Jo - I am so sorry you have started spotting, hopefully Lynn is right and it is implantation bleeding. for you.

Lynn - Have you got the results yet? I am so sorry btw, with everything today I didnt remember you BT Thanks for your support today.

Well the post-coit test was today - results were good and not good. The good part is the test was normal. He said CM is good consistency and under microscope there were at a guess 200 healthy active swimmers in the tiny sample that he took. He did an ultrasound that showed 1 large follicle ready to burst so apparrently I will ovulate tonight or tomorrow. Which seems a bit early cause today is only CD12. He said the lining is 10mm so really good for implantation. Everything looks "perfect" which I guess its good. I spoke to him about doing the IUI and explained how important it is and how desperate I feel (got teary in the process ) to get pg this month. He said if I really want it he is happy to do it but it really isnt going to be any more effective than DTD. He said that my CM is perfect for sperm to swim through so they are getting where they need to be. He said the washing isnt going to help all that much because the main reason they wash them is to take out the prostaglandin (?sp and I may have name wrong) because it causes abdo pain in women, whereas when DTD it separates and from sperm in cervix. So yeah he said we can try but he really doesnt believe its gonna be of any extra benefit. In saying all of that, this month we have to just sit and wait until AF either comes or doesnt cause he cant do anything atm cause he will risk disrupting any pregnancy that may occur in the next day or so. If AF arrives (which lets face it, she is gonna) I am booked in for a laparoscopy on 28th June which is under a general and he will look around and make sure there are no blockages, adhesions or infections that are preventing me from getting pregnant. If he finds anything wrong (which he said he highly doubts) he will fix it while he is there. If nothing is wrong, the next step is IVF! I just dont understand how this can be, I mean I got pregnant with Nicholas after stuffing up my pill - I hadnt even been trying! He said that unexplained fertility is in itself a medical condition, just noone can put a name on it. He said there is and always will be things that medical science cant explain and unfortunately I am one of those cases. He does think that we would have a really high chance with IVF because of there being no reason for the infertility. He said because they are implanting a fertilised egg all we have to do is hope that my body will hold the pregnancy and there is a great chance that it will. I am feeling a little sad and sorry for myself today - I never thought I would be going down this road. Maybe this is punishment for saying after Nicholas was born that nothing can hurt me now - maybe mother nature is trying to prove me wrong

Anyway, I was worse this morning - as the day has gone by I feel ok. I am starting to wonder if maybe for some reason unknown as yet I need to experience this. Hopefully it will be clear one day, what I do know is that when I am lucky enough to have my bub in my arms I am going to feel like the luckiest woman on earth!

Bye for now, going to buy some bread to have with soup for dinner. Be back later.

Mel