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Hi everyone,
Mel - thinking of you today! I'm away for the weekend without the laptop so I wont be able to post until Monday. Hope goes well and that you spend the next two weeks like a Queen. I'll have to send you some computer cookies and cake (lucky for you it's imaginary and not my real cooking) and I've got some fabulous trashy novels I could post you to help make the next two weeks fly by.
Naomi - thanks for your support. Mel has given me the name of someone great who I'm going to make another appointment with - How are you going? It's great that the gorgeous girls recommended you come here - although I'm sorry that you've had to - I hope you are also getting lots of support and love. Sorry to hear about your sister - I had many comments and moments along those lines - including one close friend who continues to joke, whenever I hold someone elses baby, that I may try and steal it. AAAAAAGGHHH it's just they don't know what else to say - but God I wish they would just say nothing at all. Trying to explain to others that it's not that we are not capable of being thrilled for others - it's just there's so much pain and sadness when we are wishing it was us too.
Jo - Hi Jo thanks for the welcome back and sorry I didn't post a big hug to you yesterday for Storm's 9m birthday - I was thinking of you and hoping you were doing OK
Auntie M - I think I may publish a book of the 100 most hurtful things people say when they try think they are doing the right thing. I've found only two groups - the one's that pretend it never happened and the ones that say something "out there". How are you feeling... WOW to the 12 weeks for you!!!!
Lynn - thanks for the welcome back. I'd forgotten how addictive BB really is! I love it. Your ticker is flying too. Give that tummy a rub from me!
Ellie - yes you are so right...I think it's time to get that ball rolling. I love the comment on your signature relating to digging deep to try again. I had lunch with a girlfriend recently who stopped TTC a couple of years ago after a very long and painful time. She said she wished she'd never stopped trying despite the hurt, the anxious days and all the highs and lows she said every day was worth it - just in case it did happen.
Hi Cece, Starbright & Klee and anyone else I missed sorry for the lack of personals - I've just looked at the time and I'm supposed to be at work in 12 minutes AND be packed up for a weekend away. Whhhooops -
Georgie
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just a quick one, just wanted to send some extra special positive vibes mels way for today, mel thinking of you.
having a bit of a manic morning, so will try and get some personals this arvo, hope everyone is ok today
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Mel- super fertile thoughts sent your way!
Jo- happy 9 months to Storm and huge hugs your way.
Naomi- wish you didn't have to be here... but glad you're in such good hands as the lovely women here.
Hi everyone else.
I am having a day and have been not so kind to everyone around... so much so that I have just kinda shut up in hopes that no one can tell that I am teetering on the edge of meltdown. Yup, AF is here and I am a mess. My mom, bless her heart, was trying to be kind and said "oh hun, maybe its your body saying its just not ready yet. It'll happen." for just a split second I wanted to scream. I just smiled and nodded... then snuck off to cry for a bit. Not my day. (i'll stop the pity party now... sorry)
Hugs,
CeCe
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Thanks girls, its all done and now we just sit and wait :doh: We had 12 fertilise but 8 were of really good quality, so after transfer today we have 7 frozen. FS said it is a great result, and as Klee keeps saying hopefully we will only need 1... now I need all the :stickyvibesboy: I can get.
CeCe - I am so sorry AF showed :hug: Its hard when people around you say the wrong thing, even if there intention is good you still wanna slap them (sorry CeCe's mum). Look after yourself, you are entitled to feel on the edge and p***ed off.
Klee - Stillbirth Foundation pack arrived today so we are set for Sunday :) How cute is the bear they sent!
Naomi - Meant to ask you, have you decided whether you will continue trying with the IVF (whether it be now or later down the track)? Such a hard decision to make after everything you have been through. I really do hope that the women here can give you the strength you need to make these decisions and actually get through it... honestly, I would be in a straight jacket without having this place to come and vent.
Georgie - Have a good weekend away, catch you next week. Those trashy novels sound great except I still have to work, but fortunately I am going to be working at home so nothing strenuous. But the cakes and cookies sound devine ;) Oh and the OB I gave you the details of is just an OB so he will refer you on to a fertility specialist if you decide to go down that road. He referred me to Lyndon Hale who is great, but I am pretty sure most of the drs through Melb IVF are good.
Auntie M - Definitely need to keep the sense of humour. No matter how bad things get for me, I do try to keep it (not that I succeed every day) cause its the one thing that keeps a smile on my face :)
Hi to everyone else, hope you are all having an ok day.
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Cece – I'm so sorry that stupid witch turned up, as mel said you have every right to be annoyed, p**sed off and every other feeling you can. I guess the only way you can look at what your mum said was that she is not herself, you know she would have said something else if she was "old" self, if that makes sense. Big warm hugs to you.
Mel – all the I can muster are coming your way. Remember you've got the best "man" for the job in there, lol. Now its time to be the princess, let dh be your slave lol
Georgi – we meet up mostly at the S&K meetings, I don't know if you'd be interested in giving them a call, we've also done the occasional lunch/dinner, its nice to be able to have that outlet and put a name to the face of those that are supporting us. The men seem to get along well too which is good. I so hope I have started the Melbourne roll (well not just the Melbourne roll), and by the way that’s part of the plan ;), have at look at those gorgeous Sydney women, almost nearing the end, we want to ship a few of us in before they move out, and I know its going to happen soon for quite a few of you in here . Have a wonderful weekend away. If I haven't said it before its so fantastic to have you back
Jo – hon how you feeling today? I hope yesterday went as well as it could and that af is treating you kindly, or more so that she has left the building and aint comin back.
Auntie m – you had me at hot fudge sundae, I'm drooling at the thought, although I am having this strange feeling and that’s that nothing seems to be satisfying me, my head is kind of going no thats not going to work but then its already in my mouth, lol, all I want is carbs, carbs carbs and nothing else.
Lynn –wow look at you flying along, hope little remote hope is treating you kindly.
Ellie – how you going gorgeous? Hope you are doing ok, I so want to ask where you are at, but then maybe hoping that you are not saying for a reason.
Naomi – it was really wonderful to see your emotion on Tuesday night, and I don't mean that in any strange way, I think the ladies here understand what I mean, but I find myself lacking that emotion these days, I don't know if you noticed but I kind of told my story on a monotone, kind of like on autopilot, its just that front that they were talking about at S&K sometimes when you have had it up so long its hard to take it down. I don't know if that makes sense at all, but I hope you know what I mean. I'm so sorry for your sisters ignorance, but after listening to you the other night, I think it was half expected. I know that’s no consolation though, as much as it might hurt it might be time to start screening her call, you don't need that ignorance, you need to look after number 1 and your feelings.
Judy – are you around? how you going?
Kat – hon I miss you too, you are making me do work lol, how is your poas going? I hope you are rearing up for a big weekend, your ticker says its nearly time. Dh is gonna get some action, just be careful will you, don't want you walking funny again, lmao
Shereejoy – how you going, hows little Lachlan going? Has his temperatures come down?
Hi to anyone I have missed, okay from all that talking I am now out of breath, have a wonderful weekend everyone
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Klee...if only! I gave in and did a test a few days ago BFN as expected. Have no idea what is going on with my body so I wait....CD 40 something today... If AF arrives before the 22nd I'll do a cycle if not it wasn't to be...dealing the 'fate' hand really takes the pressure off lol! Just a bit quiet at the moment but still following and thinking of you all xxx
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ookay ellie, just wanted to check, i pray that digging deep uncovers the shimmer of hope that leads to you finding the gold :).
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AuntyM yay on the heartbeat :)
Ellie :hug: for the BFN.. you're not out til af shows though.
Mel lots of sticky vibes heading up your way.
When they do the pick up is it like a lap and you have the hole near the bellybutton and pubic area? If so you have my full and complete undersnnading.. ouch.
I detailed the lap on my chart link. I am still pretty sore so I won't stay sitting, it took me ages to read up and now I need to lie down again.
HUgs all
Jude
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Hey Girlies,
Klee - Why did you take out your ticker? I like seeing where your up to (call me lazy ;) ). I hope you didnt take it out thinking it upset us, we couldnt be more happy for you :hug:
Judy - The OPU is done vaginally but OMG its sooooo sore. FS told me today (cause worry wart here asked if it was normal) and he said that the ovaries and extremely swollen because they have just been stripped of their follies and it is not uncommon to get alot of pain. I still cant quite walk properly but he says by the end of the weekend I should be right. I had a lap in either June or July and I was sore after that too so I can definitely sympathise, I think also with the lap its not the incisions but again they are mucking around with the girly innards and thats gotta hurt! Get well soon, it wont last for too long :)
Ellie - I hope so much everything works out for you so that you can go ahead with your cycle before xmas. So I guess this is one of those occasions where we send out bring AF on vibes? Or is there still a small chance of pg? Obviously you know which vibes I would prefer to send but you know...
Hope everyone is having a good night.
Over and out from me, gotta go put some progesterone gel you know where ;)
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howdy everyone.
Georgie- WTF?! your friend actually says that when you hold a baby?! i know my sil thinks it and keeps an eye on her son when i am around (as if), but to have a friend say it. makes me so mad, i'd tell her what for if you want me to. so harsh. next time, just say "no he/she just isn't cute enough for that." shesh.
CeCe- sometimes one just has to wallow in it before the pity will go away. and that is OKAY. hugs.
Mel- i'm holding my breath, girl.
Klee- yummmm, carbs. potatoes and bread and cereal, oh my! but there is always room for ice cream!
Judy- ouch, i hope you feel better soon.
howdy to everyone else, and lots of good vibes coming your all way.
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hey all, just a quick one from me, on my way to melbourne to take my neices to the airport!
How is everyone?
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Hi all, I have decided to sign off from this post, I am finding it hard with my emotions at times and I still feel guilty about feeling this way when I know full well I would hate to have suffered the loss that you all have (even though you have all tried to convince me otherwise - but I just can't get out of this mindset).
I also find myself struggeling for time to keep up with the posts and give everyone the attention they so deserve. Having bought this newsagency at the start of the year, I need to put my energy into it as time is so precious to us these days. I just feel I need to concentrate on what I have got atm, my beautiful family and the Newsagency. I probably feel more miserable then I let on and I just feel like I need to concetrate on what I have and be thankful.
I wish you all so much success and please know I am always thinking of you ladies. You are all so very special, and each and every one of you have touched my heart and so many different ways.
If ever you want to email me, I would be more then happy to hear how you are all going from time to time. My email address is tierinew@bigpond.net.au
Love to all and all the very best of luck.
Sheree & Lachlan
xoxo
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Mel - Deb sends her love and asked me to let you know she is thinking of you. I told her about your fabulous EPU results (yes, I do lurk :)) and the fertilisation / implantation. Sending you lots of :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:
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Mel- Thinking of you and your beautiful beginnings! And thanks for your kind words.
Klee and AuntieM -- thank y'all too.
You are all such a sweet wonderful group of women. I have to admit I wish none of us had ever had to meet like this... but I am ever so grateful to have each of you.
So.. I have a gross question y'all may or may not be able to answer. Have any of you noticed after a D&E or late loss that your periods are just evil and heavy? I am hurting like hades and thinking of building a menstrual hut so that no one has to deal with me this week. I am starting to think my cycles will never ever be the same. ( this is the 3rd AF since the 6 weeks of post D7E bleeding)
Hugs,
Cece
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Sheree - you do what you need to do hun, but please come back & visit us :)
Mel - hope everything went well on friday!
CeCe - sorry don't have an answer for the AF question, but ROFL at the menstural hut! sometimes i need one of those too! LOL!
Klee - you don't need to take away your ticker! bring it back!
Kat - hope your well!
I'm sending all my love & wishes to Deb & little Colleen today!
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Michelle - Deb is just so sweet, everything she has going on she shouldnt be thinking about me. But thank her for her thoughts and tell her she is definitely in mine, especially today.
CeCe - I am not really sure how to answer your question but I do know from my own personal experiences, AF has never been the same since I had Nicholas - so heavy and awful. But, I was always on the pill prior so it is hard to judge whether it would have been that way if I werent on the pill. Dont know if that makes sense, but hope so.
Hi to everyone else, sorry just a quick one today cause I have alot to do before Klee and her sis come over for Stella's Sunday.
Big :hugs: to Deb, Col and family.
Mel
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Ok so I am wondering Mel... BT is blastocyst transfer? is that right? (I've been reading a ton about how blastocyst transfers are the way to go as far as transfers.. so right on) Its the day after my 34th birthday so I guess I know what my wish will be when I blow out the forrest fire of candles on my cake. I just know that your Nicholas is going to walk a very special blessing down here... safe for you and your DH.
CeCe
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Sorry CeCe, BT is blood test which means I will be having a blood test to find out whether I am pg or not. Maybe your birthday will bring me good luck :)
