Hello My Girls

I really havent even looked in the "pregnancy after late loss" thread.... NOt that I am worried. I just feel more "at home" here.

I really would love to see us all over there.

Gigi - How are you feeling hunny??? Isnt it weird how its when we are feeling good (or seemingly so ) something bites us on the ass. Little things... another story of FB was I receieved a email from a "friend" on FB asking me when my babies first birthday was... and they thought it must be coming up.... I stared at it for the longest time.

There also was the stupid health care nurse in town... hold on to your socks with this story. My phone rang 6 months after Matthews death, and it was the local health care nurse, she never let me speak an word in edgewise. She started berating me about not immunising Matthew, and getting him regularly weighed and checked. I let her go, she went on for a good 5 mins, all the while I was getting angrier and angrier... by the time she finished I was seething... Shaking so much, I am sort of glad she wasnt in my face. BUt her last question to me was "what possible reason do you have for not getting Matthew checked, for his own health and welfare...." There was silence as I was trying to compose myself, until she said "excuse me are you there? I would like to know a reason" Well I gave her one.... All I could manage without screaming was "HE IS DEAD!!!" There, naturally, was stunned silence.... but no sorry. I hung up and rang hubby in tears. Needless to say everyone heard about it then.

Tashy - I cant read your story hun... no permissions. I am worried for you.

Kateo - YOu do sound strangly calm my dear. Your doing great.

Skybie - I am sorry hunny ((BIG HUGS)) thank you for sharing and please come vent, laugh, cry with us often.

To everyone else I have forgotten (I am sorry) but HUGE HUGS.

AFM - I am 9 weeks now, and man do I feel second hand. No morning sickness but low BP and constant fatigue is taking its toll. I know I had an inital blood test to proove it but everyone around me is shocked to find out I havent been back to the doctor... I dont know, I am starting to think it is sub-concious. Having the medical people involved. I keep making appointments and then cancelling them for one reason or another. and thats just for a referal. I spoke to the specialist breifly and she explained I would be classed as high risk, and be marked down for a c section about 2 -3 weeks before. Because of what happened to Matthew I must not be allowed to go into labour. The shock could send me over the edge. But I have now made an appointment at the GP for next week, and I have made a pact with myself that I am going to keep it.