Hey girls,

I will be brief and green! Been to see the GP and while all i went for was to get a psych referral...she got all gunho (sp) about getting me pregnant. At the time it was just difficult being there for what i intended and it was not until last night and today when my nerves settled that i realised i didn't want her help to fall pregnant. If we couldn't do this ourselves with no intervention then that is it. I don't want clomid and the rest. (This is a personal choice and of no offence to others) Maybe i have read too much, lived with this too long. I have a whol elot of bloods to do on day 21 and we will see what they say. I am happy to have the bloods done anyway for a check over of things. But at the end of the day we have been there done that many a time. Specialists, therapists and all... not much hope that a GP can make any difference. I just wanted the referral.

Anyway...i have a lot in my head atm and too much to put down here. Tough couple of weeks for us with some serious discussions over our future. We are both so pulled in many different directions. Both feeling our time has now passed.

My nephew's bday party tomorrow and i have to make a red skirt for me to where with my black and white striped stockings...I am a clown tomorrow. A cross between cirque d caberet type clown...not the scarey looking ones. I am games co ordinator tomorrow and will have about 30 kids to play with. I have to make his gift too...a rocket ship mobile, i am thinking, with an alien inside.

Talking of playing with...Guide Dogs Aus, have approved us so now it is just the body corp and we can get a puppy.
xoxo
Sorry a self absorbed post. oxox

Better go...got a bit of sewing to do.