As of the weekend my boys are purely FF. I agonised and agonised over the decision but in the end my body made the decision for me. I feel at peace with it though. One less thing for me to worry/get stressed about.

I found it hard to leave the hospital without my boys. I was doing ok until I went to get into the car for the first time and the capsules were empty and then we got home and their bedroom was empty. Everyone deals with the situation differently though. We did it for 5 days before we were able to bring them home so I guess we were pretty lucky on the length of time. There was another lady in SCN with us who also had twins. She lived about half hour away also so she stayed in a hotel during their stay in SCN. She had a three year old daughter and sometimes she brought her into scn and other times she was able to get her looked after. In the SCN we were in there was a little room that had some toys a tv and a video player so that came in handy for her. All the best with this part of your journey. I hope you work something out that works for you.