Having to change my green as it is not available anylonger it seems...but it is me.

EMJ- Oh love, I am so very sorry. You have eery right to feel selfabsorbed but for what it is worth it sounds like you are handling this tragic news with grace and control...i just don't know how you are doing it. Is DD old enough to understand a little of what is happening?(sorry- i should know but i can't remember). I am sorry you are facing this all over. I wish making a baby were much simpler, i really do. Sending you a huge hug and I think you are on to something with regards to spending more time on yourself for a while. I am sure you don't need to be super skinny but some energy towards you sounds like the perfect thing right now. Farewelll little angel. xoxo