Good luck to your SIL today Klee
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Good luck to your SIL today Klee
Hey all,
How is everyone?
Glad to see you back Mel! {{{Hugs}}}
all is quiet here, tomorrow is Storms 8th month b'day, I can't beleive it gone that fast :(
Klee - goodluck to your SIL
Hi jo, hugs to you for tomorrow and storm's 8 month birthday, it is amazing how fast life goes by... i was just thinking the same thing. how is af treating you?
this may sound really bad, but I am dreading SIL having a girl, and the way life goes she's bound to have one. i honestly hope for the best for SIL, but i am dreading all the emotions that will come up if in fact it does happen. anyway thats out there now, and now i feel guilt, I NEED SOME CHOCOLATE
I felt the same way with my sil , sure enough she had a little girl! A week before Storms due date :( (to top it off!) MIL wondered why I didn't want to know!
AF isn't too bad, annoying as ever! LOL!
Jo and Klee I just wanted to tell you that it is normal to feel the way that you did about your SILs. My sister is due to have a baby a week before Cooper's first birthday (awesome timing huh :rolleyes: )................anyway let's not get into that - but she is having a boy. It is like being kicked in the guts while we are already down and for some reason it hurts more when they get what we have lost. Don't feel guilty Klee, of course you only wish the best for her (like we all do) but we can't help how we feel and to be honest - are we not entitled to feel like that after what we have been through?!?!?!? I just wish people would understand our feelings. But that is the best thing about our little group here - we all understand and can share our feelings and know that we are normal. Big hugs to you both :hug:
Jo - Derrrrr MIL! LOL!!!! A bit of sympathy would have been nice hey! I hope AF is being ok :hug:
Klee - there will be plenty of emotions when you find out what your SIL has had. Even if it is a boy you will ask why does she get her baby and you don't get yours. It doesn't mean that you wish anything bad upon her. If it is a girl, it will be extra hard but just know that we are here for you if you need a shoulder, a hug, anything :hugs:
Hi there ladies!!!
JO i am so sorry to hear AF has showed her ugly face again. I wish it wasn't so!! Also big hugs for tomorrow love for Little Storm. Did some of your relies end up going to see her grave? I hope so, for your and your DH's sake as well as for her. I hope you are feeling ok, it sucks doesn't it. I got very cranky when Af showed her head in my direction. Dh says i tend to take it out on him, i dont mean to , it just makes me sad to know i have a whole other month to get through and it makes me feel like the whole month of trying was a waste of time coz nothing came from it. i loose motivation quite easily, for the week i am bleeding anyway. Then i tend to emerge feeling a little more positive, but it all takes its toll. I am only now starting to get over it and acting normal again. Until now i have just basically had the sh#ts. I am not overly mean, just mad at the world IYKWIM!!
I haven't even been keeping track of dates or sex or anything. That is probably a good thing!
MEL it is so nice to see you in the threads again!!!! Bowling is sooo much fun, but i haven't been for years!! i keep telling DH i wanna go, but we never get around to it! And margarita's are sooo much fun too!! They are my fave for xmas time!! I think you have done an amazing job over the last few weeks, you are an inspriration to us all!!
I haven't made another dr's appt yet, i will see my local ob first to get a referal for a specialist. i am going to try and see one in Tweed or Gold Coast and make it the person i will see when i actually get preg too. I have seen soooo many dr's over the last 5 years its not funny!! i will be sorting this out soon, i might go interviewing some and see who i like the best. So until then i am OFF the aspirin, we will see how i go this month (effort has been minimal so far to say the least!! But last month we figured out we went gung ho a little early in my cycle, so we are chilling and waiting for this one!!) so i will wait and see. I dont even know where i am in my cycle now, i feel abit more grounded now tho- i was a bit all over the place mentally there for a while. I think i need to just stay cool calm and collected and this will all happen as it is meant to. :)
KLEE Has your sil gone into labour yet?? How are the wedding plans going??? I am at work on the comp if ya have time to pm.... if not thanx for your message. I have called the dr, but he still hasn't called back, so as i said i am pretty sure my levels must have gone back down to normal or i would have heard something by now. I am trying to get motivated for this month, but i am abit blah. its probly better that way, not such a fall if im not so hyped up and excited!
HI ELLIE- Welcome to the thread, i am sorry, i was a bit preoccupied when you first arrived and didn't take the time to say a real hello.
You sound as tho you have travelled a hard and long road to get here, i hope this thread can be as usefull to you as it is to all of us. I am glad to hear you are feeling a little better today. Good luck with all your ivf things this cycle. I dont understand alot of what you have to do, it all sounds very complicated. Good luck and have fun trying!! :)
JUDY Sorry to hear you also have Af and anniversaries co inciding. Big Higs my love. Just think of Eyore.
AUNTIE M I am soooo happy to hear m/s is coming for you!! Its a nice feeling of reassurance! I have been thinking of you alot. I wish i could just jump out of cyber space and visit everyone in the flesh, i would love to see the area you live in, i am picturing a town a little bit like Northern Exposure, that show about Alaska from years ago!! Is it cold in colarado? It's where the snow fields are isnt it? I lived in LA for the first 7 years of my life, but the furtherst north i travelled was Big Bear. If i ever go back, i will let you know!! Are you still feeling yeti around you? I am sure he is happy for you and peanut. He will want you to love peanut just as much as you love him!! Will you be finding out the sex of little peanut? Are you still considering a home birth? I would love a home water birth, but i think i will have to go c section or at least be induced, so that rules that out i think for me. I think you would be fine to be at home if thats what you want. I think whatever makes you and Dh happy is what you should do. has that sil been behaving???? I hope so!! Are you telling your boss right away? That might be a good start to getting a bit more time off!! At least until m/s goes away!! I am coming in to work a bit more since my DH has gone back to work, other wise i just end up depressed on the couch watching tv. Not good. All though mind you- i have lost my house Bi#ch too, so i have actually had to do house work!! Not happy Jan! But the extra money DH is bringing home is worth it!! So i no complain.
Well i better go for now and finish my work and get home to walk the dogs!!
Lotsa love
Kat xoxo
Still waiting on spring!!
Hello to anyone i have missed- especially girls from preg thread, i keep thinking i will post to you all in there- but then i forget!! Sorryy!!! Belly Rubs to all bellies big and small!!!
i just finished posting and found that i took that long a whole convo was happening!!
Jo and klee and lyn, me too.
We all know my sis has a little boy who was born 3 weeks before i lost Zahra, well her 2nd is on the way and is due the same day Zahra was. xmas eve. (not the day i actually had her, but a year to her due date) I am pretty sure it is going to be a girl (dont know for sure, but we know how the world works) which would mean she will have a little boy and a little girl with bdays almost exactly what my little boy and girl would have been (darren was due oct 10th hamish was born oct 26th, zahra due dec24th, her 2nd due dec 24th)
I dont cope very well at all. i feel really resentful that she has what i should have but dont. i try to be happy but a part of me just cant. i feel like the world has no right to give them to her in my face like that (the dates so similar) But i guess that is just life.
Starbright - big big :hug: life is so unfair and cruel isn't it. I am so sorry that you have deal with that ontop of your own grief. Take care babe :hugs:
Life is cruel, and i am not the only one to suffer. Just doesn't make it any easier. i felt good the other day when one of my old friends told me she had a litle boy. I was really truly happy for her. i didn't think i would be happy to hear news like that ever again. And its nice seeing the girls in here having babies, so that makes it all a bit easier to cope too. But i am sad coz i am not being a very good auntie and its not my nephews fault or his mums, its just life. But even when i tried to see him, i would just get upset. is it bad to be putting my feelings first? Or should i be able to just be happy that they arn't going through the turmoil that i am. I know that is a better way of looking at it, but its hard to put it in action. :(
i wish i was in sydney, its sounds like you are all going to be having a great lunch!!
Hey Kat, good to see you back haven't heard from you for a bit!
Well I have to say, I'm feeling very old today! (not that I am! LOL) Today is my DS's 14th b'day, makes me feel ancient! I'll be getting grey hair before my next b'day I think!
You are only as old as you feel!!
How is his finger? or was it your finger? He dropped something on it didn;t he?
I am ok, i went abit crazy there for a while, now i am sombre and cranky. It was a bit too much for me getting close so quick. I am sort of glad that i got to calm down abit. i need to keep this level of calmness in my tww tho!! Thats when i start to go crazy wishing and wanting when i should just chill out and relax.I find I fall too hard when it doesn't happen if i am too excited and that makes me a cranky bum to live with says DH. Hopefully this only happens a few more times before i get pregnant or i fear i will drive myself too insane!!
morning ladies, what fantastic news about spring, if that doesn't give us ttc'ers some inspiration i don't know what will. congrats again spring.
am feeling a bit better about everything today, think springs little oliver made me look at what i was thinking about my SIL. no news from her yet, besides this is going to be a gorgeous little neice or nephew for me to get to know and its not phoebe, so thats how i have to look at it. thanks for all your words of wisdom ladies, it helps tremendously.
Lol Kat! trouble is I feel old! :) It was DS's collarbone that got broken !
Klee - It certainly is good news about Spring, makes me want a bub even more!
howdy everyone.
Mel- what a thoughtful gift the booties are. :hug:
Jo- Happy 8 month birthday to Storm :hug: i wish i had something wise to say, but i'm still just me and can offer only hugs.
Klee- hope your SIL is doing okay? like Jo and Lynn and Kat, i too have some real trouble with my sil's son, who was born a month before Yeti and whom i didn't see until Yeti's funeral. i do love him and wish him and her the best, but it is so painful to see him and think what Yeti would be doing right now. i can't see him without seeing Yeti. then the guilt starts. i try to be more than i am, but it isn't an overnight transformation i guess. so be good to yourself and allow your feelings. i know you will be a good auntie, and even better for having gone through your feelings.
Starbright- lol, it is a bit like northern exposure. no moose, but elk and bear. an eclectic mix of folk too. cold 9 months of the year, but lots of sun and trees and no traffic. yes, i'm still sure Yeti is here, and loves us including peanut. i have some guilt, but what's new? we'll find out peanut's sex, so i can have some time to adjust. i'd like a boy to see a little of what Yeti would have been, but i will love a girl just as much. i haven't told anyone but family yet. it is so difficult to absorb other people's sureness that pregnancy leads to live babies. i'm just trying the day by day thing and enjoy peanut right now. most don't get that and push me for more. as to the homebirth, i just don't know. i haven't even had a prenatal yet because i am so conflicted about my choices. i hear you about the housework, and the extra money. i need to do both - lol!
hugs to everyone!
sorry jo, happy 8 months beautiful storm, watch over you mum and dad and brothers and sisters, hugs to you jo
Hi my lovelies - I have been MIA as I have had internet access problems and then I got a bit under the weather over the weekend. You are always in my thoughts and even when I don't post I am here watching your journeys closely... :hug:
It's time for a new thread - you will find it HERE