Dory - I totally understand what you're saying and I've been ttc now for over 7 cycles...(I had a huge break with ttc after zach died) That feeling still hasn't totally subsided.
When you get your happy news everyone on this forum will be stoked for you babe (especially me!)
If you need to talk ever... I'm here xx we all are. Good or bad. Xx
Freya, I wonder if it feel different to know what you are dealing with now...like understanding the beast a little better. Good luck my sweet and nothing better than being told you can get started again. I can understand the anxiety hun...i feel that way too and i have not lost as many babies as you, so i can only imagine. I think you are going to do us all proud, and handle this pregancy...the one around the corner the best you can. Yay..xoox
Powelly,I promise to do one thing nice for me each day. I am not exactly sure how you knew i wasn't...i looked over my recent posts and thought i had not let on but you picked me so accurately. I promise to be nicer to me. I have painted my nails today...yes they are black- don't laugh, but i think they are a little bit funky. Look at me trying to be trendy....oh god that screams midlife crisis! Hope you are doing well my sweet. Thank you for thinking of me and bossing me about when i needed it.
Melzi, i hope Af has left the building hun and you are preparing to ravage that man of yours. Thinking of you and hoping you have treated yourself to something nice after feeling so yukko this week. xoxoxo Nothing like the end of AF!!
Skybie, wow you read my blog, bless you hun for finding the time and for you kind words. I know you are right as that is all i get from other people posting their stories...awe of what they have done, inspiration from their courage and strength. I will do it one day soon. I can't belive it has been two years too...two years ago we were going to stop TTC before we fell pregnant with DD and it changed everything. Now... welcome to limbo land.
AFM, I am feeling much better and not too sure what was happenig there but my body seems to have sorted itself out. Well my landlord approves to have a puppy.....dog so now i have to wait to hear back from the Body corporate which i can see might be a hitch in our evil plan. We shall see but fingers crossed. This week has been a little easier on me which has been lovely. I have decided that I have to work out a weekend for me in my week. See DH works shifts and our weekend is not the same as everyone elses...i am running around after everyone through half the week and then running around after us the rest of the week. I get no down time that is not sheer exhaustion. God help me if i was working fulltime again. So with Powelly's prompt I am doing a nice thing for me each day and then i will also organise my time a bit better. All good. The fever kicked me in the butt for the second time in a month but thankfully this time without gastro to boot. Ok...i am off to be creative. Sending you all a big hug and many good luck wishes..... Ahhhh Dory, you thought you would get away.
Dory, OK missus, that guilt is misplaced in here my friend. Of course we are thrilled for you. This takes a lot of courage and a big step to get your head around...you can be forgiven for being frightened my love, but please don't feel guilty. Selfishly as much as we all want to fall pregnant when one of the girls falls pregnant in here you know it is truely deserved (not that others aren't- by any means), it drives us on, gives us hope, includes you once again in our journey and us in yours, even more so than before. So selfishly....we all get something from this. Go my dear friend and make a bub. I am sure i speak for all when i say we are excited for you and we will be here the whole way through. I am sure it is nerve wracking. Call on me anytime. oxoxox Hey and thank you for thinking of us so thoughtfully! Thank you for thinking of our feelings and the impact it might have. You are a wonderful and giving person hun...i cherish who you are. xoox
It's been a while, I have been lurking, but took ages to post .. Just a quick post as I am sooo tired, but I am back on the horse again so to speak.. 1st cycle on clomid, I think I O'd on CD16 so I am in the .. Definitely not holding my breath though.. I think I would be pretty lucky to concieve 1st cycle! Fingers crossed though..I will catch up on persies one day! I see there are some new comers Sorry you find your self here.. To the old names I recognise (and the newcomers!), I hope we get out of this thread and meet again in a belly buddies thread!
Gigi, Dory and Powelly, thanks for thinking of me on Ryan's birthday. I had thought I was doing well leading up to the day as I was very distracted both at work and at home. My DH had an accident on his bike and has fractured his wrist almost 2 weeks ago. The poor thing is still in a cast and has to have another xray next week to see how things are going. That means I am looking after all of his needs and I am pushing mine to the background. The 17th just snuck up on me and it wasn't until I was driving to work that I realised the day and all of the grief came back to me along with the tears. Coincidentally we had our follow up appointment with the ob after the morphology scan. Even though I already had the results that everything was normal I still had this sense of worry and fear in the back of my mind while waiting for the appointment. But all is well with splodge and we are lucky enough that he/she is doing well and right on track with size for EDD.
Reading all of your birth stories has brought back the memories of Ryan's birth, and like Dory I haven't posted it in the Birth Stories forum, as I would like a fraud if I did. I didn't get the right result and therefore don't deserve to be there. It also reminded me that we have spent so much time looking forward as a result of this pg that it is hard to look back and reflect on what has lead us to where we are. It's not that we are denying it, or don't wish with every fibre of our being that it could have been different, it is like we have resolved ourselves to the fact that we can't change the past no matter how much it hurts or how much we would want to. It is what it is and now we have to focus on the future we will have with this baby. I'm not sure if I am making any sense but that is how I am able to cope at the moment.
Anyway, I must go. Take care all and I will pop back in when I can.
oxo
Chez, good to hear from you hun and glad to know you are doing ok. Sounds like a few things crept up on you hun. Please pass on my thoughts for your DH...it must e frustrating for him too not to be able to do his own things atm.
It sounds like you are doing what is needed hun and there is no shame in that at all. You are growing a life and i think your mothering instinct has kicked in to give this new baby everything he/she deserves and that is, it's own journey. I never posted in birth stories either...one day i might just do that...but one thing i want to say- i think your story does not make you a fraud hun it is just as special and your initiation to motherhood brutal, but special all the same. You just have to do what is right for you. Glad this baby is growing well and all is fine. Happy for you hun xoxo Take care.
Gi - thankyou for being so gentle with me. LOL re the black nail and your worry it might be a mid life crisis. Hardly... but nice try
Melzi - thankyou for your support. How are you doing today?
And lastly - BLESSED, welcome back my friend! I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooo excited. Yay. Can't wait to hear how your first cycle of C goes. Can you keep us updated on how you're feeling and exactly what it is you have to do? I am curious.
Chez - thanks for popping on and letting us know how you're going. Maybe now is the time to focus on what you need to do to get through this preg. Belly rubs my dear, you are a great mummy.
AFM - wow, I am soooo excited seeing Blessed in here again. Made my day as well as having such nice friends in here. Bring it on.
Just thought I'd pop in, and I'm glad I did as I'm so excited to see Blessed in here!!!!! Woohoo and GL sweetie! Will keep everything crossed for you!
Dory, yay for making the decision for trying again!! I'm very excited for you hun. And don't feel guilty hun. Can't wait to be there too!
Gigi, glad you're in a much better head space hun! Big hugs lovely and enjoy all the nice things you do for yourself each day hun
Sheryl, I'm so happy everything is going well for you hun! Was thinking of you on the 17th, it's always so emotional no matter how many times the date rolls around.
Hello to the newbies and I'm sorry you've found yourself in here. Hope your stay is a short one
Sorry if I missed anyone or if my post is rambly, I have been so busy planning wee man's 1st birthday, and with DF arriving from OS on Monday it's been mad mad mad. Hope to get some energy soon to go through all of the posts.
B - OMG I am so sorry I missed Cam's birthday! Happy 1st birthday little man! Hope the party went well. And I love he new pic of him.... where did your little baby go? He looks so big and mature now. And yay for DH coming home from China.
Hi girls, hope you're all well.
Still no sign of the wicked witch, i was really hoping she'd be here by now. my body needs to do what my brain wants it to!! ah well, as they say patience a virtue hey???
can u tell i dont like waiting for things??
Happy birthday to Little Cameron for last week Miss B. Hope he had a nice day. Nice to hear from you hun and that things are going well. I bet ti will be fantastic to have DH home again. xoxoxo
Skybie, you are a very patient woman, don't be fooled. I would have thought that moon would have had some pull. It did for me and brought AF a few days early. I hope you know either way very son hun. Is there a chance you might be pregnant or are your cycles irregular hun?
Fingers crossed...and sending you more patience!
AFM CD1 today i think although i would like to see it a bit heavier to really count it as day 1. Very busy week ahead so forgive me if i am not in here so much.
Love. laughter and luck to you all xoxo
my cycles are regular, actually took a PT on monday morning, had the familiar cracking in my back and was heavily questioned by a medium on sunday if i was currently pregnant, but no im not!
hope u have a lovely week hun xxx
Skybie - hoping that your cycle turns up quick smart, and brings mine with it. Is PT a personal training session? And how are you doing? Apart from thinking you're not very patient that is...
Blessed - how is that cycle of clomid going? Have you finished your exams?
Gi - sorry that AF is here, but hoping that coming early, and the fever has flushed everything out to make a nice snug lining.... thinking of you
Melzi - hugs.
Now, just a quick one, I am trying to remember everyone, but pls forgive me if I forget....
Powelly... have you had your scan?
Chez - how are you going this week after such a big week last week?
Lady Tess - how are you?
Lollylegs - long time no posts... all ok?
Kate - how goes it... are you coping - 15 wks now?
Miss B - is DH back from China now and that's why you're not posting because the baby dust is being sprinkled?
AFM - forgot to temp again today, got up in a rush. I will get the hang of all this again soon. HB was 6 months old yesterday. Wow. I am constantly amazed at how quickly time seems to pass now, but at other stages of this journey it seems to have stood still. I suppose therein lies the important of trying to enjoy the moment. Time for me to try and enjoy a moment of sleep.
Dory, Pregnancy Test! i'm doing ok, more good days than bad ones which is good
Time does go quickly when your busy with kids! i cant believe its been 6 weeks today that i birthed Jack, its feels like it was yesterday, but at the same time feels like it was a lifetime ago
Skybie, so true.... and that feeling stays, yesterday and a lifetime ago all at once. Haha re PT... guess where my mind is...exercise. Have you had a funeral or memorial service for Jack? How do you manage to greive with two little ones? I know I have had the "luxury" of being able to grieve when and how I needed to and not had to think about anyone else.
Off for a biopsy this morning ... Very scary stuff.. Went to the doctors yesterday and the lumps seemed to be of concern...
And to top it off I think my SIL is pregnant and that really S**** me off! She has just signed up for a 630k mortgage and has no one to rent out her second house. She's too busy to even see us so how is she going to be able to have a baby! She's self employed and her hubby works away and they haven't even been trying.... At all. fml!!!
I hope to god that this is my month I'm really starting to get sour with this whole ttc thing... I didn't ever want to be like this.... ever!
Melzi - GL with your biopsy... it is scary stuff I agree. Hugs to keep you strong. Worry about your SIL another day, today focus on you. But I know how much it can hurt, cause it seems so unfair, and honestly, it is unfair. Vent away...
.. Just a quick post as I am sooo tired, but I am back on the horse again so to speak.. 1st cycle on clomid, I think I O'd on CD16 so I am in the 
.. Definitely not holding my breath though.. I think I would be pretty lucky to concieve 1st cycle! Fingers crossed though..I will catch up on persies one day! I see there are some new comers 
Sorry you find your self here.. To the old names I recognise (and the newcomers!), I hope we get out of this thread and meet again in a belly buddies thread! 
no matter how many times the date rolls around.
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