Auntie M - I know it is so hard and this journey (unfortunately) doesn't get any easier. But that is what we are all here for.................the wonderful support

Judy - I hope your infection clears up and you get started on that TTC journey. I hope the antibotics kick in soon. I have found out the gender. It was something I needed to do to prepare myself. I just didn't need that suprise (or shock) at the birth. I am glad that I have found out as it has allowed us to choose a name and start calling *Hope* by its name. I feel that I have bonded more with it since I found out and this was another reason that I wanted to know. I was scared that I wouldn't bond, or get close because of the fear of losing it. But I guess when there is a precious miracle growing inside you it is hard not to bond.