Mel babe, I am so sorry that you are feeling down. When you are ready to share Nicholas' website I would be honoured to visit it. When you initially sent me the photos of Nicholas there were so many simularities between the pictures you had of your son and the ones I had of Harrison. The way the looked like perfect little sleeping angels, the heartbreak on our faces. I can imagine how much you are dreading the 26th. To be totally honest, there were times during my pregnancy when I just felt so overwhelmed. I felt like a bad person for not being the glowing first time mother. Just after my amniocentesis I remember saying, if I am going to lose him I want it to happen now not at full term. I felt so guitly about that and still do but I realise that I was an emotional wreck and wasn't thinking straight. What I am getting at is please do not feel bad about the initial shock of finding out you were pregnant. I know that you loved Nicholas with every little bit of your heart and nothing will ever change that. Also, don't give up on a BFP this month just yet. It ain't over until the witch sings. I know how certain days can be really tough. I feel that way about Fridays as that was the day Harry was born but also I get really upset on Thursdays because that was the day we found out we had lost him. I still have flashbacks, especially when I am trying to fall asleep and certain memories seem to haunt my dreams. Just know that I am here for you no matter what and I just want to pop over and give you a huge :hugs: Oh and you were right, I did have an appointment on the 31st but I have decided not to go to that ob as he is over a hour away and so I am going to the GP instead. This GP is a new one who was recommended by my new ob so hopefully I don't come out traumatised like last time.
Lynn: Cooper's garden is wonderful. I placed a message in your guestbook. Your website is really sweet and seeing Coopers precious little hand and footprints was so touching, I couldn't help but shed a tear for your angel. I will be thinking of you and your DH on Sunday and I will take some time on that day to say hello to your little boy. I am sure Harry is up there looking out for him.
Kerry: Bridgid sounds like such a special little girl. How sweet that she touched Coopers foot and said bubba. I love the innocence of children. You must be a very proud mummy. I agree with you, most women at one stage or another freak out about being pregant, I did.
I know some of you are having a tough time at the moment so all I will say about me is that everything is going ok. No major symptoms yet so I am a little worried but there is nothing I can do.
Oh and Lynn, you mentioned the idea of a local catch up. I think this is a fantastic idea. Perhaps we could nominate a person each month in each state/area who plans the time place etc, and then those who can make it email her and confirm. I think it is easier that way than everyone sending emails back and forth trying to figure out a free time. I remember you saying you lived about 10 mins away, I am in Blacktown so I am happy to orgainise a Feb catch up. Does that sound like a good Idea? For anyone in Sydney just let me know where you live and I will try to pick somewhere central. If anyone in the Sydney area wants to join in please let me know. Probably best also if we try to aviod particularly difficult days like an anniversary. How about we meet at a local coffee shop which is quiet so that we can have a bit of privacy. We can get to know eachother over a nice cuppa and a big fat slice of cake. Let me know what you think. For the other states, do you guys think it is a nice idea. Hey we could even have a annual girls weekend full of friendship, tears and open hearts but I think I am getting a little ahead of myself.
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