you did absolutely nothing wrong. How did you go with the GP on Monday, did you get a referral to the new OB?
Tildy - How are you going with the bleeding etc???? Mine has actually stopped, so I am so hoping that all is OK.
Katiegirl - Congratulations on making it over the 30 week mark It is the downhill run now..... how are you feeling, is the baby kicking away??? Thank you also for your story, you really did help to make me feel a little more positive. I really don't think my Dr made me feel much more positive. Probably because of the way I was acting.!!
Helen - this is your month.... now how is all the temperature charting going???
Cindee - havent heard from you lately. Hoping all is well.
Mrs Robbo - Wow Dunk Island - you lucky thing. I hope you have a wonderful break. Your Ethan must have a very powerful connection with angel Charlie. It is so nice to hear that he is talking about him. It must be hard for you though, to try and make him understand what is happening.
Rozzie - thanks for the advice about the Charting. I just cant seem to stop. Though I think I will once I get my results tomorrow. It is already doing my head in!!!!
MrsRobbo your son Ethan sounds like such a precious little soul. I love how children can so easily articulate exactly how they feel. It is beautiful to read about the connection he has with Charlie, though I am sure it must break your heart at the same time. I know with my nephews and niece that they were very affected when my sister had her first loss - one of them cried, one got angry and well the girl...she acted like a drama queen. Then when she had the next child (an earth baby who is now 3) they all treated her like she was so precious. They still do, she is incredibly spoilt by the whole family. Then with the last loss, it all started over again. One son even decided to tell my sister that she and DH should 'just do that thing' (he was about 8 at the time) and could they let him know when they do as he would like another baby! One of my other nieces when she found out I was pregnant again, look puzzled and said 'But I thought you baby was in heaven' - it was so lovely to know that she had not forgotten especially as she is 6. So we explained it all to her and said this was another baby, and my brother has told me that she always prays now at bedtime for the 'baby in Katie's tummy'. Maybe when we need a bit of comfort and support in real life we should all go and talk to children!
Sue - yes this little girl is still kicking me away. I haven't yet seen the kicks from outside (as in my belly move) so hoping that will come soon. I do have an anterior placenta to the kicks have to get through a bit of padding first. Glad my story helped a little bit - I think I did about 8 or so tests before I stopped charting, so you are not alone.
Lan - I hope you are doing ok. I read the post when someone answered the questions you had about hypercoiling, so I hope this has given you a bit more information. And I loved your suggestion to think back on the weeks we had our babies rather than the ones that followed. I often get so stuck on the moment I found out about Nathaniel. I will try to remember the sheer joy I felt when I got the first positive BFP , we were so excited. Actually, crying now just thinking about it. Lovely idea and a good one for me to practise doing.
Tildy - so sorry you have to start a new position at work. I know it must be reminder of what shouldn't have happened. I hope you enjoy the holiday and it gives you the lift you need to return to your job.
Not sure who I have forgotten - but hello! Must get back to work.
hi im still lurking aroud. just been dealing with the morning sickness atm. also had a little spot a couple days ago but everything is good... still trying to ease DH into things though hes avoiding talking about things incase some thing goes wrong again but ive got positive vibes this time.. booked in to see a new OB hopefully she is good dont have much to choose from being in Taree. but been told shes the best. seeing my doc today for all tyhe basic stuff, BP check, hopefully its good..
hey girls!
i have to say, it is so nice to put some faces to your names, and i am with you hammi (and this includes you!), you girls are gorgeous!! (as well as gorgeous in nature!!)
I am doing a bigger scrapbook of madison and all you messages of support will have their place in there. Partially because my husband has never seen them and i am sure he would get something out of them and i want the memory of all your support in there as it is so amazing and from the start has been a huge part of our pregnancy. It would be nice to be able to also show the kids later how many wonderful people there are in light of heartbreak. I am doing one for her for our family for the same reasons as Jack, so we have something we can look at the same, as any pictures we would for anyone else in our in our family... I kinda fell into the scrapbook thing out of wanting to have a keepsake other than a reg album for my kids. I wanted to be able to write about photos that meant something to me or a moment important to them (and no one else) and the history behind them. If you have'nt figured it out, i am the biggest sentimentalist! And i always thought should anything ever happen to me,(or even Dan) the kids would have their scrapbooks as a memento of how much they were loved and how their little things meant alot.
Mrs Robbo - I totally get the child thing obvously and it IS so hard to know what to say to them. Quite often my kids will say what i have only thought or give new insight into all of this in their innocence and it will literally bring me to tears. It is wonderful that they can feel so protective of their little angels that they don't want anyone else to stamp away that memory eventhough in reality it does'nt. Give it time, eventhough we have had Madison my daughter (almost 4) still calls the spare room Baby Jacks room. (Madison is "Madison" but Jack is still lovingly nicknamed "Baby Jack" by the kids) If Madison had lived to go in there i am not sure what Em would have thought of that!!
Katie - seeing kicks from the outside is quite amazing. Once i was at work and one the girls was looking at my belly, literally move severely, side to side and was slightly freaked out by it. Another noticed a weird shape underneath my top on my right side on top of my belly. It was a foot pushed out into/against my skin so firmly i had this wierd alien bump look coming out and she also freaked out asking what it was so i told her to push her hand against it and she got a fright when it moved and kicked her back! your Dh will love it as it is their physical moment of preg with the baby!
sue -how are you going???? i won't say much but i hope all is good!
hammi - i too will try to remember my 5.5 months of happy times. We did mention in the service about her somersaults to me and in the ultrasounds she would not budge and let them get a good look! She had her mums (and older sis') stubborness! And we now laugh (instead of crying) about how she had her dads ugly shaped toes. See , i have started already! Jack i do remember fondly, madison is maybe still too raw, but i will try and follow your advice! and by the way, i'd hug you and cry all over you right back!
tildy -pls take care at work, i am nervous about returning to a job i know so i can't imagine how you feel! Take it easy and maybe try to see the change as a good thing tho. And it may be a good distraction in the end while you countdown to this baby! Its hard, and it sucks, so i wish you luck!
take care everyone! x jo
Well I am in shock. Just rang the Dr surgery and guess what - it is viable......
I am awaiting the Dr to give me a call back with the HCG Levels (as I want these things) and apparently it had on the notes. Yep definately pregnant....
It is the downhill run now..... how are you feeling, is the baby kicking away??? Thank you also for your story, you really did help to make me feel a little more positive. I really don't think my Dr made me feel much more positive. Probably because of the way I was acting.!!
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