Hey ladies.
Blessed- good luck With your progesterone cd21 test xxx let us know the results.
Afm- couldn't believe my eyes...
:bfp: at 8dpo yesterday... And :bfp: today at 9dpo... This mornings didn't take very long to come up at all. Maybe 4-5 mins. Defo in the time frame! Omg!!!!! I'm pregnant!!!!
Sending loads of baby dust to y'all! Xox
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:o OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!! So happy for you honey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :happyforyou: Sending loads of sticky vibes!!!!!!!
thanks everyone. still getting there day by day, gah i hate it sometimes :( i'd like to think the emptiness will leave me one day, but i have a funny feeling i'm always going to be feeling empty.......
LynsDan congratulations!!!! :happyforyou: that's awesome, how exciting. wish you all the best for your journey ;)
Kateo - yeh i think i know you too Lol. look forward to seeing you around! :lol:
EmilyJames, i am so sorry for your loss :hug:i hope you find a lot of support from this forum, i know i have. :hug: :hug:
Blessed, good luck with your job interview and your TWW.
EmilyJames, I am so so sorry to hear of your so recent loss. I felt the same when we lost Ellen at 41 weeks. I really wanted another baby right away.
Lynsdan .....WWWWOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Go the sticky vibes and may that little one hang in there. I hope you have a wonderful pregnancy.
Mummydreamer that "empty arms" feeling has stayed with me but I am getting used to it. I guess that doesn't help much but it's honest. I am pg again but I still dream of Ellen.
AFM been having terrible dreams about things going wrong again when I am in labour. Hopefully I'll dream all the problems then the actual event will only be OK.
I hosted a baby shower on Wed evening... and actually survived without a tear! It was a fun evening.
Hi loverly ladies,
LnD, woohoo!!!! :happyforyou: What fantastic news this morning! Soooo happy for you guys, wishing you the stickiest vibes there are!
Blessed, I know what you mean about the Easter/Mother's Day time of your. I don't want to sound ungrateful for my wee man, because I am sooooooo grateful for him and I love him so much it honestly hurts, but I still miss Josh so much overall it's sort of a sad day for me. Josh should be here and that's that. There is this overwhelming feeling of loneliness on the day. I dunno, I can't explain it properly the way I feel about it. So on Mother's day we'll think of our angels together and wish they were here with us :hug:
On another note, I'll be sending you lots of GL vibes next week for your interview! You go girl :whip:
Kate, the feeling of dread doesn't go away until bub is born and then after that you stress about other things like wind, colic, sleepless nights, hahaha. It is so worth it in the end and YOU WILL GET THERE hun! Big hugs :hug:
Mummydreamer, hope your migranes have improved :hug: They are horrible, but do check your eyes hun, you there could be a connection for sure.
Tash, I hope you're feeling better sweets. Big hugs to you too. The feelings you describe about Leo is what I often think about with Josh. Where he should be now, what he would be doing. Seeing other kids whose birthdays are close to Josh and seeing how they have turned out. Missing my wee man like crazy. It will never stop :cry: These feeling are so normal, so go with the flow and allow yourself to feel them as you're still on your healing journey.
Dory, yes, any more mad stabs????? hahahahaha
Gigi, big hugs honey. I know it must be hard hearing of other pg. You're gonna hate me for saying this as I have Cam but I feel the same way when I hear of others pg, especially close to home :o Hit me, slap me. Big hugs hun :hug:
EmilyJames, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. You are in the best possible place here on BB, and although I am sorry you have found yourself here, you will get all the support that you need going through your grief and through the TTC journey. I found so much support here I will forever be grateful, thanks ladies!!!!!!!!!
Hello to Cheryl and anyone else I missed! Hope you're all doing well.
Big hugs B xoxoxoxo
Thankyou to all of you lovely ladies who have welcomed me to the forum. I am so sad to see how many women have gone through this terrible pain. When my husband put on facebook that our James was born sleeping, I was shocked and saddened at how many of my friends on facebook have lost babies of their own.
I never thought when I fell pregnant with James that anything like this would happen. I definately know that I want more children, but I am terrified of what might happen next time. I have at least another month to wait until the results from all the tests come back to find out what went wrong. I am not sure what will be worse, finding something or finding no nothing.
I am still trying to figure out what all the abbreviations mean so if I use one incorrectly please let me know :)
Oh man...i hate it when i fall so behind.
Firstly, Welcome to EmilyJames. So very sorry your little James couldn't stay. Miss B is totally right, you are in the best place. You must be feeling all sorts of things and no doubt wanting to fall pregnant again can feel so powerful. I have heard women on here say that, a lot of them. It is a very common feeling, just like the fearful thoughts of the futures and what might happen next time. The very best thing through your own journey is time...but time is different for al of us. I am hopeful for you that with test results you get to find out something definitive, I am hopeful that whatever results they are, they give you some peace of mind. Welcome and here for you the whole way. Keep going, one foot in front of the other, breath, be gentle and talk...all good advice given to me from the girls in here...along with a lot of other things. Welcome and hope you find it comfortable here. xoxo
LND, Cheeky minx! CONGRATULATIONS...a little miracle when timing was perfect. The very best thing for your little body too. How precious, So very happy for you. Take care hun.
AFM- Appologies for not many personals...and thank you so much for such loving and kind words from you all.
I am not in for long..tough week. AF arrived today. Easter weekend but mostly our angel DD was born yesterday 2 years ago and well...you all know. So I just wanted to drop in and say thank you but also to excuse myself for a bit. xoxoxoxo
HUGE hugs Gigi sweetheart, on your beautiful angel daughter's birthday yesterday. It never gets easier on our precious little ones angelveraries, as you know hun. Thinking of you and sending you bucket loads of love and kisses and bear hugs :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:
Happy belated birthday to your gorgeous girl Gigi.
I;m still about girls,will try my hardest to catch up this weekend i promise
love to all of you xxxx
Hi
Gigi1 - Thankyou for your welcome and your kind words. Each day brings new challenges. Today we went to our local beach markets and it seemed like every women was either pregnant or pushing small babies in prams. It was an epidemic! I made good use of my sunglasses to hide the tears. I am happy for these women - just extremely jealous I guess.
I have a general question for everyone - how long did you wait before TTC?
I look forward to hearing all of your stories and getting to know you all.
I hope that you all have a great Easter with your families.
xoxoxo
Emily i know the feeling, i have two SIL's that are pregnant right now, and every time i go to the shops, i seem to see so many pregnant women or women with babies who would be similar age to J, it's just so hard sometimes :( with ttc, im not there yet, although im lurking this thread :rolleyes: going to wait maybe another month or two, and then start trying. i still haven't got the blood tests that my OB sent me for!! probably going next week when kids go back to school, but should probably get them done before we start properly trying.....
Gigi, i hope her birthday is a special day to you, as hard as it must be :hug:
Skybie, good to see you round again, i've been a bit awol this weekend too.
hope everyone has a great weekend xoxoxox
EmilyJames, after the shock wore off with Josh I desperately wanted to be pg again. My psych told me that on his EDD I would feel differently as all the months I was still supposed to be pg, I didn't have closure ans peace. She was right, on Josh's EDD which was in Feb the following year (he was born in October 08) I had this peaceful feeling that he was now gone. I had an operation in January 09 and mid 09 we did another cycle of IVF and Cam was conceived. So all in all, I almost had an identical cycle with Cam as we conceived Josh in June 2008 and Cam in July 2009. But if the fibroid which caused the m/c wasn't there to begin with, I would have tried earlier if that makes sense. I had to wait 6 months following my surgery to remove the fibroid, to go again.
Hi,
We wanted to get pg again asap after we lost Ellen at 41 weeks. We checked if there was something wrong with her that might happen to another baby. There wasn't and to this date there is no real explaination for her heart having stopped at 41 weeks. We asked the ob at our 6 week meeting when he told us what they knew about her passing (which wasn't much). He suggested we try as soon as I had a proper cycle and suggested we try tracking with "pee on a stick" system. If we didn't have any luck in 6 months we should see a fertility specialist. We first saw one FS who was very negetive (I'm 42) and didn't offer help except IVF. The second FS was wonderful and encouraging which I believe helped heaps.
I was pg less than 12 months after we lost Ellen but we had lots of sad months in between. We did however manage to fall naturally with help in tracking from the FS. Once we found a good FS we fell pg in the second month of seeing her.
I was extremely stressed as I knew we were both getting "old" in terms of fertility.
Being about 21 week pg now is good but I am constantly worried something is going to go wrong..........
Gigi, sorry I missed your little girls birthday.. Hope you had a peaceful day :hug:
EmilyJames, pregnant women and babies appear everywhere when you have had a loss.. I still find it 2 and a half years later and I still get pangs of jealousy.. I hate that I feel that way :( I waited 6 months after the twins. Medically I had to as I had a classical cut c-section. I know everyone is different, but I believe (and just my opinion, not right for everyone) that you need some time for yourself to heal. Sure another pregnancy may be a distraction and some hope for the future, but you need to grieve, and if you don't grieve after the loss, it may be worse down the track.. Again, only you know when you are ready..
AFM 7DPPO and impatient.. Roll on Next weekend so I can test!
Emily we lost our boy in feb and we're ttc now would have been earlier but my cycles have been all over the place
Well ladies I think I may be back in here in a short while
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Thank you girls. I am sure our angel had a special day...we did. Her butterfly cake was delicious and we have eaten wayyyy too much!
OK, DD was born in April 09 at 28wks gestation and i could not even come to terms with DTD(do the dirty) until her EDD(Estimated due date) arrived. That was the begining of July and i did not feel remotely sexual until that day. Even on that day i had to convince myself it was time to be me again. We have been trying ever since...22mths. It took us 10 years to fall pregnant with DD so my stamina for month on month negatives(BFNs) was pretty high but my strengths are dwindling these days. We will keep trying for a bit longer but then, that will be it. Depression and grief both play with libido and overall heath but over the last 22 months we have tried all but 3months. Pretty good really.
I have to agree with the others, it is such a personal choice. I psychologically needed to wait until her due date, but then i found comfort in not falling pregnant in the first year simply because if she were alive, i would have devoted that time to her anyway and not tried for another until that year had passed. As much as i wanted another child, i appreciated the time to spend with her, thinking about her and doing things for her to remember her...which i still do every day. If i were pregnant i am sure i would have found a way to do that too but i spent that time on healing, giving her what i felt she deserved(personal opinion). I don't know if i found comfort in this because i was still waiting but i know i was not ready straight away, ,aybe a couple of months after her EDD would have been good. Just me. Many other women have such a strong desire it overcomes them, a desire to be pregnant again can also heal. A pregnancy can heal hormonally, emotionally, physically. My fear was just too great to heal that way. I am a big chicken and I think other women have been incredibly brave. I am in awe of them.
NOw...well i am more than ready...been ready for a long time and want nothing more than to be pregnant as much as it equally terrifies me.
LND- What has happened babe are you ok? I hope everything with your new BFP is ok, sending you much love and hope. xoxo
Hi Lovely Ladies
mummydreamer, it must be hard to have family that is pregnant. I have 5 or 6 facebook friends that are pregnant and that is hard enough to cope with - reading their happy pregnant status's break my heart. None of my friends IRL are pregnant tho which is kind of a blessing.
Miss.B - how was your pregnancy with Cam? How were you not terrified the whole time?
kateo - Congratulations on being pregnant! I hope that the next 19 weeks run like pregnant clock work and you have a screaming baby in your arms.
blessedatlast - thank you for your words of advice. I am still at the desperate to be pregnant asap stage but do have to wait at least another 3 to 4 weeks for any test results to be back. I need to know if their was anything wrong with my gorgeous boy before I submit myself, DH and DD to the emotional rollercoaster of trying again.
skybie - thank you, I hope that you are pregnant asap!
LysnDan - I hope everything is ok
Gigi1 - Thankyou for telling your story for me, I admire you for your strength and courage to keep trying after all that you have been through. You are amazing.
I am thinking of writing my story on the Stories of Loss thread, I hope that by writing what happened will help me heal slightly. I cannot believe that it has been 2 weeks and 3 days since I gave birth to my James. It just seems so wrong that time keeps moving by without him, that each minute is further from when I held him and kissed him. Did any of you ladies write your stories? Did it help you at all?
Good luck to you all TTC and I hope that being Easter there are plenty of fertile eggs around for you all!