Gi - FX for your body corp meeting tomorrow. The wait for the meeting has seemed endless. Keep strong my dear, is about all else you can do, and remember to live a little too....though I know it's hard not to just be so focused on what you need to do. Hugs.

TJ - so any news?

Mt2 - thankyou for your lovely words a while ago. I just went back and found them. I am sorry it's ground hog day for you. Are your emotions any more predicatable?

Sky - how are you going?

Lady Tess - you too?

Tashy - I know you might be taking a break from in here, but you are never far from my thoughts.

B - how is your little Cam? How are you going? You were a bit low a few posts ago. Did you get any good news from your meeting with the FS? November is not too far away now.

Sorry to anyone I have missed. It's not intentional.

Well. I am one step closer to really TTC rather than having no idea. Little HB has decided to go on a nursing strike. 2 weeks so far. She is otherwise happy and healthy and eating well. She refuses EBM. I was devastated that I didn't make the decision as to the timing of that part of our relationship ending, but am getting better at accepting it. No cycle yet and HB is 11 months old. So the next step is to wait to see when and if my cycle returns now my prolactin levels will be dropping. Have an appointment with my Obs/Gyn/FS ( yep all in one) in November. So will see what has happened by then.

So here's the rub. I am pretty excited to be one step closer to TTC, but so fearful for heartache. I know it's a little self indulgent. After all I am very blessed. But still....

Here's a question. Do you ever just get disappointed in yourself and the way you handled a situation or reacted to something? Seems like almost a daily occurrence for me at the mo. I just hope I learn from each time I am disappointed in myself, so hopefully I can change my behaviours. Time will tell huh?

Well, better run. Have a couple of things to do before I try to catch some zzz's.