Whoa, all these tickers in here are out of control. I love it!
Helen, I wouldn't listen to my own advice but it would be really good for your stress levels if you didn't test for about another five days. Your AF is only just due now isn't it? I'm telling you, this is your month, that BFP is is BFP, no matter how light!
Roz, your M/S sounds pretty severe. Baby's doing a lot of growing in there. Go baby go!
I have nothing to eat for dinner. It's Friday night and DH has a sore tummy so we can't eat out. Poor me.
hey guys!
well another week is almost over and unfortuneatly next week is another dreaded one. i have worked so many hours this week over what i normally do now and i think my poor throat has copped the brunt of it as it has been sore for days!
Next week, or thursday specifically, is my appointment to get the results for madison and my tests. I called the midwife (who was called to be with me after madisons scan) to confirm the appoint and she was just wonderful trying to calm my nerves. I don't get to see the monash (female) doctor who was with me after madison also as she is overseas. Even tho that day was my only dealing with her, i started to cry when the midwife told me that i would have a male doctor going through my results with me. She said personally and professionally he had a wonderful bedside manner and was really gentle so it put me a little more at ease. She also said if i felt uncomfortable at any time and wanted to wait to see my female doc then i could arrange another sppointment, it would just take more time to get in. So i will have to try to be extra strong as i can't afford to wait any longer than this 7.5 weeks. It will drive me nuts! So thursday girls, i will be going mental by then....prepare yourselves!
My headspace has become a little out of wack too. We had a cryingnewborn in the shop today and it bought tears to my eyes, not because it was crying and the mum was still shopping() but because i would do ANYTHING to hear that cry in my own arms again! It made me realise that in all this hurt i still have for madison that i do really want to try for another baby. I could see one of our girls watching my reaction out of concern so i knew i had to get my act into gear! It was a really busy day, i could'nt afford to have a meltdown!
as for you guys, for me it has been so busy in here. Next week i will endeavour to even in my long hours exhaustion to be on here again daily as i feel i have missed so much!
So to you all i'm gonna be lazy - as i need to re-read your posts to get my head around all thats going on - please take care and i promise some one on one time next week!
Helen - a shout out to you tho - a faint positive is still a positive so hold tight to your dreams and wish hard for that line to get darker! i'll have my fingers crossed for you! i too have practically gone cross eyed trying to squint at a pale line! But most of the time i have tested and tested to check that it gets darker and even after its dark, i still obsessively do more in case it vanishes! And that was me BEFORE i had any losses so you can imagine what i have been like after that!
take care girls! you were'nt the only one having a horrid tea hammi -i had lousy fish and chips! Nothing in my cupboard either!
take care and have a fab weekend !!
x jo
Hi all. I am in Brisbane and will just write a quick response to Helen and then come back tomorrow with more personals.
I waited about 4 days after AF was due to test - it was early afternoon and very very weak urine and I got a BFN. I was gutted as I kind of though that being so late would mean a positive. I then tested again the next morning with FMU and I got a faint (very faint) positive. I tested again the following morning (with 2 tests - so far all the same brand) and once again got a faint positive. I then went and saw the GP 1 week after AF was due and this was an early afternoon appointment and the test once again only came up with a faint positive. She took a blood sample and told me that if it would help to test over the weekend just to ease my worry. So I did (using Discover Onestep) and I finally got a strong BFP - a whole week after AF. The bloods came back on the Monday and confirmed I was pregnant. I waited until after AF because I didn't want the disappointment of knowing early if it was a BFN and I also didn't want to know about a chem preg. Maybe wait a couple of days and test again using a different brand. Fingers crossed you finally get that strong line!!!
Also, went to the Ob today and happy to report that my blood pressure is normal, babys' heartbeat is good, still head down and growing well. Mark even said that she felt like a good size - though not sure if that translates as 'big'. He also said the chance of going into labour this week in Brisbane is about 1% so hopefully it will stay that way.
Hugs to you all. Jo - glad to hear you survived your week at work and I hope you are taking care of yourself. Let me know if you want those test names mailed or faxed to you before Thurs - I can get my DH to do it for me - there are pages of them.
Wow Katie, 34 weeks today. Does it feel like you're on the downward slope yet? I hope that your mum is as comfortable as she can be and that you'll have an uneventful week in Brisbane. Take care!
Jo, I will be sending you loads of telepathic love and support for Thursday. My Hamish had hypercoling of the umbilical cord. Maybe you can add that to your list of things to ask about Madison. I remember you said that she was small in size - Hamish was about two weeks behind because of his stupid cord. I hope that they will give you an answer and a remedy so that your next pregnancy will deliver a screaming little babe in September 2009.
I need to shut my mouth and stop complaining when there is no reason. After whinging last night about not being able to go out, karma smacked me in the face. DH felt worse and worse. He went to the bathroom and I heard a big bang. I ran in there to find him sprawled on the ground *** warning TMI coming up *** He had passed out and thrown up everywhere. But the way he had fallen, his head was crushed up against the wall and bleeding and his neck was twisted at a really bad angle. He was unconscious but his throat made a scary gurgling sound. I truly thought he was having a fit and would die and leave me like Hamish did. Even though he weighs about 30kg more than me I somehow managed to drag him up so I could clear his airway while bawling my eyes out and screaming for him to wake up. He did come to and today he is much better although very pale, with a massive bruise and cut on his head and a very sore neck. Of course he won't got to a doctor. I'm just thankful he's alive. Sorry karma.
Oh Hammi you poor darling. Karma doesn't work that way - you didn't invite this in so don't think that.
You did the right thing but he really does need to see a doctor. You would have had a terrible fright. Try to encourage him to see a doctor - take care of him over the weekend. Sending you lots of love.
Oh my God Lan!!!! That would have scared the absolute crap out of me! I second that he should really go and see a doctor though!
Katie - Thanks for your bit about the tests it has made me feel a bit more at ease. I wish your mum all the best, I am sure she is already feeling better just by having you by her side. Again don't hesitate to PM me if you need some time out, no pressure though!
Paula - Thanks to you to, I have just spent most of the day in the garden, kept my mind of the whole thing.
Jo - Thanks too, I will be mentally holding your hand on Thursday, I hope they can give you some answers. You are sooo brave.
Sue - Thank you, you guys have made me feel better, and ultimately what will happen will happen. I will think about seeing another DR I used to see at the clinic, but I REALLY want to see my DR!!! (I think it is the whole feeling 'safe' thing)
) but because i would do ANYTHING to hear that cry in my own arms again! It made me realise that in all this hurt i still have for madison that i do really want to try for another baby. I could see one of our girls watching my reaction out of concern so i knew i had to get my act into gear! It was a really busy day, i could'nt afford to have a meltdown!
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