Judy, i am so sorry for your losses. i hope it helped a little to write out your story and some of what you are feeling. i feel so deeply for your pain. we just lost our Yeti on march 16 at 38 weeks with a cord accident. no other baby will ever replace him, just as no other will replace yours. i don't know if other people will ever truly understand that, but the folks here do understand and have helped me through some days. we are trying to have a little sibling for Yeti, but it is difficult to reconcile that hope with my fear of losing another baby. i hope you find some comfort here, and am sending you hugs. m