TTC AFTER Late Loss/Recurrent Miscarriage/ Stillbirth 2010

[CharlieB]

Hi everyone!

TeniBear - I'm so sorry that you are feeling so frustrated, but I completely understand and I'm sure it completely normal and completely ok to feel the way you do. I hope the latest bloodtest can shed some light on things. (hmmm I think I could have said 'completely' a few more times in that sentence!!)

Chez - I hope you are recovered and feeling better. Glad the fur babies are taking such good care of you

cmeglles - I hope this message finds you completely relaxed and having a fabulous trip. sending you truck loads of

hi crumpet - when exactly is your birthday this week?? hopefully you are bing well and truly spoilt for the whole week! are you into the 2ww yet?, I've los ttrack a bit. good luck with your appt anyways.

Gigi - you may not be reading cause I know you are having a break and some family time - but if you are around, you are in my thoughts. And will be even more so on Wednesday.

Dory - another one who is being looked after by fur babies! And I am convinced that they do know when we are struggling and they know how much we love them! Just my thoughts. Thanks for your words about our appt - I think I had already prepared myself for not getting many answers. Some things just cannot be explained away. I have been trying to think of all the other positive things that our little boy bought to my life, and focusing on those instead.

Aries - YAY! for ovulation - I really hope that you have to cancel that tattoo appointment!! But I'm sure it will be awesome if you do get it done.

AFM - this 2ww is near killing me, so different from last time I TTC, many mixed emotions. oh well, half way there!!

Big hugs to everyone else, take care
xx

[crumpet]

crumpet - I thought I would never get a tattoo and am pretty nervous!! A 'G' sounds like a great idea, small but always there. I too am terrified it will hurt but they said mine would only take 10 mins and its 2 small symbols so maybe a 'G' would be really quick!!

oohh that gives me a bit more confidence thats for sure!!!! maybe i should just do it and not tell DH and suprise him!!!! he would die in the a$$ coz im so " no way it will hurt to much!!!"

hi crumpet - when exactly is your birthday this week?? hopefully you are bing well and truly spoilt for the whole week! are you into the 2ww yet?, I've los ttrack a bit. good luck with your appt anyways.

its on saturday hun.... im not into fuss......
im due to be o-ing anytime so loads of sexy time in this house atm!!!!

[Lemonade]

Hi All,

I've been in and out of this forum for the past six weeks now - drawing comfort from your friendship and support of eachother.

I hope you don't mind if I join in - I'm feeling despondent today and I really could do with some positive vibes.

Basically it's been six weeks since we went for our 19 week scan only to discover that our baby had died at 17 weeks. I'm sure you can all understand what a torrential rollercoaster this has been.

As you can see from my story (which I wrote a week or so after this happened) - I was impatient right from the time this happened to try again.

To be honest, I thought I would be pregnant by now (I was all for ttc immediately even though I knew physically it was better for me to wait) but I didn't reckon on things being so up and down (both physically and emotionally).

I started tracking my bbt straight away and worked out I o'd two weeks ago. But then about 9 days later I started getting some pain and spotting. I went for a scan yesterday and everything looks OK and my hcg is going down slowly (it's around 40-ish). It was all a little confusing - I wish I could have a way to see what is happening inside my body!!

My ob is keeping an eye on me and I've got our follow-up appointment next Wed where we'll get the post-mortem results etc - although I'm not expecting too much from that!

I am now waiting for af and I guess I am just so frustrated and impatient. I have always been such a positive person but this has really taken a kick to my self-confidence and I find myself doubting myself.

Pregnant women and babies seem to have multiplied by a million since this happened and it definitely does not make it easier that my sister, sister-in-law and one of my best friends are pregnant too (the latter two are due on the same day I was - I know, I know - really hard!!!).

I guess this is all a waiting game and patience has never been my strong point. On the positive side (see, I'm trying) it's not a bad life lesson to have to wait for something you really want. And also, at least when we ttc again, my body will be more healthy and ready.

Hope you all have a good day
Lemonade

[Samcougar]

Hello lovely ladies, i just popped in to say hello and see how everyone is going. Gosh it's been busy in here! There are quiet a few ladies in here lately.

Aries- you are braver than me, I would love to get a tattoo for Riley but i can't even bring myself to pick up the phone and make an appointment

CharlieB- I have everything crossed for your TWW, good luck hun.

hello to everyone else, i hope your all doing well. I'll have to play catch up when i have a bit more time

AFM We are still on the TTC train but i have decided to do a bit more excercise and eat a bit more heatlhy (Damn easter eggs I'm a sucker for chocolate ) , maybe a bit of weight loss will help. I have also started to play Hockey (I have never played in my life but I'm having so much fun!)

My love to all
Bec ooxx

[dory]

Samcougar - great to hear from you. Hope being active helps you feel more confident. I love hockey, but in the beginning it gave me a sore butt! Hope yours isn't too sore.

[Chez67]

Hi ladies

Katiegirl - thanks for dropping by and letting us know your good news. It does give us hope. Your message made me cry. I think I will always be a little different after our experience but it is good to know that there is life afterwards as well.

Aries - I think the birthday card idea is lovely and if its important to you to do that then go ahead and do it, regardless of what others may think or say. We have a collection of things to remember Ryan by as well as photos and one day I will have the courage (and time) to put them into a memory album for safekeeping.

Gigi1- hi hun if you are reading this, I am thinking of you and DD and DH tomorrow.

Samcougar - well done for the healthy plan. I've just joined a BB weightloss forum - we started yesterday and so far so good on the eating, not on the exercising part though! Still baby steps...

Crumpet - good luck with the tattoo. I think it's a beautiful thing to do. DH got a tattoo for Ryan on his left arm. It is quite big and took about 3 or 4 hours to do... not my thing. I would want something smaller like yours (and quicker!). And I have my fingers crossed for you that you catch an egg this time, now that you can 'officially' try again!

CharlieB - thanks. This TWW is sending me crazy as well but only because I really want to conceive naturally and not have to go through IVF again so I guess I have put extra pressure on myself... still it would be nice to call and cancel the appointment because of a BFP! Good luck with your TWW - are you going to test early or wait until AF is late?

Dory - hope you are doing well and enjoying your time with the fur babies. I know mine love it when I am home all day.

cmeglles - hope you are having a fantastic holiday and you come back with a BFP!

to everyone else.

Anyway, AFM, I am quite tired at the moment and feeling warmer than normal which my TCM says is probably the new herbs she has me on, but also because it is the 2nd half of the cycle. But the weird thing is my head is hot! Had my post O b/t yesterday morning so hopefully the results will be through soon so I can see what's going on. Then my CD1 b/t will probably be needed on the Monday, the public holiday, which will be a hassle trying to find a clinic that is open.

Anyway, shower and dinner time for me. Take care all and talk soon.
oxo

[TeniBear]

*sigh* I knew there wasn't much chance, but I still did a HPT yesterday - no second line. Nice strong control line, but nothing else. I'm getting scared of Friday. I want so many things that I can't change...

[CharlieB]

Hi everyone,

Gigi - thinking of you and your precious little angel today xx

TeniBear - huge to you sweetie. It completely sucks I know. I hope that Friday brings you some answers and some peace. And that second line will come when the time is right.

Chez - for you this cycle!! I really hope you have to cancel that appointment! No early testing for me, I don't want to risk getting a BFP and it ending up being a chemical or something, I don't think I could cope!! I'll probably wait til the weekend or Monday even, if AF hasn't shown her face by then.

Hi Sam, good to hear from you. good luck with the weight loss. Hope you enjoy the hockey x

Hi crumpet - I think your appointment at the hospy was today? I really hope it was helpful for you xx And I hope you have been enjoying "sexy time"!

Big hello to everyone else xx