Bailey - I am with Spring, you deserve some sympathy And about being half-a**ed, I never used to be but everything I do lately is... you should see my house
Spring - Glad you have had some relaxing time with DH. Is he starting back at work soon or has he got a little bit of time off? Hope his cousin behaves himself and keeps his nose out iykwim. I cannot believe you had the strength to do Harry's nursery on your own, you are very brave. Read below, I am not even nearly as brave as you! Good luck with your scan tomorrow, I am sure everything will be fine but make sure you pop in and let us know anyway. Say hi to lil Spring for me while your there
Well we chickened out We kept putting it off and eventually I just said to DH do you still want to do it and he said no not really so we decided to leave it today. I just dont have the motivation to do it and I have a headache and really just cant be stuffed. (Bailey - remember that half-a**ed thing LOL). So we have decided we will still do it but just not today. Knowing us one day we will just wake up and say ok today is the day and do it then. Maybe it is just not something we can plan. I dunno maybe I am just making excuses for my weakness.
Anyway, no doubt I will be back later. DH is hooked on PS2 atm so I am a PS2 widow - he says oh well thats makes up for him being a BB widower for the last 9 months LMAO. Point taken
Deb - Sorry forgot to reply to your post... I am booked into have a laparoscopy on 28th June which is I think 5 days or so after AF is due (obviously booked that far away so we can make 100% sure I am not pg). If he finds anything wrong he will fix it while he is in there, he said it is possible to have adhesions after childbirth which can affect fertility, he said he will also make sure there are no underlying infections (highly unlikely without any other symptoms apparently) or ovarian damage, or blockages of the tubes. He thinks that the laparoscopy will not show anything but that we have to make sure of this before starting IVF. So if it shows no abnormalities the cycle after that will be IVF. It is so frustrating cause I just cant get my head around that fact that I have this infertility problem now when I fell pregnant on the pill (admittedly I stuffed up one month but you know). Anyway, at this point I will do whatever I have to get that baby - except keep trying month after month cause I just cant do it anymore.
Spring: You have the same bloodtype as my sister (She has gone through many miscarriages and a mollar pregnancy. I wonder if my bloodline jus thas issues with these things). I have B- blood, so I also have to get those shots. I keep being paranoid that my next pregnancy will be difficult since I was given the shot the week before Beatrix died (my doctor nearly forgot to give it to me). Needless to say, I switched hospitals.
Avalanche - I just wanted to say that Im sorry for the loss of your little girl. I hope you can find the comfort and support with all the beautiful women in here.
Hi girls just a quick one from me, I glad to see all is going well with you wonderful women, Mel - Im thinking of you each day and can only hope that the UTD fairy spreads her magic dust all over you and you to can be in that wonderful place.xxx I know I have not been around but please know Im thinking about you all and I do pop in to see that all is well, just not the best time for me right know but I just want you all to know Im thinking about about you and praying for time to go by and get those babes inarms crying, pooing and comforting you asap. I will be back in soon but please all keep well.
Avalanche: I think that being Rhesus negative is not uncommon so I doubt that it would have to do with your sisters problems. The issue is if you have negative blood and your partner has positive blood. There is a simple blood test that you can get which checks your anti-bodies. If there are anti-bodies, then it may have an affect. Sorry, I know I am being a bit confusing, I hope that I have helped.
Nat: Great to hear from you again. We miss you so much and love it when you pop in.
Mel: I think you did the right thing, the nursery can wait, you have to be in the right state of mind to cope with it and if that means waiting a few days or a few weeks then so be it.
Lv Spring
Ps. Cousin is behaving, been actually quite nice which is refreashing.
I thought I'd let you all know that I'm trying to catch up on your conversations -- basically lurking.
Mel: DH and I took down most of our nursery stuff, but I think I'll have some of it up for a good long time. I guess to others it looks kinda like an alter, but it makes me feel better to have a little something tangible.
I'm going to try to garden a bit today instead of obsessing. Or more likely, in addition to obsessing. hugs, m
just a quick one ladies i haven't had a chance to catch up, auntie m and avalanche I'm so sorry to hear of your losses.
i just wanted to tell you of another eerie happening, this to go along with my one last week, i was going to meet with dp today he called me when i was walking over tower bridge, he was on the side i just came from. i turned around and went back and stopped and waited on one part of the bridge. i stood there for a good 10 minutes staring at the view, some graffiti caught my eye, i took a look and it was phoebe's birth date, 17.02.07 clear as day, right under my nose, there was no other grafiti to be seen just this, now ladies this is just getting too weird, don't you think? i took a photo again cause it had to be seen to be believed
Bailey - it is really hitting you hey - but it is all good ! Have you told anyone yet ?
Mel - it doesn't matter that you didn't pack up the nursery - when you are ready it will happen and like you say it will be spontaneous. I am glad that you could feel yourself ovulating - a good sign that "something" is happening down there. Don't worry about not DTD - it won't be long. You know that your nursery will be used nursery in the not too distant future (perhaps 10 or 11 months - does that sound ok?)
Klee - very weird about that graffiti - but i think it is nice - you have another momento of Phoebe. I wish i had a newspaper clipping of the date when Tommy was born of "what happened today" as a momento but just didn't think about it.
Hello to Dream, Avalanche, Aunty M and everyone else....hope you have recovered from having a nice long weekend (for those in Oz).
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Tommysmum - I haven't told anyone yet, might have to tell BIL as you know he lives with us so he will be wondering why I am laying around on the lounge all the time. I want to tell mum but I might just wait a little bit. Sorry to hear about DH's friend, I swear, your DH has had enough to deal with this past year and a bit hasn't he?
Klee - Wow, another sign. Your little one is a busy girl letting you know she is around huh? I think that I would find some comfort in those things happening. How do you feel about it?
Auntie M - Just jump on in on our converations, they can be hard to understand sometimes can't they? How are you doing?
Spring - So how much are you enjoying having hubby home? That is good about cousin behaving, though the night was still young when you posted that Lotsa luck with your scan today.
Lynn - please don't stress about not having the MS, with DH, i didn't get it til really late. It will probably hit you with a vengance very soon.
Mel - Don't worry about the nursery, I am like that, I will put things off forever then just wake up one day and get stuck into it. I am sure that like most things in life the dread of doing it in the lead up may be worse than the actual event IYKWIM. You might actually feel so relieved when it is done.
Hi to everybody else too.
I have been a slack poster, I have been feeling gross. yesterday was a bad day, layed in bed most of the day. Was ok for a few hours last night, then felt so sick again late last night (sorry about my sudden MSN departure Mel) though I am not actually throwing up just feeling like I want to. Lol, me and DH keep saying that it is a girl, cos that is how I was with Asha, but with DS, I wasn't as sick, but would actually vomit too. Weird. Well, i am off for a GP appointment today so she can write all of my referrals for the Womens Hospital. Only 4 more weeks til my appointment, they think that I am actually 8 weeks along because of my last AF, but I didn't tell them I O late when I called the hospital, I will play dumb and let them work it out at my first appointment, as they won't take you before 12 weeks, and I really just want to get in there and work out my plan and what they are going to do with me. And then after the docs, I am taking my little Ogre to see Shrek the Third. We actually already have it on DVD, but he just loves the movies - well he loves jumping on the chairs at the movies, anyway.
Bye for now!
Welcome Avalanche and AuntyM - it's so nice to have you in here...
Bailey: Sorry you haven't been well - I haven't told my "mum" yet either. She drives me nuts with the phone calls "are you okay" - "what does the doctor say..." etc etc. I love her to bits but it drives me absolutely batty when it's hard enough keeping my head together. They are away until the end of June so she will be home right smack in the middle of my "drama" time... I think I will put it off for a while longer to tell her...
Klee: I am sure Phoebe is watching over you and sending you lots of confirmation...
Mel: I am sorry I forgot about the laparoscopy - that's a wonderful start and will give you some idea of what's happening on the inside... You are not a chicken - you are brave and courageous - but not ready to take that nursery down yet and that's perfectly okay...
Hi Girls - Well I am home today, woke up this morning with the worst headache so DH said stay home (gotta love being a temp) and I woke up at 1.30pm LMAO, what a lazy bum! But my headache is gone so I must have needed the sleep. We have a Sids and Kids meeting tonight so I am glad it has gone so I can go.
Avalanche - Glad to see you pop in
Aunty M - Who cares if people think you have an alter, Yeti deserves one I think. We have a shrine-like thing to Nicholas on top of our piano, it has his urn surrounded by his birth certificate (still in cylinder), the stuffed toys he was given in the hospital by my mum and sister, a photo, a butterfly candle that the celebrant sent to us because it is the same as the ones lit around his coffin, and an amethyst crystal (which has healing qualities) that a friend gave me about a month after. I am sure people walk in and think we are freaks - who cares?
Nat - Nice to see you pop in again, I hope you are ok and things ease up a little on your soon
Klee - Wow that is amazing, I think Phoebe is there with you :hugs: Are you having a nice time? I have been thinking of you and wondering how you are getting on.
Deb - Yeah the laparoscopy will be good, not that I want surgery but its only a minor op and it will tell us one way or the other what is going on. I can understand why you havent told your mum, you have enough to deal with looking after your kidlets and the stresses and worry of pregnancy. There is no way I couldnt tell my mum or my sister when I eventually get a BFP they have already demanded to know straight away LOL.
Lynn - I know you are having a bit of a tough time, but I wanted to give you a little WOOHOO anyway because you are 6 weeks today and as far as I am concerned each week is one week closer to meeting Hope. Hope you had a nice night with your sis.
Bailey - Hope the MS doesnt disrupt the movie, I cant wait to see Shrek 3 I love kiddy movies (but then you already know how mature I am ). Hope your visit to the GP went well, how good would that be if you are further along than they thought - Faith will be with you in no time. Oh and I have heard that MS is more prominent with girls than boys, dont know if its true. But I had no MS when I was pg with Nicholas and heaps of people said you must be having a boy then.
Spring - Glad the cousin behaved, hope it continued through the night. Hopefully you pop in to let us know about your US before I go off to the meeting, dont want to wait until tomorrow LOL
Tommysmum - Well I dont really want to wait 10 or 11 months, can I pick yesterday instead? Time just seems to be dragging you know, but then on the other hand it feels like I was holding Nicholas in my arms last week. How is your little bean going by the way? Do you have a nickname? Are you finding out the sex? And most importantly telling us? LOL. I dont have a paper from the day Nicholas was born either but I will never forget what happened the day he passed. When we on our way to the hospital on the Monday (before we knew he had died) we heard on the radio that Steve Irwin had died.
Jo - Hope you are well.
Michelle - Hope you are Oscar are home safely, cant wait to hear how everything went
Hi to everyone else - off to start cooking dinner so we can eat before S&K.
Mel - big to you babe. I know how hard it must have been just deciding to take down the nursery. You will know when you are ready. I hope your headache has gone. At least you got a day off work! I love having a sleep during the day. You are not a freak for the shrine you have for Nicholas, or I am one as well. I have 2 shrines. We have one in our bedroom with his birth certificate framed on the wall and then below that on our dresser is his urn, his toys and his memory box and a few framed photos. In our foyer we have a hutch and it has white oriental lillies, a candle I made with his name and DOB, cherub candle holders, butterflies, stars, anything that I buy in memory of him. I hope the S&K meeting goes ok tonight. You will be without your buddy, Klee. Well yeah I am having a bit or a rough time at the moment, but I can't complain can I? You are right, I just need to take a week at a time and before I know it I will be meeting *Hope*. I have heard that m/s is worse with a girl. I had it for about 4 weeks with Coop but it wasn't really bad. Anyway I will buzz you soon for a chat
Bailey - enjoy the m/s! And also I hope it eases up on you as well. I hope your dr appointment went well today.
Klee - it's a sign babe! Your little girl is with you everywhere you go I hope you are enjoying your holiday. Take care and we will *see* you soon
Aunty M & Avalanche - welcome. You will find loads of support here. These girls are the best!
Nat - big big big to you babe.
Spring - it must be awsome to have DH home. I hope you both enjoyed seeing lil Spring today.
Jo - hope you are well
Deb - I will be thinking of you tomorrow I'm sure everything will be fine and lil Col will be bouncing around! :hugs:
Hi to everyone else, hope you are all well.
Well I had my ob appointment today and all went well. He is such a wonderful, understand, caring man. He had tears as we spoke about Cooper. He said that he is positive that I will have a baby in my arms very soon and crying! I feel a bit better after seeing him because we have a plan, but I still want to feel pg!!!!!
Mel: Sorry you had such a bad headache but by the sounds of it you just needed to sleep it off. I hope the S&K meeting is ok, big babe.
Lynn: I am so glad that your Ob sounds wonderful, that is exactly what you need. Now I am just going to send some :ms: vibes your way. Crazy I know but I am sure you want them (lol)
Klee: That is a sign from your little girl hun. I had so many of them after I had Harry. One day I will share them all with you. I know from the signs that he has given me that my little man is with me always.
AuntieM: Welcome babe, we are hear to listen when you are ready to talk and when you have caught up with all our babble.
Deb: thinking of you tonight and tomorrow, I know how tough Scan eve can be so just know that you and Col are in my thoughts.
Well I had my scan today. Bub was perfect but mumma was a different story. It just makes me realise what I am missing. It wasn't so long ago that DH and I were gushing over Harry and his cute little button nose. I didn't keep it together very well but luckily the lady doing the scan was very experienced but also very compassionate and we ended up leaving with about 20 pictures. Some of the 3D ones are just amazing.
My BT was just traumatic. Lynn you will get a giggle out of this. For those of you who don't know I have some needle issues. I have been known to say I would prefer a pap smear before a blood test and I really mean that. Anyway, they tried both arms and after about 10 mins of digging around got a good vein. Both arms feel like cement are throbbing and I don't even want to think about the bruises I am going to have. Oh well, I get my GD results on Thursday so hopefully all is well and I don't have to go back.
Mel: I just wanted to say a separate thank you to you. Your precious gift arrived today. I will treasure it and I have decided it is coming to the hossy with me.
Spring, I know what you mean about needles. My SIL is a pediatrician, and she made a "tent" over my IV insertion at the hospital when Yeti was born so I wouldn't stare at it and freak out. It had a cute little dog sticker on it, just like she does for her young patients.
Klee, how awesome to get a message from your darling Phoebe. I keep asking Yeti to touch me too, but I think I'm still too overwrought to notice (and possibly always a bit dense in that department).
Lynn, I'm sending a hug out across the ocean for you and your Hope. Each day is a day closer to holding her on the outside.
Mel & Lynn, so glad to hear that alters are not out of the ordinary here. My friends & family come to visit and stay as far as possible from that end of the room. I think they are afraid that if they mention Yeti, I will suddenly remember and cry. If I were nicer, I'd tell them that I am thinking of him already. But I let them suffer.
Bailey, how was shrek the third? My niece wants me to see it with her, so if it is good, I will pop some corn and have her over.
I've gotta say, I had a much better couple of days after joining BB and reading all of your words. It feels good to have people who understand, really understand, reach out. I feel it creeping up again on me, but the rest was so good. DH and I even had a nice supper out too without me crying half-way through. hugs, m
Mel - I have a sort of shrine too for storm, with her memory box and all that stuff, I have had a thing for butterflies since i put one at her grave, so they are everywhere around her memory box (& the house too! LOL!)
Lynn - glad you have got a good OB & the appointment went well
Spring - It's alright, I have a thing with needles too!
AuntieM - I'm glad being here at BB is helping you some!
Aunty M - big to you. I am so glad that you have found comfort in our little group. I know it helped me through the tough days and I also find that I am alot closer to these girls than friends I have had for years. I guess because everyone here 'gets' me and understands, whereas friends can only imagine and I don't even think you could imagine pain like this. I am sure Yeti will send you messages soon. It is lovely when we get messages from our angels.
Spring - you were right! I did get a giggle out of your needle story. You are so funny! I used to be like you (ok maybe not as bad ) but I guess when you have the amount of needles I have had now, you get used to it. I hope you never have to go through that!!! I am glad that scan went well. I can understand how hard it is seeing lil Spring on the screen and it bringing up emotions of Harry.
We kept putting it off and eventually I just said to DH do you still want to do it and he said no not really so we decided to leave it today. I just dont have the motivation to do it and I have a headache and really just cant be stuffed. (Bailey - remember that half-a**ed thing LOL). So we have decided we will still do it but just not today. Knowing us one day we will just wake up and say ok today is the day and do it then. Maybe it is just not something we can plan. I dunno maybe I am just making excuses for my weakness.
Time just seems to be dragging you know, but then on the other hand it feels like I was holding Nicholas in my arms last week. How is your little bean going by the way? Do you have a nickname? Are you finding out the sex? And most importantly telling us? LOL. I dont have a paper from the day Nicholas was born either but I will never forget what happened the day he passed. When we on our way to the hospital on the Monday (before we knew he had died) we heard on the radio that Steve Irwin had died.
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