Fiona, I'm not going to be able to completely reply to your question because I have a unique and very flexible work situation. I'm a permanent TAFE teacher and I can return to work pretty much exactly when and how I want to, I just choose the classes I want to teach and make-up a program from there. But, I just want to say that I find my job very challenging, extremely challenging at times. I worry and stress about it a lot. But for me this is (mostly) a positive thing because I have to constantly push myself to try and do new things and communicate with other people. And then when I achieve something, it feels so good. If my job was like your job, I'd feel the same as you, really lost and totally demotivated. So, my point is, yeah, I can imagine how hard it is for you at work right now, even though it would seem like a dream job for others. You need a job that you find fulfilling, it's important, I know.