Sweet little Asha and Darling little Nicholas. We all miss you, especially your Mummy's. and Daddy's. Take care my little angels and tonight, when your Mummy's are asleep, give them a tender kiss in the shape of wonderful dreams.
Big :hugs: Bailey and Mel
Hey girls, I know I sound like a broken record but I'll just do a quickie tonight, I am so darn tired.
Mel: I think you are making the right decision about Nicholas things. Hold onto them, pack them away if you decide to and cross that bridge later on.
Bailey: you go girl, VBAC 2, before you know it you will be home birthing and leaving the placenta attached ;) On a serious note though, you do what is best for you honey. It is weird how once you are pregnant, you start thinking and doing things (like exploring a VBAC) which previously you wouldn't have contemplated. I think Deb would be a really good person to give you some info about it just so that you can be informed about your choices.
Well a quick Hi to all you wonderful ladies, I am just shattered tonight, I can barely keep my eyes open so it is off to bed for me. OMG it is only just 8.00pm but I am about to crash. Mum and Dad were only here for a night so it is back to just little old me. Only 3 sleeps till DH is home so thank God.
Big love
Lv Spring
Hi all,
Mel & Bailey - I was thinking of your precious babies yesterday :hugs: & of course you & your DH's aswell
Happy 8th month b'day to Harrison, thinking of you & your DH today Spring :hug:
Well as for me, i feel like crap, AF is due on friday, Storms due date is/was Friday, my sil had her baby and now all i hear about is the baby, plus my other sil keeps emailing me pictures of it so I can print them off to show the grandparents, I DON"T WANT TO SEE!!!!
I just feel like I am falling apart :crying:
Big hello to everyone else, hope you are all well!
Sorry girls, you didn't need to hear all that :redface:
Happy 8 month Birthday little Harrison. May you watch over your mummy and daddy today and help them through today.
Thinking of you today Spring :hug:
Happy 8 month Birthday Harrison. I hope you remember to take a break from playing with your little angel friends today to send a hello to your mummy, daddy and Lil Spring.
Oh Jo - yes we did need to hear that. If you have something that you want to get off your chest, then get it off. That is what we are here for :hug:
I can totally understand how you are feeling. Firstly, I really really hope tha AF doesn't arrive and that you get a bfp on Storm's due date. What is it with AF due on our angels important dates :(
I would call your SIL (or email her) and tell her that you feel that by her sending you the photos it is really insensitive and inappropriate at this time. You need to do what is right for you when the time is right for you. Don't pressure yourself into doing anything that you don't want to do. You need to look after your emotions and protect yourself anyway that you can. I can understand that you feel like you are falling apart but we are all here to make sure that you don't :hugs: It is such an emotional time for you. Take care, thinking of you :hug:
JLK - I am sorry you are feeling so down. I have fingers crossed that AF doesn't arrive, Especially on Storms due date. Thinking of you:hug:
Thanks girls :pray: that AF stays away.
As for SIL (not the mum, the other one) & the rest of DH's family they seem to be so wrapped up in this new granddaughter/neice that they seem to have forgotten that their other granddaughter/neice was due this week.
I suppose all i'm asking for is a little recognition for her, and a thought for me! Am I being selfish?
Don't get me wrong I am so happy for SIL, but right now I just can't deal with it!
Jo you are not being selfish at all. You just want your little girl to be acknowledged and she deserves that. As does you.
You have every right to not be able to deal with the new baby right now. Be kind to yourself and look after number one...........you. :hug:
Sorry everyone that I haven't been around. I have been around just not posting so much. I have another migraine today and am feeling quite awful... I just wanted you to know I am here just not with it.... :hug:
happy 8 months harrison - spring thinking of you today. hope harrison is shining down on you today.
jo - i think you need to mention how you are feeling, if you feel you can, it wont be taking away from the new grandchild but giving of your storm. they are probably pouring their emotion into this new grandchild as they don't know how else how to handle the situation, tell them what they can do to handle it the way you would like it handled.
deb - i had to tell you i dreamt of you last night, i raced in this morning to see how many children you have, I dreamt of 3 girls and a boy and you were around 6 months pregnant, you and your family were having a picnic in a rotunda at the beach. i don't know what it meant but it left me with a really good feeling
Did I already have 3 girls and a boy or was that including the pregnancy???? I already have 3 live girls and 1 live boy...
I hope it was including the ones I have and that it was a lovely premonition. Thankyou Klee...
there were 3 girls, a boy and col inside, so that would make 5, one of the girls was a little older then the other 3. i have just looked at their ages on your signature, it seems about right. you mentioned in the dream you were having a boy, but that might have been me thinking subconciously of Col meaning a Colin.
That's lovely Klee - I am bawling my eyes out right now... It all seems so tough sometimes - I just so much want to hold *Col* in my arms live and healthy... :hug:
Sorry, it's all about me - feeling very trashy today... :hug:
its allowed to be all about you you have gone through so much, i just wanted to let you know about it because i found it significant in that i know you have had difficulties getting past certain points in the pregnancy and the fact that you were 6 months was beyond that timeframe. the other thing was that you were very relaxed, the sun was shining and it was all very "happy". I'm sorry i didn't mean to upset you, i just wanted you to know.
mel - good luck tomorrow, send me an email on how you go. I had to save this for today, but I wanted to joke that i'd beleive you were mexican you have a mexican neice!
well i am just about out of here, have a good few weeks ladies, remember lynn and mel if anything important happens email me, i should be able to check the emails from my sisters place. I will be thinking of you ladies and your angels, so take care of yourselves. mel looking forward to hearing of that bfp on my return. I've just been warned of the heathrow injection so lets hope its the weight gain for a good reason! take care
My love you didn't upset me - it has made me smile and feel good... That's always a good thing... Thankyou so very very much for sharing it...
I just wanted to say that I don't know where i'd be without you ladies for support, out here in the country access to support is really hard, so having you girls here to listen and talk to is great !
Just thought i'd tell you that (i'm being a real sook today :boohoo:)
jo, be a sook as much as you want to, let it out.
i just had one myself i'm a little freaked out, read into this what you will, I went to buy some things to take with me and I had two options to get to the shop i wanted to go to, the straight way i had to cross a small road, the other way I had to go down some stairs then back up some, i took the stairs, it was on that way that I saw a shop called "Phoebe Angel", i let flow, i had to look at it more than once, i even took a photo of it just to prove that i wasn't seeing things. it might be just a shop but i am taking it as some kind of sign
Oh wow Klee, amazing if you didn't go that way you would never have seen it!
I am a very firm believer in signs... It's a sign if it feels like one to you... :hug:
~ HAPPY 8 MONTH BIRTHDAY HARRY ~
Give your Mummy, Daddy and lil Spring huge sun kisses today :hug:
Hi Everybody -
Deb - I hope your migraine has gone, I wonder if its the stresses giving them to you. I believe in signs too, and Klee's dream gives me shivers - Col is closer to you arms each day that passes, I guess that hard thing is that those days are like living cat and dog years :hug:
Klee - As I said, I believe in signs too and I think Phoebe directed you to go the way you went because she wanted you to see that shop. I think maybe it is a sign from her that she is with you :hugs: I hope you guys have a nice break together, I know it is hard but you do deserve some laughs and good times so dont hold back.
Jo - You are not a sook! You need to let it out and who better to let it out to than women who understand your emotions. I have to agree that it is extremely insensitive to be sending you photos of the baby, especially if they havent even asked if you are ok seeing them. I think that a tactful email saying you are in too much pain about Storm at the moment to be included in the celebration of life. I hope so much that AF stays away on Friday. As Lynn said, for some reasons AF plans visits on important dates and anniversaries - its like rubbing salt in the wounds. :hug: to you for Friday, it will be tough regardless of whether AF shows or not.
Spring - I hope you are ok today, I have been thinking of you :hugs:
Lynn - Another week down, before you know it m/s will have kicked in and you will be having that u/s.
Governor Tightpants ;) - I am just about to check out any answers you got to your VBAC2 post, I hope you got some answers that help you.
Well its "post-coit" day tomorrow and I am really going to try to talk FS into giving IUI a go regardless of the results of the test. Surely if I am willing to pay for it its not an issue? I just want to try everything possible, I really need to feel like something is being done.
Anyway, Ill be back later I am sure.
Mel :)
Actually I have a question for Deb (or anyone else who can help me)...
So this "post coital" test tomorrow which is obviously done on CD12 is to check if the CM is of a consistency for sperm to swim easily. I assume they do the test CD12 because you have the pre-ovulatory CM? I have checked my CM tonight and it is not anywhere near that egg-whitey stuff. It is just normal, does this mean there is a problem? The way it is at the moment I would probably assume (Dr Mel I am :lol:) that sperm couldnt swim through because its barely there.
Anyway, bascially what is CM supposed to be like on CD11/12? Should it be starting to get that kind of "slimy" texture?
So sorry girls - I know TMI :redface:
Nah I love cm questions!!!!!
Good question though Mel. If you generally ovulate around cd14 give or take a day then the post coital test should be done on cd12. I think I remember that you are a cd14 oer is that right?
Even though the mucous you see at your vagina looks thicker that doesn't mean that it isn't nice and slippery up at your cervix where it counts... This is why some women will say they never get ewcm but they get pregnant. It's not always lookin good at the vagina but it's lovely up there at the cervix...
That probably hasn't helped much... I am thinking of you tonight and tomorrow. This IS exciting my love it's the beginning of that baaby for you and your DH... :hug:
My headache has lifted and I am about to hop in a hot shower... It's been a long and difficult day today.... I suffer from migraines anyway but they do become more frequent in pregnancy so what I am experiencing is very usual for me in pregnancy unfortunately. Interestingly though my last two pregnancies I havn't had them...
Nighty night everyone... :hug:
Thanks Deb - it does help :D And you are right according to OPKs I am a CD14-15 oer. So yeah I should be in the pre-ovulatory phase atm.
In your knowledgable opinion what do you think my chances of convincing the FS to do IUI would be if the CM and sperm are working together just fine? He said that it wouldnt really be beneficial for us if they are, but I still think it would be worth a try seeing as they implant only the healthy sperm right where they need to be.
:crossfingers: the headaches are good sign, as much as you dont want them at least they are telling you you are UTD :) Enjoy your hot shower, I had one when I came home - nothing better!
It depends on the FS. My obs/FS was happy to use IUI on me after 6 months. IUI does give a higher chance of preganancy. REason is that you get all the good sperm put right into the uterus - no obstacle course to get there they are there and ready to meet egg.
If you want to give IUI a burl and you are willing to pay then it is your right to ask for it my love... Good luck I am thinking of you... :hug:
Hi ladies
Thanks for the sweet posts and texts today. Today was an ok day. I started the day by giving my boy a big kiss and hug and in some weird way it made me feel a little better. I know only 2 sleeps until DH is home and we are all under one roof again.
Mel: Good luck with the test tomorrow. You so deserve some great news. I agree, if you are paying for the IUI then there is no reason in my opinion for it not to occur. Tell him Spring said you had to have IUI and if not then he can answer to me. I hope so much that this is your month, I have everything crossed for you. :crossfingers:
Klee: Wow, what a wonderful story. I will share a similar experience that I had. DH and I were in the car driving to pick up Harry's ashes and we pulled up at the lights. There was a blue semi-trailer beside us and it had a name printed across the back of the cab, the name was 'Harry's last ride'. DH and I both saw it and were just silent. I knew from that day forth that Harry was with me and always will be. It seems like Phoebe wanted to give Mummy a similar message.
Jo: I am with the other girls. Your SIL has every right to be excited about her baby, but that doesn't mean that she can forget about you and your feelings, especially leading up to Storms due date. I agree that a tactful email sounds like a good idea. Is she DH's sister? If so, perhaps he could talk to her for you. Big hugs sweetie, and I'll tell AF to back off for you.
Lynn: How are you feeling, has it sunk in at all? I meant to say earlier, if you want me to come with you to your scans just let me know. I understand if you want DH or your Mumma there, but if they can't go, then let me know and I'll organise the time off work. I figure you may be going back to the SAN and I can appreciate what a step that will be so if you want me there, I'm there. I can ask all those funky questions I asked at my scan and make sure they do a good job ;) Lord knows I've had enough scans in my time.
Deb: I have been lucky enough never to experience a migraine, but I have a friend who gets them so I am sending heaps of sympathy your way. I really hope that you feel better soon. Only 2 sleeps until you get to see Col again.
Well big love to everyone else, surprise, surprise, I am off to bed.
Lv Spring
*Tissue Alert*
I just recevied this email from a friend. She has written this poem for me. I thought I would share.
From Mother to Son
Another month has passed,
And yet it seems like yesterday
That I held you in my arms
Wishing that you could have stayed
My love has never dimmed
And will never ever fade
You fill my heart, my soul, my mind
Every single passing day
I remember you with joy
I remember you with pain
I remember you in sunshine
In darkness, and in rain
My lovely angel child, my heart
My love, my little boy
My first born I will remember
And will forever adore
I need you with me always
Close to Mummy's heart, my love
Because I need to feel your strength
Shining down from up above
I will always remember
With pride, with tears, with love
My darling little angel
My son, forever young
Lv Spring
That is so beautiful Spring - the line that got to me the most was the last "My son, forever young" :crying:
Lol Mel, I think everyone is probably very confused by the Highpants thing. Thats OK, I geddit! I got a couple of replies about the VBA2C but I don't relly think it is for me. I have some major 'trust iss-ews' with my body after losing Asha. I just kind of feel like it didn't do what it was supposed to do and it robbed me of my baby IYKWIM. So not sure that I will trust it with another one:cry: I know that is a silly way to think, especially after tests revealed what happened to her was just 'bad luck' but I just don't have too much confidence at the moment. Maybe that will change later and I will look into it again. So tomorrow is the big day....how exciting.you guys better get jiggy-wid-it over the next few days, and I agree, harass the doc for the IUI, it certainly can't hurt can it? I think it would be good for you to know that you are doing everything possible. Good luck!:ttc: <----Lol, thats you guys, how cute!
Spring - Yay, No more lonely nights!! I bet the Frank and Vinnie will be happy to have dad home too.
Flowerchild - Your poor head. I hope you are feeling better soon.
Klee - Thats a sweet story, and as soon as I read it I thought of the one Spring just told you about Harry. It gave me chills, but the nice ones not the scary ones:hugs:
jlk - If you can't be a sook here, where can you? Not only that, I think we all have every right to be sooky every now and then. I hope you are feeling better soon.:hug:
Well, very sore boobie's today (not the most PC term, but that is what DS calls them,lol)
And very queasy...hooray! I have promised I am not going to complain about anything..well maybe the stretchmarks, haemeroids(sp?) and swollen feet.....nah, bring em on.
:cry: Spring, that is really beautiful. What a great friend.
MEL - WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE STILL?? GO AND PRO-CREATE!!!
(AND YES, I AM YELLING):p
Its only 9 o'clock Bailey - LMAO :cryinglaugh:
Well as made up as this is gonna sound, the FS actually told us to do it "as late as possible" in the night and they have given us the earliest appointment which is 7.30am, which means we have to leave home at 6.30am... I am soooooo not a morning person :doh:
Bring on the :ms: - hey you forgot the varicose veins (not that I got them but know others who have). And dont pick on "boobies", thats what I call them too :redface:
Lol Mel, you might have to have a little morning romp!
Oh god no - that would mean waking up even earlier :o
Do you have to stay laying down so as to not lose any of the 'goods'? Lol, sorry, I am just so excited for you:D
Yeah I do, its in the instructions - too bad if I need to wee huh? LOL ;) I dont know if I am supposed to put my butt up on a pillow though, it doesnt say. Its so uncomfy doing that :rolleyes:
But I just had a look and I have lost the piece of paper :o I hope there is nothing else I have to do (apart from the obvious :lol:) - mind you its hardly rocket science!
good luck for today Mel!
Well looks like there will be no bfp for me this month, i have started spotting :crying: So I guess by tomorrow AF will have started :cry:
Will come back later when I feel a bit better!