Hi Everyone
Sorry I havent been around much - got through Ethans due date and then had to start preparing for the "event"!

I am proud and happy to say we got through it! It wasnt nearly as hard as I thought it would be. I held 2 four week old babies with no tears, although my DH had a few when he held the little boy! Its funny how things affect different people at different times isnt it? I spoke to LOTS of new mums in there late 30's early 40's which gave me some hope! I also spent a lot of time talking to another girl who lost a baby in similar circumstances to us just recently. She has chosen to not name him, look at photos or anything. I found that hard but then I realised "everyone has to cope the way that feels right t them". She is worried she hasnt dealt with it "appropriately" but I think she will figure it out eventually?

We got home late last night and I now have gastro - another special gift from my sister and her kids! At least I got a day off work though! I also think AF has arrived today although bit hard to tell with everything else going on down there - sorry - too much info!

If it has arrived then apart from being p+@#$! off because I had a good feeling about this month, I'm also not sure what to do about IVF - should we start straight away or wait til the new year?

Oh well, back to the bathroom for me!

Hope everyone is well

Naomi