TTC after Recurrent Miscarriage/Stillbirth or Loss after 1st trimester ~ NOV/DEC 07

First for the good news - 2 OBs that I know and have consulted with don't think my polycystyc cysts are anything to worry about since I fell pregnant quickly and don't have problems with my AF. If she rears her ugle head in a timely manner then I should be fine. . .although my OB will still run all the tests.

Catrionlee - We also lost an angel baby in November. We fell pregnant quick the first time so we are hoping it is quick agai. We are not yet ready to TTC (we aren't even allowed to DTD yet) but this is a great forum. The ladies in hear are so supportive.

Lynn - Thanks for the facts on PCOS. My OB is going to test my hormones and other levels in January to make sure I am not affected.

Naomi - Thanks also for the info. My OB did also say she was going to test for insulin resistence next month.

Late congrats to SB. You give us all hope. :happyforyou:

TM - So sorry for all your losses good luck TTC

Auntie M - My OB didn't call me back fast enough, so I called him until he called me back and told me he agreed the cysts probably were no big deal.

Jo - good luck:crossfingers:

Now the not fun news. Last night my OB called with the results of the autopsy. She said the only thing out of the ordinary was that my son had inflamed membranes. It could mean infection except that I wasn't running a fever. She said maybe a viral infection though, but doesn't actually think membranes mean anything helpful. Now I go back Jan 4 to go through a slew of tests for clotting, lupus, etc. It is so hard to think that my son was developing perfectly and that it could have been my body that did this to him. All new levels of guilt. Even with everything, I feel ok today.

Barbara

Mel1977: thanks for the definitions!

Anthonysmom: glad to hear they don't think pcos is a problem for you. Of course, if your cycles start to get irregular and sparse, you'll be able to take steps quickly, so it's good you know about this. And good luck with your tests in Jan. Keep us posted.

anthony's mum- i got a little teary hearing i give you hope- becuase for months i was lapping up all the hope form the other preg girls- and omigod- i am now one of them!! Emotional as it is- i have been told it is worth the wait.. i will let u know. I wish you all the best in the coming days and weeks so you can get right into ttcing soon!!! The guilt is the worst of all the feelings- i felt like i let all my babies down because my stupid body kept messing things up- good luck with the testing- i discovered i have anticardiolipin antibodies- it is a clotting thing- i was also checked for lupos- came back clear- and i have also been told i had cmv (cant spell the real name- but its a virus linked to cold sores and a bit like glandular fever- makes you very tired and can cause some probs with bubs) but i am now apparently immune to it... i pray you get the answers you need to make this a gentle journey for you and your dh

There are a few new faces in here- i think its a lucky little thread- we have had quite a few bfp's pop out in the last few weeks!! Goodluck ladies!!!

Judy i am sad to hear that you are having a breather- however do what you need to do- like mel said- i hope NOT trying brings you some luck... i have finally yahoo'd you- please stay in touch xoxox

Naomi... love the ticker!! I will try the standing onm our heads thing- i will admit to doing the arse up after sex to get here!! LOL i would hang upside down to help those swimmers find their way- seemed to have worked... ;) And dh thought i looked silly with my legs flinging in the air!!

hj1981- have you had any news yet?

Tm- please pass on any advice about preventing m/c- being only 5 weeks- i am still in the first danger zone and would really appriciate any tips!!! i am at a cross roads at the moment regarding taking my aspirin yet or not- i have had a few different opinions- and i am scared either way i will make the wrong choice- take it and i shouldnt have- dont take it and find out i should have... i am seeing a specialist on monday so i figure it cant hurt too much to wait until then and see what he says.

I had a energy meditation thing today- im not sure what to really call it- but it was great and really lifting- a lady took me through a meditation thing and cleared alot of my neg energies and guilt and hang ups i have been carrying regarding my losses- i am not saying it was a miracluous cure- there were tears from me and the lady doing it- and it is something you should only do when you are open and ready to do- but if you are into that sort of thing i highly recomend you seek a energy healer- i can not express the difference i feel in myslef and in my heart. It is something i recomend to anyone who is carrying guilt or even just lingering saddness that you feel may be haltering your ttc attitude. i will stop preaching now- but seriously, if you are open to it- give it a go!!

Good night ladies and welcome to the best support group in the whole world!!! I wish you all the best of luck for your futures!!!

Love StarBright
xoxoxox

JO :clap::dance::happyforyou::happyforyou::happyforyo u::happyforyou:
skipping into another thread sure brings some BRILLIANT news - well done!!!!!
Yahhhhooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! !!!!!!!!

Ok - I'm in serious need of some advice. I went to a highly recommended Chinese medicine guy on Friday and to say it went badly is an understatement. Firstly - alternative medicine is right up my alley so, in going, I had pinned a lot of hopes it. I've been seeing a naturopath since before we lost Alfie (april) and felt that while I was getting somewhere personally I was no closer to the BFP. So I tried this guy who has had incredible results in my circle of friends. Bascially he told me this
1. Hormonally I've shut down completely
2. It would be impossible for me to carry a healthy baby at this point ( but worse) he doubts I ever will
3. I have become obsessed with having a baby and this has caused me to have clouded judgement over every other decision making process in my life
4. While he's happy to work with me he believes that it will be six months before I am functioning at a level that will support a pregnancy - however he stressed that after six months he believes I will no longer yearn for this child (hmmmmmmmmmm) and that I have only dreamed of another child for the last six years because of this clouded judgement
5. If I did happen to conceive in this time that it would end in a disasterous result.

So I've cried uncontrolably for 36 hours and feel like my dreams are shattered...now here's the problem...I am not so fickle that just because he said this it must be true however I do accept that the physical health of the mother and father at the time of conception is vital. So I think it's important to continuing seeing him. But I'm anxious that he might be right.
He didn't say "Come to me, we'll do some work, get you on track so you're ready to go" he was saying "Come to me, I will fix you up but prepare yourself because you're not going to have another healthy child"
So my question is this...At what point, for self preservation alone,do you prepare yourself that maybe this will never happen? Do I stick to my guns and drag myself, DH and our painfully aware DS and DD through this journey that never seems to end? and if I do throw in the towel - WHAT IN THE Bl***Y hell has the last six years been about? Is it possible that this journey will end without the happy ending? If so, I'm not sure how to begin to deal with that.
I understand that I can completely dismiss what he said as rubbish and keep on going but, truth is, what he said touched a very very very raw nerve and I'm terrified he may be right.
George

:hug:Oh Georgie babe!! What a cruel man to say that to you. If he considers it is just yourself and your "clouded judgement' stopping you- then surely the "problem" can be helped!!!!

So what he thinks that as soon as your body is ready that your mind will give up!!!! Oh dear- please dont let him "cloud your mind" with such neg thoughts. i personally would try and see someone else who may be open to actually helping you- he is saying he is willing- but he is not doing it with a positive out look- and that in the end will NOT help yiu inn the slightest.

Ok- maybe he is right that right now your body isnt prepared- ok- u can deal with that- but to say that it never will is not fair- you HAVE carried healthy children- and yes you may have some underlying anxiety about doing it again- but this can be healed and i honestly have no doubt in my mind that once you feel your body is ready that your mind is going to be happy and still WANT that precious baby.

Do you feel in yourslef that you want a child- or do you just want to prove you can do it again- i personally think its the first- you tried the first time- becuase you wanted another baby- and sure things have gone wrong since- but that first feeling is still there- you started trying because you want another baby. I personally wouldnt see him again- get a second opinion from another chinese medical person- or even travel another road- where do you live??? I would recomend my energy lady- and also keep with the naturaopath and maybe try homiopaths (sp) and accupucture (still chinese i think) and go from there.

Personally as someone who has been trying un successfully for nearly 5 years, yes this process does cloud thoughts and run lives- but it wouldnt be doing that if you didnt want it so much.

Another big hug to you Georgie- maybe ask your other kids- if they are aware about whats happeneing- maybe ask them- do you want mummy to keep trying? if they say yes- then go for it babe- keep doing what feels right.

xoxoxoxoxx
SB

gks: Don't forget, he's only one guy with one opinion. They always tell you in western medicine to get more than one opinion, especially if its a serious condition. I'll keep you in my prayers.

StarBright: good luck and prayers for you, too. I'm surprised at how much new information there is out there now--like the clotting thing, who knew? I always thought MC was just "one of those things." The most progressive thing I did with my last MC was to get my progesterone tested. But I'm learning more.

Thats what I love about this bellybelly forum. After my second and third MC's I sort of drifted and lurked around other MC sites, whatever I could find by Googling. And there are lots of them out there with forums and stuff, but they were all about emotional support (which is great--I'm not knocking it because you need that too) but very little about causes and preventions. Here there's TONS of articles and information about the medical aspect and tests and stuff.

Yeah- tm- thats how i found belly belly- when i discovered i had anticadrio i googled and a gorgeous lady Deb- (who you will meet as soon as she is settled home with her gorgeous miricol Imogen) had just recently written an article in here about it- and google just popped me right in it- its was very lucky- and very usefull!! I then met Mel1977 who has the same thing, i too thought mc just happened- but since learning about Aca- i know it is a huge cause of early mc- and then if you get through the first 12 weeks- it causes blood clots etc.
Of course- sometimes mc is just because things arnt 100% with the egg- thats life- but if you find its happenening alot- then its an indicater of something else going on!!

SB - I only wish that one day I can be the one with the BFP and have a h&h pregnancy and can be the one to give hope to other women like us who need it.

georgie - please don't let this man discourage you. I will keep you in my prayers.

:happyforyou: Jo, see , goes to prove it can happen hun. I hope all goes well for you with your pregnancy :)
hugs
Jude

Dear Georgie
I agree with SB - if this is what you truly want then dont let this man upset your plans! I have been seeing a chinese herbalist and acupuncturist for 14 months now and I truly believe she is the reason we got pg with Ethan and held onto him so long (his medical problems were totally random). I also credit her with this pg (I guess DH had a small part to play) but she just knows stuff! She told me originally that I would need 6 months treatment to get my body and mind into a space where I could sustain a pg and I was mortified that she expected me to wait that long. In actual fact she was 100% right and the 6 months went so quickly and I fell pg the first month she suggested we try! We had the same experience after losing Ethan. She said to wait AT LEAST 3 cycles before trying again and of course I ignored her and tried like mad from the first month - none of them worked. The month she told us we could try, we fell pg and she rang me 2 minutes after I tested to say "you are pg aren't you!"! I say if you trust this guy then use his skills but ignore his "spiritual advice".... just my opinion.

As for me, I have been having HCG tests every 2nd day (for my own sanity and no other reason) and my levels are good! I am having a scan tomorrow to "check for viability" (what a crass term)! I am scared to death that there will be no heart beat - please God help me have a healthy baby!

Will let you know how I go tomorrow
Love to you all
Naomi

Hi Naomi!! I have had my first Sane hcg test- havent got results back yet- i will have another on friday- i havent quite got the "viablitly" scan organised yet- but i might ask for it on friday when i see the specialist on friday...

I never saw a chinese healer- but i have seen an energy healer and she came and found me becuase she knew that we were close(i was ACTUALLY preg when SHE came and found ME-i didnt know-but i think she did ;) ) but that i needed some "mental and emotional attention" to help me carry this baby to term. I saw her on saturday and i have NEVER felt so good and positive- she has recomended i see her each month- or as often as i like (free of charge) until i bring this precious little bundle of joy into the world.

Without help like this it is harder- but who ever is helping you needs to share your ideals of what you hope to acheive...

Hey Georgie.... i just had a thought- would he have been trying to phyche you out- like reverse cycle thinking???? By telling you its not going to happen- has that made you now more determined???? Just a thought, he probably isnt that smart!! ;)

Thank you all SB, Anthonysmum, TM, Naomi and of course Mel for your words of wisdom. It makes such a difference to be able to get your inner fears out.
SB - isn't it incredible how people find you when you need them. I'm so pleased your energy healer has arrived at exactly the right time. I will be thinking of you as you wait for results and get closer to your scan. Nothing is ever easy in this business is it? We spend our whole time waiting for a BFP and then when it comes it opens the door to much larger issues. But I truly believe (despite my emotional outburst) that a positive attitude is everything. You have every reason to be positive and proceed with faith toward that beautiful growing belly.
Naomi - Fingers crossed for tomorrow for you. The TTC and loss requires a great deal of courage - you too are doing a brilliant job - keep going!!!!!!!! Yep the old chinese medicine people have an incredible reputation...just like your story...my friends have had similar experiences. I think that's why I freaked out so much - because what he said to me was WORLDS apart from what he's told other girlfriends in the past.
Anthony's mum - I'm so sorry your journey keeps delivering fresh pain. Just like you mentioned in an earlier post sometimes it feels like every day (or test result) is just another kick in the teeth. Somehow our sense of justice says "This can't keep happening" and surely the universe will deliver some news that offers hope. Hang in there sweetie - the fact that this forum even exists proves the strength and courage us girls can muster when we need it. And if we lose our way temporarily - there's always a BB mate to lend you some positive energy until yours comes flying back.
Mel - thank you once again for your lovely text. I've sent a email to your other address.

Me, well the dust has settled on the Chinese medicine man's comments, and I have decided I will keep my appointment with him on Thursday. I've heard too many incredible stories to dismiss his opinion after one visit. he was incredibly insightful on other aspects of my life so I'm thinking I might set him to work on those and reserve my judgement on the baby making business until I clarify his comments - this time without the hysterical crying. No point in dropping the bundle now - full steam ahead - IF our little angel isn't meant to be - there will be plenty of time to deal with that - when and if we have to.
George

Thanks everyone for the congratulations, I only hope you all get your BFP's soon!

jo - just wanted to send you a huge congrats in this thread too, i just posted in the pg one. how you feeling?
hi ladies, i'll be back later to do some personals

Just a quick update to let you know I had my first scan today and everything looks fine. Size is right for age and heart rate was 128bpm which she says is good - and only one on board, thank God! I have been so sick I was starting to think that I had a couple in there. Have to admit to some tears of relief on the way out the door! Seeing my OB tomorrow and hopefully he can give me a plan to maintain my sanity until this bean has well and truly stuck!

Hugs to you all
Naomi

Wow naomi- thats fantastic!!!!!!! I think you can officially jump to the preg thread now!!!! So glad to hear all is well!!!

Good luck with the ob tomorrow!! Take it easy!! Stay on your head- it seems to be working!!! LOL

Great news with the scan Naomihow wonderful to see that little heart pumping away for mummy.
Hope the OB has a great plan tomorrow - we will all be thinking of you.
StarBright Hope those positive vibes continue working their magic. Hugs to you for Friday.
JOWow - are we going to have an influx of gorgeous babies soon. Can you believe it yet? It's been such an exciting month in here. How's DH? keeping it a secret must be killing you - are you ready to scream it from the roofs tops...
KleeHow are you tonight? Why are you lonely? Hugs to you too.
Georgie

naomi - fantastic news hon, as sb said all that head standing seems to be working. good luck with your ob appointment, hope his plan helps your sanity.
georgie - i was going to post about your accupuncture experience and i am with kat and naomi all the way, don't let someone like that get you down you will have another bub, that i am sure of, it may not be straight away but you will get there hon, go again and see what he can do, it may just be that you need a bit of balancing. I too used chinese medicine to fall this time, in conjunction with the accupuncture, dh played a part lmao, but i'm positive the herbs helped balance out my hormones. i think i took herbs up until 9 weeks, they were to sustain the pg, and i am just starting another batch now, more so for my bloods. so i gues just go back and try not to think of what he said, as hard as it will be, it will only be beneficial for you. my lady too is very straight forward about what she beleives and some of the things she has said i haven't agreed with or not liked but ultimately i think she has been beneficial. does that make sense? sorry if it doesn't.
the lonely mood, is that df has been working long hours in the lead up to christmas and i really don't get to see him much and am home alone a lot of the time, don't get me wrong sometimes i like the peace and quiet and i do like being by myself but at the moment i just need him to be there you know. i had him home last night and we just sat, talked and cuddled it was just so nice, i even forgot to do some things i had planned which was kind of funny. i think he felt guilty cause i had a fainting spell on sunday. anyway enough of my babble, we have an ob appointment tomorrow so am hoping they can give me a sneak peek of joey.
hello to everyone, sorry for the babbling

Starbright and naomij: congrats on your pregnancies--I'll be praying.
gks: hope it all works out for you! and I'm glad you're feeling better-calmer.

howdy everyone.
Barbara- so glad to hear the cysts shouldn't be a ttc problem. sorry the autopsy didn't reveal anything certain for you. this is such a difficult journey, and the guilt and fear are all an unfortunate part of it. big hugs to you.
SB- sounds like the energy meditation was a good thing. a little healing is always in order.
Georgie- oh, sweety, i agree with all these other women too. your medical dude has said things in just the wrong way. it doesn't matter if he is alternative or not, talented or not -- no one should predict the future of you wanting or not wanting children in the future. i mean- how does one "get over" that? if he has a way, i have some friends who could benefit. i think, personally, he has a horrible bed side manner and unrealistic expectations of changing your entire being. just take his manner with a HUGE grain of salt, my dear. and don't let him depress you with his manner. i'd like to bop him on the head, to tell the truth. he may be talented, but he's also a jerk.
Jo- woo hoo!

Ok - I have been to the OB and he was wonderful.. Had already thought about how I might be feeling and had a plan ready! Blood tests and scans weekly til 12 weeks then fortnightly scans til 29 weeks. He is such a star!

Thanks for all your kind thoughts - love to you all.

Naomi

naomi - that is terrific that you will be able to get so many scans. your OB really knows what you need.

klee - good luck with the scan, hoping joey waves at you. isn'd cuddling the best medicine sometimes. maybe i will log in some snuggle time with DH tonight.

Naomi - Glad your OB is so good!

How is everyone else?

Congrats on a good scan Naomi, and also on a great OB visit - glad they can understand where you are coming from :) As SB said, now you can join the pg thread!

Ok now Im a bit scared. After my blood tests yeaterday the OB wants me to use progesterone pessaries and said thats prorbaly why I m/c previously. Problem being I had the pessaries for my 2nd and 3rd m/c and still lost them! I found a great pharmacy in Docklands who do the pessaries for $2.20 each and will post them Express post if anyone is interested? They are sooo much cheaper than any of the other pharmacies!

Naomi

Wow Naomi, that is so cheap... I am on prog pessaries after my last blood test as well but mine cost me $90 for 7 days!

I would love the details of the pharmacy :)

It is stressful and scary... just try to remember that you have a very good dr looking after you who will do anything possible to get you a healthy baby :pray:

Naomi- it might be scary- but at least you know what u need- get em up ya mate!!!
Its all good!!!

Naomi - You just need some faith that your OB will keep your bub safe.

SO why can friends be so (unintentionally) mean. So far this week I have been told that, I am letting my m/c define me and I have got to try and be more like my old self. IT HAS BARELY BEEN 4 WEEKS! Today my close friend told me she knows I am sad but I need to understand it was just one of those things that happens and i need to start getting over it and move on. AS IF IT WAS JUST THAT EASY!! Also I am a big girl and I had to hear for 19 weeks that I should have lost weight before my pregnancy by my mom. I have lost a few pounds (I am 3 pounds less than my pre-preg weight). I told a good friend at work that I am trying to lose some more weight and she said maybe my weight had something to do with losing my son. THANKS A LOT! Sorry I seem to rant a lot, I apologize. I don't think other people know how hard it is just to "pretend" to be normal. I went back to work after only 2 weeks because I needed the distraction, but I think other people assume I am "over it." Sorry i am done. :angry:

Barbara

Barbara - arrrggghhh I could scream with rage on your behalf - I have a helpful phrase for friends and family that doesn't start a big row - but gets the message across... when they tell you to basically get over it, one suggestion is ..."You "get over" a cold, chest infection or a bad mood you don't GET OVER the death of a much loved, dearly yearned for part of your soul that lived and breathed with in you, you merely learn, with time and the support of loved ones, to deal with the incredible sense of loss and sadness"...or the other option, that I really wanted to say...that is guaranteed to start the row of the century.... goes something more like this...(in a screeching and hysterical tone) G*(% F&^%*ed What would you know anyway you selfish, self centred moron"
I would have loved to have shouted that at a few people but of course never did. You would be amazed at the similiar things that have been told to all of us in BB by well meaning friends and family. Basically I think people NEED and WANT you to get over it so that THEIR lives can return to normal. But just as you said - our lives aren't normal anymore - we pretend for everyone else and one by one find our way to BB where the new normal becomes so important. Where people have lived through better, worse, similiar experiences and still find time to offer support and friendship to others (no matter what their own personal suffering may be) - in a helpful, encouraging and positive way. I do remember once telling a member of my family that I found it heartbreaking that the only people that even attempted to feel what I was feeling was the group of people at BB that I'd never even met.
Thinking of you....sorry for the soapbox...

Hi to everyone! George

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Georgoe - Thanks so much. I am getting ready for work (here in New York it is 6:30am). I smiled and snickered at your "self-centered moron" comment. And you are so right that the people here at BB are wonderful. It is awful to know that other women suffer like I am. BUT I am so glad that we all have each other for support and understanding :grouphug:

On a strangely almost pleasant note. I think AF came this morning?! It is 4 weeks to the day and I stopped bleeding about a week ago. **TMI ALERT** although I ahve had some annoying cm for a few days now. This morning I was bleeding again. and I actually have minor cramps. I will see how the day goes becasue I think it is too soon for AF. ISn't it?

Barbara

Anthony's mum..... hey there- i see u r online- you havent done enough posts for a personal message- but do you want to have a chat?? We can just keep posting!

Love Kat aka Starbright

SB - I am sorry. I was on for just a quick few minutes while getting ready for work. I am at work now and have a few minutes. Is everything okay?

Thats ok- i got your pm- sent you one back xoxox

howdy everyone.
Nomi- it is such a roller coaster of nerves and fear and guilt and joy -- trust in your doc, but also in yourself. if you have a question, get it answered. you know what is going on in your body, and better safe than sorry.
Barbara- arrrrgggghhh. i agree with Georgie on this one. folks want you to be better so THEIR lives can get back to normal. i've tried things like copying passages from support books for my relatives that say it is normal for parents to grieve for a year or more with the loss of their child. it opened even the eyes of some of my best supporters, who had assumed i would be better in 3 or so months. and my boss, who went white when i shared it with him. ultimately, though, no one who has not lost a child can ever understand. they might think they can sympathize, like i did before this happened, but they cannot place themselves in our shoes. try to make them understand what you need to the extent you have the energy, but after that, i would simply avoid folks who make you feel worse. you have every right to grieve, and to grieve for as long as you need and in the way you need. and if you don't it will be worse for you, and everyone else, because it will eventually come out years down the road. far better to live through it now as you need to than to squish it down and pretend. i'm sorry you have to go through this "get over it" advice -- Georgie is right, it is one of the constants we all face in this journey. big hugs to you.

Anthonysmom: I hate to say it, but a lot of people just don't "get" MC. Obstetric loss is something that stays with you forever. Yes, you'll be happy again, but other people don't have the right to try to push you to feel a certain way. And unfortunately comments like about your weight only add to your pain, not take it away. That's what's great about this forum. We've all been through the same experiences and we know how painful it is. Here's where you need to go to rant!
And no, it might not be too early for AF. My first post MC cycle only had a 5 day luteal cycle.

gks: I really liked your phrase about "the new normal". I'll probably steal it and use it LOL!

naomij and StarBright: fingers still crossed (and toes, too...)

Auntie M: You're right about how people who haven't been through obstetric loss have a hard time understanding. After my third MC, due to circumstances beyond my control, a lot of people found out about it. But I was lucky. It was like they were coming out of the woodwork--women I had known for years but never knew they had OB losses were coming to tell me their stories. And they were the ones who didn't say stupid things like "it's all for the best"--because they understood.

I do some hospice work part time--as a nurse--and the best thing you can say to people is "I'm sorry for your loss." There's NOTHING you can say to take the pain away. You just have to be there for them so they know they're not alone, and not be afraid of dealing with death and grief and mortality.

Auntie M - I wish no one had to be in our shoes. I could totally see this grievingprocess taking up to a year. You are losing a child and all the hopes, dreams, and expectations that go with him/her.

TM - I know my friend wasn't trying to be mean about my weight, but I just didn't need to hear her question if my weight is why I lost my son. And I agree I may learn to cope better, but this will stay with us all forever.

I think AF was a false alarm. I woke up yesterday with a little, then had some later, but by pm it was all gone, including cramps. Maybe I am just puching my body too hard. I have been walking a lot after work. about 2 miles. its good for my health and to clear my head.

well I am somewhat happy this morning (it is 5:45am in new york) I am a special education teacher. I got a phone call 15 minutes ago saying school was closed today due to snow. YEAH! FIRST SNOWDAY OF THE SCHOOL YEAR! Its nice to be happy about something.

Barbara

Anthonysmom: That does it--I'm totally jealous of you right now. I'm on the Eastern Seaboard, too, but when we woke up the weather was dry. Now it's sleeting, but my kids are already at school. I really really hoped I could roll over and go back to sleep this morning...

TM - It hasn't even stated snowing here yet, which is the funny thing. It is supposed to start any minute and then get bad so the school decided to close just in case.

I just dropped by to wish my son Anthony a happy 1 month angelversary. SOmetimes I think it was just yesterday that you were taken from me, sometimes it feels like a lifetime ago.