TTC after Recurrent Miscarriage/Stillbirth/Late Loss

Mel - thinking of you and your family on Nicholas' 1st birthday. The balloons sounded wonderful - he would have loved it. Not an easy time for anyone to go through but a time to reflect about everything.

Good luck with your IVF also Mel - you will get that baby in your arms - it will happen.

We need some more BFP's here girls....loads of :bluedust: to you all.

I forgot that it is only Sydney on a public holiday today.

Working takes it out of you doesn't it! Especially when you have had time off and get used to it. I am still only working 2-3 days a week which is ok.

Yeah I am just in pain because I have hurt my sacrum/pelvis (tailbone). It hurts to sit down. I have been having chiro for about 3 weeks with no relief so I am trying physio on Monday.

Your 'in love' so that sounds promising for this month!

howdy all.
Jo- broken collar bone?! yikes. that other lad had best be taught a lesson. sorry to hear about af. :(
Klee- i suppose ff could be sexual education, but it certainly isn't naughty! lol. hope it helps to figure your chart out. i agree working full time is for the birds, if i could just figure out how to cut those days out.
Judy- hugs to you for your angelversaries. such difficult times. :hug: and af on top of it, damn it. :wall: i'm sending good karma out to you to help counter the despair.

okay here, just motoring along and avoiding talking to people in town and m/s and tired (not! complaining).

Hi Everyone...
Just popping in to see how everyone's going...all a bit quiet?
I have surfaced from my post mc depression and feeling heaps better...even starting to feel a little bit hopeful about this cycle...
Good luck everyone xxx

Hi everyone,

Sorry I have been MIA - still having a little bit of a rough time emotionally. Went out for dinner and bowling with my sis and BIL last night and that was nice and cheered me up alot. My sister gave me a little bootie keepsake (photo on website) and it was engraved with Nicholas name and birth date. So lovely, fortunately I had had enough margaritas that I was in a really happy mood and didnt cry cause we were in public.

Anyway, I hope you are all well and enjoying you sunny weekend.

Mel :)

P.S. Poor DS with his broken collarbone, hope he is feeling ok :(

P.P.S. Spring - Are they letting you go in tonight? I am so excited, I said to DH this morning that I cant wait for that 2am text ;) Love to you and DH and we are both thinking of you and sending you as many positive vibes as we can :pray:

Mel - :hugs: to you. It is such an emotional time and I wish I could be closer to you. The bootie that your sister gave you sounds beautiful and such a special thoughtful gift.

Ellie - glad to hear that you are feeling a bit more positive. Sending you heaps of good luck vibes.

Hope everyone else has had a good weekend

Thanks Lynn, you may be far away but believe me you have supported me so much :hug: I have actually put a pic on now. Had to run out before I had a chance to do it :rolleyes:

Special one for Spring - I know I have text you, and I know you probably wont be on now... but I wanted to send you the biggest :hug: from Klee and me. We are both thinking of you and :pray: everything turns out exactly the way you have planned it. If not, as long as the :stork-boy: delivers a healthy one thats the main thing.

Love to you and your DH - how exciting :D

morning ladies, how was everyones weekend?
can someone let me know as soon as they hear from spring?, spring good luck.
not much going on here, quiet weekend which was nice, me no complain today. (don't be shocked everyone! lol)

Hi ladies,

Mel - Glad to hear you went out and had a great night and got on the marguarita's too. I looked at your pics and your sister's gift is beautiful. I know it is dragging for you, but it really isn't long now til you take the next step. How are you feeling?

Klee - We are all waiting with baited breath for any news from Spring. I am too excited and nervous and kept checking my phone and computer all weekend, I am sure she thinks I am stalking her. Lol. Her doula is going to email us when Lil Spring arrives, so I am sure it will be posted by someone as soon as that happens.

Hello to everyone else too, I hope you are all well. Will be popping in all day to see if there is any news from Spring.

Hey everyone,

I forgot to post last week a message from Nat (Dream).......pg brain - I forgot! Anyway she has gone o/s for 6 weeks to Europe (lucky duck!) but she wanted me to wish you all the best of luck with your BFP. Mel - I'm not sure if she had time to call you before you went but she wanted to let you know that she has everything crossed for you with the IVF.

I hope everyone had a great weekend!

thanks for the updates ladies
on edge doubly today, my SIL is due too, i had it in my head that she and spring were going to go the same day. all this edgyness is giving me a headache lol
mel - you and the margaritas, lmao, i've seen you in action, the bootie sounds beautiful, haven't had chance to check the photos yet

Good luck to your SIL today Klee

Hey all,

How is everyone?

Glad to see you back Mel! {{{Hugs}}}

all is quiet here, tomorrow is Storms 8th month b'day, I can't beleive it gone that fast :(

Klee - goodluck to your SIL

Hi jo, hugs to you for tomorrow and storm's 8 month birthday, it is amazing how fast life goes by... i was just thinking the same thing. how is af treating you?
this may sound really bad, but I am dreading SIL having a girl, and the way life goes she's bound to have one. i honestly hope for the best for SIL, but i am dreading all the emotions that will come up if in fact it does happen. anyway thats out there now, and now i feel guilt, I NEED SOME CHOCOLATE

I felt the same way with my sil , sure enough she had a little girl! A week before Storms due date :( (to top it off!) MIL wondered why I didn't want to know!

AF isn't too bad, annoying as ever! LOL!

Jo and Klee I just wanted to tell you that it is normal to feel the way that you did about your SILs. My sister is due to have a baby a week before Cooper's first birthday (awesome timing huh :rolleyes: )................anyway let's not get into that - but she is having a boy. It is like being kicked in the guts while we are already down and for some reason it hurts more when they get what we have lost. Don't feel guilty Klee, of course you only wish the best for her (like we all do) but we can't help how we feel and to be honest - are we not entitled to feel like that after what we have been through?!?!?!? I just wish people would understand our feelings. But that is the best thing about our little group here - we all understand and can share our feelings and know that we are normal. Big hugs to you both :hug:

Jo - Derrrrr MIL! LOL!!!! A bit of sympathy would have been nice hey! I hope AF is being ok :hug:

Klee - there will be plenty of emotions when you find out what your SIL has had. Even if it is a boy you will ask why does she get her baby and you don't get yours. It doesn't mean that you wish anything bad upon her. If it is a girl, it will be extra hard but just know that we are here for you if you need a shoulder, a hug, anything :hugs:

Hi there ladies!!!

JO i am so sorry to hear AF has showed her ugly face again. I wish it wasn't so!! Also big hugs for tomorrow love for Little Storm. Did some of your relies end up going to see her grave? I hope so, for your and your DH's sake as well as for her. I hope you are feeling ok, it sucks doesn't it. I got very cranky when Af showed her head in my direction. Dh says i tend to take it out on him, i dont mean to , it just makes me sad to know i have a whole other month to get through and it makes me feel like the whole month of trying was a waste of time coz nothing came from it. i loose motivation quite easily, for the week i am bleeding anyway. Then i tend to emerge feeling a little more positive, but it all takes its toll. I am only now starting to get over it and acting normal again. Until now i have just basically had the sh#ts. I am not overly mean, just mad at the world IYKWIM!!
I haven't even been keeping track of dates or sex or anything. That is probably a good thing!

MEL it is so nice to see you in the threads again!!!! Bowling is sooo much fun, but i haven't been for years!! i keep telling DH i wanna go, but we never get around to it! And margarita's are sooo much fun too!! They are my fave for xmas time!! I think you have done an amazing job over the last few weeks, you are an inspriration to us all!!
I haven't made another dr's appt yet, i will see my local ob first to get a referal for a specialist. i am going to try and see one in Tweed or Gold Coast and make it the person i will see when i actually get preg too. I have seen soooo many dr's over the last 5 years its not funny!! i will be sorting this out soon, i might go interviewing some and see who i like the best. So until then i am OFF the aspirin, we will see how i go this month (effort has been minimal so far to say the least!! But last month we figured out we went gung ho a little early in my cycle, so we are chilling and waiting for this one!!) so i will wait and see. I dont even know where i am in my cycle now, i feel abit more grounded now tho- i was a bit all over the place mentally there for a while. I think i need to just stay cool calm and collected and this will all happen as it is meant to. :)

KLEE Has your sil gone into labour yet?? How are the wedding plans going??? I am at work on the comp if ya have time to pm.... if not thanx for your message. I have called the dr, but he still hasn't called back, so as i said i am pretty sure my levels must have gone back down to normal or i would have heard something by now. I am trying to get motivated for this month, but i am abit blah. its probly better that way, not such a fall if im not so hyped up and excited!

HI ELLIE- Welcome to the thread, i am sorry, i was a bit preoccupied when you first arrived and didn't take the time to say a real hello.
You sound as tho you have travelled a hard and long road to get here, i hope this thread can be as usefull to you as it is to all of us. I am glad to hear you are feeling a little better today. Good luck with all your ivf things this cycle. I dont understand alot of what you have to do, it all sounds very complicated. Good luck and have fun trying!! :)

JUDY Sorry to hear you also have Af and anniversaries co inciding. Big Higs my love. Just think of Eyore.

AUNTIE M I am soooo happy to hear m/s is coming for you!! Its a nice feeling of reassurance! I have been thinking of you alot. I wish i could just jump out of cyber space and visit everyone in the flesh, i would love to see the area you live in, i am picturing a town a little bit like Northern Exposure, that show about Alaska from years ago!! Is it cold in colarado? It's where the snow fields are isnt it? I lived in LA for the first 7 years of my life, but the furtherst north i travelled was Big Bear. If i ever go back, i will let you know!! Are you still feeling yeti around you? I am sure he is happy for you and peanut. He will want you to love peanut just as much as you love him!! Will you be finding out the sex of little peanut? Are you still considering a home birth? I would love a home water birth, but i think i will have to go c section or at least be induced, so that rules that out i think for me. I think you would be fine to be at home if thats what you want. I think whatever makes you and Dh happy is what you should do. has that sil been behaving???? I hope so!! Are you telling your boss right away? That might be a good start to getting a bit more time off!! At least until m/s goes away!! I am coming in to work a bit more since my DH has gone back to work, other wise i just end up depressed on the couch watching tv. Not good. All though mind you- i have lost my house Bi#ch too, so i have actually had to do house work!! Not happy Jan! But the extra money DH is bringing home is worth it!! So i no complain.

Well i better go for now and finish my work and get home to walk the dogs!!
Lotsa love
Kat xoxo

Still waiting on spring!!

Hello to anyone i have missed- especially girls from preg thread, i keep thinking i will post to you all in there- but then i forget!! Sorryy!!! Belly Rubs to all bellies big and small!!!