Just thought I would pop in.. Haven't been in here in a bit.. Not in a good place at the moment.. It is nearly the boys 1st birthday and anniversary and I have fallen back into the big black grief hole ..
I have officially finished the theory side of my course. Handing one last assessment in today and we are having a farewell lunch.. We had our big prac assessment on Monday which was nerve racking, but I was 1st up and I passed so it was good to get it out of the way. Went to meet the manager of the facility where I am doing my vocational placement, she seems really nice so we start orientation tomorrow. I can't wait to get it over and done with!
Beata - The psychic told me I had 2 people from the other side that want me to know they are there.. My babies maybe?? When I asked her more about them she said it was blurry, like I had a waterfall in front of me.. Umm.. She also said I had a decision to make regarding my career which was true.. She said I knew what to do I just hadn't made peace with it myself yet. She also said I had made the right decision and I will have the opportunity to do the other thing later.. So my interpretation of that was to do nursing and put off TTC and I can TTC later..but I have no idea what is going on with that as we have been stuffed around by TAFE and the enrolments haven't even opened for nursing yet.. I figure I will just enrol and if I fall pg in the meantime I will cancel.. I will get a full refund provided classes haven't started yet. I am not holding my breath for falling pg anyway as I am constantly bleeding again.. It is so depressing
Hi to everyone else, sorry for the really long post, I should try and post more often!!
Aries, how did your scan go on Monday hun? Hope you had lots of good eggies
Blessedatlast, the first angelversary is the hardest I think. I was really anxious coming up to mine last month, and it was this huge buid up, and then a relief when it was over, but we spent a lovely day just me and my DF relaxing and remembering Josh. So I hope the day is as peaceful and gentle to you too. Will be thinking of you hun.
Wow, the psychic must be picking up on your 2 precious angels! As for your career, it sounds like a good plan to go and do your course and when you fall pg, bonus! and then you can deffer the studies! Go with the flow hun, things will fall into place for you, you'll see, go with your intuition and gut feeling for now. I hope your bleeding stops too hun, big hugs.
Big hello to everyone else and lots of babydust and stickyvibes for you ladies!
I had my scan today girls and all went well but bubs would not show us the rude bits! Have to wait another 2 weeks!
Blessedatlast - sorry that you are feeling so bad again with your bubs' birthday coming up. That is still a long way off for us but reading your post made me quite teary. The psychic sounded very intuitive. I agree with Beata, go with your gut. Things will work out. You still have options. I hope the bleeding settles down for you.
Beata - so pleased that all is on track with you. So nice to hear the good news. And the fibre optic tree for Josh sounds beautiful. I hadn't thought that far ahead.
Aries - how did your scan go? Lots of little follies I hope!
AFM no change. Got very emotional yesterday and feeling quite tired today so maybe AF is on her way. Another visit to TCM tomorrow for AP and more herbs.
Blessedatlast - to you. Thinking of you and your little ones as their first birthday comes up. Look after yourself honey and congrats on the completion of the theory part of your course! I agree with the other ladies - do what you feel is right for you and your family. Take care xo
Beata - Thats great news about your scan! I hope you are feeling well Love the idea of your Christmas Tree for Josh too, sounds gorgeous!
Chez - Hopefully the emotions are giving you some signs of what is to come and you are back on track soon xo
Thanks ladies for your wishes for my scan. 1 big follicle on my left side and 4 littler ones on my right. The co-ordinator said that she would give me the pregnyl shot to make sure I ovulate in the next 2 days (which was yesterday). Can you ovulate without any obvious pains? The big one on the left should be the one releasing but all I can feel is the pains on the right side but the nurse said that they arent the ones that I will concieve with? I'm confused.
So BDing was on the order form - which DH was happy with I am supposed to test on the 21st November.
Do any of you wonderful ladies have any past experiences with pregnyl or ovulation symptoms on the opposite sides that can help clear up my confusion?
They say you know your body best and I would say that I havent ovulated at all (no ewcm) but I guess I will find out in a couple of weeks.
I did post a reply but it cannot be found! I can see it on my profile posts but not in the thread. I am not sure what happened!
Anyhow I wanted to thank you for your kind words for my scan. One big folly on the left and 4 littler ones on the right. Pregnyl injection to make me ovulate last Wed - not sure if that happened though. Fingers crossed.
Weird - I can only see your posts when I click on Reply to the forum and then scroll down to see your posts after mine. How strange!
Anyway, to answer your question I did 3 rounds of IVF with pregnyl but all for egg pick up so never got to feel any ovulation as such. But the body can be strange and it is quite common to have referred pain in the abdominal area... so where you feel the pain is not necessarily the source of the pain. It's pretty common with appendicitis etc. apparently. And lack of EWCM can be an indicator of other things. Are you using any sperm friendly lubricant such as Pre-seed? That can help if you low on CM.
Wishing you lots of luck hun
AFM, no AF yet. On new herbs and capsules. Feeling quite cranky and emotional today so hopefully that means SOMETHING is happening. I just want to be out of this crazy limbo land!
to everyone. Sending lots of babydust your way.
oxo
I am not sure what happened but am glad we are back on!
Hi Chez - If I ovulated on the day I was supposed to (last Wed) then I would be 5 DPO today. I am really not 100% sure I did ovulate though - this happened when I fell with Alexander. I must have ovulated really really late (had given up on BD for that month) because I fell pg and found out when I was almost 3 weeks late for AF. That cycle I was also on clomid/pregnyl. Pains seem to have subsided only today and had strange stretchy type CM on Saturday. The clinic want me to test on the 21st so it all works out!!
I hope you are out of limbo land soon - our emotions can be a good indicator sometimes!!
How is everyone else? I hope you are all going well
Wow, something weird was going on in here! Seems to be all fixed up though, yeepee!
Aries, I wish and pray very hard for a BFP to come your way . I'm not sure about the 'O' pain being on the oposite side where your dominant egg was released, but I do agree with Cheryl about the referred pain. Good luck honey, I really hope you O'd and caught that little eggie!
Cheryl, I hope the new herbs bring on the AF for you sweets, fingers and toes crossed that you're out of 'limbo land' very soon!
Hi Blessedatlast, Samcougar, Teagz, Megan and anyone else I missed!
I am so hot here! I'm getting lots of stretchy pains and OMG there is something going on in my intestines as I have gone to the loo more than 10 times today and had about 7 bowel movements!!!! So sorry for TMI! I started taking benefibre (for softer poos) and Inner Health Plus for billions of friendly bacteria, I drink yakult every day and lately I have been having a special cereal to make me more regular.....well, I think I have taken on too much! lol. Oh well, I at least I am not constipated 24/7!
Big hugs to all and lots and lots of and for everyone!
Chez - any news on AF yet?? I hope you have an answer to your cycle soon
I am feeling a little sick today. Very nauseous and very hot...... I think I am going down with a stomach bug. YAY.
I would love to say its a pg in the making but I really dont think so. I would only be 7DPO if I O'd when I was meant too so too early to tell anyway.
Lots of pulling pains around my ovaries and a huge increase in the TMI stuff!
Fingers are still crossed though!
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sorry that you are feeling so bad again with your bubs' birthday coming up. That is still a long way off for us but reading your post made me quite teary. The psychic sounded very intuitive. I agree with Beata, go with your gut. Things will work out. You still have options. I hope the bleeding settles down for you.
to everyone else. Take care all.
Love the idea of your Christmas Tree for Josh too, sounds gorgeous!
I am supposed to test on the 21st November.
on Saturday. The clinic want me to test on the 21st so 
it all works out!!
. I'm not sure about the 'O' pain being on the oposite side where your dominant egg was released, but I do agree with Cheryl about the referred pain. Good luck honey, I really hope you O'd and caught that little eggie! 
for everyone!
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