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Mel...I've been banned from google lol...and yes I'm new around here. Have been hanging in the long term ttc ac thread but after yet another mc my FS put me in the recurrent mc box so I jumped in here!
I would love to hear all about your IVF cycle...the first one's the hardest as it's all new and you don't know what to expect. I start my synarel on the 19th...so I won't be too far behind you! I'll be thinking of you tomorrow...and thanks heaps for today...I feel so much better tonight xxx
Ellie, I am so sorry you had to be put in the box YAY huh what a box to be put in.
We are very close together in our IVF cycle. I start Synarel on 15th Sept. Then apparently stop OCP on 21st and have scan on 28th - have no idea where I go from there. I assume dependant on scan they will work out when I start FSH injections :dunno:
Thanks for your wishes tomorrow. I am hanging around on here distracting myself - sitting here thinking this exact time last year I was giving birth to Nicholas. In exactly 6 hours and 10 mins from now he will be exactly 1 year old. I know when I wake up in the morning, I will be thinking that exactly 1 year ago I was holding him in my arms. I just wish I could hold him again and get a snuggle, rather than just hold his urn :(
Mel, DH and Nicholas
A long painful year may have passed, but one thing I know for sure is that the love for Nicholas has only grown.
Happy 1st Birthday sweet little Nicholas. Your Mummy, Daddy, family and BB girls all just miss you so much.
Big huge hugs to you and DH today Mel
Lv Spring, DH, Harry, Pumpkin and Lil Spring.
Happy 1st Birthday Sweet Little Nicholas
Dear Mel
I will be thinking of you and your family today. Be good to yourselves and try to have a special day as hard as it is. Take care, and know that Nicholas has lots of little angel friends there with him to help celebrate. Take care and lots of hugs to you today.
xx
Happy 1st Birthday little Nicholas
Mel I know the past year has been heartbreaking and difficult but you have always had a little angel on your shoulder, in your heart and with you always. My thoughts are with you and DH today and of course I will be thinking of Nicholas all day. I hope he has a great day with all our bubs playing and partying up in the stars. Take care babe, thinking of you, luv & hugs Lynn, DH & Cooper
Happy 1st Birthday Nicholas
Mel, hon, words can't really express the emotion of today. Our thoughts and prayers and with you, DH and Nicholas. Do only what you can today, scream, shout, let it all out but most of all look after yourselves. You are such an amazing lady, friend, wife and most of all mother, look outside today, its a beautiful day for a beautiful boy, Nicholas is shining down on you.
Live and love today for nicholas was the ultimate symbolisation of yours and dh's love for each other, whisper you love him, and blow him a kiss from us.
Nicholas forever in our hearts
klee, dh and phoebe
HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY SWEET NICHOLAS
Thinking of you & your DH today Mel.
Love Jo, Dh, Storm & family
Mel I am thinking of you and DH and your sweet baby Nicholas on his 1st Angelversary. I just don't know what to say other than do whatever you feel you have to do.
hugs hun
Judy
Mel, i know you won't read this until the 6th in australia, but here it is Nicholas' birthday, and i am sending all my love and tears to you, your dh, and Nicholas. i wish for you that it were all a bad dream too, i wish nothing more than you could wake up to that crying little boy. he is such a special boy, and so very loved. know that he loves you too. i wish i could give you a big hug.:hug:
i'm trying to remember what i wanted to post, but i'm crying so you'll have to forgive me if i forget.
Mel- your journal and Nicholas' birthday party photos are so lovely. so sad, but so lovely at the same time. hugs.
Starbright - i'm so sorry that the universe keeps knocking you down. perhaps if you say something nice about the boss lady . . . :)
Jo- here's hoping!
Klee- March sounds just right, after 9 years, you must both be ready!
morning ladies, how is everyone today?
mel - how are you today? when and if you're ready we'd love to hear from you.
me - as usual i am confused as to what my cycle is doing, these temps and opks don't seem to be working for me (well they work they just don't seem to correlate), think i'm going to have to just leave it to chance from now on. i guess we are now in the tww, not really sure to be honest, guess only time will tell.
Hi all!!!
Firstly i would like to apologise, i mentioned yesterday there were only a few of us still in here, there are actually more of us than i thought. I am so sorry to all of you lovely ladies who i had forgotten about. I was having a moment where i was only looking at the posts on my screen and not thinking about anything else.
And i also forgot to add what i was up to (after i lost the last post and had to re write, there was a few things i missed)
I am currently still waiting on another blood test because my last one came back with my levels up a tiny bit (9) and even tho i got AF the next night the Dr got me to do it again as i could still be pregnant. Not holding my breath, but we will wait and see.
I am also now a bit confused as to whether to take my aspirin now or not. The specialist i went to recomended i take it from 12 weeks, but didn;t explain why, and then when i saw my normal dr he said i should be taking all the time regardless of whether i am trying to have a baby or not as a clot could form anywhere in body and cause damage. Well, then i spoke to "Dr Mel" (who also has anticardio) and her high risk dr also said to wait until she was preg before taking the aspirin as our body needs to clot a little bit for implantion, and after my few weeks of dilema's i had come to the conclusion that i may have had a nice fertilised egg in there, but it was unable to implant due to me not being able to clot up. So i am following my specialist advice and i am now off the aspirin.
And then this morning i came in and i had written all of this up in the preg thread and one of the girls in there said she had a similar problem but the other way around- she was told TO take the aspirin so her body didn't think a fertilised egg was just a clot and try to get rid of it. So now i am totally confused and i am going to follow my specialist instructions and make another appt to see him and double check what is going on. Because the other strange thing was that my anticardio has apparently cleared up as of my blood test from last week. Now again Dr Mel may have the answer for that too.... when you are showing signs of pregnancy the anticardio doesn't show up- so as my preg levels were up it may be the explaination to why that went away. Its all very confusing and all over the place (just like me!) and i dont know what to think. I am going to just have to wait and see. I have done a month on the aspirin, and apparently things tried but couldn't, so i will try a month off while i wait for appt then go from there. Wish me luck!
And hey, there is still a tiny miniscule chance i am still preg. Tho no signs anymore really, i am still hoping for a miracle. AF was very strange (only lasted a few days really and is completely gone now) Stranger things have happened!!
The other thing i missed in my post was to KLEE Yes you made me laugh at you crossing everything but your legs!!! Still laughing now!!
Mel, i sent you a text as i knew i wouldn't be in here yesterday, however i wish to send you more hugs and i am sending a big Angel Kiss to Nicholas, i hoped he liked all his balloons!! I dont know what else to say sweetie, just that i wish i could be there for you as i know you will be there for me when November comes around. All my love to you and DH.
Hi everyone,
Not much from me today, still feeling pretty low after yesterday... but wanted to come in and say a really big thank you to everyone for your support yesterday, it means alot to DH, myself and I am sure Nicholas :hug:
The day was a little harder than I expected, I guess I thought I had released it all on Saturday but it hadnt even touched the surface. We went to Williamstown and had some lunch and let some balloons go on the beach. And then spent the evening with my family which was a really good distraction. It did make the day a little easier knowing everyone was there for me, and I got a couple of messages from people who I didnt think would remember so that was nice as well.
I hope you are all well, and I am sure I will be back tomorrow at some stage to check on you all.
Lots of love, Mel :)
Mel - big big big :hug: You have had a huge few days and you have showed that through all the pain and heartbreak that somehow you find some strength to keep going. Nicholas would be so proud of his mummy :hugs:
May you always have an angel by your side
Watching out for you
Helping you believe in brighter days and in dreams come true
Giving you comfort and courage
Someone to catch you if you fall
Inspiring smiles
Holding your hand and helping you through it all
May you always have an angel by your side
:hug:
howdy everyone.
Klee- what a bugger that the opks and temps don't seem to correspond with your o date. do you do fertility friend? that helped me out because i couldn't figure my chart out and their program did it for me. here's to chance!
Starbright- what a lot of confusion! one always hopes the medical profession has things figured out, but so often they don't know exactly.
Mel- what a milestone to live through, my heart goes out to you.
mel - nice to see you pop in. being with your family sounded like the perfect idea, knowing that through it all you have them to fall back on, must help even just a little. just be kind to yourself over the next few days, thinking of you.
Hey all
Just a quick post this morning, AF arrived yesterday :(, but I haven't really had a chance to think about it as DS (14) was slammed into the ground by a teammate at football training last night, so it was off to casulty with him. Dr dosent think anything is broken but sending him for a x-ray this morning to rule out a broken collar bone! Poor baby is in so much pain, I cried when the Dr was examining him last night, he was hurting so much!
But all that has been distracting me from the fact that once again AF is here!
Sorry girls that was a bit of a "me" post wasn't it! Sorry again!
How is everyone else?
lynn - such beautiful words
jo/judy - any sign of the wicked witch or have you succumbed to testing?
auntie m - i can't access ff from work as its banned because it relates to sexual education lol. have been doing my chart on my own will put it on to ff tomorrow when i go visit my folks, we don't get internet til monday at home. will see what it says then.
jo - we just posted at same time, sorry to hear af came and I hope ds is ok
Klee ((hugs)) thanks for thinking of me.. AF is about to arrive. I did test on 10dpo more so coz I tested at 10DPO when I got a BFP with Samuel and on that day a close friend had her baby girl. Well she had another baby girl this time at 10dpo so I was hoping for the same miracle and boy did it hit me hard when I got a BFN and then spotting. We were also pg together when I was pg with Annabelle and she was pg with her son. So it has hit me a bit hard. Also a few Angelversarys coming up and some significant dates which has me right down in that pit of thinking I'll never have another live baby to hold of my own.
Jo I am so sorry to read about AF and your DS. It is so hard seeing your child in pain, that was us last week at casualty when DS2 broke his toe and it is stil bruised and swollen.
Kat have you got your 2nd beta back? Are you still in limbo land? It does sound a bit odd to have such a light AF unless it was breakthrough bleeindg. Hoping for a bit more certainty for you.
hugs to all.. school holdiays began here today and we have a household of kids as friends have gone to Sydney and we have their 3 children.
bye for now
Judy
Jo I am so sorry that the wicked witch arrived - big hugs to you babe :hug: I hope your DS is ok and the xray shows no broken bones. Take care, thinking of you :hugs:
Good luck to everyone else in the dreaded 2ww :pray:
hey all,
well x-ray showed ds has a broken collar bone :(, if I could get my hands on the little sod who did it........
DH has made his appointment with the FS, it's on the 1st of november!
back later to do some personals!
Oh Jo I'm sorry to hear that DS has broken his collar bone. Sort that other kid out!!!!
Good luck on the 1 November. I have everything crossed for you :pray: Sending you heaps and heaps of :bluedust:
Hey Lynn,
thanks, the kid that did it was having a temper tantrum at the time, so he really needs a foot up the @#*%. So thats the end of DS's footy season & they are in the finals too, 2 games away from the grand final!
Hopefully we will have some luck on our own before november!
Judy – sorry for the BFN, is it possible that it was just to early. Thinking of you for your angelversaries.
Jo – sorry to hear about DS's collarbone, a temper tantrum is no excuse, your poor son just happened to be on the end of someones bad day. fantastic that dh has got his appointment, praying it can bring you some results
hiya lynn - good to see you around
I'm always here Klee checking on my girls............hoping for good news. I don't always post but I am always reading how you are all going. We need some graduations in here - sending you all heaps and heaps of :bluedust:
How are you going Klee?
i know sorry lynn - i was typing as i was working, boss came round so had to post post, lol,
am going ok, just very tired, worked the last 3 weeks full time, so not use to that, looking forward to heaving a day off
you?
You ok, just saw your mood is "in pain"
Mel - thinking of you and your family on Nicholas' 1st birthday. The balloons sounded wonderful - he would have loved it. Not an easy time for anyone to go through but a time to reflect about everything.
Good luck with your IVF also Mel - you will get that baby in your arms - it will happen.
We need some more BFP's here girls....loads of :bluedust: to you all.
I forgot that it is only Sydney on a public holiday today.
Working takes it out of you doesn't it! Especially when you have had time off and get used to it. I am still only working 2-3 days a week which is ok.
Yeah I am just in pain because I have hurt my sacrum/pelvis (tailbone). It hurts to sit down. I have been having chiro for about 3 weeks with no relief so I am trying physio on Monday.
Your 'in love' so that sounds promising for this month!
howdy all.
Jo- broken collar bone?! yikes. that other lad had best be taught a lesson. sorry to hear about af. :(
Klee- i suppose ff could be sexual education, but it certainly isn't naughty! lol. hope it helps to figure your chart out. i agree working full time is for the birds, if i could just figure out how to cut those days out.
Judy- hugs to you for your angelversaries. such difficult times. :hug: and af on top of it, damn it. :wall: i'm sending good karma out to you to help counter the despair.
okay here, just motoring along and avoiding talking to people in town and m/s and tired (not! complaining).
Hi Everyone...
Just popping in to see how everyone's going...all a bit quiet?
I have surfaced from my post mc depression and feeling heaps better...even starting to feel a little bit hopeful about this cycle...
Good luck everyone xxx
Hi everyone,
Sorry I have been MIA - still having a little bit of a rough time emotionally. Went out for dinner and bowling with my sis and BIL last night and that was nice and cheered me up alot. My sister gave me a little bootie keepsake (photo on website) and it was engraved with Nicholas name and birth date. So lovely, fortunately I had had enough margaritas that I was in a really happy mood and didnt cry cause we were in public.
Anyway, I hope you are all well and enjoying you sunny weekend.
Mel :)
P.S. Poor DS with his broken collarbone, hope he is feeling ok :(
P.P.S. Spring - Are they letting you go in tonight? I am so excited, I said to DH this morning that I cant wait for that 2am text ;) Love to you and DH and we are both thinking of you and sending you as many positive vibes as we can :pray:
Mel - :hugs: to you. It is such an emotional time and I wish I could be closer to you. The bootie that your sister gave you sounds beautiful and such a special thoughtful gift.
Ellie - glad to hear that you are feeling a bit more positive. Sending you heaps of good luck vibes.
Hope everyone else has had a good weekend
Thanks Lynn, you may be far away but believe me you have supported me so much :hug: I have actually put a pic on now. Had to run out before I had a chance to do it :rolleyes:
Special one for Spring - I know I have text you, and I know you probably wont be on now... but I wanted to send you the biggest :hug: from Klee and me. We are both thinking of you and :pray: everything turns out exactly the way you have planned it. If not, as long as the :stork-boy: delivers a healthy one thats the main thing.
Love to you and your DH - how exciting :D
morning ladies, how was everyones weekend?
can someone let me know as soon as they hear from spring?, spring good luck.
not much going on here, quiet weekend which was nice, me no complain today. (don't be shocked everyone! lol)
Hi ladies,
Mel - Glad to hear you went out and had a great night and got on the marguarita's too. I looked at your pics and your sister's gift is beautiful. I know it is dragging for you, but it really isn't long now til you take the next step. How are you feeling?
Klee - We are all waiting with baited breath for any news from Spring. I am too excited and nervous and kept checking my phone and computer all weekend, I am sure she thinks I am stalking her. Lol. Her doula is going to email us when Lil Spring arrives, so I am sure it will be posted by someone as soon as that happens.
Hello to everyone else too, I hope you are all well. Will be popping in all day to see if there is any news from Spring.
Hey everyone,
I forgot to post last week a message from Nat (Dream).......pg brain - I forgot! Anyway she has gone o/s for 6 weeks to Europe (lucky duck!) but she wanted me to wish you all the best of luck with your BFP. Mel - I'm not sure if she had time to call you before you went but she wanted to let you know that she has everything crossed for you with the IVF.
I hope everyone had a great weekend!
thanks for the updates ladies
on edge doubly today, my SIL is due too, i had it in my head that she and spring were going to go the same day. all this edgyness is giving me a headache lol
mel - you and the margaritas, lmao, i've seen you in action, the bootie sounds beautiful, haven't had chance to check the photos yet