I haven't had a chance to read through all the posts yesterdays but I just wanted to pop in quickly before work. Yesterday was ok, I cried a fair bit at work and the first one on one I had with my new Boss resulted in my balling my eyes out. He was very understanding but I just felt so Silly. Yesterday was one of those days that I just couldn't hold it in.
I saw DH, but only for a few hours because he had to work back. We went to a cafe to have dinner and DH found a fly in his meal so we left before finishing we just ended up sitting in the departures lounge having a cuddle and a chat for about an hour which was nice. There were only abour 15 people on my flight so it was good. The captain of the Wallabies Rugby (don't remember his name) was in the seat in front of me.
Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks for all the wonderful messages and texts yesterday. It really does touch my heart. I will make time to do personals when I get home tonight. Oh well, off to work for me.
Hey Spring,
It's great to hear you are feeling ok and that you got you got to spend some time with DH on Harrison's day. Shame about the fly though..eww!
Deb - hmmmm, I thought Clomid was supposed to help reduce your cycle??? Well it hasn't happened for me yet. Well my temps dropped this morning but still no sign of the witch. I hope it will be a short journey too! I have already calculated my due date if AF arrives today and if I conceive this month!!!! I know it won't be exact because I o so late but it is nice to have dreams and like my mum always says 'dreams are free'.
I hope you had a fun road trip and that you can get your fence finished.
I love Lucerne - I have been there twice now because it is just so beautiful. I hope you get your icon - whatever it may be! Yes I need all the help I can get too - hence the full fat milk now, rose quartz stone next to my bed and now I have baby dust next to my bed. It came in the post last Friday and I have no idea who sent it to me. I hope it works
Spring - don't ever feel silly about crying. You are entitiled to grieve the loss of your child and if that is by crying, then do it. You shouldn't feel silly for doing it. I'm glad that you got to spend time with your DH although it wasn't for long. One more sleep and you get to see him again. I will be thinking of you tomorrow. It will be exciting for DH to see his lil' Spring for the first time :hugs:
Mel - how are you going today? Got any big plans for today? I just went off to the bank to open a new account and she asked me if I worked, I said no. She said was I on centrelink, I said no. She said oh are you a student, I said no. I just couldn't bring myself to say that I am a stay at home mum because I knew there would be questions, how old, where are they etc etc. Anyway I just said no my husband works and I spend it! Ha ha!
Nat - thanks for the chat yesterday. I'm thinking of you and your grandma
Bailey - I hope the witch is treating you ok. Hope you are well.
to everyone else - hope you are having a nice day!
Boy Ive think ive been reading for......not to sure now! Im glad to hear that everyone seams to be feeling better even just a little.
Spring I was thinking of you all day yesterday, sorry I didnt post but you were on my mind.And as Lynn said never feel bad about crying....I think we should do it more often it makes things seam so much more clearer after. How is little spring going in there? Oh and by the way the sedatives can humans take them........I may need some! Im so glad you got to spend some time with DH, how was Canberra? make sure you take it easy.
Lynn Hows today going, it was great to talk to you yesterday, I needed to after may morning. You dont realise how emotional draning it is dealing with death while the person is still alive.......I do remember after my grandfather died I slept for about 2weeks, while at the time I just kept going. anyway not to be a downer the slice was great I just had left overs for lunch and next time we do lunch I will make it for you!
Mel My love I just want to send you a great big Im also sending lots of positive vibes for DH Im sure all will be good tomorrow, I will be thinking about you both. Oh yes what was with last night I did make zucchini slice for dinner.....it must have been the weather!!! And i do the same recipe as you some times I put bacon in as well but very much with a good salad. Keep well and looking forward to a BFP soon.
Bailey Sorry AF arrived I hope its over soon and you can start for that BFP boy seams there may be three of you all with big bellys soon! Hows you DS? Im glad to hear you putting you first. Are you off to somewhere nice at easter?
Deb Im glad the past is now the past and you can work on that angel getting here. Im very jealous of Chris's job I would love to be OS at the moment I know I know hes working but hay a change is as good as a hoilday! Did you get the sleepers? what a women, I hope there are some big strong men to load and unload for you!!! Your garden sounds very wonderful and relaxing. Sorry about Mr Google. sometimes kids have the right idea they deal with things so much better.
You asked about me.......do you really want to know? Saw Dr S wednesday week ago he agreed that I should have a break for 3-4months and get "some weight off" (WTF) I took it as ok I must have to do this!!! BUT he wants us to wait with the surrogacy for at least 18months, he wants us to try again with added clexcane. Increased at 6w to 60-80mg rahter then 40mg, I had some test results come back from last mc that sugested blood clotting worse the first thought. He also wants us to do maybe 1 round of IVF and do PGD to rule out and gentic problems and narrow down putting only the best embryos back , this is only since I have had so many mc and woulds not recommend this to most people.So for now Im off predns. still on metformin 2000mg, have lost 2kilos in one week, yeahhhhh but O this month, big time which of course I knew would happen!!! I am feeling so much better and my moods are better (DH & DS very happy) but ontop of this both my dad and grandmother have cancer, dad should be fine , my grandmother its just time now, very advanced through out....in saying that she is very old and I would hate for her to suffer with kemo or ray and she has been very lonely since my grandfahter passed away 5 years ago, I think she is ready in her self to go, this may sound cold but after spending the day with her yesterday I feel very comfortable with this and only hope I live as long and have as much courage and peace with life as she has now. I told you , you shouldnt have asked!
I do hope you are all having a much better day and boy that group hug helped so maybe if I send one more things will be even better so Jo and anyone else ot there I hope you are well and life is beening good to you. Talk soon luv Nat xxx
Deb - thanks for the tip on the moonstone. Any ideas of where I can get one from?
Nat - Again I am so sorry to hear about your father and grandmother. I hope your grandmother isn't in too much pain and that your father is doing ok. Thinking of you all
we just ended up sitting in the departures lounge having a cuddle and a chat for about an hour which was nice. There were only abour 15 people on my flight so it was good. The captain of the Wallabies Rugby (don't remember his name) was in the seat in front of me.
to everyone else - hope you are having a nice day!
but O this month, big time 
which of course I knew would happen!!! I am feeling so much better and my moods are better (DH & DS very happy) but ontop of this both my dad and grandmother have cancer, dad should be fine , my grandmother its just time now, very advanced through out....in saying that she is very old and I would hate for her to suffer with kemo or ray and she has been very lonely since my grandfahter passed away 5 years ago, I think she is ready in her self to go, this may sound cold but after spending the day with her yesterday I feel very comfortable with this and only hope I live as long and have as much courage and peace with life as she has now. I told you , you shouldnt have asked!
Jo and anyone else ot there I hope you are well and life is beening good to you. Talk soon luv Nat xxx
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