Hi Berry and Beata - thanks so much for your support and words of wisdom. Yes, you are both absolutely right - it is 12 weeks today since Ryan was born sleeping. I feel like I have come a long way, but there is still a road yet to be travelled. I managed to get back on the treadmill yesterday morning for 30mins, and felt so much better for it. Had great plans for today as well to do some pilates or yoga, but too cold and too tired. DH was up at 4.50am (and therefore so was I) to catch a flight for work! Spoke to my TCM lady today and had b/t done, even though no AF yet. She wants to know my FSH levels. The b/t included B-HCG, but I don't expect anything there as another POAS today showed a BFN. For now I am just focusing on being healthy - eating well and doing a bit of exercise 3 or 4 times a week to start. Nothing too much, just gently easing back into it. I enjoy running as well, tho' I'm not very fast! And was enjoying that before I fell pg, so I am keen to get back into my fitness routine again and I know the weight will just fall off once that happens.
Anyway, must go and cook dinner. DH should be home soon!
Take care all
xo
hi girls sorry that i have been missing but a lot has been going on this will be a short post as i am still trying to get my head around that my husband has left me. I have moved home with my parents for the moment but i am hoping that with time we may be able to make things work out. I will try and catch up with everyone in the coming days.
Dee, I am so sorry to hear that hun, I just want to give you a big hug I can't imagine what you must be going through. You both have been through so much with losing Chloe and the stress of IVF and they are just the things that we know about. I really hope that you work things out as well. Hopefully you are able to see a councillor together when the time is right. Know that we are all here for you no matter what you are going through. Thinking of you hun & take care of yourself
Cheryl, good for you for starting exercising and eating better. Sorry to hear that AF still hasn't shown her face. Are you going to start the extra strong herbies soon? Sounds like you are getting good 'medical' advise.
Hi TM, great to hear from you hun. Sorry to hear that you are still on the ttc train, but since you are, come and join us in here, its been so quiet lately, would be nice to have more company, but hope your journey is short at the same time
Hi Beata, hope you are well and that you can pinpint O in preparation for the big tranfer next month, can you believe it!
I'm just waiting for my AP appointment now. Feeling a bit down about everything the last few days, but hanging in there as there is nothing more I can do and there is still a lot for me to be grateful for
Dee, noooooo!!!!!!! Oh hun, I am so sorry you're going through this difficult time. I really hope & pray everything works out for you hun. Just know that I'm thinking of you and I'm reaching across the computer screen to give the biggest hug possible ! Chin up hun, we're always here for you .
Cheryl, I'm gald that you've got some positive goals to focus on, I know exercise and eating well can't hurt, lol! I've been very slack in both departments You have made some excellent progress hun, keep it up and you'll get your much wanted BFP sooner than you think!! Big hugs hun.
Megan, so looking forward to your post after you have your AP app. on Friday. I am hearing more and more about how beneficial AP is with fertility and particularly IVF. Hang in there hun, the journey will be so worth it in the end when you see those two lovely lines on that pee stick!!!!!
Well, the ovulation test confirmed O today, so I must be ovulating soon (they say in the next 24-36 hours). At least I know I 'O' on day 17. How's that?????!!!! All this time I was going for gold between day 13 and 15 ...
Tempus moriendi, welcome back!! Good luck in your TTC journey hun, I hope to hear some exciting news from you soon!!!
Bec, how is that horrible cold weather??!! I don't think it can get any colder than this. They say it might snow up in the Dandenongs tonight! Grrrrrrrr!!!! Extra blankies for me tonight..
Teagz & Nae, hello there! I hope all is well with you lovely ladies xxx
Diana, big hugs sweetie, hang on and chin up, I'm always thinking of you xxx
AFM, apart from pinpointing my O, yeepee!!! my DF still hasn't got back his police check thingie which we need in order to proceed with the next IVF cycle (this is compulsory from 1 July). I am a bit worried. I got mine back pretty quickly, but my DF has a very common name and apparently there are a lot of people with his name in Australia, and because they have to check each state, it's taking longer. I'm praying this thing will come in the post soon, as we might miss our cycle otherwise
Beata, so interesting that you thought you O'ed on day 13-15 & its confirmed as being day 17. Hope you and DH are going for gold now you never know. I think a lot of people must do that, think they O within a particular time frame and get it wrong. I have a great book by Zita West (she is like a naturopath I guess, specialises in helping women get pg & preparing those for IVF who need to go down that road) who says that a lot of women she sees make incorrect assumptions about when they O, its quite common. I didn't know much at all until I read her book. I guess trying to get pg can be much more complicated that you would first think. I hope DH's police check comes through soon, don't they know there's a little bubba waiting!
I will certainly let you know about the AP. I have read lots of great things about it too!
Dee - that's terrible news. I hope you're holding up ok. Hopefully your parents will be able to offer you the support you need right now. Take care of yourself and know that we are here to lend a supportive ear if you need one
Beata - that's great news about your O day. Mine seems to fluctuate by a day or two sometimes and I haven't had much luck with OPK but I might start using them again, once I get a regular cycle again that is! And I hope your DH gets his check through ASAP.
Megan - hope your AP session went well today. Can't wait to hear what you thought about it.
Hi TM. I don't think we've met. But am glad to have another person to chat with in here. I hope you get to do something special for yourself while your DH is away - maybe a massage!
AFM - well CD41 and am now on the super herbs from my TCM. B/t results came back and not good - showed that my hormones are all over the place. Definitely didn't ovulate this month with Prog level of 0.4! FSH is higher than we would like - like double what it was 12 months ago. But TCM thinks that it is probably because of the physical and emotional stress my body has been through these last few months. Will test again next cycle on CD3 to see what's going on. Now I am hoping and praying for AF to arrive. At least my hot flashes seem to have disappeared - yay! Also, have been researching a lot and have got DH and I on some supplements that have been recommended by a book I've been reading by Dr Marilyn Glenville from the UK. Also am starting her eating plan for both of us, which isn't too bad, but definitely no caffiene or alcohol, and an emphasis on whole organic foods. She has had a lot of success with it so am hoping that we might too. If nothing else we will be healthier and slimmer for it by the end of the 3 months.
Anyway, must go and cook dinner. Take care all.
xo
Dee, I hope you are doing ok hun. I really feel for you
Cheryl, it makes sense that your cycle would be all over the place still, from stress and hormones. I hope AF arrives for you soon as well. Some of what I say about my AP below may resonate with you?
Beata & TM, hope you girls are both well.
AFM, had the AP just now. Overall, what she had to say was quite interesting, said that it was 'normal' for my cycle to be 'different' after going through a loss, said that pg itself takes a lot out of the body and that what I went through is emotionally & physcially traumatic and that it takes the body a while to heal properly, and that since it happenned only 6-mths ago, my body is still going through that process. She talked about the importance of getting the body 'tuned' again and that the emotional side was just as important and how that is it also important for the next baby. I have poor circulation and she thought I looked too pale and a little enemic (spl?) so recommended Iron tablets. She said that this can cause the fetus not to get 'enough' food (more so the circulation causing this as blood won't flow well to the baby. I'll have to read more about that.
The needles didn't hurt, just a ***** and I could feel them there, but certainly not 'painful'. She said that generally women she sees (with similar symptoms to mine, not neccessarily loss though) fall pg within about 3-6 mths (potentially sooner), but obviously everyone is different. she said a lot of interesting things about my general health as well. All in all, I think it was definetly worth a try. I am going back next Wed. Fingers crossed this helps, if anything else, it will help my general health so that can't be a bad thing.
Babydust to you all and have a wonderful relaxed weekend.
Hi all, finally some time to myself. DH has taken DD up to the milkbar to get milk. It only took them almost an hour to get organised to go! He lets her fluff around. At least I don't have to get her dressed today
Beata, it is freezing isn't it? Not sure what I'm going to do today. Too cold for watching DH umpire but I hate being home with just DD on the weekends at the moment.
Hope your DH's police check comes through in time. Must be hard waiting since you can't do anything about it!
Cheryl, I hope AF sorts herself out soon. Good for you about the eating plan. I think it will really help. I've been eating obscenely well since Luca died to try and avoid the same complications in another pregnancy. It hasn't helped me get pregnant yet and I'll have to wait a long time to find out it it helps avoid the complications, but it's at least something we have control over and it's so great to be doing something positive. About the motivation to exercise, it is totally understandable that you are struggling. Grief is exhausting. I have no energy these days. I was doing orienteering (run for 40 minutes) once a week because it is scheduled IYKWIM. I never have the motivation to just go out for a run.
Berry, sounds like the AP went well. Hope it helps very soon.
Dee, I am heartbroken for you and have been thinking about you a lot. Hang onto hope.
TM, it's so hard to miss a month on purpose but that sounds very very sensible. Hope to see you here next month if you want to chat.
AFM, I'm spotting still. Expect AF tomorrow, but I always hope until she actually turns up. I feel like getting plastered if I'm not pg. I never drink to get drunk but I've been thinking that the last few days! Haven't had alcohol since I got pregnant with Luca this time last year so maybe I will have a drink.
Went to a friend at work's maternity farewell afternoon tea yesterday. I'm on leave from work so I just popped in. I didn't break down in public thank goodness. It was really hard though. We have the same boss so when he was giving his farewell speech it was like de ja vu. He was giving mine in December. And I know he would have said much the same for me 'good luck with the birth. We're looking forward to seeing the baby. Enjoy your time off'. But the good luck didn't happen. I never got to show off my baby. And I haven't enjoyed my time off.
You have made some excellent progress hun, keep it up and you'll get your much wanted BFP sooner than you think!! Big hugs hun.
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