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Mel - :hug: :hug: :hug:
Spring - that poem is soooooo beautiful. It made me cry. You have such a special friend. One of your beautiful friends sent me the most special email. It was gorgeous. Thank you for the offer of coming to the scans with me. I learnt so much when I went with you so they better look out! I will make them look for everything!! At this stage I only have an appointment with my ob for next Tuesday which DH will come and then the week after (7weeks) we are seeing FS and he will do a scan and check that there is a heartbeat and everything is going well. I am absolutely scared s%&$less about going back to the SAN but I have to overcome the fear. I just don't know how I will sit in that waiting room again. DH won't be able to come to every scan with me because of work but he will come to most of them. The ones he doesn't come to my mum has put her hand up and I would really love for her to share in this experience seeing as though she didn't with Cooper........but I will keep you mind if I am stuck because I will definitely need someone!
Bailey - go the sore boobies!!!!! I'm like you. Once i get symptoms, I will not be complaining, I will be cheering! Others just don't understand do they? It is a hard onee - trying to have confidence in your own body, the body that failed us once before. I don't know if it is harder or not when we are told that it was just 'bad luck'. I know when I tell people that I lost Cooper to a cord accident they tell me how rare it is. I think it makes it worse knowing that something so rare still found me. Statistics mean absolutely nothing to be anyone. I think if it found me once, it can find me again. I think I am a bit scared at the moment because I believe that *Hope's* cord is developing now. I ORDERED THIS ONE WITHOUT A CORD!!!! I just hope that it isn't as long as Cooper's. :pray:
Jo - :SAAF: Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I hope it is implantation spotting. Is there a chance it might be? I hope you are ok. I'm thinking of you and sending you the biggest hug. I really really wanted you to get a bfp on Storm's due date. I hate AF soooo much!! Doesn't she know she isn't welcome here.
Deb - I hope your miagrane is better today. One more sleep and you will get to see *Col* again - yipee!!!!
Well to answer your questions Spring, no it hasn't sunk in. I just don't feel pg. I don't feel any different to how I was a week ago. I am waiting for the results of my bt so hopefully the levels have gone up and that I might start to feel something. I think after my scan I will feel pg because at least I can see something. The waiting game continues! Seriously how long does it take to test some blood!!!! J/J I know there are other people, but they make you wait all day which is just cruel!
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I have been flat out today but Mel you have been especially on my mind.
Mel I hope that that lovely test went well... I am eagerly waiting to hear an update... I have to take DS to footy training (it is soooooooo wet up here but he is insisting and his Daddy is the coach so we have to be "good"!) but I will be back at about 5.30pm... I wil lcome back then. :hug:
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Jo - I am so sorry you have started spotting, hopefully Lynn is right and it is implantation bleeding. :crossfingers: for you.
Lynn - Have you got the results yet? I am so sorry btw, with everything today I didnt remember you BT :redface: Thanks for your support today.
Well the post-coit test was today - results were good and not good. The good part is the test was normal. He said CM is good consistency and under microscope there were at a guess 200 healthy active swimmers in the tiny sample that he took. He did an ultrasound that showed 1 large follicle ready to burst so apparrently I will ovulate tonight or tomorrow. Which seems a bit early cause today is only CD12. He said the lining is 10mm so really good for implantation. Everything looks "perfect" which I guess its good. I spoke to him about doing the IUI and explained how important it is and how desperate I feel (got teary in the process :rolleyes:) to get pg this month. He said if I really want it he is happy to do it but it really isnt going to be any more effective than DTD. He said that my CM is perfect for sperm to swim through so they are getting where they need to be. He said the washing isnt going to help all that much because the main reason they wash them is to take out the prostaglandin (?sp and I may have name wrong) because it causes abdo pain in women, whereas when DTD it separates and from sperm in cervix. So yeah he said we can try but he really doesnt believe its gonna be of any extra benefit. In saying all of that, this month we have to just sit and wait until AF either comes or doesnt cause he cant do anything atm cause he will risk disrupting any pregnancy that may occur in the next day or so. If AF arrives (which lets face it, she is gonna) I am booked in for a laparoscopy on 28th June which is under a general and he will look around and make sure there are no blockages, adhesions or infections that are preventing me from getting pregnant. If he finds anything wrong (which he said he highly doubts) he will fix it while he is there. If nothing is wrong, the next step is IVF! I just dont understand how this can be, I mean I got pregnant with Nicholas after stuffing up my pill - I hadnt even been trying! He said that unexplained fertility is in itself a medical condition, just noone can put a name on it. He said there is and always will be things that medical science cant explain and unfortunately I am one of those cases. He does think that we would have a really high chance with IVF because of there being no reason for the infertility. He said because they are implanting a fertilised egg all we have to do is hope that my body will hold the pregnancy and there is a great chance that it will. I am feeling a little sad and sorry for myself today - I never thought I would be going down this road. Maybe this is punishment for saying after Nicholas was born that nothing can hurt me now - maybe mother nature is trying to prove me wrong :cry:
Anyway, I was worse this morning - as the day has gone by I feel ok. I am starting to wonder if maybe for some reason unknown as yet I need to experience this. Hopefully it will be clear one day, what I do know is that when I am lucky enough to have my bub in my arms I am going to feel like the luckiest woman on earth!
Bye for now, going to buy some bread to have with soup for dinner. Be back later.
Mel
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Hugs Mel - I can imagine today was a lot to take in. It is great that that mucous is looking gorgeous and that there is a lovely ripe follie waiting to burst! This is all wonderful.
My love, if you don't conceive this month - which is certainly not a given it wouldnt' surprise me AT ALL! ;) Then the ivf may be the what you need in your bag of tricks... Hve you got some opk's? JUst that he can't be certain when you will ovulate so keep an eye out. My follies were ripe for 7 days before they erupted on one cycle. My obs couldn't believe it! So do some testing and dtd and we are all praying, hoping and sending positive thoughts for this to be your month... :hug:
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Mel: I am so sorry that today was a tough day for you. I have been thinking of you all day. Talking about IVF must be so confusing, it just doesn't seem fair and I hope that it is no more than a conversation and that you don't have to go down that road.
Now, lets try to be positive (almost impossible I know) but it is great that the follie is ripe, the lining is thick and the CM is good. Please oh please let this be your month.
This is not punishment babe, and you have every right to feel sad and sorry for yourself. I just want to reach through here and give you a big cuddle.
Jo: I seriously hope that the spotting is just implantation bleeding as Lynn said and AF stays the heck away.
Lynn: Hanging out to hear about your fantastic BT results. Hopefully they didn't make you wait too long.
Lv Spring
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Mel - what a hectic day you have had and pls believe that you have NOT been punished (i know it feels like it). You still have positives going your way - by the sounds of it your CM and follies look nice and healthy - what a great start - that in itself is positive. Chin up girl - it will happen - you will get that BFP very soon my love. At least you are investigating and getting some answers and progressing - another bonus. You will have that baby growing inside of you in no time - i know it. Big hugs to you.
Jlk - i do hope AF stays away - fingers crossed it is a BFP instead.
Hello to everyone else - hope you are well.
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Hi guys,
Mel - It is great news that everything seems to be ok. :pray: that this is your month. You have the swimmers swimming, the CM ready to transport, a follie about to burst and a uterus keen to accept it all, so lets all send you lotsa positive vibes for the next few days and hope that it all comes together.
Lynn - How did your bloods go?
Tommysmum - How are you feeling, getting better? You may have spread the MS to me...woo hoo thanks!
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Well I went into the clinic at 7am this morning and they took mooooore blood. They said that they would call me by the afternoon. I went home and was really tired and felt really really sick. Not m/s, from being worried. I got it in my head that something was wrong. I have no symptoms so I thought there must be something wrong. Anyway I slept for a few hours and when I got up I didn't feel sick anymore but still felt that something was wrong. By 1pm I couldn't take it anymore so I started to stalk the clinic. There must have been something wrong with their phones because they were constantly engaged. I gave up at 2pm. Around 3pm they called and the nurse asked how I was feeling. I said I have felt sick all day with worry. She said well stop worrying, your levels are fantastic. I said OMG, what are they. My prog is 74 up from 33 last week and my hcg is.......................wait for it.........................7512!!!!!! OMG!!!! It was 364 a week ago. I had worked out that it needed to be about 3000. She said that my FS is really happy with the levels. I rang DH and said how many beans do we have????? Well only 12 sleeps to go until we know for sure! Go *Hope* go!!!!!
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Hey BAiley - just as i thought my MS was going it came back but only slightly. I think the majority is over though - just a touch here and there. My belly is puffed though - while i sit here i can practically balance the laptop on my belly - bloody terrible i tell you ! Well ok it is nice but for the moment it is probably just gas and loads of FAT !
How are you feeling honey ?
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:dance: Lynn - OMG fantastic news !!! - so you could have multiple beans in there really ? you are going to be one busy momma !!!! Good to hear your news - now you can stop worrying.:clap:
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Yay Lynn, that is great. Can that mean....dare I say it a Hope AND a Beau? Lol, no seriously, could that mean twins??
Tommysmum - OMG, you should see the size of me, my gut feels huge. Bloated, constipated and just gross. Didn't feel sick today, just sore boobs.
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I'm not sure what it means but the levels are at the high end. Just have to wait and see. LMAO Bailey at *Hope* and *Beau* - I already thought of that today!!!!! :lol:
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Phew Lynn, Those levels are sensational. I had to check before work because I wouldn't have been able to concentrate if I had to wonder all day if your levels were ok. Sounds like it might be double trouble to me :twin_neutral:
Deb: Only a few hours until you get to see Col again. :crossfingers: for you hun.
Jo: Hugs today honey.
Well I am about to head off in this God aweful weather to go to work :( Nevermind DH is finally home tonight so although it is freezing, windy and raining, my day is full of sunshine.
Big love
Spring
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:happyforyou: So happy for you LYnn that is wonderful wonderful news... :hug:
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Col is looking great with a strong heartbeat and measurements are great... Two more visits before my nt test and uterine artery doppler reading on the 25th...
Time for a new thread my lovelies... You will find it HERE
