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Lemonade - welcome! I have to dash off and can't reply in full just now but wanted to let you know, you are welcome here, I look forward to getting to know you, hoping your stay is short, and of course, so so sad for the loss and pain that brings you here in the first place.
Lemonade, I am so sorry for your loss. It will take some time to recover emotionally so try and rush it. Physically.. could you have some retained tissue? That would cause the hcg to not go down. So sad you had to join our group but you are very welcome. (((hugs)))
Friday evening, long week, tired crabby DH and even tireder and crabbier DS5 and 1. Bath and bed for all.
Hi girls, selfish post sorry.
I am back and not going so well today. I am exhausted and DH has gone back to work after wed/thurs weekend of heartache. I am really tired, teary and sad. Feel lonely and angry. God how do we feel so much at once. I will be back later to reply to others and fill you in on what we did for DD's anniversary. I hate that it has come and gone.
Love and thanks to all for your warm wishes. xoxo
Hi everyone,
Gigi - huge hugs to you, I'm not really sure what else to say, so I'll just say that I have been thinking of you and I hope you start to feel a bit stronger over the next few days. :comfort:
angelic - glad to hear a new cycle has kicked off. hope the OPK's are useful for you.
Lemondade - I'm really glad to see you on this thread, I was wondering how things were going for you. :hug: I know what you mean about AF, for me it felt like the first step to recovering a bit. I hope the hcg levels aren't anything problematic, keep us posted.
dory - i'm glad you are feeling a bit more positive today. I hope you have a peaceful and stress free weekend.
crumpet - how did the interview go?? I'm sure you impressed them. The metallic mouth sounds promising!!! I'm crossing everything!!
Tenibear - :hug: I hope your balloon release was helpful and meaningful for you and Scott.
blessed - I'm so sorry about the separation. I hope you guys can work something out without too much more heartache :hug:
AFM - I am failing miserably at not obscessing about AF coming. I can't stop thinking about it! I would so desperately love to not see her for another 9 months, sigh, will just have to be patient and remind myself that it is likely way too soon for a BFP.
Chez - hope it's still an AF free zone for you!
Have a lovely weekend everyone.
xx
Hello everyone - still lurking here. I just lost a massive post and cannot retype as heading out. Just wanted to let Tenibear know I am thinking of you today sweetie. I am glad that you and Scott can spend some time with Ianto today.
Will have to repost on the weekend! Thinking of you all though.
Hi everyone
Lemonade - welcome to this thread. I am sad to hear of your loss and understand your frustration with your physical recovery. I had RPOC so had to have a D&C about 4 weeks after the birth of our son - I don't recall the HCG level exactly (I think about 46 or so) but it was enough along with a scan to get my GP to refer me to an ob for the D&C. She was particularly worried about the risk of infection with RPOC. I hope your ob can work out what is happening for you at your next appointment.
Blessed - so sorry to hear about your separation. I wish you happiness for the future, whatever happens with your DH. Please keep in touch and let us know how you are.
Gigi1 - :hugs: hun I have been thinking about you all week. I hope you're doing ok.
Dory - sometimes I find the sadness in here a little hard to deal with as well which is why I only visit weekly at times. Often I am feeling good and then I just read something that resonates with me and I am in tears (like today). I hope you are looking after yourself and your precious bundle.
Crumpet - I haven't had the metallic taste (not associated with a BFP anyway). Sending lots of babydust your way!
CharlieB - still AF for me and trying not to over analyse symptoms. I have been tired most of the week. Have had the occasional twinge in the ovary region but so far no AF - here's hoping she stays away for the next 8 months for both of us!
TeniB - I hope the ballon release went well. Glad that Scott was able to change shifts as well. Thinking of you hun :hug:
Angelic - hi. I was wondering how you were going. Glad that AF has arrived but not sure about the painful part. I hope you have a relaxing weekend - it sounds like you need it!
Hi to SusieQ, samcougar, aries, cmgelles and everyone else!
AFM, looking forward to a relaxing weekend. It is cold and rainy here so a perfect couch potato day which is what DH and I both need. I am not feeling confident about this cycle. No particular reason - that's just how I am feeling. I am supposed to have CD1 b/ts on Monday which is when I am due but all of the clinics are closed in the ACT because of the public holiday. My GP was quite specific that she wanted AM CD1 tests not CD2 so I am not sure what I will do if AF arrives Sunday night or early Monday morning. Do I not do it and wait another cycle? It's just that my FS appointment is in 3 weeks and I wanted some test results to take to her. Oh well, it is what it is I guess.
Take care all
oxo
Gigi big hugs hun. It does get easier as years go past but you never forget.
Chez it depends what you count as cd1. Sometimes cd1 can just be heavy spotting so is it cd 1 or spotting.... and others say if it starts after 6pm then count the next day as day 1.( I know a couple of women who do that for religious reasons, if AF starts after sundown then it is the next day)
I know I can spot for days before AF really starts so to me it is the day I have to wear a pad and not a panty liner.
Thanks girls,
I will make my way back in here bit by bit. I am still a bit tired today.
Went to where we spent our honeymoon for DD's anniversary. We took butterflies with us and released them with friends up there and their kids. They were also kind enough to make her a birthday cake and light candles, we sang happy birthday...well we got through most of it. We light a fire back at our cottage and read her books, looked through her photos and took many more. Bought her a tree to plant in my mum and dad's garden. Read my journal from when I was pregnant with her. God it took us back and made us really take note again how much we wanted her. Not that we needed reminding but it was nice to go back.
Friend had her baby this morning, little girl, home birth and all are well. xoxo Two down and two more to go..both SIL- One due now, and the other in a month.
xoxoxo
Hi all,
thanks so much for your warm welcome - I really appreciate it.
I hope you're all having a good weekend. DH and I are in the hunter
valley so trying to just relax and focus on good things... And lots of good food.
Dory - thanks for the kind words - they felt like a comforting hug.
Charlie - I just wanted to let you know how much you helped when you replied
to my post in the early days. I felt so alone and sad and your post made
me feel so much more 'normal'. All your words and experiences seemed
to mirror how I was feeling and going through. I guess being only one
month apart in our loss puts us in a similar spot. I am sending you lots of positive BFP vibes. Hopefully I'll follow soon too. Xxxx
angelic- really appreciate the welcome
Gigi - what a tough time you've had recently but it seems you've marked the occassion in such a beautiful way. I would love to know how you managed with your friends birth and your SILs pregnancy. My SIL and really good friend are due on the same day I was. My sister is also 12 weeks now. I am finding it reaaly difficult especially seeing the growing stomach.
Chez- thx for the welcome. I hope you are relaxing and enjoying the rain.
The good news is that I thought I would do a preg test and OPK this morning and both were distinctly negative. So hopefully means my hcg is dropping and my body is getting ready for next round of o'ing.
Question- I would love to know what your experience with your obs was. Ours is supposed to be highly regarded in syd but she was there just after the birth and I haven't heard from her since and that was almost 7 weeks ago. No follow up call. Even now after my stressful week with my elevated hcg and I went for an u/s and blood tests and I asked the receptionist if the dr could call me but she never did. The receptionist always called withthe results. She's obviously very busy with other patients but my next pregnancy will probably have quite a bit of anxiety attached and I don't know how understanding she'll be if I can't even speak to her now. Do you think I'm expecting too much?
Ok, dinner time.
Happy Anzac day
xxx
Lemonade - that's quite strange, you'd think they would have made a follow-up appointment... Mine was made while I was still in hospital, but maybe that's because mine was a stillbirth and not a miscarriage? In legal terms, I mean - I'd class any loss where there's a properly formed baby as stillbirth, but that's me ;)
Could you make an appointment anyway? Even just pretend you want a pap smear done or something and when you're there ask whatever you like? At my follow up, they threw a pap smear in because I was due for one before I got pregnant, so it could conceivably happen the other way :lol:.
Hopefully it all works out for you.
Thanks Teni - I have a follow up appointment booked with the obs this Wednesday which would be 7 weeks later.
I just was feeling frustrated as when I called to check with my hcg results last week and I was concerned about the results, I just got msgs from the receptionist that the doc wasn't concerned.
Anyway I'm just overly sensitive at the moment and just wanted to get some reassurance from the obs that everything is ok.
Hopefully she'll put our mind at ease on wed.
Gigi - It sounds ike you had a nice peaceful day for DD's anniversary. It is such a hard day to get through..
Thanks everyone for your supportive words.. I am going through HELL at the moment. And dreading up and coming mother's day. Not only is it without my children, but without my children's father. At least last year, he knew Mothers day would be a hard day for me.. I don't know what to do this year.. :( I will keep stalking in here from time to time and I will definitely be around other threads ;)
:grouphug::grouphug: i dont know what to say hun, i just hope in time things gradually improve...... i cant say i know how u feel coz i havnt go to my due date yet but its fast approaching and i have no idea how im gunna deal with it....:
it went well thanks hun.... i went back the next day for a second interview, was mainly to meet the other chiro and it went well, so who knows!!1 ill find out wednesday!!!:pray::
thats sounds so so so beautiful hun!!!:
welcome to the thread hun, im so so so sorry for ur loss.....:
i kinda feel bad saying this coz after reading ur experience i dont want to make my OB sound like a god!! lol
basically my OB was amazing!! he was worth every dollar we spent and will spend as much as we have to with him to get our bub.....
he called me after 10 days to see how i was and then told me he wanted to see at 2 weeks after and has been nothing but a fantastic dr and a great support..
:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: big hugs hun i hope someone does something really special for u on mothers day:
I just dropped in to tell you that I am an IDIOT!!!!!
:wall::wall::wall:
I caved in and tested this morning - was a BFN after a couple of minutes so I went back to bed in disgust. Can't believe i couldn't wait it out.
But (here's where the idiot part comes in), I forgot to throw out the test and went into the bathroom a couple of hours later - 2nd pink line, faint but obviously there. And it's pink not grey.
I have NO idea if it came before the 10 mins or if it's just an evap line.
I realise that anything that you see later than 10 mins is considered negative, but now I just cannot get the idea out of my head. Like I needed anything to make this any more difficult!!!
I will obviously test again tomorrow, I wish AF would just show up and put me out of my misery. I don't think I'm pregnant, have no symptoms at all.
sigh...
Lemondade - I'm glad to hear that your HPT was negative, hopefully it means your levels have dropped and there is no chance of having anything retained, bring on ovulation now hopefully?
I haven't seen my OB in person since the delivery (we delivered at a different high risk hospy) but he did ring me multiple times over the 2 hellish weeks before we delivered our boy, just to see how I was going and discuss all the test results with me. I hope you feel better after your appointment.
crumpet - good luck for Wed, I hope it's good news!
Chez - hope it's still AF free zone!
Big hugs to Gigi, Teni, blessed and anyone else who is having a particularly tough week :hug:
oh hun dont u hate that?!?!?!:wall: cant wait to hear how you go tomorrow!!! ill be stalking for the results!!!:lol::lol::lol::
thanks hun, ill be sure to let u all know how i go!!
Charlie I completely understand caving - I have minus measurements of patience so the waiting drives me crazy. I'm sure I would have done the same thing.
And the results - it would definitely have been on my mind the whole day. Hope you had some good distractions.
Hopefully you'll get a more definite answer tomorrow - and it's a big BFP!!!!!
Xxx
Charlie what brand of test? Some tests are just late at showing a line depending on how much dye is on the test. I had a test done with Ethan (m/c @ 7wks) and the test was a clear negative yet half an hour later when I pulled it out of the envelope to show my SIL how negative it was there was a blaring pink line. I called my Dr who sent me straight off for a beta and it came back at 150! so some tests are just late to show a line.
I've had tests where you can see a line when it is wet and as the pee goes over the line yet once dry there is nothing there. I trust FRER though more so than any other brand.
hugs, hope and luck for tomorrow hun
:o well....
tested again this morning, faint pink line in 5 mins, so I guess it's a :bfp:
I'm happy...but I am suddenly filled with anxiety. At our 8 week check up we were told not to conceive until after 2nd AF, as they is a slightly higher risk of miscarriage - would have been useful information when they discharged us!!!!!!! rather than 2 months later when we had already been trying!!!!!! I'd had on normal AF so hopefully this little bean will stick :pray::pray::pray:
Anyway one step at a time I guess! I'll repeat the test again in 2 days and hopefully it's getting darker. My first pregnancy was a much stronger line at this stage so I'm not entirely convinced yet!! I feel quite guilty posting about this as well, I feel like there are others trying longer who deserve the pink line before me.
Hope you're all enjoying the day off xxx